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professional idiot. amateur author and artist. he/him. Ao3: egg_0verl0rd

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I hate when I'm trying to tell my parents that they traumatized me as a kid, but I can't remember any of my childhood to give an example so they just think I'm lying and being dramatic.

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just went down a rabbit hole about shibari and it's actually such a beautiful art form. I don't want to negate the kink part of it, but I was looking at some photos specifically designed to be art pieces rather than JUST for sex and it's genuinely so beautiful. I love the contrast between the fluid, dramatic poses and how tightly the model is bound. to me it looks like a metaphor for the pain of beauty and I love it

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I need more tattoos...

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I hate wanting to speak my truth but not being able to because my head tells me I'm faking it or exaggerating it for attention

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the pain of wanting to draw because you've neglected your project for months but also hating the drawing so you don't want to finish it

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I'm such a hopeless romantic. I wish I had a man to slow dance with and rest my head on his shoulder. I want to kiss his neck and whisper sweet nothings while we dance in the dark, barefoot and three glasses of wine into the evening

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saw a tt post a while ago that I just remembered while writing smut. it was like, "are you actually a switch, or are you so much of a bottom you'll top to please your partner?" or something along those lines, and honestly, I felt that

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the urge to buy an antique candelabra so I can walk around my house at night like a lost victorian boy

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update on this, I did find a candelabra at an antique store :D

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I saw this post on tt this morning that was like "forced to be a teen in the 2030s, born to be a teen in the 2020s" and I like forgot people were still born after the early 2000s. it's so strange for me to think about

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I forgot how fucking good quesadillas are

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thinking about how kevin from home alone actually had a very reasonable crash out. like, I too would be pretty peeved if everyone ate the only kind of pizza I like, and then I was mocked over it, and then sent to bed without having anything to eat. I feel like that whole movie could've been avoided if kevin was given a pb+j or something

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when you're writing yaoi and the playlist is hitting and you genuinely reach a flow state

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the urge to buy an antique candelabra so I can walk around my house at night like a lost victorian boy

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do I have work tomorrow? yes

will I be staying up until the bleary morning hours writing fanfic about a sad little englishman? also yes

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genuinely why is procrastinating the only thing I can do well? I've been meaning to write for the past 3 hours and instead I've been scrolling Instagram reels

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do not let me anywhere NEAR deviled eggs. I will absolutely fuck up a plate of deviled eggs

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that feeling when you finally finish a jar of pickles so you can drink the juice >>>>