[f135hm3ch4]

Fuck everything but, I’m glad you didn’t hold my hand through it, you’re not supposed to! But I still wish I could kill myself to prove a point. I wish I was in more photos. I wish I sought more. But you held the space for me in the crucial moments when I needed it. You didn’t hold my hand through it all. You can’t, I know you can’t. And I’m glad you didn’t. But I still hurt, even though I never asked for anything, even if I try to expect nothing. So why am I aching when I thought I would accept whatever happens? I guess my expectations grew. I thought we were growing on eachother

[f135hm3ch4]

I don’t fight

I just wanna fucking die

Wanna lose my life

[f135hm3ch4]

I wanna hurt my body cause to you that’s all I’ll ever be. Where is my worth once I am diminished?

[f135hm3ch4]

Shame

shame

shame

death

bleed

anger

violent daydreaming

injured

sadness

weakness

helplessness

lonlieness

hunger

desire

shame

destruction

destruction

destruction

destruction

sacrifice

catharsis

absolute

hope

desperation

silence

anguish

numb

hellish

sadness

calm

positive

pain

[f135hm3ch4]

Sometimes I think about the things you’ve said to me and I can’t fucking stand you

[f135hm3ch4]

No one has hands to hold me

[f135hm3ch4]

I’ve been inadvertently shamed into not horny posting but I think I’m just a hoe who needs to do that

[f135hm3ch4]

Flesh falling off

glowing bright bones

flash beneath beads of blood

washing down my mechanical form

quakes as I absorb the body mass

no one can fathom just how powerful this body is

deep in a chasm I was born

with a fire in my heart

deep down I’m scared to start

[f135hm3ch4]

Progesterone and doomscrolling is exacerbating how badly I want to fuck my crush like I might die tomorrow girl and you’re so everything!!!

[eileensdress]

Oh my god I was just looking to see how much a copy of Hamlet would be through Barnes and Noble and PEOPLE ARE ROLEPLAYING WARRIOR CATS IN THE REVIEWS??????

[toadcroaky]

@vriska

[shamesonlydaughter]

ok i was VERY involved in the. b&n reviews warrior cats roleplay scene when i was like 10-12. the first two books of the series were general hubs where ppl would post ads for their clans and other groups. there was a huge percy jackson community i remember participating in too. it worked through search results, eg. riverclan might be under the search result “rivers”. book 1 was rules and a “map”, book 2 might be the main area, book 3 the medicine cats tent, etc. there was also usually a book where ppl would post lengthy descriptions of their character(s). it was a rlly bizarre little corner of the internet jdksj also it was impossible to find any real reviews of any of the warrior cats books bc of it

[f135hm3ch4]

I used to be apart of this back in the early 2010s. To me it was a great unsung community of a bunch of weird, isolated kids who just happened to stumble across each other while bored one day. A secret little world on my e-reader, I hid it from my family in fear they would take it away. Sometimes I feel crazy sharing how much it impacted me to others who don’t know. It was such a wild place where I played many roles and knew many other people. I loved it and at one point it was all I wanted to do. Soon life unfolded. I got more freedom and grew apart from that community. But it had a profound effect on me that I look back on from time to time. I am proud of my strange roots :3

[xxziggystardust]

[knifecrimes]

[manorofsatan]

🔪

[danyzpractice]

Take it in your heart Take it in your heart, heart, heart, heart 🎵🎵🎶

[f135hm3ch4]

[legzcrew]

Greetings from LEGZ Crew! 

Kyiv 2017.

[rubae]

Fantomz.