endings.
The all too famous quote “all good things must come to an end” rings true as I write this post. I’ve invested 2 years of my life into this blog, and nearly 4 years of my life into the roleplay community, but as time has passed I feel less and less motivated to log on and no longer feel the love I used to for the art.
I do not regret my time I’ve spent on this site, nor do I wish to ever leave completely.I wouldn’t change a second of it, for I’ve met the most amazing people through the rp community and have truly changed for the better because of some of the people I have formed acquaintances, friendships and even one special relationship I have formed. This is not a goodbye, simply a “see you later.”
It’s been an amazing 2 years, from the early days of quinntanahelps to the establishment of lucyqrps, right through to fabrays, I have felt huge amounts of love by each and every one of you and can’t thank you enough for that, for I truly treasure each and every one of you, whether we’re in a mutual, or the following is one sided, I am so glad you all got to experience me grow up on this blog.
From a young 16, naive and questionable writing abilities named “Alyssa”, you have all saw me grow from a privileged, stuck up teenager with an excess load of gifs and time, to a young woman, who isn’t afraid to use her real identity, with hopes and dreams for the future, some of which I would’ve never dreamed of without the help of some of you. I no longer have plans to runaway, live by myself and just make money like I once intended to, I hope for a career, children (ok, maybe just dogs) and a home with someone I love. You’ve all saw me change, while the change isn’t exactly huge, I can feel it in myself. It’s only been 2 years, but this site has helped me in ways I can’t even describe.
It’s not that I want to stop blogging, that I want to stop roleplaying, more so the fact I feel I no longer can. I no longer have a muse for writing, for creating nor do I have the time to. I have always been scientifically/mathematically minded, I just hid it to fit in with the rp community and pretend I wanted to be the next best selling author. That’s not me. I’m not a writer, nor have I ever intended to be. Finance, mathematics, computers, business is where my heart lies and always has.
As I enter my last year of high school, my time has became much more valuable to me, seeing as there’s less of it. I’m being pulled in 100 different directions, but I love it. I love being asked to do things I’m good at, I love organizing and keeping everything under control. With the little time I have, I no longer want to be sitting down hunched over my laptop, tapping away at another biography for a character of mine. I want to be a young adult, the extrovert I am. I want to go out, I want to spend time with my friends and spent all night dancing and partying, in the end not being able to tell you the day of the week. While foolish, I know, this is my time to live before my friends and I disembark onto different journeys in life, and before I bid farewell to the life that I once lived and move away for good, to live my own life and become independent.
I must have said thank you a hundred times in this post, but I shall say it once more. Thank you. Thank you all for helping me, teaching me right from wrong and helping me better myself.These last 2 years have been some of the best of my life, and wish I could stay here forever. It has gotten to the point, though, that I can’t help but not want this for myself, I simply want different things but I know in my heart that one day I will come back and experience the same love for creating story lines and characters will be stronger than ever.
All my love,
Dearbhla.















