loser

here is where i said the unsaid things

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ill be fine

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sokay i can do this. just give him everything he wants

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meow i drank coffee and now im going crazy

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be fine anyway

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just fake it till u ok

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regretting shits that i did just because im mad

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it was weird that it has been good for a few days

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am i really that worthless..

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okay, it was my fault. it will always be my fault. i deserve to be hurt. i deserve the pain. i deserve the blood.

i dont deserve to be happy

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fuck life

why would people treat me like shit knowing that i am easily triggered. why would a person hurt me this bad like i did them worse.

do i look easy to be hurt. does my fucking face said that i deserved to be hurt. why would a person treat me like shit when i have been treating them nicely.

dont i deserve anything good in this world.

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terpaling ada authority cam sial kau sapa

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tumblr aint the same no more

[papayajuan2019]

do you ever want to say some bullshit

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I hate myself in just about any way conceivable.

I hate my mind. I definitely hate my body. I don't like anything about myself at all.

I'm disgusting. Stupid. Worthless. Annoying. A burden to everyone, including myself.

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i feel gaslighted

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it has been so long since anyone raised their voice to me, even my parents didnt do that

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got mad today bcs i didnt get the attention i wanted. im spoiled af haha