My nosey coworker trying to get me to apply for disability services that have already rejected me because I'm under the age of 60- "why don't you just try to apply again you obviously can't walk good how come they can't give you money and food. " Like yes girl I too wish I could get money and food ^_^ imagine a world where everything you do hurts and everyone leaves you behind to do all the fun things while you writhe and apply for services to help just for them to deny you because your disability isn't researched enough or "bad" enough to get support ^-^ then have children ask you 6+ times a day when are you getting better? NEVER I GUESS !!! I HAVE PAIN ALL THE TIME CONDITION THAT CAN'T BE CURED!!! My meds might as well be sugar pills the way they do NOTHING :))))))) GAAHHHHHHH I just want to be able to make dinner or I don't know SIT ON THE COUCH WITHOUT HAVING TO GO TO BED BECAUSE IT HURTS TOO MUCH TO SIT !!ON A COUCH!!! Sorry guys I'm really mad and upset today. Plus bugs in my house recently. NOT COOL AT ALL!!!! All this to say wish that the services for disabled people actually reached disabled people that needed it. Tired of feeling old but not old enough to get any help whatsoever. My family keeps telling me how concerned they are but then don't offer to even spend time with me like I'm contagious. Feeling like old yeller today 😤😤😤😤😤😤
I'm lucky that I'm able to work in general but ugh it's just exhausting. I also found out that my brother gets to leave the country with my mom for the 2nd time meanwhile I'm battling the us government for my passport. I found out that they finally changed the ruling that was preventing me from getting a passport which I'm happy about but they are planning on taking away the right again soon so I'm stressing a bit. Just feeling frustrated that things aren't different for me. If it was I would go to the redwoods and maybe get to visit other countries like the rest of my family. Knowing them they would probably make up a reason why I couldn't go but my brother could but I guess I won't know till it happens. Wish my mom would stop selling my things behind my back though that would be cool. Anyway wish I could reverse adopt a family that would want me to be around. I feel like a wet paper towel stuck to the ceiling of a public restroom most days though so it's hard to say I would contribute a lot to one.
