Ellie

16 lesbian

[faguatiousdyke]

Wait changed my user cuz previously it was my irl account user on like every platform and I do not want people finding my lesbian yearning account

So ellie is no longer bored ☹️

[faguatiousdyke]

"Stop beating the dead horse"

I will be beating every horse till I die

Wait

[faguatiousdyke]

This is my last time to speak

I open my mouth and feel an overwhelming nothing escape my throat

With no voice to scream out I resort to my hands

I reach out until I feel you pull away

My arms are forced to stop

My hands close and retreat to my side

With no voice and no touch I resort to your eyes

I glance over and see you looking back

I violently turn away

I find my feet moving before I can think

Fuck it isn't you pulling away it's me

Too terrified to speak to your hopeful eyes

Too scared to grab your arms like you so easily hold mine

Can't even look you in the eye

So no it isnt your fault it's completely mine

It's my little words that cant escape

The stupid things I cant erase

I hope you don't feel me pulling away

I hope you know you're all I see

The one I hold so close to my heart

I wouldn't forgive myself if you saw it otherwise

For you to leave and not stay in touch

For you not knowing I'd kill to hear another word from you

To see your smile and the way your eyes look into mine

To hear you laugh and watch as your face turns red

Oh to look into your eyes for eternity

But all I do is look away

Everything to say

But here I am with nothing at all

A year will pass as the leaves will fall

Not another word between you and I

[thoughtcascades]

i trust people who are nice to animals and tired cashiers

[faguatiousdyke]

Maybe life is all one big panic attack

[faguatiousdyke]

When I have plans with friends but the feeling of anxiety and my impending doom crawls up my throat and I feel like I should cancel but I know that if I cancel I'm gonna be sad and lonely and if I go its gonna be amazing cuz I love my friends and I dont know why im freaking out

[echoesofsaturn]

"slut era" i say as i rot and decay in my bedroom and watch the years pass me by as i miss out on core experiences other people my age are having while i think about the past

[scarabies-real]

Realizing the depression is not seasonal is like: Wow! What a beautiful flower! The birds are singing! I sure do love spring! I think I am fundamentally unlovable as a person.

[hazelingmist]

I never really stopped being that lonely 10 year old girl

She’s still there inside me and she forever will be

[faguatiousdyke]

Oh to go back and give her a hug and tell her that it does get better

Then maybe I wouldn't have this pit in my heart and the feeling that my impending doom is near

[faguatiousdyke]

How I feel seeing my regular costumers when im out with friends so I lowkey run away cuz im off the clock and I am not making small talk on my day off

[kosmogrl]

I never got over anything. I miss everyone and everything. nostalgia and grief kill me every day. oh and I also love going on walks.

[cutemysteriousgirl12]

[faguatiousdyke]

Me literally (ignore voyager omg)

[faguatiousdyke]

Do yall ever go for a walk and theres a car at a stop sign of the street you were about to cross so you turn a different way or around completely and walk that way anf wait for the car to drive by then turn around and cross the street when their gone do you dont have to make them wait and hobble your way across while they just sit there

Or is it just me

[faguatiousdyke]

Tumblr seeing me opening the app once in a blue moon (literally every year strictly during the entire month of june)

And seeing me shitpost to the max with absolutely no one seeing my posts

Tumblr seeing the amount of shitposts ive made

And yes this is another shitpost

[faguatiousdyke]

My music taste randomly drastically changing at midnight and then going back to normal when I awaken and I have no recollection.

I mean its extremely gay either way but completely different genres

(Not that different it just has a beat to it at night while its depressing during the day)

[kwatzaya]

ladies, take it easy.. one at a time.. 😽 I'll shake my nonchalant dreadhead for y'all.. haha.. 😽😽

[faguatiousdyke]

Wait whyd I literally just meet the male version of me, like long haired, gay man, loud

While im short haired, lesbian woman, loud

I think it was meant to be