so many times in my life i wanted to end it all & be done with existing in a seemingly never ending cycle of abuse and pain, but Kurt's words carried me through that pain & helped me turn it into something beautiful. he inspired me to pick up a guitar for the first time & i spent hours in my room all alone practicing until my fingers bled. i wanted to give up so many times but i successfully taught myself guitar. i turned to art and writing to express myself. Kurt somehow knew how to put all the thoughts and emotions i was feeling into words. til this day i've never known anyone else who could describe EXACTLY how i was feeling like he did. i've never been drawn to an artist like i am with kurt. there's so many weird coincidences & things i have in common with him. like bipolar disorder, being a heroin addict, having scoliosis, stomach pains & so much more. he just gets it. and it hurts so bad i'll never get to speak with him directly or thank him for all he's given me. i write to him in my journal because i can't talk to him in person. & i swear on everything there's been times where i feel like he's sending me signs through experiences or strange happenings. i could be totally insane or just a stupid daydreamer but regardless it gives me so much comfort to feel the familiarity that i associate with kurt. i'll never understand why such incredible ppl are always taken too soon. its almost like the ultimate punishment having such a deep connection with someone or having your life saved by a person who you can never speak to at least once in your life. i mourn kurt all the time. i've shed so many tears because it makes me so angry to know what he endured & how pure his soul was despite being surrounded by some of the most venomous, vile human beings to ever disgrace this earth. 1 of my favorite things about him was the fact that everyone thought he was a slacker but he worked harder than anybody. he deserved so much better than what this world gave him. i will celebrate him til the day i die. because if it weren't for him i would've died at 11yrs old. Happy Birthday KDC👼🏼🕯️🌸🪽✨
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