My never ending journey? TW!

she/her - taking antidepressants height: 5’4 (163cm) hw: 125lbs (56.5kg) cw: 106lbs (48kg) gw1: 105lbs (47.6kg) gw2: 99lbs (45kg)

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When they all say you have gotten taller but the truth is that you have not grown at all and just have gotten skinnier

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It has gotten so hard

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guilt… it’s the worst

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My weight is dropping but it’s because of my anxiety

Sorry for not posting but I try to recover myself mentally because it has gotten quite bad

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I want to die

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My antidepressants side effects are so bad. Literally I can’t be anywhere, I feel so awful. I’d want to cry every second and it even more triggers my anxiety. Had to take xanax for it.

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I haven’t got any time to post or actually I haven’t got energy for nothing. This month has been though. Hope it’s getting better

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Going to take antidepressants

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Going to therapy tomorrow

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I hate myself so much. Most time the reason is my body but sometimes it is not and today is the day I hate myself because something else. But when the hate raises my wish to self harm also raises. My anxiety like kicks in my hand are shaking i can’t focus etc and the only thing I can get away this feeling is with self harm.

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I love these “compliments” like you have gotten so small

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Intermittent fasting really fucked up me. Feeling that I have to eat fast or the clock falls. Fasting and then binging.

I stopped it and it helped so much. I don’t have binges that often and can control myself more.

Of course I don’t eat at midnight or something like that and also this diet didn’t help at all. It slowed my metabolism even more.

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Love that empty stomach

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I wish I would have this honeymoon dieting again. Losing weight so fast and being on track

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I did so well until I made an apple pie. I really don’t know even why I did it

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I hope I can reach my one goal weight in this week. Manifesting it

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Seeing someone close to you suffer from eating disorder signs is the saddest thing ever. My heart is broken.