FALLENONADREAM

Me finding myself after being lost for so long

[fallenonadream]

I miss you

I miss the words you haven't said

I miss the words you can't say now

I miss you being there

I miss the thought of you being here

- C.J.

[fallenonadream]

There are parallel universes out there where I never fucked up. Where I never left, where I was kind from the start, where I treated you like you deserved, and where you still love me.

I wish that this was one of them. Instead this is the one where I'm alone and your with him. He is where I am supposed to be. Im not a victim in this because it was all my doing, but sometimes I feel like it.

I'm a victim of my own undoing.

- C.J.

[thoughtkick]

“I think too deeply about everything. I still don’t know if that allows me to see more of the world, or less of it.”

— Mobeen Hakeem

[fallenonadream]

[fallenonadream]

Fuck these fake ass friends who say they gonna stick around and never do. I’m so done with any type of relationship.

DUDE JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE

GET OUT OF MY HEAD

FUCK

THESE

FEELINGS

I JUST WANT A FUCKING HUG

Is that to much to ask???

- C.J.

[photografya-deactivated20230917]

[fallenonadream]

HUMMINGBIRD

This is just a song, but it so much more. If I knew how to speak or could say anything to you this is what I would say:

Your diction and dietribe, posture, body language and connotations all pointed in the same direction

The selection of contingent messages postponed until further notice

Because I was ashamed to admit the problem and pretend your happiness came from me, and that your happiness was important

But we aborted the sorted truths we once distorted when I saw the shape of your dress when you wore it

And that was enough until it wasn't

And that's when you finally felt supported

So the others courted you and you mentally recorded and endorsed

The force perform of compliments you received came in

And you felt empowered enough to take your final bow

And find love within the arms of another instead of this heart of mine

And that's fine because I would do the same and I would leave me

Not because I'm useless and not because I'm broken

Not because I'm sad and not because I'm worthless

But because I saw value in your smile and not in your values

And I'm sorry, and I love you

And that's why I can finally sleep at night

Because you are free and you can thrive

And I'm just happy I got to be a part of your life

I'm just happy I got to be a part of the journey that you call your life

And I finally feel fine 'cause I spent so long trying to change you

Not realizing I was the one who needed to change

I was selfish to assume you loved me more than you loved yourself

Even though I never felt the same

And there's so many things that my selfishness tried to take away

But you were the one that was the hardest to watch walk away

But thank you for letting me be a part of everything you were building and creating

And finding truth in life and you were relating so much beauty

And I love you, and I'm sorry

Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey

Thank you for letting me be me

And thank you for setting me free

And showing me love

Showing me love in its full capacity

-Nothing was the same, by Hotel Books

[fallenonadream]

Cause when I hear your name I can not stop cheesing

I love you so much that my heart stops beating when you're leaving

And I'm grieving and my heart starts bleeding

Life without you has no god damn meaning

Sorry I'm passive aggressive for no god damn reason

It's that my mood change like these god damn seasons

I'll fall for you, but I love you

- Tyler the Creator

[fallenonadream]

I find myself in a drowning disposition

Choked off from the rest of the world

If love was supposed to be the answer

Then why am I here alone

Surrounded by nothing

For nothing

The silence is deafening

And yet it speaks volumes

- C.J.

[mymoonepiphany]

"Not all men"

Yeah, but if I gave you a bag of cookies and told you that one of them was made with actual shit, you'd be wary of the entire bag, wouldn't you?

[xthexgirlxfromxhellx]

𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛

[fallenonadream]

Call me in the middle of the night and tell me you can’t sleep alone.

Tell me you want me.

Tell me something

Tell me anything

Please

- C.J.

[wrecklouis]

[fallenonadream]

If only it was...

[glassbonespaperskin]

[lauren-perchard]

[fallenonadream]

Who the fuck are you

to still make me weep

Who the fuck are you

to take my heart

Who the fuck are you

"Hey love"

Who the fuck are you!!!

- C.J.

[amortizing]

“I can write the saddest poem of all tonight. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.”

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