hello! my name is flies (or teeth, or neo! i accept any of those). i’m a 14 year old trans, queer, asian poc who’s the host of a very very large DID system that is made up of mostly fictives.
my neurodivergency (all of these are supposed because i am unable to be diagnosed with anything at all but: DID, C-PTSD, ADHD, autism, anxiety & depression. yes, i have done many years of research into each of these.) makes it incredibly hard for me to do and remember to do things that are considered simple such as chores and school and homework and the like.
normally that would be fine, it’s typically very easy for people to make adjustments to that kind of stuff.
but instead of helping me, my parents are traumatizing me again and again and making my mental state so much worse and THEN going as far as to blame it on me for, and i quote, “being an asshole/brat/burden.”
my mother is specifically the main abuser in this situation but that does not mean that my father doesn’t have blood caked under his fingernails as well.
if i don’t meet my mother’s standards i get yelled at very, very harshly. she often dumps her trauma and abusive childhood onto me and compares it to how i am acting. she likes to say i have it so much better/easier than i do.
several times before she has thrown things at me - a couple times it was glass. she has threatened to beat or kill me. she has threatened to abandon me. she adores saying that my bad grades caused by her inability to completely support me like she loves to say she does and my neurodivergency that she does the bare minimum to help me with is the first step to me becomes, and i quote, “a psychotic murderer.”
my father, as said before, does not get out of this scot-free. he has threatened to abandon me multiple times alongside having threatened to kill his dog. which, even if that dog is literally dying, is still too far and quite frankly scary.
he calls me an idiot for being traumatized and says that i am being dramatic. he also has a habit of telling me that i am a girl and that male & female are the only genders which. isn’t bad normally but i was literally abused because of how i identified not too long ago.
this post is literally so hard to make because i can’t really contribute to much, but i really really really need help.
because of my age and complications where my parents have quite literally locked my bank account from me and making me unable to access any of it, i can’t get things like a cash app or paypal and it makes me unable to do commissions.
i also can’t do commissions because i only have access to a drawing device on the weekends and that’s only if i am, by my mother’s standards, good. they broke my portable one which makes me have to rely on the notion that i might be able to get that tablet on the weekends.
my partner looz (@/neurocams) is working on getting themself out of their abusive home situation by taking kandi commisions here. alongside that they’re also working to help me out of my situation in the next 10 to 12 months (so about a year). please consider donating or taking commissions from them because that’d be helping both them and me a whole bunch.
in the meantime i’d need a place i could stay. i need a place where i am able to live without being threatened or belittled for my mental struggles and problems that are caused by those people.
i live in the USA, in the state georgia. this is. a very, very desperate cry for help because i really, really need it.
i’d hopefully, if there are no complications on looz’s end, only be staying for around a year. the best possible situation is if you live somewhere near or in georgia because that would definitely make it easier for them, too.
i feel terrible for having to make this post but i literally cannot live here anymore because i fear for me and the others in my system.
i can’t do much in terms of money/contribution because of most of my complications but i can cook/bake and i can help with minor things around the place such as organizing tasks/laundry/taking care of pets (as long as i am taught how) etc etc.
please please please consider helping me or reblogging and spreading this for me because i am legitimately possibly in danger and i don’t know how long i’ll be teetering on the edge of “might be in danger” and “actually in danger”.