treading water

fang. he/she/it.

[fang-is-exhausted]

Get to know me

Call me Fang. Not my real name duh. I’m 16, from the United States and use he/it/she pronouns. Bigender and bisexual

This is a vent blog. I swear I’m not like this IRL

I’m okay with anyone of any age talking to me but I’m more comfortable if they’re 14-20.

DNI if you are easily triggered by topics of abuse (emotional/physical/sexual), self harm, eating disorders, or suicide. This blog is not safe for you.

MDD, social anxiety, ptsd, chronic illness + more but that’s noneya business

Member of cutter nation since age 10ish

I am 18 months free of suicide attempts.

[cinnamondoll23]

The concept of having an amazing fun day and then relapsing the second you're alone

[fang-is-exhausted]

I wanna go deeper but I can’t afford the first aid

[kasaneteto]

DO NOT CHECK UP ON THAT FRIEND YOU CUT OUT OF YOUR LIFE!!!! DO NOT CHECK UP ON YOUR EX!!!! DO NOT CHECK UP ON THAT OLD COWORKER YOU HATED!!!! IT WON’T HELP YOU!!!! CHOOSE YOURSELF!!!!

[avbpd-muffin]

Asking for attention from friends feels like I'm a Tamagotchi beeping to be fed.

[bpddeath]

the concept of your favorite person enabling all your toxic behaviors and encouraging it and accepting you as you are. the thought that they secretly enjoy how emotionally dependent you are on them, how much power they have over you, and see it as validation rather than something unhealthy. ah, to feel accepted and wanted without being judged or called "too much."

[unfiltereddddmess]

[jonjjja]

my biggest desire: to be seen

my biggest fear: to be seen

[fang-is-exhausted]

I already journaled so I don’t feel the need to get it out on my blog but now I can’t sleep

[fang-is-exhausted]

I promised I’d stay clean until the end of June but it’s really hard

[fang-is-exhausted]

Haven’t cut yet but it’s getting tempting

I’m not myself on my meds but I’m not stable when I’m off of them.

I don’t think I’m capable of healthy romantic relationships. I want to ask her if she’s getting tired of me but I know asking would make it worse either way

[fang-is-exhausted]

I already journaled so I don’t feel the need to get it out on my blog but now I can’t sleep

[fang-is-exhausted]

I promised I’d stay clean until the end of June but it’s really hard

[fang-is-exhausted]

I already journaled so I don’t feel the need to get it out on my blog but now I can’t sleep

[fang-is-exhausted]

I feel bad today

[fang-is-exhausted]

Same thing today

[csny]

the bus is never going to come because im a bad person

[mrspider-deactivated20221213]

might be an outlier here but when i smell my neighbors smoking weed i just smile and nod its like adjacent to hearing christmas carolers for me… good tidings and joy unto you brother

[promiseiwillwrite]

Same. I am not allowed to have it, but I enjoy free smells, and I hope they get Higher than God.

[fang-is-exhausted]

I will always wonder who I could have been if I wasn’t mentally ill

It seems like everything in my life ties back to it I cannot even conceive of what it would be like if I was healthy

[maladapt3d]

What doesn't kill you leaves you bleeding for the rest of your life wishing it did

[fang-is-exhausted]

I feel bad today