We Are the Media

writing bad poetry with a crazy kind of urgency

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Days turn into weeks Since you’ve said the word love Since you said the words, break up In the moment, I felt my Whole world stop spinning Watching you walk down those stairs Still haunts me as we speak today But I know, I just need to wait We both need time to be ourselves You’ve said you want me back in time That you’re just not ready at 25 I just hope you don’t forget The one who loved you When you were just a half baked pie

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Just because I needed a hug yesterday Doesn’t mean I need one today Just because I didn’t get a hug yesterday Doesn’t mean I owe myself one today So the lingering need only hangs off me Like heavy, wet clumps of weeds that Tug on tricked fishermen’s poles As I am tricked, too, into thinking that I need anybody but my own self and My own dreams to lift me up I might miss your warmth, your softness But I certainly don’t need it

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We all want to be strong We all want to say we are Enough for ourselves Sometimes people come along That break down defenses Get inside the deepest caverns You’ve always held dear They prove their trust Once you lay it all out there They tear you apart from the inside Crumbling every pillar of Strength you ever had Once everything is rebuilt Someone comes along again

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Laughter is the best medicine I know this because when I’ve dug myself a hole using The energy from my own Self destructive tendencies And darkness feels so Uncomfortably close to me I’m ready to close my eyes And be done with this day But then someone I love Cracks a dumb ass joke And I’m lifted by the very dirt That threatened me a moment before Energy is transferred from My shaking fingers to My open heart and lungs Laughter, and love, sets me free

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You gave me everything I ever wished for I knew it was a dream But I never expected To be awakened so rudely With you I felt safe and secure As if together we would Conquer the world I gave myself to you And for the first time You actually gave to me too For a few long months You made me feel like a queen I did everything to make you a king But you couldn’t accept Unfamiliar affection It was scary to have someone care So you left me alone on the curb

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I’ve read your letter ‘bout a hundred times The one you hid for me to find You added the words “so much” To the phrase you hesitated to say While everybody says it everyday There’s something different ‘bout this time With you I feel the Earth stand still With you there’s no one else With you I feel my dreams come true With you, your goals are mine I’m finally able to let go of the past Leave all those other guys behind I don’t wallow in how I’ve been wrong Never again I’m looking back

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I handed you my soul Reluctantly But you made me feel so Comfortable and happy Impressing me every day Until I finally gave in Inviting you to stay You knew exactly why I was so cautious So your sudden departure In which you recreated Every one of those reasons Has me wondering why

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A blissful smile paints my face As you flow through my thoughts Weaving into any and everything Fingers poised over keyboard Just to have your attention For one extra moment Just to remind myself that You’re actually real I never thought faces said much But the way you look at me Tells me everything The way you touch me As we slowly, softly kiss Is like nothing I’ve had before The way we talk about us What we can do together In the present and future Fills my thoughts as another Blissful smile paints my face

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Me tocabas y me caí En tus brazos suspiro Sólo con satisfacción Con tu calor me siento Nada más que seguro Y felicidad En tus ojos veo Un futuro de amor solo En tu sonrisa veo Todos mis deseos Y todo lo que puedo decir es Bienvenido a mi mundo

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Why do I feel so heavy Like my bones are Nothing but stone And my heart, just a Thawed and sopping Piece of meat Just because this dream And total perfection Isn’t a pure fantasy I knew it had to be Something coming A rock on the tracks For the train But you’re the same man Who said all those nice things Not the same man Who did all those other things Before I knew you, I need to say That you are different from them all I need to say this to myself I can’t feel the way I did before

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I could write an album all about you The facets of us and the chances I blew Each moment with you becomes a novel So easily written, until it’s a model If you keep talking to me the way you do Behind screens and in empty rooms There may not be another man on Earth That can compare to my vision of your worth Yea in your face all I see Is this moment etched in my memory With grooves so deep It will never fade always be with me But my view has shadows We all have flaws I am not a fantasy You are not a god It’s the unknown that haunts me Potential of what we could be Just one day, one night alone Just so I can live it and know What it’s like to be your girl I’m just existing in limbo Between men, living single Done with different bedrooms Happy waking up in my own Even if it’s big and I’m alone Drowning in daydreams Of what we could do here What we could do alone

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My first poem in Spanish. Please enlighten me to any necessary corrections! Amor prohibido no es divertido Cuando te quiero aquí cada vez Hay demasiado aire en mi cara Vacuidad me rodea y silencio Es tan ruidoso podría gritar Cómo podría ser tan ciego No ver tu cariño inmediatamente Y ahora me siento triste cuando Yo veo tú sin yo a la izquierda Pero lo haré siempre te amaré Incluso si es sólo como amigos

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People ask me how I stay so cheery, so I decided to break it down.

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Living in your own head Is sometimes quicksand Memories pull you in Focus on every word You have ever said Even the tiniest blunders Are blown up to ponder Any little thing wrong You have ever done Mulling over mistakes Wrong turns made That shaped your fate Wondering what could Be different now If you had just listened Earlier to doubts

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You might think I cry myself to sleep Because there’s no one here To keep me company But you’re so wrong You know I stay upbeat On my own I’m in need of nobody Singularity Is interesting territory Taken girls think I’m tryna steal their man While all the guys think I’m open for business But the possibilities Before me are endless My time is all my own To do whatever I wish No need for someone Who will only mess With my head

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Traveling at seventy miles per hour Mind set on your current destination Thinking of nothing but the road ahead Abandon the thoughts that beg you To turn off at every exit you pass When you think you’re going the right way When you think this path is what you need Until you find a cloverleaf, slight right To leave the hurt behind And change everything Looking back on the Series of events that lead me Here and there, to him and her The hurt I left made me stronger Allowed me to be the confident, Happy person I am today