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Right I'm gonna go back to my old deterrent since I keep getting weird messages from men. I will not have conversations with you unless you pay me and send proof of payment, no one will be getting a conversation out of me unless I have had proper conversations with you previously. I do not wish to speak to anyone on here so if you want to speak to me that bad you can sure as hell pay for it.

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I passed out on my partner’s floor last night, I remember going downstairs and I could barely see and my head and eyes felt like they were on fire, I was trying to make my way back up but I woke up on the floor and I could barely speak. Ended up crying so much it was terrifying

It’s not often I pass out or have some sort of seizure looking thing. I think the last time was 1 or 2 years ago but every time it happens it scares the shit out of me

She died Sunday morning.

I haven’t been doing good at all. Sunday I tided the house ready for my parents to come home and I had to watch my mum tell the kids one by one that she had died.

Today I fell asleep on the sofa for hours despite having a normal amount of sleep, I’ve been exhausted and when I properly woke up I realised I hadn’t eaten. I thought I’d be more hungry considering I was eating normally at the hospital so I figure I’d weigh myself but turns out I’ve lost 2kg.

I couldn’t grieve the day my nan died I got dragged into an argument I didn’t wanna be in. I really hoped today I’d be able to but instead I cried about the situation I’m in atm even though I asked for one full 24 hours to grieve. I don’t think I’m ever gonna get a day to myself to do that

It’s hit me tonight and the cry I let out I’ve not felt or heard before but I guess that’s just grief of losing someone you love so much.

Again I’m venting my pain please don’t message me I know you all mean well but I just can’t handle anymore people messaging me

Hey guys I won’t be on here for a while, obviously last time I was on here I was going through hell. Well unfortunately I’ve had worse shit happen since, my nan is dying and tomorrow will be my 3rd day straight at the hospital waiting for her passing. I’m really going through it at the moment. If anyone messages which I’d appreciate if you didn’t although I know you guys mean well, I won’t be responding to them as obviously bigger priorities

Feeling better?

Not really, the past week has just been incredibly traumatic

Have I gone through 72 hours of sheer hell and have spent the majority of it shaking? Yes

At least this has shown me how resilient I actually am

Is it over yet? Unfortunately not

#no one actually ask pls im just venting