낙담한

An ordinary looking chef with a secret. Will you be one of the few to find out what it is? The best friend.

[katieso]

[labyrinth-min]

A couple of days before his birthday. He would not have realized it was already so close to the date if a few from the dancing crew had not asked him if he was doing something to celebrate the arrival of his birthday that week. Maybe going for a couple of beers, others mentioned karaoke and a few more talked about Octagon, one of the best clubs out there that could not be missed. It had been nice hearing them talk all excitedly about it and that “you’re probably counting each day that’a left”, or maybe not, because “hey, it’s twenty-eight, you are getting old Changmin-ah.”

But as far as that nice feeling could get, there was no more than a strained smile and a shrug of his shoulders, telling them he had not thought about it and that there were still a few more days to give it a better thought, which was a complete lie because he did not give a damn about said date any longer. 

The topic had emerged, though, and the only thing that was still hovering about his head was all the turns his life had taken and the things that had changed even before the year started. A few of his closest acquaintances had gone away and when the time came, not all returned. He was glad that at least the vampire had, Yunho was such a pilar since he could remember, always there prying in the shadows to check upon him. And through the mess that he was, battling the dominance over a body that sometimes did not feel like his, the vampire had remained.

Before he could even delve further, his train of thought was disrupted by the sound of the door. Only then, in the middle of the exhaustion he was carrying through the past couple of weeks, he realized of a strange presence in his area. It was strange, because he could not figure it out yet it did not feel like a menace which was usually the first sensation taking over him whenever some supernatural creature came into sight.

Careful, half of his mind guided by curiosity, he peered through the peep hole and he froze in his place. There would have not been distinction under someone else’s eyes but he just knew, who was the one standing there. When he finally reacted, he unlocked the door before swinging it open; words were suddenly too hard to get past his throat and even if he could have, he was not sure of what he was supposed to say. It had been long, probably the largest amount of time without hearing from the other man.

[farfallaxjaejoong]

Maybe he's not home. 

Was the first thing Jaejoong thought when he got no response. He stood in the hallway awkwardly, shuffling from one foot to the other. He should have thought of that before surprising his friend. Changmin was always busy with schedules after all, sometimes staying until late in the night working from what Jaejoong remembered. So it was something he should have taken into consideration before stopping by at Changmin's apartment, and Jaejoong mentally reprimanded himself for forgetting about it. 

It was his first stop since he returned back to Seoul, though, having been excited to see his best friend after being away for so long. Not that he had planned to stay away for such a long amount of time. Actually, he had only been planning to be gone for a month or so, but then the strange series of events occurred, and he found himself far too occupied to return home. 

Jaejoong cringed. Should he tell Changmin about what happened to him? It wasn't something that he had thought about, and now that he was pondering on it some more he figured it would have probably been a good idea to sort out his thoughts before stopping by. But it was too late now - if Changmin was home that was. What would his best friend say when Jaejoong told him? Would he believe him? Changmin was supernatural himself, so maybe it wouldn't be too shocking to him to find out. But yet, Jaejoong was scared, and nervous, to tell him about the events that took place. Maybe he'll bring it up some other time... Maybe. 

He was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't hear the door open, only noticing that Changmin was standing in front of him when he lifted his head up and his eyes fell upon the dark brown ones of his best friend. He as left speechless, eyes going wide as he stared at the other, unsure of what to say because he really hadn't expected them to be home. 

So they both just stood there. Staring at each other. No words exchanged for a long moment before Jaejoong decided to take initiative and took a step forward, reaching out with shaky fingers to grip onto his best friend's shoulder, speaking softly.

 "Surprise?" 

[massintimeofwar]

[5tvxq]

[bookpillows]

You can hide memories, but you can’t erase the history that produced them.

Haruki Murakami, Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage (via bookpillows)

[revolverak]

[jaelephy-deactivated20151113]

[farfallaxjaejoong]

{SEMI-HIATUS NOTICE}

I'm going to take some time off to revamp Jaejoong, and just think about a few things to help this muse and character grow. I love him so much and I don't want to give up on him so quickly, so I'm going to hopefully figure out something new for him, so that I could bring him back with a bang! Last night proved to me that I couldn't just let go forever, so hopefully in a month or so I'll be back and ready to roll! 

Until then,

See you all later!

[farfallaxjaejoong]

inarinokanata replied to your post:inarinokanata replied to your post:inarinokanata...

[ oh, it’s okay, you shouldn’t really thank me for that, *hugs you* ]

[ of course I should. Kanata is one of the few people who Jae really trusted -hugs back- ]

[farfallaxjaejoong]

inarinokanata replied to your post:inarinokanata replied to your post:inarinokanata...

[ I can understand that.. ;; I’m sorry. I wish I could help somehow ]

[ Thank you and Kanata for being there for him a lot of the times :c I wish I was around more so they could interact often sighs. ]

[farfallaxjaejoong]

inarinokanata replied to your post:inarinokanata replied to your post:[ Most likely...

[ *hugs you more* ..I know already I’m going to miss your Jaejoong.. I wish you won’t deactivate him.. ]

[ Aw thank you, bb... I'm going to miss him too :c sighs. I just... don't feel like there's use for him anymore. And coming on him makes me really sad... I don't want to deactivate him... ]

[farfallaxjaejoong]

inarinokanata replied to your post:[ Most likely going to deactivate, or go on an...

[ …. ;; ]

[ hugs you tightly ;; ]

[farfallaxjaejoong]

[ Most likely going to deactivate, or go on an indefinite hiatus... This account went completely downhill, and my muse is gone... I'm not even sure it's going to come back any time soon. Ha. Oh well. ]

[farfallaxjaejoong]

I wish I could have seen you one more time. He muttered to himself as he taped the note to his best friend's door. His eyes scanned over it one final time and then turned around to leave the apartment building before Changmin came back. His eyes were lowered, watching his feet the entire time as he made his way over to the car, quickly getting in it and wasting no time before driving away. It was hard, harder than the last time he had left, but he knew that if he stayed things would only get worse, and he couldn't let that happen.

He wouldn't stay away forever, he knew that much, he'd miss Changmin too much... Miss everything in Seoul, and he'd need to come back. But for now, this was best. 

[memoriesrecollected]

You did not love me, You just loved the fact that I was here for you. You loved the attention I gave you, You loved the fact that I would drop anything for you. You did not love me, but god, I loved you.

memoriesrecollected (via jennayliu)

[staypozitive]

[farfallaxjaejoong]

Is he... Gone?