Just trying to survive.

Oahu, Hi.

[fucksocietyandthoughts]

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[inkyconstellations]

I told myself I was over it, over you. Then I saw you again and it was like the last sixth months never happened. You gave me that smile and just like that, I fell in love all over again.

Am I ever going to be over you? //Part I// (via inkyconstellations)

[izakdavidphotography]

Title: To Sleep.

The darkness and depression eat away at the brain making us feel alone as if we are nothing as if we are insane the anxiety kicks in as we lay tucked away in our beds as hundreds of thoughts rush through our heads the insomnia keeps us up even though we want to sleep and the medication is no help to put us to sleep -IzakDavid

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[fatherhi-blog]

Hurt me

Just a thought..

[fatherhi-blog]

Today I roamed the streets. Pub after pub. It is all familiar to me but I wasn't really significant. Day of going to the bars I work at, its just different. Spent most of the night drinking alone, walking alone, almost talking to myself. I need to balance everything out to flow better into the correct direction. She will never know how I feel about her, and that's the tough part of my life. She wouldnt let how I feel about her phase her. She's strong minded and determined.

[fatherhi-blog]

Hi, I would like to disappear please.

Mind

[kushandwizdom]

I disappear sometimes. It's nothing personal. I just like to take some time to reconnect with myself.

- Unknown

[fatherhi-blog]

Finally I take a break from the life at the bar. Now I can focus on myself. Its been a rollercoaster working there with all the temptations of drugs, sex, and crime. I admit I've fallen short of reliable and responsible. I'm starting to get my mind back.

[iglovequotes]

[suiciderelieved-deactivated2017]

[suiciderelieved-deactivated2017]

[suiciderelieved-deactivated2017]

[suiciderelieved-deactivated2017]

[i-wish-i-could-help-people-more]

Maybe if I were to get hit by a car you would see how much you’re hurting me

[cut-and-puff]

I think I’m getting bad… again

[written-scars]

[fatherhi-blog]

I'm not worth saving. I don't know and am not sure who I am. Every drizzle of rain feels like electric sparks slowly eating away at my soul. My mind is so clouded and I'm not sure how to think anymore.

I'm not worth saving. Where and how do I do this. I can't and I won't. But its a want. And at times like this, I WANT to die. This life is for someone more well-deserving than I am.

I am tired of bottling everything up and never letting it out. This life shouldnt be lived by me. Please take this life away from me.

I am not worth saving. Don't waste an ounce of support on me. I'm going to sleep hoping I never wake up again.. But tomorrow will come and the day after that and so forth. I guess ill suffer living than at peace deceased.