my nana passed on friday. this has been one of the hardest deaths that has hit me like a ton of bricks. i don't really know how to live in a world without her. like, yeah, we all knew it was coming, but there's this terrifying bit of knowledge knowing that now i have no vehicle, i have no place to live, i have nothing without her being around. and i'm scared. i'm genuinely so scared. and i don't know what to do feeling so alone and having people around me saying that they'll do what they can for me but knowing that it won't be enough. that there's still going to be a place where i slip through the cracks and in the end, my nana is still gone.