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[fckermantheo]

ofmckeys​:

He can’t help but frown when the man pulls away, even though he knows he has no right, but his face only falls further at the question. Because if he’d been honest to begin with, it wouldn’t be a question. In fact, they wouldn’t be here. “If that were the case none of this would be a problem.” Dry tongue comes out to slide along his own, sore, even drier bottom lip before he sighs softly. “I love you so much that I told kelsey before I could even tell you…because she asked and even knowing I could lose her I couldn’t….lie. I didn’t want too, I never did or at least….never meant to but I did… What I’m saying is I love you theo, but I love her too and that’s not gonna change either. Maybe I don’t deserve either of you for not knowing how. I don’t want to hurt either of you, even though I know I already have.” Wriggling his nose, he sniffs at the tears cascading down it as he pauses for a moment before looking theo in the eye. Keys hands come up, gently taking theo’s face in his hands before resting his forehead against the mans again. “But I love you, theodore. I have loved you for a long fucking time and it was awful of me not to let you know because you’re someone so worthy of being loved.” Swallowing hard, he pulls back just enough to hold the other man’s gaze, thumb grazing through the hair at theo’s temples. “But now it’s even more complicated than before and if….if you wanted to go too, I’d get it. I fucked up. Bad.” Keys nods softly at himself as if to reaffirm the recognition and punishment in his head for letting things get this bad. 

Usually. Theo would be quick to make a light hearted comment. It was his attempts at deflecting from the gravity of the situation, but this wasn’t like all the other times. Key’s had just admitted to loving him, he loved him. It had been something he had imagined, over and over again, until now, He loved him, He actually loved him, and in that very moment, Theo was lost for words, until the mention of Kelsey. “You told her before you could even tell me?” He scoffed, because she asked? what kind of fucking excuse was that? He had known her how long? a couple months? vs the years they had spent growing into whatever this was between them, what made is so much easier for him to be honest with her? And then he said ti again, I love you. “So worthy, It took you how long before you told her you loved her? how long had you know her before I was pushed aside. When you’re with her, I don’t exist, I — fuck, Why now?” As Key’s hands come up, hands on either side of of his face, Theo’s own hands almost came up, hands wrapped gently around his rest, as the other leaned forward, forehead pressed against his own. Seeing Key’s right now, the tear stained cheeks, “If i wanted to go to?”He questioned, until It dawned on him, Kelsey had left him, Key’s and his girlfriend had broken up for whatever reasons, and no where he was, confession in hand, “She broke up with you? that’s — that’s why we’re here right now? because she dumped you, and you’re afraid of being alone.” Theo laughed softly, though there wasn’t really any humour in his words, It was more sad than anything else

[fckermantheo]

ofmckeys​:

👾

Already he’s telling himself he deserves every bit of guilt he feels over being even the tiniest bit relieved in the man’s arms. Things between them had become complicated, but it didn’t change the way his heart leapt with small slivers of hope for the future if they ever managed to get it together. It was something the musician had always planned on but always found excuses as to why it was never the right time. Now he’s here when it feels like he’s ruined things between both of the people he loves. All he can do is shrug and sniffle, maybe give a half hearted nod. “I should have told you a long time ago but I didn’t because I’m a selfish asshole and now I love you both and I dont know what to do and it doesn’t matter anyway because I don’t deserve either of you and I don’t even know what you’d want me for anymore anyway.” His long winded ramble comes out just as jumbled as his thoughts, although still sounding exhausted as any human being could possibly be. 

As Theo held onto Keys, All he could think about was the growing distance between them. It was complicated. It had always been complicated, long before Kelsey entered the picture, long before Theo blindly watched Key’s fall in love with someone else. He didn’t know, when or how it happened, but along the way, the lines between between client, and cliental blurred, or when he knew for sure that he had feelings for him,  he had never expected Keys to feel the same way,  And of course, It had always been easier for him to ignore the problem, then for him to face it head on. And that’s what he did. He ignored it. but it was all so hard to ignore when Key’s was in front of him tear stained cheeks admitting that not only did he love someone else, but that he also loved him. Key’s didn’t say anything wrong, In fact It was quite the opposite, that was until Key’s mentioned It not mattering anymore. 

“It doesn’t matter?” Theo questioned pulling back fro Keys. what didn’t matter anymore? him?  was this the end? or was Key’s finally choosing between the two of them. “You don’t love me anymore is that what you’re trying to tell me?”

[fckermantheo]

ofmckeys​:

👾

It feels pathetic, leaning so much into such a simple touch from the other man. It was the first he’d felt anything remotely close to human since that night. Before he knows it, he’s leaned so far forward his forehead presses against Theo’s before his arms come up to wrap around the other man’s broad shoulders. Keys fingers ball in the fabric of theo’s shirt as he pulls himself closer. It’s hearing his name again in that voice that really sets him off. Theo was the only person bold enough to call him by his actual name. When the older man first started using his name that way, keys hated it. He’d bristle at the sound of it and challenge the taller man with a glare only to be met with theo’s equally brilliant, defiant yet playful gaze. And then over time the way his name coming from the man changed. Grew softer, far more endearing. Keys often wondered if theo even realized how much was said in just his tone when he did it. Aiden. Concern. Worry. Love. Because for as stupid as he felt for getting himself into this situation, he still wasn’t stupid enough not to know they loved each other. It was what he had tried to tell theo the night of his album release, was dead set on doing, in fact. Until theo told him he “liked” him and keys, like a coward retreated into the back of his mind again where doubt and fear lived. That he couldn’t be the first to say it in case there was the chance that he was dead wrong. It was selfish through and through and even more selfish to keep theo at such arms length out of purely not knowing what to do in the situation. He loved the man. It was much different than what he had with kelsey because kelsey was a completely different person. A completely different experience. She was no holds barred when it came to her feelings and that made it so easy for keys to fall into, because she made it easy. The fear of rejection and losing theo completely, on the other hand, was far too heavy a consequence to face, but now keys felt like he had nothing left to lose by being honest, if that’s what it came to. If he could gather himself and stop crying into the older mans hair as he pulls him closer, ignoring how sore he is just from doing that to instead hold him even tighter. “I’m sorry…I’m so fucking sorry.” His voice is soft, barely above a whisper and shuddered through thick emotion. “I didn’t mean for any of this and now it’s probably too late…I loved you wrong and now it’s probably too late….” He swallows thickly. 

It was ridiculous how easily a simple touch from the other man settled him. As soon as Key's leaned forward, his forehead pressed against his own, and his arms moved to wrap around his shoulder his instant reaction was to pull him closer. He wasn’t to speak, but each time he opened his mouth, nothing but silence fell from his lips, It wasn’t until Key’s hands balled at the fabric of his shirt, that he concluded that maybe It was okay that he didn’t say anything, that he didn’t try to fill the silence with a half hearted quip in attempts to ease the situation. 

He had been struggling since the first mention of Kelsey, Kelsey kelsey kelsey, A name that had now been ingrained in his mind,  How could he not be?he’d never been in this situation, with anyone. The feelings he’d developed over the years, they had been so new, and at first he hated them, he didn’t understand what was happening, or why it was happening to him. Key’s was just like everyone else had been with, or so he told himself, over and over again, until he stopped believing the lies he told himself, and it was easier to ignore how he felt. He hated how vulnerable he felt with them, and honestly? part of him was scared of telling Key’s, how would he react? he had played the scenarios out in his mind more times then he could count, And now he was fighting his imaginary demons, because Key’s had someone else, and Theo was stuck in an endless loop of comparing himself to someone he didn’t even know, did Key’s love her more? of course he did, was she better then him? but he couldn’t think not now, not when Key’s was in his arms crying. 

“You loved me wrong?@ 

[ofmckeys]

@fckermantheo​

He had finally come to a point where the agony he felt every waking second making itself known in every way imaginable had lessened to a somehow more tolerable, yet unbearable ache. It still throbbed down to his bones when he moved wrong or too fast, which was whenever it decided, really. He had, at least earned enough trust in getting around on his own to keep rylan from hovering as constantly as she had been. The guilt about now having put her through that was yet another thing to worry about as he lay there, cold pack pressed against the side of his face where he’d fallen. That, was unfortunately just like the rest of him, at a point where it would get worse before it got better. He had made the now obnoxiously long journey downstairs to wait for the delivery he planned on ordering in some pathetic attempt at momentary normalcy only to end up so tired and sore from doing that, he ended up grabbing the ice pack from the kitchen and curling up on the couch. It was clear he wouldn’t be moving for a while, although, it was exactly what he wanted. To lay there and concentrate on how much physical pain he was in and thank it over and over from thinking instead of what he’d lost. Which in his mind, was everything. Right now, his mind wasn’t exactly what it usually was either. For all intents and purposes, whatever small tether of cable that was keeping everything together up there snapped that night and he had no idea how or if he’d ever get it back. So he kept himself out of his head with a simple formula. Pain meant relief. Anytime he found himself thinking too much all he had to do was move. Pain. Relief. Move. Pain. Relief. 

It’s what he was doing when he hears the door beeping. Someone putting in the code and the chime coming as someone turns the nob. He doesn’t move. He doesn’t have the energy. The only logical assumpition is that it’s rylan, “I ordered something to eat…I swear…” The sound of his own voice is still almost unrecognizable, even to his own self. Dry and hoarse, the half hearted effort he puts into speaking makes it come out broken. A bit cracked. He doesn’t care. It hurts. Relief. 

Until he actually slowly turns his head to look over at the entrance to living room, still expecting rylan and only to feel like he’s been full on punched in the chest when theo rounds the corner instead. He probably looks stupid, on top of pathetic. Eye still have swollen shut on the side of his face that looked exactly the way he felt. A complete disaster. As the air leaves him his lips part slowly, mouth falling open as if in slow motion as he stares at the man in disbelief make his way further into the room. If his brain were cooperating, he’d do anything but sit there the way he was. Even when theo’s standing right in front of him. Keys doesn’t say anything. He can’t, can hardly believe he’s not having some fucked up come down hallucination right now as he stares up at the man who now, in his state, makes him feel like the smallest person in the world. It’s like someone had walked into a pitch black room carrying a lighthouse and the first thing keys does is think to himself how he doesn’t deserve to be excited to see him. Theo, of all people, should hate him. He wishes he did sometimes so badly. Because keys hadn’t been good to him either. In denial, downright awful the past few months. Thinking. He was thinking again. No. No. Theo…There was theo….And all keys can do is let his head drop, too tired anymore to stare up at the beautiful lighthouse of a man and think about how much he owed him. How even though in the face of losing the person who could tell him and show him they loved him so unabashedly, he still couldn’t let go of the person he loved like a secret he needed to tell but never did out of fear. Because he and theo were so alike. Hiding from each other still. Even after all this time. Except now, keys is broken. Doesn’t have the energy for that anymore. And he does what he’s been doing since that night. He cries. It’s quiet though. Head bowed as he sniffles to himself, now staring down at theo’s feet in front of him as he stays seated on the couch, clinging to the blanket against his chest. 

[fckermantheo]

It was difficult, almost impossible, to watch Keys love someone so effortlessly and so publicly. He didn't want to admit it, especially not to himself, It was an endless, he’d found himself sucked into a blackhole of endless articles reporting on Key’s and the ‘mysterious’ new woman in his life, screaming at himself to stop, but he couldn’t tear his eyes from them. He was jealous, he hated himself for it, but he was. And It didn’t take long for them to drift apart, of course It was inevitable, Key’s was happy and someone else was the cause of it. He had, at least has a smile slither of hope, Key’s hadn’t ended It with him, although was their anything to end? they still hung out, their relationship never being the type to be platonic, but anytime he found himself around Key’s the mix of emotions he felt clouded all his judgement. He couldn’t be in love with a man who paid for his company. He shouldn’t be in love with Keys, but he was. There were days when all he wanted to do was blurt it out, tell him he needed him, wanted him more than he’d ever wanted someone in his life before, tell him how he wanted — now how he needed him in his life. how he was all he wanted, and he was absolutely fucking crazy about him? to the point that Key’s was all that consumed his every thought, no matter how much he tried to push those feelings away, bury them in the back of his mind. Yeah, he was a fucking mess, and he blamed Key’s for being so effortlessly perfect. 

“Were you expecting your other leggy blonde, less attra-” He didn’t dare finish his sentence, when he took in Key’s appearance. It had been a few weeks since he’d last seen him, Until now of course, stood at the entrance of his living room. looking at Key’s who was now looking at him. It felt like he had been standing there for hours, both of them staring at each other as they let the silence feel the space around them. And Key’s was the first to break the silence, not in the way he hoped, but the quiet cries were like an echo around the room, and before he could think, he was stood in front of Key’s, “Aiden.” He mumbled, the name spoken barely above a whisper as he kneeled down in front of him, one hand on the others knee, and the other under his chin, Infex finger pushing his chin up forcing Key’s to look at him. “Talk to me.”

[fckermantheo]

Well shit,  normally It would be him finding amusement in other people’s misery, and fuck ups, but tonight? It would turn out to be him, If Theo was ever successful in anything, It was being colossal fuck up, from being locked out of his apartment the previous night to leaving his phone on the subway,  It was an absolute miracle he lasted this long. “Okay, so hear me out on a scale from ‘I can sometimes make important phone calls without crying’ to ..” He paused to think for a couple of seconds “ to  I have a stable job with a steady income, a spouse who loves me, a dog, and two kids who are screwed up minimally at worst’, how much of an adult are you?”

[altman-shelby]

#me too

[fckermantheo]

ofmckeys​:

👾  

He was quiet again. Listening to Theo deflect everything with a humorous quip when he could tell he was upset was one of the quirks keys had been so drawn too. They were alike in that way and it thrilled him how quick witted theo was. Sometimes even keys had difficulty keeping up with how sparkly theo’s mind was. There was really no other way to do describe it for keys, where most everything was a sound, feeling, fast moving flashes of photos or color he then had to filter through his head to make it make sense with actual words. Theo was like a bubbly feeling in the back of his head mixed with fireworks. But he never told him any of that…Not once since they’d been together. Because even though they grew into each other, their outward quirks and habits, challenged each other’s heads in way that was still exhilarating to keys, they were still hiding from each other. Sometimes keys just assumed that as time passed that one day something would happen where one of them had to drop the veil. He knew it was something that could only be maintained but for so long and honestly, if he’d learned anything these past few weeks, being lucky enough for the first time in his life to feel a little accepted…Finally connected to people in a way that was bigger than himself and meeting someone like kelsey who loved so….fearlessly, it was that waiting for it to happen was over. He was at the precipice of something great and his heart wanted to leap for the first time into whatever version of himself this was going to give way too because he wanted to be better. He owed everyone that had helped get him to this point that. 

“…What if I want you to be mad at me? Because I haven’t been good to you, theo. Not the way I should have been. You stuck around for me and I could never figure out why but it made me feel human….You reminded me that I was here…. When I really didn’t want to be…” The confession is dark and his heart is racing. Brow furrows as his hands run up and down the taller mans sides, almost predicting the way theo is more than likely going to laugh in uncomfortable confusion. But he has to do it, not for himself. No matter the reaction, he needs the man to know. “Thank you…So much for being here for me all this time. For being so funny, and sharp. For being the only thing I’ve had to look forward too since I got here…For seeing something in me you stuck around longer than anyone has…” He takes a deep, shaking breath as his eyes meet the other mans, hands still planted on theo’s hips still terrified of saying any of this but knowing he has too. Because he realizes that tonight is the night he always assumed would come. No choice but to drop the veil. “You’re just as important to me as you were yesterday. I wouldn’t be here without you, theo…I’m gonna show you how much you mean to me…Like….really….If…..if you wanna let me?” 

It was the silence filling the room, once again. Theo stood there under the watchful eyes of keys, He hated it. He hated not knowing what was on his mind. he hated the silence, because he knew the longer he left Keys lingering in the silence, he’d catching himself seeing Theo for what he was, nothing special. It was stupid, he was insecure, that was fucking obvious, because he’d stupidly let himself catch fucking feelings, he didn’t know how, or when it happened. but it happened and he’d been living in constant denial about it since, because instead of being honest, Theo decided to make a joke out of it, filling the dead silence between them with humorous quips, 

All he could do was listen — listen as Keys spoke about wanting Theo to be mad, talking about how he’d been so good to him, been there for him all this years, and made him feel human, and Theo being Theo being uncomfortable in the situation that dangerously encroached a territorial place of feelings, had to stop himself from making comments about how he was there because he was being paid to, but he didn’t because yes, It was true, partly, at the beginning they had an arrangement that soon turned into something more, and the longer they spent together, the years that passed the more the two lines blurred together. 

"Aiden." Theo spoke, as he reached forward to place both hands on either side of the other's neck. “I am mad .. I’m sad, disappointed, upset, at you? at me, the situation? I don’t know,” He spoke, a nervous laugh on his lips. “You know why I stuck around, we both know, You’ve been good to me, you’ve looked after me, when .. when you didn’t need to, we’ve —” He paused, offering a gentle smile, one of his hands coming up to brush the others hair out of his face, “You asking to fuck me in a dressing room with your girlfriend waiting for you?” He mused almost half heartedly.  He took a moment before leaning forward forehead pressed against Keys, “We .. I, you know I like you right? girlfriend or not.”

[ofmckeys]

closed @fckermantheo​

The dressing room was quiet. Aside from spending what he could of the morning enjoying breakfast with him before he rushed out to start what felt like the most amazing, but hectic day of his life, this was the first time Keys and Theo got a moment to themselves all night. Theo was jealous but it was expected. Although they had come to a sort of understanding about how their ‘relationship’ worked, this was the first time Keys found himself in a situation that involved much more than a hookup. It was completely unexpected and why Keys had such a hard time explaining things to Theo to begin with. He wasn’t usually at a loss for words but he had no clue where to even begin to make sense of this one. Except that he loved two very, very different people for very different reasons. Because unlike kelsey, theo was an entirely different beast when it came to talking about feelings. Being that it rarely happened at all with him.Things with Theo weren’t bad. Nowhere near, in fact, but their connection was one they grew into over the course of years, developing an entirely unique love language that bridged the gap between their personalities. Even if the way the communicated was different they knew they needed each other and fit somehow. Theo was still the longest ‘relationship’ he’s ever had because he seemed to see something in keys worth sticking around for. It was love. Even if they didn’t get to say it as often. 

He knew it was going to manifest itself in other ways, even in the electric heaviness in the air. Keys is still watching him quietly. Expecting that accent of his to come tumbling out at any moment. Maybe tell him how he’s going to be ‘paying’ for this for the rest of the year or something. But Keys is still happy. It’s still the happiest day of his life, even staring across at how gorgeous theo is, even with that look on his face. “Reminding you there’s a song about you on this album isn’t gonna help either, huh? What’s that you said? ‘Yesterday’s accessory?’” Wrinkling his nose in disdain at the phrase, he finally reaches out, tugging at the other mans jacket to pull him closer. “That’s bullshit, theo and I know you know it but I’m going to tell you again anyway. Even mad at me because it’s true…” He trails off, staring up earnestly at his partner. 

[fckermantheo]

It was quite, uncomfortably quiet, He had never been a fan of it, always catching himself wanting to do — say something, anything he could to fill that silence, even if it meant putting his foot in his mouth, which was the case more often than not, because believe it or not? he was an idiot, but something had changed between them — something that was supposed to go unsaid was not laid out in front of them, and both TRIED to avoid the conversation altogether, but Theo being Theo of course, couldn't help but make off-handed remarks, He was jealous that was obvious, but that wasn't how their relationship worked, hell it was hardly a relationship. It was sex, that had slowly developed into something more, something he was too afraid to admit to himself, let alone Keys,  because the reality of him having feelings for him. frightened him, because It would mean the end of whatever they had, or at least that's what he told himself. 

Enter the mysterious blonde spotted getting cosy with Keys, He was jealous, again that sounded so ridiculous, And all he wanted to do was run in the opposite direction, and never look back. It was difficult for him to even begin to comprehend that Keys wasn't his, he never was, he'd spent years falling without even realising it.

Tonight wasn’t about them, It was about Keys, so of course he attended the SNL after party, even when it meant that he wasn’t Keys usual date to events, just a supportive friend. “One song?” Theo scoffed as he shook his head. “Make it an album, and I might — might reconsider getting over it, and under you a bit quicker.” He murmured, half joking as the shorter one of them pulled him closer. “Last years accessory, like a dumb scarf.” He corrected, as he shook his head. “I’m not mad at you .. “ He was mad at himself, “but expect some damage to be done to your bank card.”

[fckermantheo]

taymorel​:

Fully able to sympathize, at least with not having the skills to put together a proper meal without bringing some kind of harm to a kitchen, Tay nodded his head as he listened. At the same time he couldn’t stifle a small chuckle under his breath. He’d tried a few times to cook for Denise in the past and it hadn’t gone that much better than what this poor guy was describing now.

“I mean, some people think it’s the intent that counts. Those people probably didn’t need to have their stomachs pumped after the fact, but I get what you were going for.”

Surprise, surprise, anyone who so much as knew Theo, would know that he was a mess. he liked to believe that he could do anything including and not limited to cooking, even when he had already melted a pot of boiling water, almost burned down an entire kitchen, and turning it into something unrecognisable, not to mention the last meal he made — or in his case attempted. how do you completely burn a microwavable meal but keep it somehow frozen in the middle?

“In my defence, they leave that shit out of bake off, when they taste test a mess of a fish.”

[jugheadzarchive]

[fckermantheo]

rhettmatthewsx​:

Listening to Theo’s story, his head tilted a bit and Rhett grinned a bit. He really had no room to talk about cooking because Rhett was pretty awful at it. He could make a grilled cheese and a can of tomato soup but that was about it. He used to make it a lot for his siblings, “Well…you know, at least you tried, mate.” He shrugged, “Gold star.” Rhett smiled, “If you need to practice though, I’m happy to be your candidate.” He joked, although it was fully true. Being cooked meals by an attractive man and also eating free food was a win-win.

Theo knew, he had known from the very moment he decided to cook that It would end terribly. And was he wrong? fuck no, only he could manage to burn a pot of boiling water, but n his defence, he was mildly intoxicated and very distracted. “Gold star?” Theo laughed as he shook his head. “Nah, head was my reward,” He mused, half joking, because while his night almost ended catastrophically, his gesture was well received. “Practice?” Theodore asked, head tilted to the side, lips pursed as he removed the joint hanging from his lips. “cooking or seducing a hot guy?”

[prettymysticfalls]

Daniel Sharman photographed by Mitchell McCormack for GQ Thailand

[fckermantheo]

bea-torres​:

**

“Is it wrong that that actually sounds kinda nice?” Bea asked, surprised by the words coming out of her own mouth. She was usually self-sufficient to a fault; she didn’t get ‘lonely’… “Fuck, I need to get fucked, don’t I? None of this would be happening if I got dicked down regularly, right?” She was well and truly living in an alternate reality…

“Nice?” Theo asked, as he shook his head.  “No, no and I can’t express this enough no.”  He was adamant on his dislike for animals, It wasn’t that he hated them, what kind of person would that make him? it was the fact that they hated him — or at least, the cat he had as a child did. “I’m still healing from the childhood trauma.”  He half joked, eyebrow arched, as he let a laugh slip pass his lips/ “I don’t think that kind of insanity can be cured by getting dicked down on the reg.”

[fckermantheo]

zoe-mannan​:

“You have a vibe,” she shrugged, though who knew if that was actually true. In Zoe’s humble opinion, there was no one who couldn’t enjoy the art of a well-formed butt. “But sadly the question is genuine. If I wanted to hit on you, I’d ask you to be mine and my husband’s third…”

“I do?” Theo tilted his head, lips pursed before nodding. “You’re damn right.” honestly, anyone who knew him, knew that Theo was an everything man, It didn’t take much of anything to catch, and keep his attention. “Ouch.” Theo faked a light hearted gasp, right hand pressing against his chest. “A party of three, and not a single invitation in sight? I’m offended, deeply offended.”

[fckermantheo]

As it would turn out as a surprise to fucking no one, Theo was an idiot, He  had one again almost — almost being the operative word,  burned down his kitchen. How was he supposed to know leaving a pot of water on the stove would turn into fire, and make said put unrecognisable, but even then, that wasn’t the worst part. “No, seriously.” He muttered, “You try to be romantic at least once in your life time, and attempt to cook a hot guy dinner, only to leave his kitchen in shambles and the possibility of giving him food poisoning.”

[ofmckeys]

Closed for @fckermantheo​

The obnoxious amount of butterflies he was experiencing watching the gold jewelry Theo is wearing, glint against his skin and the colorful patterns of his shirt is almost infuriating. Almost. Even if they became almost unbearable at times. His feelings for Theo didn’t hit him like a ton of bricks or whatever that stupid saying he actually always hated goes. It was this slow ascent into an internal, frenzied panic as days and weeks and months and years went by. Years. And now he was here grabbing at the loud floral pattern to pull the other man against him abruptly. The extra inches the blonde had on him meant very little as he stares up into a blue he’s decided doesn’t exist anywhere outside of Theo’s eyes. It makes him go quiet, and maybe this is something Theo’s used to by now, Keys just…admiring him, honestly for being so disarmed by him at this point he has no idea what to do sometime beyond the need to be close. As close as he wished he could keep the other man more often than he’d like to admit. Or so he used to think. 

Because these days all he can think about is how hard it is not to blurt out something stupid. He’s already almost said it twice today. It’s not like he could help it. It’s pride after all, and besides halloween, this was Keys favorite time of the year. He got to live in the joy he wished he was surrounded by much more often. Most importantly, love. He got to see love in so many different forms and there used to be a bittersweet way he’d watch people love each other. Wondering what it was like because fuck if he knew…Until now. Because right now he wanted to say it, in the middle of the silence while he held the beauty of the others gaze. Before he knew Theo wouldn’t be able to resist cracking a joke. It makes him wonder if the other man can tell sometimes during moments like this. If he’s just playing oblivious to the stirring of feelings, to just how attached they’ve become. You’d think having to clear out a (fucking large) space in his closet for Theo because he stayed over so often might clue him in, but somehow seeming oblivious was part of Theo’s charm. Except right now. He can’t stand it. His eyes now venture down towards the other mans lips, imagining he says and gets to hear it back with no question. Like magic. “I love you. I love you too.” Like they do in the movies. This isn’t that, though so instead, Keys leans forward, rolling forward on his toes to say it with a kiss. The way he’s been doing every time he’s had to fight the urge to utter those words. And every time he puts everything he can into the kiss. Like the world is ending and its the last, most important thing he’ll ever do. And when he pulls back he swallows hard, eyes still closed. He sighs softly because he still wants to say it. “I wish you looking so fucking good in this shirt made up for how clueless you are.” He chuckles to himself as he jokes, not at all expecting Theo to understand as he licks his lips as if he’s savoring the taste of the other man on his lips. Because he is. 

[fckermantheo]

  Life before Keys was fleeting, and then It got fucking weird, they went from being two strangers who knew nothing about one another to two strangers who frequently shared the same bed within weeks of meeting. — technically, It was the sole purpose of their meeting, And despite his constant remarks about how lucky Key’s was to have him in his life,It was the other way around him, before him? Theo was simply existing, without meaning going through life without a purpose.

Theo took an adoring look at Key’s entire outfit. He looked good — he always looked good, but something about him in an obnoxiously loud shirt, that clung to his body had Theo’s heart racing at the.sight of him It was weird right? That they were friends, two people who effortlessly enjoyed each others company, when their soul union of their blossoming friendship started with a transaction, and now here they were in the middle of pride, Theo’s hands clasped around the hem of the others shirt, as he leaned forward, lips pressed against his ear. “You look hot.’

Theo couldn’t pin point the exact moment where lustful nights of passion turned slowly into them being domesticated, but the fact that he practically lived with him at this point should have been a tell-tale sign, from the majority of his nights spent curled up beside him, the extra toothbrush in the bathroom, and the shared closet space.  And for a split second, he’d imagined that maybe just maybe the two of them could be more, but Theo had an imagination that ran wild, more often than not turning the simplest of things and turning them into something bigger to the point all meaning was lost. 

It was obvious to Keys how much he loved him, there were moments where he’d wanted to blurt them out, stupidly in the middle of sex, or early in the mornings when Key insisted on breakfast in bed, however he’d stop himself, clinging to the voice in the back of his head that told him the moment he did, would be the moment he lost whatever it was between them, that or he’d somehow turn into into joke, something he did far too often. 

When Keys leaned forward, lips pressed against his own, he couldn’t help but smile into the kiss as his arms moved to snake around his neck, until he pulled back. “I can’t be both gorgeous, and tuned in, ” He mused, lips pressing against kids in a singular kiss, “but i do look pretty hot, hiuh?”

[zoe-mannan]

—Open Starter @exclusivestarters​ Whenever and Wherever! Assume connections! Please embrace my chaotic child!

“Awkward question: could you check out my ass real quick and tell me what you see?”

[fckermantheo]

“How’d you know I was an ass man.” Theo mused,  all jokes aside, well almost “There are much easier ways of hitting on a stranger,”