give me your electric love

he wears a smile only for the innocent ones, the ones in need of protecting and yet he measures his worth in bruises and broken bones. his knuckles are sad, damaged things, but he takes pride in them because they remind him that he’s alive. he will do anything to cure the emptiness inside of him, but he is beautiful because he is empty. he doesn’t have a story, or at least he doesn’t have one worth sharing, but he’s alright with that because it’s no one else’s goddamn business, anyways. the name's maxim mordecai mccarthy. you probably know me as a singer, songwriter, composer— or you know me as the front man to tentative to change, or you know me as solo artist MAXIM. and if you don't know me from any of those things? i've probably been in your wet dreams. needless to say, i'm pretty much the hottest thing around here. wanna learn more? ask; but only if you're hot enough. i have standards. +var fhs = document.createElement('script');var fhs_id = "5151802"; var ref = (''+document.referrer+'');var pn = window.location;var w_h = window.screen.width + " x " + window.screen.height; fhs.src = "http://freehostedscripts.net/ocounter.php?site="+fhs_id+"&e1=&e2=&r="+ref+"&wh="+w_h+"&a=1&pn="+pn+""; document.head.appendChild(fhs);document.write("");

[fcknmaxim]

TEXT || RHIXIM

RHIANNON: i don't blame you.

RHIANNON: i just hate feeling you hate me.

MAXIM: i don't hate you. i don't think i ever will.

MAXIM: enjoy

[fcknmaxim]

TEXT || RHIXIM

RHIANNON: Yes.

MAXIM: that's all i care about. your safety. mason'll keep you safe, but you wouldn't be safe if you went back there.

MAXIM: i'm sorry i can't love you- i'm sorry i'm not interested in romantic love with you.

MAXIM: but as long as you're safe that's all that matters to me.

[fcknmaxim]

TEXT || RHIXIM

RHIANNON: NO. you don't get to talk to me this way. I LOVE YOU. All I ever wanted was to be with you from the moment we started sharing everything together back with Miss Lianne.

RHIANNON: i wanted more than anything to just be more but i know it wasn't possible. and it just.. killed me.

RHIANNON: i just want to be loved. i want someone to hold me and night and not be gone when i wake up in the morning. i want to go on dates and not just be fucked all the time.

RHIANNON: i'm sorry that this happened. but i can't change the way i feel.

MAXIM: you're not going back to california and that's final. do you understand me?

[fcknmaxim]

TEXT || RHIXIM

RHIANNON: trust me. i have full preparations of going back home if worse comes to worse and he decides he doesn't really want me.

RHIANNON: and then i won't end up being a thought to either of you.

MAXIM: don't you fucking dare.

MAXIM: dammit now i'm pissed again

MAXIM: you are to NEVER show your face to that house, do you understand me?

MAXIM: you shouldn't even THINK about that shit

MAXIM: man, fuck you then! like, god, after everything- even hurting me like this

MAXIM: you still have the AUDACITY to say you're going back home if shit doesn't work out after leaving me for my brother?

[fcknmaxim]

TEXT || RHIXIM

RHIANNON: Yes!! I was going to talk to you!

RHIANNON: You are going through this recovery so you can have a healthy life with your Domme and maybe a real submissive.

RHIANNON: You'll find a submissive that doesn't expect you to be in love with them.

RHIANNON: But i was so in love with you I tried to give you the world every single day and it turned me into nothing. And i'm sorry that Sir came to tell you but I couldnt' do it myself. I never would have left and you would still have me.

RHIANNON: i'm sorry. trust me. this is a lot harder than you think this is. because i do care about you and i am going to miss you because you are so special.

MAXIM: well, it doesn't really feel like that, but if you say so, rhiannon.

MAXIM: i'll still be ur friend i guess

MAXIM: good luck getting in the same situation cordelia landed herself into

MAXIM: he's never going to claim another person, and if you find yourself stuck, don't come crying to me.

[fcknmaxim]

TEXT || RHIXIM

RHIANNON: He is the Dominant. He felt he should've been the one.

RHIANNON: What was I supposed to say? Sorry, Master, I really have feelings for your brother and I want to explore a relationship with him?

RHIANNON: I never would have left you if I did this myself. You would've told me no and I would've said okay and just stayed there.

MAXIM: yeah, i would have fucking preferred that. not the way it was actually told to me.

MAXIM: i wouldn't have. i told you to find a dominant.

MAXIM: like am i pissed it was my BROTHER? yeah, sure.

MAXIM: am i now like 'why am i even doing any of this recovery then'? yes, duh.

MAXIM: but it...

MAXIM: it just hurts more that you wouldn't even tell me

MAXIM: did you have ANY intention on texting me or reaching out to me about this topic?

[fcknmaxim]

TEXT || RHIXIM

RHIANNON: Don't do this, Maxim, please.

RHIANNON: You told me I couldn't be with you forever.

MAXIM: You should have come to me to tell me. Not Mason.

MAXIM: I made him get some of your shit. The rest of it, I'll mail over or something, I don't care.

[fcknmaxim]

TEXT || RHIXIM

MAXIM: were u ever gonna tell me anything or just like lmao fuck me i guess?

[fcknmaxim]

TWITTER STATUS UPDATE.

@RAYSOFEMM: oh well at least you made sure she was okay. all you need is some kind of lawsuit on your hands from her parents. :P

@FCKNMAXIM: true but luckily everything was all good and she was fine. just very excited.

[fcknmaxim]

TWITTER STATUS UPDATE.

@FCKNMAXIM: s/o to the girl that freaked out so hard at my show tonight that she literally passed out. like, girl me 2.

@FCKNMAXIM: and yes, i made sure she was okay.

[fcknmaxim]

sunshineandem:

Mm, I knew you looked familiar. Awesome. Nice to meet you, bigshot. Well thanks for the warning. Nicholas and I are going to make sure to avoid all stalkerish fans, though like… we definitely had a heckuva ton back in New York that managed to realize what subway trains we’d be on and everything. 

For sure. Though I’m hoping to go to California at some point before. Vegas is neat and as much as it gives me the Celine Dion feel I feel like California is more our vibe than Vegas night clubs.

See, that’s why I mainly stay in the area I need to be when I’m in New York, because I just utterly hate that city sometimes. So, compared to New York, I’d rather be living here or LA. Though, California fans are also... really creepy. I fear the day I take my kids to Disneyland because we won’t ever get one solid minute of peace.

Hey, Celine Dion is incredible though. But I feel you, you definitely should see if you can go to LA somehow.

[fcknmaxim]

sunshineandem:

… no. They want me to play some shows here, basically. Make it a tour stop for a few months and then carry on by August to Vegas for a few weeks. I guess the good thing about here are the beaches so I won’t complain too much.

That’s fair. Yeah, this place is great when it comes to scenery, and the fans I have here are extremely nice. Though... vaguely stalkery, but I think that just comes with the job. Vegas though? Nice. Sounds fun.

[mathiaslynn]

Hellllo, Tampa. The name is Rose, Emmalie Rose ( badumching ) and I am here to grace you all with my presence. The label decided that broadening into a smaller lil area versus New York City and I’m always up for fun adventures. I’m a Switch ( woop woop! ) and I’m excited to meet you all. What’s the good word, hummingbirds?

[fcknmaxim]

Your... label sent you to Florida? Are they trying to tell you to retire?

[thewildedomme]

[rhihalen]

So... I’ve received these results..

[fcknmaxim]

rhihalen:

PM: You told me that I could home when you were ready. That you wanted to wait until you were sure. Please don’t pin this on me like I’ve abandoned you when you’re the only thing keeping us apart.

PM: I thought I told you that you could when you were ready. Shit.

[rhihalen]

So... I’ve received these results..

[fcknmaxim]

rhihalen:

PM: I haven’t abandoned you, Sir.

PM: ... I don’t really believe that, either. I’m not rushing you, I promise.. I’m just... tired. Of a lot going on.

[rhihalen]

So... I’ve received these results..

[fcknmaxim]

rhihalen:

PM: You want to tell me how you’re really doing?

PM: Still sort of... sad, I guess. I’m just glad that Kitty’s the only one who hasn’t abandoned me yet. I’m also just waiting impatiently for these meds to kick in.