crying for the death of your 🖤

boring old cis white dude "age in bio" mostly running off of the queue these days (also: old)

[feelthemonster]

I used to write poasts, now I'm just a reblog machine. I don't remember when I last felt like I had something to say, something that mattered enough to expend the energy to wring it out of my brain (or that felt so urgent it wouldn't stay inside anyway).

I've been meaning to go back through my blog(s), see what the old mes of Diaryland and LiveJournal and early Tumblr had to say for themselves, but even that seems like a horrendous slog. I know I was sad, I was horny, I was desperate, I was (rarely) ebullient. Do I need to dig through all those brain dumps? I'm not sure I would actually learn anything.

Instead I'll just scroll, and scroll and keep myself narcotized with Content and Takes. Maybe I've grown out of feelings. Maybe detached is better than despairing.

[makingimages]

[kitcactusart]

[importantcatpics]

[cimicherrychanga]

imagine your neighborhood had a Notorious Van because the art airbrushed on it isnt like a cool lightning wizard or unicorn or whatever, but instead a bunch of dicks. everyone knows the van with the penises. and the person who owns and drives it is this lesbian who knooows her cars the talk of the town and loves it. and you know Of her but now, at this random house party, you get introduced to her for the first time and ur like ohhhh THATS the dick van dyke

[naamahdarling]

FUCK you

[theehorsepusssy]

[gothsource]

JUST LIKE HEAVEN The Cure

[hyrude]

i've searched every combination of words imaginable and i still can't find that gif of the german star trek parody where gay spock is quickly drinking coffee and smoking freaking out PLEASE send it to me i need it urgently

[lamphous]

matched set

[deactivated-102479239856294-dea]

i decorated my knife!! ^___^

[telltaletypist]

transphobic music fans be listening to he or she might be giants

[telltaletypist]

[cursed-40k-thoughts]

[dudeswithswords]

[feelthemonster]

Red Fang — Arrows

What if Portland's favorite sludge metal band used their video budget to buy a katana?

(Red Fang is quite fond of the "What if Portland's favorite sludge metal band spent their video budget to..." genre of music video.)

[bbyangelbambi]

[hellonursevenus]

Summertime

The Sundays

[feelthemonster]

Possibly the perfect song? I love it so much.

[pondwitch]

cool new tumblr trend : “goodposting”

its when you share fun interesting things in a calm and friendly way

[powerburial]

goodposting example: hey guys, just fucked a bug

[pondwitch]

no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[mutationgirl]

might as well be jilling off to a glossary the way im coming to terms

[nscafe-firehose]

First, there I was going into grade 8 and had a medical issue that was very much bothering me and as such, I was going to a doctor regularly and they had happy face buttons at their reception. I usually grabbed one or two (or five) and kept one for myself but gave the others I acquired over time to friends who had asked for them... we had a happy face gang, so to speak. I was already wearing quilted flannel at that point and a happy face button decorated that until I got my duster.

Then during the same time frame (1991... but honestly could have 1992, I don't quite remember), I had heard "The White Room" album (on cassette, bought because the cover grabbed me so hard... could not resist) and listened to it a lot walking back and forth to and from school in grade 8. Then I read "The Illuminatus! Trilogy" in grade 10 (after previously "The Schrödinger's Cat Trilogy" a year earlier) and started getting into Discordianism around then (and also picked up The KLFs "Chill Out", it took me a while to figure out it came out before "The White Room")… AND then I got online regularly… this would explain why you saw my duster with a happy face button it throughout the rest of the 90s. In 1998 the anthology book "Disco 2000" came out with stories by both Bill Drummond and Robert Anton Wilson (for further details on why that's an interesting intersection involves how Drummond and Cauty met).

Then in 2012 I had tried to buy one of the not glitter versions of the shield but the price on the shipping put it just out of reach (currency conversion killed it)… then Cauty and Drummond put out the novel 2023 in 2017…. in 2022 I picked up the 12" of "It's Grim Up North" (killer!) and finally at the start of 2023 things worked out where we could try getting a shield again…. and after ups and downs we're finally here. Got the Glitter Smiley [Appropriated!] Riot Shield by the end of the year.

I do not currently have one of the old happy face buttons... but I just ordered a bag of 25...

(you are now a Discordian Pope, enjoy your hot dog)