To the waters and the Wild

Queen Tabitha, daughter of the Flowers and ruling voice over the Fay. She is one of the guardians of the Seasons, along with her husband Colbert. M!A:N/A || Fc: Gillian Andersen|| Oc friendly|| SingleVerse||

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I don't feel so good. I'm very queesy. And I think I might have a fever. I'm taking a break before I fro up on my keyboard.

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adoctorsconscience:

Archie shook his head. Never had there been a bigger misunderstanding between him and another person. Logically he knew these accusations of force were no doubt more of a reflection of her personal demons than they were anything he could be responsible for. Even so, that didn’t take away the utter punch to the gut that was her response. 

“I made peace long ago with not having parents- a mother, anyway,” he said, his voice as level as he could. “And I am fulfilled regardless. I-…I had hoped once that you and I could resume something, but I’m not a fool. I know that there is no hope where one party is unwilling. I never attempted force. You’re describing what fits your own perception of things, Tabitha. That’s your prerogative, and probably for the best. I would’ve never lived up to your impossibly high standards in any case. I do hope you have the capacity to love. I question whether you do, but I hope. I hope for many things. I don’t think I would’ve learned to hope as much if I had been raised in your care.” 

He was already on his way for the door, but the force of anger mixed with hurt prevented him from leaving immediately. 

“But don’t you dare, ever, try to tell me that family is more than blood. Where do you find the gall, standing there as my natural mother, rejecting me outright, when the family I have waiting for me, the same that will bring me through this time, save for five of my children, doesn’t share blood with me. This is the only true family I have ever known. You-…you are a sad, self-important woman. I don’t want you in my life any more than you want me. And yet…I hope you find love. I wish that for you. I hope you find the capacity in your heart to accept it.” 

“I have never been a mother. How am I supposed to know what a mother is, every time I had a child they were taken away from me. I have never been able to be a mother but I was forced to be a wife and I did my duty to my husband. I do not have the capacity to love, the sooner you realize the better off you will be. I never had any standards for you or for Adrian or for anyone. All I wanted was patience to get to know anyone because you are all foreign to me. One of you did so. Only one. I never raised Cornelius, Oberon did but he was and remains my responsibility. If you had stayed it would never have been with me. It would have been with Oberon. So again, do not talk about things you do not understand. Because I didn't raise Cornelius. I never raised any of the children I bore.”

She rolled her eyes, “So, I'm not allowed to feel what I feel? You have already rejected me. And quite frankly I don't care. You do what you want and whatever makes you happy. Hate me, dislike me I don't give. But you do not tell me I have no right to do the same to you. I don't know you. I don't know who you are. I feel as if you set these high impossible standards, so I guess we are both disappointing. So are you done?  I have a sick son and one that is getting back from school.” She looked at her nails as he spoke. It hurt but what could she do, it was better if he hated her. All she could do with Ned was hide him and Adrian to keep him home until she found an antidote then get him the hell away from her so he could be safe. When and if she could wake him she would take the fall for drugging him. If Adrian believed that she would go that far then he too would leave her side and leave the reach of the court. They could all be safe, all of them if she made sure they all hated her. She needed one more jab, one more thing to make Archie truly believe she was a heartless monster. “You were never my family. You aren't my family. How about you just walk out Mr. Hopper, because quite frankly I'm getting tired of hearing you. We share blood that's it but that doesn't make us family. It never will. The only one I have ever loved or wanted back in my life is Cornelius. He is my son. You aren't, Adrian isn't. You are all as important to me like dolls. Cornelius is the one I want back. He shouldn't have died, it should have been one of you.” She grinned, maybe now he would never come back and that was the better option. “get out. Now. I don't want Ned seeing you, and you tainting him with your filthy ways.”

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adoctorsconscience:

His patience and understanding for things endured and held fast through so much. He had a lot of exercise in this after all, what with having seven young children at home. Archie was not an angry man either, never raising his voice, never losing his temper. The feeling of near uncontrollable rage was an almost unfathomable concept. 

But this was…beyond what he had known before. This was dredging up muck he had long since buried. 

“Your family?” he repeated back, the words acid on his tongue. “I’m your family. My wife, my children, Marco, August, Pongo- do you think I asked to be taken from you? Do you think I wished it, as an infant? Do you think I enjoyed my life of being raised to steal, to lie, to cheat? I was a child. I had no choice…yet we’ve found each other again beyond reason, beyond any likelihood. So why do you treat me and my loved ones so abysmally? Why do you look at me is if I’ve committed some unforgivable slight against you? I don’t understand. I don’t understand! And-…and it’s very likely I don’t want to.”

She was quiet for a second the perked a brow. “Family is more than just blood. I didn't want my son to be taken away from me. But I don't know you. You are foreign to me and I am not the sort of person who just accepts things. I don't move that way. I don't know anyone you are talking about. For me it takes time to care about things.” Tabitha didn't feel like explaining things to him anymore. It was all to tiring and she was loosing the ability to not to scream and shout. There was an apology that had wanted to come out but she would rather keep shut. It didn't matter anymore. There was no point in being anything with anyone. If she did, Oberon would just take it away, destroy it and kill it as he had always done. This way was safer, maybe more for her than for him.

“Get out. I don't know you and I have never known you. And quite frankly I don't want to. If you are going to tell me what I can and can't do as if I'm not allowed to be anything but myself. Adrian came to me, sought me out and took the time to get to know me and let me get to know him. He didn't assume that we had to have a quick bond. That I had to automatically love someone who I don't know. We got to know each other. Leave, Mr. Hopper. Right now you are just another stranger just screaming in my home. There are no such thing as auto bonds. Do not push me to do anything. Get out.”

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why does she hate cherise and archie?

I don't know. I have no idea. EverytimeI write for her she's just pissed off. That's just the way she is.Being angry and mean is her go to feeling when it comes to things. Ifshe's hated and mean then it doesn't matter; she knows she plays avery little part in anyone's life so she would rather make everyoneelse a little part. That's just what she does. She is suppsoed to bethe opposite of Titania who is loving caring and broken. There aredifferent ways to handle loss, trauma and being broken. Titania gotoverwhelmed and Tabitha decided to be angry and stay angry. Anger isall she has and if she wasn't angry she would be crying all day.

It's not just Cherise or Archie, shebasicly dislikes everyone, like Tris (pretending to be nice) , Ariel( she's pretending to be nice to her for now) , Blue. She hatesOberon and Gothel.

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adoctorsconscience:

Archie didn’t like how quick and abrupt she was at changing the subject, though he didn’t think he had much of a stomach to talk extensively about Cornelius at this point in time. Maybe never. “I never said he wasn’t a victim to circumstance, but aren’t we all in this? Have we all not suffered somehow? I don’t think it’s healthy for anyone to put their child on a pedestal to the point that they can see nothing else. No one is perfect.” 

He clenched his jaw and shook his head, wondering how she could even suggest such a thing. “Perhaps you’ll understand why I am none too keen to meet anymore long lost siblings. These family reunions don’t seem to have been the best for any of us.” 

“Don't talk about things you don't understand. The boy I knew would never hurt anyone, this is not me putting him on a pedestal. Oberon put something inside...” She tensed her jaw, “We're not talking about him. I said we wouldn't so I won't.” Tabitha perked a brow, “Mhm, alright. I let Ned know as much. He will be a little disappointed but he will understand.”

Frankly she was tired. “So, what do you want to talk about?” Tabitha wanted him to leave more than anything. Seeing him made things harder but if he hated her then it would be much better for him. He'd stay away and wouldn't get involved  with what was going on. It was better that way. “You don't want to talk about Cornelius, you don't want to know about your younger brother, I'm guessing Adrian is out of the question, and so is my husband. We are running out of things to talk about considering that my family is my world. So forgive me if I want you to leave because this is going no where fast.”

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grumblygardens:

Most of the time, Cherise could take the unkind words. They had been present even before Kevin had died. She was the unwelcomed woman who could do nothing right in Tabitha’s eyes and on the majority of days, Cherise felt she was right. She was entirely right to be angry with her and hate her. “Yes if I had just died during the attack, Kevin might be alive. I get it. My disgusting half-sprite existence is a burden on you all. I get it. You’ve always hated me since they tried to use me as a pawn the first time. I wouldn’t have been your daughter-in-law no matter how perfect I tried to be.” She felt her stomach drop and that terrible pressure again. She placed her hand on her stomach and started to walk away. “It doesn’t matter what I can do so long as I can help you. Family helps each other. Don’t be so damn proud. We’re all fighting the same thing… The same person.  I’m not the reason you lost a son.”

“I never chose you for my son. Oberon did. I never wanted you near my son but he wanted to hurt Titania. I don't care what you are but you almost had my son killed the first time. If it wasn't for that I wouldn't care either way, but the fact that he was put under ice and left to freeze. He was close to death when I found him, had he stayed a minute longer then he would have been dead all those years ago. That's why I hate you. And now, what happened to my son? He's dead. He was forced into something again with you and he's dead. I don't control Archie, I don't control any of my sons and they can do whatever they want but I do control what I feel and anything I want in my life and that's not you.”

She sighed, “You already said you can't do anything so really what do you want? Bcause you can't help and saying you are isn't helping when you can't do anything. I'm handling this. I'm getting things to cure my son. So stay out of it. I can't control what you do but if you meddling kills my son, I swear to god...I will come after you. I will cut you to pieces if you put Adrian in danger, don't even test my love for him because I will cut you. This is not about me being proud, this is about me not wanting Oberon in this because of you! How about you think things through! Whatever you touch Oberon will destroy if only to hurt Titania and Ariel. But if you want to cause more pain then go right ahead but as soon as you hurt my son, your actions hurt my son I will come after you. And I will kill you.”

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grumblygardens:

Cherise raised her eyebrows. “Tabitha, it was poor wording and I’m sorry. I’m terrified for Adrian. But I’d take that back. He does follow everything you say and he did say that. I’m not your enemy and I’ve never been your enemy… Please let me do something. If you want me to make a call or collect something for you, I’ll do it.” She huffed a few times, trying to control the discomfort that had risen in the small bursts of emotion that had slipped free. As she calmed and the pressure seemed to ease from her lower stomach, she stared at Tabitha with a weak and forlorn look in her eyes. “I can’t get in the middle of this. There is nothing I can do to do that. All I can do is offer support and do errands for people. I wanted so much to be your daughter-in-law and when I got that second chance…” She stopped and closed her eyes. It hurt too much to think about. She couldn’t be a princess and she couldn’t be a regular daughter-in-law. It wasn’t going to happen. Rather than linger on the bitter memory, she went back to her original thought. “We’re united in that we love Adrian dearly. Adrian has helped me so much. He’s given me faith in an unconventional way… If anything happens to him, I don’t know what I’m going to do. Tabitha…” Cherise shook her head and shrugged. “I haven’t even seen her, but if I do, Ill do something. Impersonating my child is a little odd and I highly doubt it’s any friend of mine. Everyone knows who my friends are.” Cherise felt her entire body tense again and another wave of pain. If this was the last bit of the first trimester, then she could deal with it, even if this was important. She looked back at Tabitha sadly and bowed her head. “Please don’t let Adrian die just because you refused to accept help from me. I’m going, I swear, but for the love of gods… I’m scared. I know you are, too.”

“Don't tell me how I feel. You don't know anything about how I feel. So don't pretend you know.” She replied. “Really, what are you going to do? Besides get Oberon more angry than he is. I would rather have you out of it than put Oberon back into it with full force. Think about everything, jesus. The moment you put yourself into this, you are are going to bring Oberon. I don't want your help. I can handle this on my own. I have to do this. So stay out of it, you've cost me a son, and a proper daughter in law. But go ahead push yourself into it and make Oberon angry. Make sure he beats Ariel more. Go right ahead.”

She was angry and upset right now. More than anything she had to keep herself composed. “Let him die....I've lost my son. I'm not going to loose another one because of you, again.”

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anoffendingshadow:

“I’m here on behalf of one of my clients, you want to move the queen to your quarters?” He began to thumb through all the papers he held. Not being able to find the right one. Peter also knew he needed to figuere out as much as he could about Adrian, he had promised that much to Cherise. “I can help you make dinner, I don’t mind. I have most of this in my head and I’ll show you the written documents later.”

“I do.” So he was the queen's, at least that was better then who she thought he worked for. “I'm making pancakes, not a dinner food but my son wants breakfast foods for dinner and I don't have the heart to tell him no. I have to wake up Adrian, he hasn't been feeling to well. If you could get me the eggs and the milk I would be grateful.” Tabitha welcomed the help but she still wrinkled her nose at him. The sooner she could food the ready the sooner she could get the sprite out of her home.

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adoctorsconscience:

He stared at her a moment, wondering if long enough study could show him who she was really. She seemed so cold and distant, detached from any feeling of empathy for anyone but herself. Perhaps it was a facade. Some part of him wanted to believe that, but his logic feared otherwise. “I can’t imagine the pain. I’m sorry. I am…but what would I have to discuss? The answers to my questions were buried with him. Beyond that, we were never close. I don’t know if I could find it in me to be close to him now given-…given everything. I know you are suffering, but you are not the only one. And you don’t have to be alone.” 

The only she had was Cornelius, he had been the one bright star in her life. She held onto him as if he was a something that could keep her up and afe from drowning. It was much easier to have everyone hate her, that made things simple. And by this point she didn't care anymore. “He was a victim too. My son would never do that. He would never have hurt anyone like that. He is-was a good boy. He was not close to you but he was the world to me. After what happened to my husband...Kevin went everyday to visit him, to visit my husband. He cared. He is-was a good man.”

She tensed her jaw. “Fine. We won't talk about him. You have a younger brother, one younger than Adrian, his name is Ned. I think he would want to meet you at some point.”

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grumblygardens:

Cherise’s face immediately twisted into a mix of shock, horror, and something ugly. She wanted to say she was trying to warn people but in the end, what did it matter? Did it save them? Of course not. What people needed was damage control and her presence likely would make things worse. “You cannot leave him like that and you know exactly why. Oberon is going to kill him. He’s going to use him and kill him and absolutely not. We cannot let that happen again!” Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. Fool me three times, I’m probably trying to do that’s best for the fairies because I have obligations as royalty and my family needs me, too. Cherise pulled at her hair, growing tense and unsure of what else to do. All she could really do was stare down at her slightly bulging stomach. “Physically I can’t help you anyway, but like it or not, we’re still family and I still give a damn.” She huffed and nearly doubled over from her exhaustion, then rolled her eyes, more from discomfort that she felt than emotions raging. “Tabitha, I don’t even know what I’m having. I’m just barely inching into my second trimester. I don’t know who Katya is. I’ve never met her…There’s a girl running around Storybrooke calling herself my daughter?” This wasn’t a headache she needed. “The…unborn child I’m carrying now… This sounds like a trick. This sounds like someone’s idea of a trick. Wouldn’t be surprised if someone hired her. Did she steal anything? I’m very worried now.”

She was more than offended now, “You think for a minute I would leave him like that if I had a choice?! I'm finding what I can to bring him back. Don't insult me.” She moved to the door, “Get out, now.” Tabitha wasn't happy anymore, not that she was before. Tabitha grit her teeth, “There is no we, here. I do not control my son if he wants to have a relationship with you. So do not imply you have one with me because we don't. I just want my boy back. And you putting yourself in the middle of it will get him killed.”

“She broke into my home and was rude beyond measure. She was going on about her family, you and Hopper. She wasn't polite and she demanded me to asnwer her questions. I had just lost my son, that is not what I wanted to deal with. Handle it. Because if Ariel comes to stay with me, Oberon is going to handle it. And he handle things violently with an end result of death.”

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grumblygardens:

“What in the hells are you talking about?!” Cherise rubbed her forehead. “I’m here to talk to you about Adrian because he looks unwell and if you tell me he’s fine, I know you’re lying to me. Don’t lie to me, Tabitha. You care about your boys, then don’t pretend everything is well. He can’t remember his past! I’m concerned about him!” Cherise brought a hand to her forehead and sighed. “I’m not going to try, Tabitha. I’m not… But don’t speak about my children. They’re all babies. They’re toddlers. My oldest daughter is nine and she can hardly meddle, so please try and stay civil. I’m here because we do actually care about the same people and we don’t want them to die!” Cherise hissed, feeling moody and unpleasant. “I don’t…care if you hate me. I know what happened and if you don’t accept it, I can’t force you to. But I can try to save Adrian… I don’t know what baby you’re talking about, but…for the love of gods, please tell me what’s going on with Adrian. He’s not okay!”

“Oberon, that's what happened. And I'm handling it. If you meddle and run your nose, you will not just cost me one son but two. Stay out of it. I will not have you pushing your way through and getting Adrian killed just because you want to help. You've helped enough.” She replied, “Katya, that's who I'm talking about the one in your belly. The one you are going to have broke into my home, a short while after Kevin was buried. Keep her away. I don't want her here, ever.”

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adoctorsconscience:

“…why do you think I would be here to discuss him?” He felt a burning his chest, one that he couldn’t specifically qualify as indignant anger or hurt. Perhaps both. It was foreign to him. “This is not just about you and your pain. This is not just about my brother, tragic as his passing was and continues to be. Does anything matter to you beyond that?” 

“His passing is still fresh in my mind. I went to get his body from the morgue. I buried him. It was my job to protect him, yes that's where my mind and my heart is...” She parted her lips, “I did hope that you would want to discuss him, but please discuss what you want. I'm going to pour myself some wine and stare out the window.”

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toobtainanimmortalsoul

“You don't look like good, dear, But I guess that's a side effect of being married to that ...man.” She didn't say it out loud but she thought it. She now knew how far he would go to prove a point. Tabitha combed through her hair with her fingers, and let out a bitter sigh. “How are you feeling...since” Tabitha felt sick to her stomach. “About ….Cherise going to have your husband's child?”

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anoffendingshadow

Tabitha knew his profession. “Are you here to serve me papers or...” She wasn't too thrilled, she knew that he worked for the fae queen but she didn't exactly know if he was there to help her or not. “Speak, quickly. I don't have a lot of time. I have to make dinner for my son.”

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adoctorsconscience

She had mixed emotions about seeing Archibald again. “If you have come to say something about my son, then please before anything else happens, don't. I've had to move his grave to keep from have it vandalized. So I'm not in a good mood right now.”

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grumblygardens

“You completely destroy my beloved little boy and now you're muscling your way to my second youngest, and my baby. My sons told me that you take every opurtunity to meddle, just like your daughter. I want you to know that I am going write up a restraining order, I don't want anymore people breaking into my home and demanding things from me.”

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As far as anything, Tabitha is going to call Ned her baby, and pretend that she had one more son after Adrian and she's going to lie about it. She will never tell anyone that Ned is Cornelius. 

Also like for a short starter.