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Charlie🐾21🐾He/Him

Trans🐾Queer ∞ Autistic🐾Therian

I’m currently learning Japanese!!

In college to work in zoo tech!

⚠️Agereg stuff may go here when in need of serious vent

This is a personal/diary blog where I post about myself and my life along w other things!! This blog is inspired by ˗ˏˋ@//lioncircus 🎪´ˎ˗

I’ll be posting my own photos, sketches I don’t want to post on my art blog and probably reblogging some things. Whatever I’d like!

🎨Art: @cringgekingg

🌈Main: @mountaindook

I need my cat snuggles. I hate she’s gone. I’m still kinda in denial about it.

I need her right now. I need her warmth and comfort.

Someones. Anything.

I feel so sick oh god please

Robin im so sorry I’ll miss you so much. You were such a great friend for so long

I hope we can be friends again someday

I just want to live as myself

Like everyone else

Haven’t even left my parents house yet and all this shits happening— I haven’t gotten to live my life at all. Everything’s monitored except on some places online— even then they may find me— I have no social life or anything while living like this— and now all this shit?

I mean I’m not gonna stop being trans. You can’t like…shut that off. I’ve tried! I’ve tried to stop being trans!! And queer!! But it didn’t stop and tbh, the education I’ve gained relating to it and because of it triumphs too much just to lay down and roll over because of how people treat me and people like me—- they’re wrong! They say we’re wrong- and I can almost understand because I thought I was insane too until I did my research. Research outside of people arguing. Research from professionals from all over, different resources and all, history! There’s so much! If I fucking die I’ll die. I’ve known since I was much younger than I am now I’d die young— I expected to be dead before I was 18 for years!

I refuse to die trying to be everyones expected stranger— they’re stranger I pretended to be and wanted to be for so long— I’ll be quiet in this house but I’ll never stop being me. I’ll never stop fighting for myself and for people like me. For people I love, for people who did nothing wrong. I’m so tired, but I can’t stop.

We can’t stop.

I hope, if my family ever finds this account; you do proper research. Do the CRAAP test. Listen to people, educate yourself, look for reliable resources— learn how to find reliable resources and how/why they’re reliable. Think hard and long why you think like you do. Ask difficult questions! Know it’s okay to be wrong!!

If something happens to me, I hope you’re happy or that you’re willing to change and learn who I am or was.

Sorry none of this is really comprehensive— it isn’t meant to be. This whole blog is to help get feelings out so everything here is written in a blind flurry of emotions with no editing or care. I can understand if I sound all over the place. I feel all over the place.

The point is, im upset, im queer, im living my life in fear and my family— wether they want to accept it or not— has played a part in making this country unsafe for me and my friends. For people like me.

The department of Justice has been vocal about it— there’s so many news sources. You’ll have to face it someday. Even if I end up okay, I’ll remember, and someday I’ll be out of this house, and I’ll be me. Fully me. You can come to understand and love me, or you can mourn someone who never was.

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#📸#Navarre FL 2026 #florida 2026

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Made it to Florida! Our condo has a nice view!

#florida 2026 #📸#Navarre FL 2026

I shouldn’t have said anything to blue but I was panicked and not thinking—

If you ever see this im so sorry

I relapsed and what broke the camels back was a fucking math exam I hate it here

It was bad too I accidently stabbed my hand and my legs won’t stop bleeding— I covered the toilet paper in blood so I had to swap it out with the roll in my room— like c’mon are we fr rn Charles? Over math??

I mean it was a lot of things— I bottle everything— and I haven’t been well— but I’m pretty sure it was the exam that was the last straw and that feels so dumb

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Happy Birthday Legoshi!!!🪲

Legoshi is very important to me as a character. I’ve never felt so connected to a character in my life. Our similarities are uncanny, and it made me immediately attach to him and the story of Beastars. We even went through similar growth!

In my head, he’s my big brother and best friend haha