Encapsulated Effervescence

Affectations in a world condemned by lack of applied coagulence

[ffervention]

my thousands of stones

Can’t find my way outta three dollar suit Feel incompetent Feel thrown for a loop

See rapture and roses And fall into dust With the clouds in my eyes Just about to go bust

Where the hell am I going Where the fuck have I been Can feel my blood flowing In and out of my skin

For I must be blind Cannot hear myself scream And the screen On the stage Hides the fear of my dreams

No longer relate to the one I’ve become It’s the clown from the circus In a cage rife with thorns Who is trying to laugh through the tears they must shed Like a coat that’s grown tattered From years long adorned

Yet remains for eternity Constantly cast Hands outstretched waiting For life’s second chance

When it dawns on this mortal Reproached in a shell That the only one quaking is Me while I dwell

Within mind over mind Can I ever be true To the one I’ve held blue And bided my time ‘Tis been here all along Gentle heartbeats align

Hear the thump thump In unison As I stare in the mirror At my greatest achievement That’s been hidden for years

Can I find within reason and break from the ice Can I conquer the distance Without thinking twice

It’s a chance I must take Neither fear or remorse For I’m sure of my image On journey’s recourse

Through the twists and the turns Through the myriad lies Within major league mazes Left lost on the side

I contend and absolve And do hereby attain A contented reminder That I am still Sane though I’m still in a loop And still groping in darkness To get rid of this suit A cheap imitation A steal at three bucks And if you call now I might just give a fuck As my elder is cast among my thousands of stones It’s time for the real me to finally stay home.

Matthew K. (Nuskat) Benjamin 10/19/2020

[ffervention]

my thousands of stones

Can’t find my way outta three dollar suit Feel incompetent Feel thrown for a loop

See rapture and roses And fall into dust With the clouds in my eyes Just about to go bust

Where the hell am I going Where the fuck have I been Can feel my blood flowing In and out of my skin

For I must be blind Cannot hear myself scream And the screen On the stage Hides the fear of my dreams

No longer relate to the one I’ve become It’s the clown from the circus In a cage rife with thorns Who is trying to laugh through the tears they must shed Like a coat that’s grown tattered From years long adorned

Yet remains for eternity Constantly cast Hands outstretched waiting For life’s second chance

When it dawns on this mortal Reproached in a shell That the only one quaking is Me while I dwell

Within mind over mind Can I ever be true To the one I’ve held blue And bided my time ‘Tis been here all along Gentle heartbeats align

Hear the thump thump In unison As I stare in the mirror At my greatest achievement That’s been hidden for years

Can I find within reason and break from the ice Can I conquer the distance Without thinking twice

It’s a chance I must take Neither fear or remorse For I’m sure of my image On journey’s recourse

Through the twists and the turns Through the myriad lies Within major league mazes Left lost on the side

I contend and absolve And do hereby attain A contented reminder That I am still Sane though I’m still in a loop And still groping in darkness To get rid of this suit A cheap imitation A steal at three bucks And if you call now I might just give a fuck As my elder is cast among my thousands of stones It’s time for the real me to finally stay home.

Matthew K. (Nuskat) Benjamin 10/19/2020

[whudunnit]

“The reprogramming of a conditioned mind is a delicate operation that cannot be taken lightly. Multiply that operation by the number of years the programs have been in execution and their extents into the learning processes one experiences on a daily basis and you have an extremely large can of worms you’re opening.”

Nuskat.

[ffervention]

Emended

Though the road ahead may not be smooth

It is filled with obstacles set before us

In order for the lesson to be learned

That we cannot exist on our own,

That we require the help of others

And if we wish to succeed,

We must put away Superman's cape

And come back down to the reality

That strength comes from within and not

From wearing a mask.