FI5HY

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[minotauri]

[louder than everyone] MAN I THINK IT DEPENDS!

[teaboot]

I hate that thing some people do where it's like. "I left my wallet on the table to see if you'd say anything" or "I wanted to see if you'd wash the car if I stopped doing it"

Cause like

I dont know about anyone else

But I am perpetually hovering three inches above the strong subconscious belief that everyone knows what they're doing at all times except me, so if you change your normal patterns and I notice, then I will assume it is an intentional choice with a thought-out plan behind it and I will avoid interfering

And if I don't notice, because I won't, because why would I, because not much bothers me and if you don't say anything to indicate you are bothered then how would I KNOW

[teaboot]

Alternatives to experimenting on me like a lab rat when you suspect me of being inconsiderate:

"I feel like I'm the only one who does this chore. Can we start taking turns?"

"I'd like you to ask me how I'm doing more often."

"It bothers me when this area stays messy so long. Can you do X when Y happens?"

"I feel like the onus is on me to initiate X, and it's wearing me down. Could you try making the first move more? Like 3-4 times a week?"

"I'm feeling upset right now and I'd like to spend some time with you."

"When X happens, I feel like you're taking my work for granted."

"I'm feeling neglected. Could you do X?"

"I'm burnt out and need help."

"I feel like I'm the only one putting effort into X."

"Do you notice this?"

"Are you bothered by this?"

"I am bothered when this happens."

"X habit of yours bothers me."

"When X is like this, I feel bad. Can you [action] when you notice X?"

[hug-your-face]

[6mayhem]

wait i just found out you can be nice to people and be their friend i thought we had to kill them all cause i was raised in a lab to be a living weapon

[fi5hface]

3am migraine thoughts again

I still struggle with the belief that I’m meant to be some solitary person who shouldn’t keep most folks closer than an arm or two’s lengths away. But being pursued by someone who is so into me that they never gave up on me, and not only says nice things but follows through with them is such a strange feeling

At times I may feel like there is no place for me in the world but at the end of the day I have to remember that maybe the little spot at your side is more than I could’ve ever asked for

There is no vitriol here. My secrets are kept. The patience and understanding I’ve been shown are foreign to me, and confusing. But, far from a bad thing. Have my circumstances changed? Or have I changed? Maybe a little of both.

[redstonedust]

becoming too OC pilled will ruin your fandom experience forever. i have invented The Character who is perfectly tailored to my own tastes and not beholden to any writers or showrunners. and i can even make more of them if i want. but watch out.

[kettle-bird]

Jackass Jenny #4 (featuring Clyde): Outcast Solidarity

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[fi5hface]

Today I got some much needed repairs done on my tail!

It held together really well last Anthrocon but Furpoc last year really put it through the wringer. Ending up with a large hole in the side, the internal structure peeling apart and stains from sitting on the floor of the parking garage (genius move by yours truly)

I did clean the stains when I got home last November, but I wanted to treat them a little further today, so I did.

Luckily the hole was in a spot where I could reach the parts that were becoming weaker. A little work to hopefully restore some structural integrity, and we are good.

Looks good, feels much better. And all sewn up once again.

This is a somewhat heavy super motion tail so I wouldn’t be surprised if it starts becoming weak again someday from all the waving back and forth. But I think it should hold up at least a bit longer than it previously did. We will see in time, though. I am definitely not an engineer or physicist.

[queeranarchism]

There needs to be shorthand for "I agree with the basic good that you are defending, but your obsession with winning arguments online has caused you to warp your whole worldview and deny the complexity of reality just to make sure every aspect of the world supports the basic argument that you are defending and you need to stop."

[squeakitties]

following weird horny furries who are into shit like pooltoys and transformation and stuff is enrichment. the vitamins and minerals of posting

[squeakitties]

[twinkenjoyer-deactivated2023083]

once you get over your ass and realise you will never get some people and that’s ok you are basically immune to right wing fearmongering. otherkin? none of my fucking business

[stevishabitat]

[mandate-transgenderism]

I must not fall victim to disgust. Disgust is the heart-killer. Disgust is the little-death that brings total apathy. I will face my disgust. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the disgust has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.

[turbozarky]

hell you may even like it

[utopians]

Passed the White Pharaoh on the freeway

[laikathestar]

[fi5hface]

My latest bootleg patch for my jacket

She jerks my circle til I

[rainformation]

formative years? aren’t they all?

[absolutejamer]

show me a permanent self and i will show you a facade or a corpse

[fi5hface]

1:25-1:48am migraine thought but

wistfully sighing and remembering about when I knew less and didn’t realize how big of an asshole Ben Weasel was

Like there’s only so much I can expect a bunch old punk rockers, being dudes above their 50s rn, politic wise. But it’s always so wild to me. A lot of classic punk rock people are like..

“Alright on tonight’s show we’re interviewing singer of the song Reagan Must Die, 43 years later!”

Singer of famous song “Reagan Must Die”:

“Yeah like uhhh politics are bad actually and like both sides are like equally as bad and like cancel culture is like cancer and like who cares that PunkInThePark I MEAN UNDISCLOSED MUSIC FESTIVAL donated sooooo much money to Republicans and Trump because like we were gonna play anyway like we were gonna make sooo much money and now it’s cancelled because whiney crybabies”

———————

I think the people who try to make activism and whatnot look like “cringe” have a lot of people over 50-ish eating out of the palm of their hand.

Don’t get me wrong tho, there’s plenty of punk artists who seemingly held onto their integrity years later. It’s always just a bummer tho when they don’t. Especially for me who explores and discovers music at a slower pace, I’ll come across a song that I think is interesting, look into the band and find a fresh steamy log of doo doo

Then again Ben was always a prick and not just because of politics. So I have to look at some of the songs he sang with his whole chest and the actions he took and just be like “this dude is confusing as hell”

Edit: okay so I was just poking around online and yeah bro was sent to Elan School apparently, damn! Yeah bro needs a decent therapist like, yesterday. Also we have the same birthday.

[gahdamnpunk]

A QUEEN

[bathroom-stall-musings]

Okay, I don’t normally add on to posts but in this case I’ve got to.

Rachel Ann Bovier is a Pittsburgh legend who has been publishing her poems in city newspapers for decades. In more recent years, she started putting up these bill boards along major roads. For what reason? I have no clue. But I would often pass them on my way to Oakland for therapy. They never failed to cheer me up.

As a young trans writer, they gave me this precious little spark of joy. There was someone like me, a writer, a Pittsburgher, a trans person, who was confident enough to put their face on a bill board! I would always smile as we passed by and my mom took note.

Fast forward a few years and it’s my 21st birthday. My mom has been super excited about my gift and teased me about it over and over again. She said it was the best gift she’d ever gotten me and in many ways she was right. It was a custom poem she commissioned from Miss Bouvier! It congratulated me on my birthday, my academic success, lots of little stuff. It was simple and sweet and perfect.

I’m still not out to my parents about being trans, but that poem serves as a reminder to me that trans people are every where, they are artists, they are all ages, and their visibility is essential. So thank you to Rachel Ann Bouvier for being a great poetess and a Pittsburgh treasure!

[fi5hface]

More Jacket Talk!

Alright well, this month I plan to get a little bit done on my jacket! This weekend, after searching on and off for a while I finally got my hands on some big boy spikes. I was only able to get 10, and considering my jacket is denim, I will have to think very carefully about where I put them so they will be sturdy and not flip over. These spikes require doing damage to the jacket itself, and most of what I do is reversible so I will have to be careful. Somewhere on the shoulders or collar are my most likely candidates. I hope to check that store again once they restock, I may be all spiked out someday. But I have to make sure I don’t “ruin” my jacket I’ve been at forrrrr… damn almost 3 years now.

I am also looking forward to making a few new patches for my jacket. I’m thinking Agent Orange and Circle Jerks because I enjoy those bands. However, I’m running out of space. I may need to remove some of the arm patches and either relocate them or set them aside for now. I will keep my postal label, and probably try to keep the fish bones since it was my first patch. But the dagger and shark jaws, although I think look nice, are essentially just filler.

Sorry if you’re here and not much into the furry things I do, but I will be attending a convention at the beginning of July. So expect to see some jacket work, some work toward my costume and more most likely.

Edit: Also, I hope you enjoy my cat-face clothes hanger. Pretty hardcore I know

[anarchist-art]

[plaguerightsactivist]

taps the sign