based and otome pilled

20's // i love anime, manga, and video games!!

[s0ur-kand1]

💗 world's most mentally stable menhera 💗

adult // they/she/he multifandom + meme + miscellaneous blog!! disabled + autistic

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reading: the vanishing cherry blossom bookshop, lolita

watching: one piece

playing: tomodachi life living the dream, diabolik lovers, gnosia

listening: sweeney todd (broadway 2023), emilie autumn

other hyperfixations: fire emblem, the hundred line -last defense academy-, pokemon, project hail mary, persona

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[transgambit]

what is the truth

[comedyke-deactivated20171209]

they’re married you asshole

[transgambit]

u right, my bad

[h0odierich-deactivated20170708]

[what-ever-what-ever-what-ever]

thats their lesbian daughter

[the-tired-opossum]

@hellsite-hall-of-fame

[olyoil2-deactivated20250812]

People are like “it’s so beautiful no clouds at all” it could use a little clouds if I had to be honest.

[holoprisms]

it literally could use a little clouds if i had to be honest

[freebagels]

[gingik]

No theyre not disorders theyre winning conditions. Ill get 1.5x exp and 1.2x gold at the end of my life

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Like if the field of psychiatry was in any way apolitical and objective the gender/race discrepancies in who gets diagnosed with what definitely wouldn't look like they do

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

It is not a coincidence when the white boy is more likely to get diagnosed with autism or ADHD and the white girl is more likely to get diagnosed with anxiety and BPD and the black kids are more likely to get diagnosed with ODD and schizophrenia and it definitely isn't harmless objective science...

[jacksmysterylabyrinth]

The Mundanity of Invisible Trauma: 'Why Takumi'?

It's been over a year of stewing in it all, and I'm long overdue a general summary: why have I been fixated on Takumi having emotional neglect and related trauma, when there are other characters in the roster who fit the bill more? What's there to see in his story that's really so bad?

Well, leaving my early speculations aside, it isn't about that.

(Also leaving aside other complications with the memories for the time being- that's a conversation for another time)

For one, it's the vibes. It’s the feeling that permeates his background in a way that I feel like doesn’t happen for any other- the sneaking feeling of 'is this really normal' underneath a mask. And sometimes that's enough, especially when the introduction shows self-esteem issues- emotional neglect is one thing that's very much deniable to the sufferer, as well as being hard for other people to notice just looking.

Also, the thing about 'normal' is that it's basically 'all you've ever known', regardless of whether or not everything's 'all right'. So you can have lots of photos that look like everything's fine, but every now and then there's one that looks strained, like the subjects are trying to mask. And, of course there's an explanation. Ex: 'It's a formal photo. That toddler is just sleepy. The sun's in that boy's eyes. It was a bad shot of the mother. They She didn't like that dress.' Except it sticks out like a sore thumb doesn't it? Why are there happy(tm) photos where no one is happy?

In Takumi's case, we see 'snippets' of his mundane home life, with one indicating a wall between him and his only close friend while at school. It could be that he was just annoyed with her that day, or a sign that he was becoming strained around her and he needed space- space to grow, beyond the promise and being the 'psuedo-dad' for Karua. This would be less a matter of his story, were it not apparent that Takumi's codependency problem can extend to the role of Team Leader later, starting from when he cowed into it after awkwardly taking praise.

It's also telling how his authority figure keeps him tied to his 'would-be romantic interest' - similar to how Sirei uses her as motivation - likely since he was very young. So if it happens that young Takumi was strained, he might have had no means of escaping that other than to dissociate early on, while dealing with swathes of his own neglected emotions. It's a basis for him being emotionally disturbed even before being brought into the war, which could explain the 'out of pocket' extreme, suicidal behaviour and self-harm ideation when he is.

The way Takumi sees it, the sirens and their reason for existing are just 'how it is'- and if he has questioned this state of affairs before, he's shut down and rationalised it over the years, something that makes him vulnerable to passive acceptance. Which would follow that the same extends to his own life, with him being at a loss for a point of reference. More importantly, he seems to have cognitive dissonance over the 'normality' in his life vis a vis him and Karua- a part of him knows well that their relationship is not normal to others, but he doesn't seem to interrogate that belief to any real conclusion. Such as, what did that mean? Was it healthy? Was he really the person he wanted to be?

Rather than 'are we normal?' Takumi needed to ask 'are we okay?'

From its basis, the 'plausible deniability' of his issues can be extremely vexing. It can be so easy to over-state what's going on, especially when from his protagonist-perspective there's nothing to be seen. But the matter here is Takumi's habitual lack of reliability to himself- he would determine that nothing was wrong if he couldn't see what was wrong. This 'out of sight, out of mind' attitude to his own problems as well as stubbornness to 'keep normality' is so quintessentially Takumi. It just so happens that this could be a complex trauma response as well.

[in-tua-deep]

I know German has a lot of fun compound words but English does the same thing just with spaces or hyphens tbh

Thinking about this as I message someone about “spring-break-itis” complaining about the number of people who haven’t shown up for their appointments lol

[nihongo-ni-hon-yaku]

Not a translation, but Japanese has an established slang term for “spring-break-itis”, which I’ve seen and heard ever since I was old enough to go on the Internet:

五月病 gogatsubyou — literally “May disease”

It’s exacerbated by how the Japanese school year and fiscal year start in April.

[ruthsic]

Is it also helped by the fact that golden week occurs in May, and there's some excitement towards events/travel during that time (and hence resentment towards having to go to school/work)?

[nihongo-ni-hon-yaku]

Seems like it. Web searches for “五月病 ゴールデンウィーク” show lots of articles defining or describing May Disease as the lack of executive function after Golden Week.

[sobcat]

[2-beadyeyes-deactivated20251104]

me as a silent hill protag : what the heck …?

[2-beadyeyes-deactivated20251104]

what the hell just happened …

[2-beadyeyes-deactivated20251104]

what in god damn is going on here ..?

[2-beadyeyes-deactivated20251104]

what on earth …

[2-beadyeyes-deactivated20251104]

this door is locked.

[2-beadyeyes-deactivated20251104]

what is this ?

[2-beadyeyes-deactivated20251104]

whats going on …?

[ur-favorite-fishgirl]

sex is a distraction from your true purpose in life which is to go to the aquarium and look at the fish and go "wooooooaaah.... fishies". cmon guys we all need to lock in.

[csny]

everymorning: i think im about to die. i think im going to die. im actually going to die. this is it. im going to die. im going to die immediately.

every single night: lock in. OK. Lock In. Change your Life. I love you. Lock in. This is going to be big. I’m going to change the world. Ready? I love you. Lock in. I have an idea. Lock in.

[monkeywiki]

28 year old tumblr users will look at you and say do you remember thwomp day of 2013 when everyone was posting thwomp from mario 64 in different audio

[ruesdeluxe]

[thegroovyarchives]

1996 Wishbone Stickers (via: eBay)

[foryoupeko]

Unofficial The Hundred Line Shipping Poll RESULTS

See everyone responses here

Disclaimer: Please keep in mind that the poll was asking for participants' Top 3 favorite couples. So if a couple ranked low, it's not that no one ships it, but it's not someone's first 3 choices.

[robotgirldreams]

Furi Furi Company postcard scans (2001) by @y2kaestheticinstitute

[xrd]