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KINGDOM ¥ LH44 pt. 2
PAIRING: Lewis Hamilton x dancer!black!fem!reader
SYNOPSIS: Lewis Hamilton has never been a man to let opportunities pass him by. Following your break up with the Prince of Monaco, Lewis wastes no time in showing you exactly what it’s like to be with a King.
CONTENT: smut, fluff, angst, mentions of infidelity (previous relationship with Charles), self worth issues, age gap (reader is mid twenties), Lewis likes to spoil you, Rihanna being a bad bitch.
PARTS: PART 1, PART 2
(Word Count: 8.2k)
AMSTERDAM
THE ANSWER COMES IN THE MORNING WITH A SINGLE TEXT FROM RIHANNA. A grainy picture of you Lewis through the darkened car window. You half in his lap. His hand on your waist. Your mouth very--and you mean very--obviously on his.
Robyn: That’s what I’m talking about. Get it girl.
You make a sound of dread as you sit up in bed, prompting Lewis to stir awake behind you.
“What’s wrong?”
You shove your phone in his face. “It's everywhere!”
Tabloids--That Night
“Midnight Madness: Lewis Hamilton Caught Getting Handsy With Teammate’s Younger Ex-Girlfriend.”
“Backseat Confession? Racing Icon Lewis Hamilton Spotted Getting VERY Cozy with Teammate’s Former Flame.”
“Love in the Fast Lane: Lewis Hamilton and (Your Full Name) Can’t Keep Their Hands off of Each Other After Afterparty.”
There are photos under every one.
At the party: Lewis’s hand at the small of your back while he leans down to hear you over the music, his expression intent in a way cameras love to exaggerate.
Outside the venue: the two of you laughing, your heels in one hand, his suit jacket slung over his shoulder as he ushers you into the waiting car.
And the car. A blurry but unmistakable series through the tinted glass — your body turned toward his, his hand around your waist, your mouth on his, one frame where you’re very obviously straddling his lap while he looks at you like he’s forgotten the world exists.
Your face burns.
Lewis--the bastard--laughs.
A deep, genuinely amused laugh, like he’s reading something ridiculous instead of what is effectively photographic evidence of the two of you making out in the back of a car.
“Lewis,” you say, scandalized.
He looks up, entirely too calm, as he watches you, “They make it sound much more dramatic than it was.”
You stare at him.
“We were literally kissing in a car.”
He shrugs, laying back down and pulling you into him. “Yes.”
“You ripped my panties.”
“I’ll buy you new pairs,” he grins smugly, suddenly maneuvering you until you're straddling his waist.
“Lewis,’ you scold, still gripping your phone. “We have become a scandal!”
His hands settle on your thighs.
“Yes,” he says, hand meeting the back of your neck and pulling down until his mouth brushes yours. “And?”
Your retort dies when he kisses you once, slowly and infuriatingly unconcerned.
~~~~~
Charles almost throws his phone through a fucking wall. It starts with one notification. Then another.
Then a message from Pierre that says only:
Have you seen this?
He opens the link expecting some race commentary, maybe a sponsor story. Instead, he gets a full-screen photo of you in Lewis’s lap.
Charles goes completely still. The room seems to narrow around him.
There’s another picture — the two of you at the gala, Lewis leaning close, his hand on your back. Another outside the venue, his hand at your waist. Another in the car, your mouth on his, his face tilted up to yours with an intimacy that is impossible to mistake.
Charles’s jaw clenches so hard it aches.
He opens another article. And another. Every headline is worse than the last.He scrolls through them, anger building so fast it leaves him lightheaded. Not because you moved on. That’s what he tells himself.
It’s because of Lewis. Because of the optics. Because the press is dragging his name into it. Because Lewis — quiet, unreadable Lewis — had looked him in the eye all season and apparently been circling around you the whole time.
But underneath all those excuses is the thing he refuses to name.
The image of you smiling up at someone else.
The way you’re touching Lewis like you once touched him.
Like the years you spent together, the fights, the apologies, the promises — like all of it could be replaced in one night with a man twice as composed and infinitely harder to read.
Charles throws the phone onto the kitchen counter so hard it skids across the marble.
“Are you serious?” he snaps to the empty apartment, chest heaving.
He paces once. Twice.
Then snatches the phone back up, staring again at the photo in the car.
You look happy. That is what makes something ugly twist in his stomach. Not guilty. Not messy. Not drunk and making a mistake. Happy. Like you aren’t thinking about him at all. Like what happened between the two of you ended exactly when you said it did — and only one of you kept replaying it afterward.
Charles scoffs bitterly, scrubbing a hand over his mouth.
“As if it meant nothing,” he mutters, even though he was the one who cheated. The one who lied, then somehow managed to turn every argument afterward into your failure to forgive him quickly enough.
In his mind, none of that matters right now.
All he can see is Lewis’s hand on you. All he can hear is the teasing from the paddock that will come the second he steps into the garage.
His phone buzzes again.
A video this time. He doesn’t mean to watch it. The clip is halfway down the page, buried between race analysis and endless speculation, a grainy thumbnail with your face caught mid-laugh and Lewis’s hand unmistakably tangled with yours.
Charles knows he should keep scrolling. Instead, he taps it.
The footage is shaky, taken on someone’s phone in the dark. Camera flashes go off in violent bursts, bleaching everything white for half a second before the image snaps back into motion.
But it’s clear enough.
You’re the one leading Lewis. Your fingers are laced through his, tugging him forward down a narrow street crowded with shouting photographers. You’re laughing — head tipped back, cheeks flushed, moving with that loose, unguarded ease of someone who’s had just enough to drink to stop caring who’s watching.
Lewis stumbles half a step behind you and laughs too, low and easy, letting you pull him wherever you want.
Not resisting. Not rushing. Just following. Like he’d go anywhere if you were the one taking him there.
“Lewis! Over here!”
“Are you two together?”
The voices overlap, frantic and sharp. Then another one cuts clean through the noise.
“Lewis—any comment on the tension this is going to cause in the paddock?”
Charles stills. His thumb freezes against the screen. In the video, Lewis slows. Just slightly. He turns his head toward the cameras. For one brief moment, there’s something sharper in his face. A flicker that could almost be a warning. Then you glance back at him and the look disappears. It softens instantly, the hard edge melting into something infuriatingly calm.
He smiles, lazy, content, unbothered. Like the question doesn’t touch him at all.
Like Charles doesn’t touch him at all.
“Ask me when the season starts back up,” Lewis says, voice light, almost amused.
The reporters erupt. Questions come faster, louder.
You tug on his hand again, laughing as you look back at him.
“Don’t encourage them.”
Lewis’s smile widens, smaller than a grin, but somehow more intimate. Like it’s only really for you.
“I’m not,” he says, and lets you pull him forward again.
He doesn’t take his hand back, doesn’t glance at the cameras, doesn’t even bother hiding how naturally he follows when you lead.
And just like that, the two of you disappear into the waiting car together--that same car where you kiss him like he’s what you need to breathe, swallowed by the dark and the crowd and the flashing lights.
Charles replays that part.
Once.
Twice.
Then a third time, though he tells himself he’s only trying to hear Lewis’s answer again.
It isn’t the question that gets under his skin. It’s the handholding.
The way you reached for Lewis first. The way he let you. No hesitation. No surprise. Like that’s normal now. Like letting you touch him is second nature.
Charles pauses the video at the exact moment you turn back to look at Lewis.
Your hand is still in his. You’re smiling at him, bright and careless, and Lewis looking at you — not at the cameras, not at the crowd — you.
Charles knows that look. He used to think it belonged to him. That soft, private expression. The one that makes everything around the two of you seem irrelevant.
He remembers when you used to laugh like that with him. Late nights after events, sneaking outside entrances to avoid cameras, your hand wrapped around his while you pulled him toward some afterparty or empty street or wherever the night happened to take you.
Except now, watching the clip again, something awful settles in his stomach.
You never looked that free with him.
You were happy, yes, but careful.
Always checking if someone was watching. Pulling your hand away before cameras caught too much. Smiling, but with restraint.
This—This is different.
You look like you don’t care who sees.
And Lewis looks like he’s already decided that if anyone has a problem with it, that’s their burden to carry.
Charles replays it again.
This time, he notices the smallest detail. When you tug Lewis’s hand, he tightens his grip before following. Not to stop you. To keep hold of you.
Charles drops the phone onto the bed like it burned him.
But even staring at the ceiling, he can still see it.
Your hand in Lewis’s.
Your laughter.
The way he followed without question.
And for the first time, something ugly and undeniable cuts through all the anger he’s been feeding himself.
It isn’t just that you moved on.
It’s that you look happier doing it than Charles ever let you be.
PARIS
YOUR DISLIKE FOR PARIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH PARIS ITSELF. You just have experiences you’d rather not relive again and Paris had a bad habit of throwing your problems back at you with a violence that could cause whiplash.
That is where Charles finally catches up to you. Of course it had to be Paris.
Paris is 3 for 0. Fuck you Paris, you know what you did.
You walk down the street towards where you planned on meeting Lewis at the end of your separate days out, shopping bags looped over your arm, sunlight catching in your hair. There’s an ease to the way you move now — something that wasn’t there a few weeks ago. No rushing. No checking over your shoulder. No bracing for a message that might ruin your day.
Just movement.
Just you, carrying the remains of a long afternoon and the kind of quiet happiness that sneaks up on you when you stop expecting it.
You’re halfway down the block when you see him.
Charles Leclerc.
Leaning against a parked car like he’s been waiting.
The change in you is immediate.
Not fear. Not even anger, at first. Just a sharp, tired irritation.
You keep walking.
“(Name).”
You don’t stop.
“(Name)—wait.”
His hand closes around your wrist.
And the second his skin touches yours, the memory hits so hard it nearly steals the breath from your lungs.
Your apartment door unlocking after rehearsal. The hallway is still dim. Your dance bag slipping off your shoulder.
A laugh from your bedroom that did not belong there.
The sight of him in your bed.
The woman tangled in your sheets, wearing your robe, turning toward you with startled eyes while Charles stumbled to his feet saying your name like he hadn’t just split something open inside you.
The way you shoved him. Again. And again.
Driving him backward through the apartment while he tried to talk over your anger.
Get out. Get out of my house. Get out.
The slam of the front door. His knocking afterward. His voice muffled through the wood.
(Name), I’m sorry, I love you, it didn’t mean anything. Open the door. Please.
Your stomach twisting so violently you barely made it to the sink before you were sick, one hand gripping the counter hard enough your knuckles ached. The image is repeating in your head. That girl in your bed. In your room. The perfume that wasn’t yours still hanging in the air.
Then the rage. Ripping the sheets off the mattress. Shoving pillows into garbage bags. Scrubbing the counters. The bathroom. The door handle. The floor. Scrubbing until your hands were red and raw and your tears were falling into bleach water because you could not stop feeling like something had been taken from the one place that was supposed to be safe. All of it flashes in less than a second. You yank your arm free so sharply he stumbles back a half-step.
“Don’t touch me.”
Your voice is colder than he expects.
Charles exhales, already unraveling. “You won’t answer my calls.”
You stare at him.
“Yes.”
He blinks, thrown by the simplicity of it.
“That’s all you have to say to me? After everything?”
You adjust the bags on your arm, looking at him like you genuinely cannot believe he’s still making this about himself.
“What exactly are you expecting, Charles?”
“I’m expecting you to stop this,” he snaps, gesturing vaguely. “This thing with Lewis. The traveling, the photos—this is ridiculous.”
You blink, before releasing a short, incredulous sound.
“You think this is ridiculous?”
“Yes,” he says, louder now. “You disappear, you parade around with Lewis Hamilton, you let everyone think—”
“I’m not letting anyone think anything,” you cut in, voice turning sharp. “I’m living my life.”
“With him,” Charles says, like that alone is the offense.
Your expression changes. All the irritation drains out of it. What’s left is something much colder.
“With someone who didn’t cheat on me in my own apartment.”
His mouth opens immediately. Maybe to defend himself, maybe to have the audacity to claim that he loves you. You didn't let him get that chance, “You don’t get to make yourself the hurt party.”
A few people nearby slow. You don’t care.
“You brought another woman into my home,” you say, your voice rising despite yourself. “Into my bed. She was wearing my robe. I threw up, Charles.”
His face pales.
“I had to throw everything out,” you say over him, anger building with every word. “Do you understand that? I stood in my bathroom throwing up because I could not stop thinking about her in my sheets.”
The street grows quieter around you. People are looking now. Charles’s expression fractures.
“I didn’t know you felt—.”
“Of course you didn’t,” you snap. “Because you never paid attention to me unless I was useful to you.”
“That’s not true.”
“Really?” you fire back. “You couldn’t even come to the Tonys.”
“I had a race—.”
“You didn’t even watch,” you say, louder now. “I won the biggest award of my career and you didn’t even watch. But you had time to bring someone else into my home.”
He recoils like you slapped him. A couple at the corner has stopped entirely. Someone discreetly lifts a phone.
Your chest rises sharply, but you don’t stop.
“You made me feel small before you ever cheated,” you say. “Like my work didn’t matter. Like my life only mattered when it fit around yours.”
Charles’s jaw tightens.
“That’s not fair.”
“You made me scrub my own skin raw because I felt dirty in my own apartment,” You confess, “Do you know who sat with me when my hands were bleeding?”
His face changes before you even say it.
“Lewis,” You watch him flinch with satisfaction, “He didn’t ask me to be less to make room for him. He didn’t make me feel embarrassed for wanting to be seen.” Your eyes don’t leave him. “He treated me like I mattered before he ever touched me. He had a race too--but he still watched, he still celebrated me. He made the space. The time. You couldn’t even be bothered to make a fucking instagram post.”
Charles scoffs, but there’s panic under it now.
“He was waiting for this. He’s playing games.”
“Maybe,” you say. “But at least he didn’t destroy my sense of safety and call it love.”
Silence. Heavy. Public.
Charles looks at you like he’s finally realizing that whatever he lost, it isn’t something he can talk his way back into.
“(Name),” he says, voice cracking now. “I love you.”
“You don’t get to say that after I had to sanitize my own home because of you.”
“(Name)—.”
“No.”
You take one step back. Your voice is flat. Final. “We’re done here.”
And as you walk away, there is no trembling despite the unsteadiness in your gut.
No collapse.
Because the woman who sobbed on her bathroom floor surrounded by trash bags full of ruined sheets and stripped bedding is gone.
She disappeared somewhere over the Atlantic — somewhere between Barbados and Milan and Paris, somewhere between Lewis’s hand at the small of your back and his quiet voice telling you that what Charles did did not make you dirty.
At the end of the block, a black car waits.
Lewis is leaning against it, sunglasses on despite the late afternoon light. He does not interrupt. He simply waits.
As if he knew you didn’t need saving. And when you reach him, he takes one look at your face, opens the passenger door, and presses a kiss to your temple before helping you inside.
No questions. No demand for explanation. Just that steady, grounding presence that has become dangerously easy to lean into. As he makes his way around to the driver side door, you miss the way Lewis levels Charles with a sharp warning look. A silent and sure, “Stay in your lane,” conveyed in the silence of the aftermath.
~~~~~~~
The hotel room door clicks shut behind you, soft but final. For a second, you just stand there. Shopping bags slip from your fingers and land in a quiet heap by the entryway, tissue paper spilling out, one handle snapping under the weight. You don’t even look at it, moving deeper into the room. Straight past the bed, past the open balcony doors where late afternoon Paris light spills in, straight into the bathroom like something inside you has decided it can’t breathe anywhere else.
The faucet turns on too hard. Water splashes against the porcelain sink. Cold.
You put your hands under it immediately.
Soap. Lather. Rinse.
Again. And again.
Your breath is sharp, uneven, too fast in your chest. The mirror fogs in broken patches as you lean closer to the sink, scrubbing harder than you need to. Because your skin still remembers. Charles’s hand on your wrist in the street. Too quick. Too familiar. Too wrong. And worse than that—what it pulled up. The apartment. The bed. The woman in your sheets. The moment your world split open and never fully closed again.
Your stomach twists so sharply you brace one hand against the counter while the other keeps washing.
Soap.
Water.
Again.
The bathroom feels too small suddenly. Too bright. Too much. Your breathing sharpens.
“(Name),” Lewis’s voice, quiet behind you.
You don’t turn around.
“I’m fine,” you say immediately. It comes out wrong. Thin. Strained. You keep scrubbing.More soap, lather, scrub.
He steps closer anyway, “Hey,” he says softly.
You shake your head once, like you can physically dislodge the memory.
“I just—.” Your breath catches. “I can still feel him.”
Lewis reaches past you and turns the water off. Silence rushes in immediately. It’s worse than the noise. Your hands stay hovering over the empty sink, dripping. Soap sliding away too slowly. For a second, you just stare at nothing. Then your fingers twitch toward the tap again. His hand catches yours, stopping you from hurting yourself anymore.
“I know it’s stupid,” you say, words coming too fast now. “It’s just—he touched me and I can’t get it out of my head and I feel—.” your voice breaks slightly, “I feel sick.”
Lewis turns you gently, guiding until you’re facing him instead of the sink, when you see him, something in your chest finally cracks open properly. His expression isn’t alarmed, he’s steady, present, “There’s nothing stupid about it,” he says quietly.
You swallow hard.
His gaze drops briefly to your hands, red from scrubbing, then back to your face.
“He crossed a boundary your body still remembers,” he says. “That doesn’t make you weak. It makes you human.”
Your throat tightens. You hate how much you need to hear that.
Lewis lifts your hand carefully, turning your wrist slightly. His thumb brushes over the exact spot Charles grabbed earlier. Then he presses a kiss there, soft and intentional like hes trying to erase the feeling with his mouth. Your breath stutters.
“I’m so proud of you,” he says.
A shaky breath leaves you, and then you’re stepping forward before you even decide to.
Lewis opens his arms immediately and you fold into him.
Forehead against his shoulder, hands gripping the back of his shirt like you need something solid to anchor you to the present. His arms wrap around you, firm and steady, one hand at the back of your head, the other between your shoulder blades, letting you exist there.
After a moment, he shifts back slightly, just enough to look at you.
“You’re here,” he murmurs.
Not a question.
A reminder.
You nod faintly, but your hands are still shaking.
Lewis notices.
Of course he does.
He leans down, slips an arm under your legs before you can protest, and lifts you easily onto the bathroom counter. You let out a small, startled breath.
“There you are,” he says softly, like he’s found you again.
He steps between your knees, one hand resting at your waist, grounding you in place without pressure. And for the first time all day, you stop bracing. Your hands loosen where they’re still curled into his shirt. Your breathing slows. But there’s still something raw under your ribs. Something that hasn’t fully settled. Lewis’s thumb traces the inside of your wrist again.Then he lifts your hand and presses another kiss there.
Your eyes close for a second, heart stuttering violently in your chest.
And when you open them, you’re already leaning toward him. It happens before you fully think it through. You kiss him. It’s quick at first—almost desperate. Your fingers catch in his shirt again, pulling him closer before you can second-guess it. Lewis stills for half a heartbeat. Then he responds, meeting you exactly where you are.
His hand slides to the back of your neck, steadying you as he steps closer between your knees, and the kiss deepens into something slower, more deliberate. Grounding.
Like he’s giving you something solid to hold onto from the inside out. Your breath catches against his mouth. He doesn’t push. Doesn’t escalate.
He just stays with you in it, letting you set the pace without letting you drift away from yourself. When you break slightly for air, he doesn’t go far.
Forehead resting against yours.
You’re both breathing unevenly now, but calmer than before.
His thumb strokes your jaw once.
“You okay?” he murmurs.
You nod, but it’s small, not fully there yet, so he kisses you again, slower this time, deeper and something in your chest finally unclenches.
The sink. The street. Charles’s hand. It all starts to fade at the edges. Not gone. But quieter. Less sharp. When he pulls back again, you don’t chase him this time—you just stay there, forehead still touching his, your hands resting lightly on his shoulders.
Lewis looks at you for a moment like he’s reading something only he understands.
Then he exhales softly.
“There you are,” he says again.
You let out a small breath that might almost be a laugh, still a little unsteady, still a little stunted. He smiles faintly in response before pressing a kiss to your temple. Then your cheek. Then your mouth again—brief, soft, certain. “Tell me what you need, baby.”
You sigh into his mouth, you don’t know. He trails his lips, soft and sweet, down your jaw and your breath hitches slightly, involuntarily. He pauses a moment, mouth against your skin before he continues his path down your neck, his kisses slow, open mouthed, tongue tasting your skin in a way that makes you shiver.
You feel him smile against your skin, “I know what you need,’ he whispered, nipping slightly at the junction of your shoulder and neck, your eyes flutter closed. “Let me give it to you.”
“Hmm?”
“Do you trust me?”
“Yes,” you breathed.
“Good,” he wrapped your legs around his waist and picked you up, carrying you back into the bedroom. He plopped you on the bed and you looked up at him with wide eyes as he looked you over, liking his lips slowly, thoughtfully. His eyes lingered on your pleated black skirt before flicking back up to your face. “Take it off for me, baby, leave the skirt on.”
You find yourself doing what he says, with shaky fingers, discarding your blouse and bra.
“Panties too, skirt stays.”
Your painties join the small pile on the floor, leaving you bare under your skirt. He hums happily and drops slowly to his knees between your legs. Your breath hitched. “What are you doing?”
He looked up at you and your heart stuttered at the dark look in his eyes. “Helping you take your mind off of it,’ his hands trailed up your thighs and you shivered. “Will you let me?”
You hesitated, “No one has ever--.”
He raised his brows looking oddly offended on your behalf, “No one?”
You shook your head shyly. “Not really, one of my exes tried once,” you grimaced, “He bit me.”
Lewis laughed. You smacked him on the shoulder. “It's not funny! Robyn had to take me to the ER, she laughed at me the entire time.”
Lewis dropped his head against your knees chuckling for a moment more before he looked up at you, brown eyes shining. “I promise I won’t bite you, unless you ask me to.”
“I won’t,” you frowned, "I am a soft girl, I like soft things!” You protested, turning up your nose.
He laughed brightly, “That’s not what you said last night.”
“Do not use my vulnerable words against me,” you narrowed your eyes even more and he chuckled, leaning forwards to kiss the frown off your face.
“Yes, of course, my bad,” he kissed you again, deeper this time and you melted into the feeling. “Let me, please?”
“You don’t have to--.”
“I want to,’ he said, looking into your eyes. “Do you trust me?”
You nodded.
He smiled, his hands spreading open your legs slowly, “Can I taste you?”
Your breathing hitched, as you looked down at him. You nodded.
“Use your words for me, baby.”
“Yes. You can.”
“Good,” he pressed a kiss to your knee, pressing a hand to your sternum and you leaned back on your elbows, “Relax, let me help you feel good.”
He trailed open mouthed kisses up your thighs as he spread your legs wider, you couldn’t help but feel a little exposed as you watched him disappear under the fabric of your skirt, your breathing picked up as he drew closer and closer. He spread your thighs open wider. He pressed a warm open mouthed kiss high on your inner thigh, his warm breath on your skin sending a shudder through you.
Then his mouth met you exactly where you needed him, you both moaned at the contact. Your elbows slipped out from under you, back hitting the bed as he licked a long strip through your slit.
He took his time with you, mapping out every reaction, every hitch in your breath, every buck of your hips. He catalogued what made you whine and what made you tremble. Soon he was building pleasure with a slow intensity that made it almost too much but equally not enough.
He sucked gently at your neglected clit and your hand flew to your mouth almost instinctively when a sound slips out of you—too honest, too unfiltered—and you try to swallow it down. It doesn’t work. A low hum leaves him in response, quiet but approving, and it sends a sharp ripple through your whole body that makes your stomach tighten.
“Lewis—."
Your voice breaks on his name.
One of your hands drops to the mattress, gripping the sheets hard like you can anchor yourself there. The other reaches for him without thinking, needing something real.
He notices instantly.
Of course he does.
His arm tightens around your waist, holding you in place—not letting you retreat from the intensity building in your body, but not letting you drift away from it either.
“God,” you whisper. “You’re—."
You can’t even finish the sentence.
Because everything feels like it’s building too quickly now—too concentrated, too focused in a way that makes your thoughts fragment.
You shift slightly, overwhelmed, your body instinctively trying to retreat from the intensity.
“Lewis,” you gasp. “Wait—."
He stills instantly, not fully stopping, but pausing just enough that the pressure eases, enough that you can breathe again, but not far enough for you to come down, the feeling of his breath against your sensitive flesh making you tremble.
“Look at me.”
You do.
It takes effort.
Your vision is a little unfocused, your body still trembling faintly, your pulse loud in your ears. His expression is steady—completely focused on you, not on anything else. Not on anything but how you’re doing.
“You with me?” he asks quietly.
You nod, but it’s shaky.
“Words, baby, I need words.”
“Y-yes .”
“I need you to stay here,” he says, it's not quite given as a command, but more of a grounding point.And something about that—about the way he’s prioritizing you inside this instead of just the moment—cuts through the overwhelm just enough for you to reach for him properly.
Your hand slides up, finding his wrist.
Then his hand.
Your fingers curl around his first.
And then you lace them together.
He responds immediately, tightening his grip—not restricting, just anchoring you back into the present through touch.
You exhale sharply, some of the tension in your chest loosening as your hand stays firmly in his.
“Better?” he murmurs.
You swallow.
“Yes.”
But you don’t let go.
And neither does he.
When he is sure you’re still with him, he starts again, mouth meeting you again, tongue lapping at you with slow confident strokes, like he had already processed all the information he needed to make you tick, to make you whimper.
His thumb brushes slowly over your knuckles, steady and repetitive, like he’s reminding your body how to settle even while everything inside you is still humming. The intensity doesn’t lessen, it burns through you like a slowly creeping fire, your hips twitch up as his mouth moved over you, tilting you
But now it’s different.
Contained.
Shared.
“I’ve got you,” he says quietly, before doubling down. Your breath started coming out in sharp pants, legs trembling, threatening to close around his head, but he forced your legs apart with one strong hand.
Your back arched off the bed, “Fuck! I--Lewis, I’m gonna come--I’m--.”
Your high tore through you with a sharp pulsing heat that rattled through your body, a sharp whine escaping you as you shuddered. Lewis held you down through it, continuing to devour you through your waves and just as you were coming down you were going up again.
“Lewis! Lewis-fuck!”
Your second high detonated through you, a loud sob leaving your mouth as you tried to scramble up the bed, your free hand leaving the sheets to push at his head. “Too much! Too much!”
Lewis lips left your clit with a slick, filthy pop that skittered through your body so hard you sobbed, pushing yourself up the bed, only then did he let you scramble away, still holding your hand, so you didn’t get far.
He followed you up the bed, pressing open mouthed kisses up your sternum, chest and neck until his mouth met your in deep kiss that seemed to short circuit your system, your entire body softening and going lax. You could taste yourself on his tongue, it made you kiss him harder, arm coming up to wrap around his shoulders.
He pulled away just enough to look at your face, a grin pulling at his mouth, “Still thinking about it, baby?”
You blinked, perplexed and dazed, still clinging to him like you needed him to breathe, “About what?”
He laughed and kissed you again, “Good girl.”
Tabloids--That Evening
“Explosive Paris Showdown: Star Calls Out Ex For CHEATING in Her Apartment.”
“ “I Threw Up”: (Name)’s Devastating Public Confrontation With Driver Ex.”
“Tony Winner Leaves Ex Stunned After Street Argument in Paris.”
~~~~~~
Charles calls while you’re still asleep, early in the morning, the sun having just risen. Your phone buzzes once on the nightstand, then stops. A minute later, it lights up again. Then again.
By the fourth call, Lewis finally reaches over with a quiet exhale and picks it up, glancing at the screen before his expression shifts into something unreadable.
Charles.
He looks down at you.
You’re draped on him, dead asleep, wearing his oversized team sweater from the night before because the hotel room had been too cold and he’d tugged it over your head without waking you. The hem barely covers your thighs. One of your hands is curled against his chest, your face tucked into the side of his neck as if that’s where you naturally belong.
His mouth curves up at the thought of it, because you do.
The phone starts ringing again.
This time, Lewis answers.
He doesn’t move you off him. Doesn’t even straighten from his position against the head board, just keeps one arm around your waist and lifts the phone to his ear. “Good morning, Charles. A bit early don’t you think?”
There’s a split second of silence.
Then Charles’s voice explodes through the speaker loud enough that even you stir slightly against Lewis’s chest.
“Why is her phone with you?”
Lewis’s hand slides lazily up your back, soothing when you shift but don’t wake, your breath warm against his neck.
He speaks evenly, almost bored. “A better question might be why you’re calling my lady’s phone this early.”
The silence on the other end is so sudden it’s almost comical.
Then Charles absolutely loses it.
“Your what?” he snaps. “Are you out of your mind? Lewis, what the hell are you doing?”
Lewis says nothing.
Charles keeps going, his voice rising with every word.
“This is about me, isn’t it? You think because your season’s been rough you get to pull some stunt like this? Taking advantage of her just to get under my skin? She was drinking, she—”
Lewis pulls the phone away from his ear as Charles rants.
Not to hang up.
To open the camera.
Still holding you with one arm, he angles the phone just enough.
The photo is almost offensively intimate.
You’re asleep in his lap, wearing Ferrari red but no longer Charles’s. Lewis’ number printed across the back. Your legs are folded over either side of him, your face hidden against his throat. His hand is spread across the small of your back. The hotel sheets are tangled around both of you, sunlight spilling over the bed.
There’s no room for misinterpretation.
You look completely at home.
Lewis sends it.
Then lifts the phone back to his ear.
A beat passes.
Another.
Finally, he asks, calm as ever, “Did you get it?”
Charles doesn’t answer at first.
When he does, his voice is shaking with anger.
“You son of a—.”
“Let’s not resort to name calling, mate,” Lewis cuts him off, not loudly, but with a quiet finality that somehow lands harder. “She is with me now.”
The room stays silent except for your breathing.
Lewis’s fingers move once against your back, absent and almost possessive.
He continues, voice smooth, unhurried, “And she seems very comfortable where she is.”
The sound on the other end is ragged breathing.
Charles says nothing.
Then the line goes dead.
Lewis pulls the phone back from his ear and chuckles slightly to himself, putting your phone back on the nightstand, before pressing a kiss to your head.
~~~~~
In a hotel across the city, Charles stares at the photo for exactly three seconds before throwing his phone hard enough that it smashes against the wall of his apartment and drops to the floor in pieces.
His chest is heaving.
That image won’t leave his head.
You in Lewis’s clothes. Sleeping on him. Wearing his number. The quiet intimacy of it is worse than the tabloids. Worse than the car. Worse than the gala photos.
Because those could have been explained away.
A drunken kiss. A reckless night. A bad decision.
But that picture?
That picture looks like something settled.
Like you woke up in Lewis’s bed and never thought twice about it.
Charles drags both hands through his hair, pacing so hard he nearly kicks over a chair.
He hates the jealousy crawling under his skin.
Hates that Lewis sounded so calm. So smug. Not even taunting — which somehow makes it worse. Like he doesn’t feel threatened by Charles at all.
Like he’s already won.
And what tears at Charles the most is the awful, humiliating suspicion that Lewis might actually mean it.
That he is already that gone over you.
That while Charles was busy convincing himself you’d eventually come back, Lewis simply reached out and took the place Charles left empty — and did it without a second of hesitation.
ZANDVOORT
The next race weekend arrives under a storm of gossip.
Every paddock screen, every entertainment blog, every sports panel has spent the entire week cycling through the same grainy photos of you and Lewis Hamilton in the back of that car. Analysts pretend to talk strategy and lap times, then somehow end up discussing your lipstick on his collar.
And Charles has spent the whole week preparing.
Not for the race.
For you.
He tells himself it’s because closure matters. Because there are things left unsaid. Because if you show up in the paddock — if Lewis brings you there like some statement — Charles is going to pull you aside and say everything he should have said months ago.
That he was sorry.
That he was stupid.
That he still loves you.
That none of this with Lewis means what it looks like.
He rehearses versions of it in hotel mirrors, in the driver gym, walking from engineering to the garage. He builds entire conversations in his head where you look uncertain, where maybe you admit you’re confused, where maybe there’s still some opening.
Then Friday morning comes.
And Lewis arrives alone.
No you.
No dramatic entrance.
No hand at your back. No flash of cameras catching you stepping out beside him.
Just Lewis in team kit and sunglasses, walking into the paddock with a coffee in one hand, looking so calm it borders on offensive.
He looks rested.
Content.
Absolutely stable.
That is what throws Charles off.
Because Lewis should at least look irritated by the circus.
Instead, he looks like a man who slept eight solid hours and woke up with exactly what he wanted.
~~~~~~
The team meeting is tense enough to make the mechanics go silent.
Fred doesn’t even wait for the door to close, before he slaps a tablet onto the conference table. Your face flashes across the screen in a tabloid collage.
“Would anyone care to explain,” Fred says tightly, “why one of my drivers ignored six calls from communications while the entire internet watched him devour his teammate’s ex in the back of a car?”
Silence.
Charles stares at the table.
Lewis, meanwhile, takes off his sunglasses and smiles like he’s being asked whether he’d like cream in his coffee. Then he reaches into the leather bag he set by his chair and places a polished cedar box in front of Fred.
The room goes still.
Fred narrows his eyes.
He opens it.
Inside is a pristine set of rare Cuban cigars, he stares at them for a long moment, then the team principal--with all the fiend composure of a squirrel caught in a trap-- closes the lid slowly and exhales through his nose.
The expression on his face says he knows exactly what this is: an apology wrapped in expensive, utterly unapologetic smugness.
Lewis folds his hands on the table.
“My phone was unavailable.”
Charles nearly chokes.
Fred glares at him for a full five seconds. Then, against every expectation, he tucks the box under his arm and moves on to race strategy. The meeting continues. Charles says nothing.
He forces himself not to look at Lewis. Forces himself not to ask the one question tearing at him:
Where are you?
~~~~~~~
By media hour, the press pack is feral. The first few questions are about tires, upgrades, and the new aero package. Then one reporter grins and asks the obvious.
“Lewis, are the romance rumors true? Are you and (Name) together?”
Lewis leans back in his chair. There’s a beat where he could dodge. He doesn’t. Of course he doesn’t. A slow, smug smile spreads across his face — not flashy, not performative, just deeply pleased. “Yes.”
The room erupts. Camera shutters fire like machine guns. Another reporter jumps in.
“Are you concerned this relationship could create tension with your teammate, given (Name) previously dated Charles?”
Lewis’s expression barely changes as he folds his hands and answers in the same calm tone he uses to discuss tire degradation.
“I don’t feel guilty for treating a woman the way she deserves to be treated.”
The room goes dead silent.
It is such a smooth answer that it takes everyone a second to realize what he actually said. Then every journalist in the room starts talking at once. Across the media line, Charles’s face goes white. Lewis doesn’t even look at him.
“Where is (Name) this weekend? Was she expected in the paddock?”
That same small smile returns, softer now.
“She’s in Los Angeles working on a few projects she’s been excited about for a while.”
The way he says it changes everything. He sounds proud.
Genuinely proud.
“She won’t be around for the rest of the season,” Lewis continues. “Her schedule’s full, and I’m looking forward to seeing what she’s building.”
No possessiveness.
No annoyance.
Only open admiration.
Charles feels sick. Because Lewis says it like supporting you is the most natural thing in the world.
~~~~~~
When it’s Charles’s turn, the room turns predatory. The first question is polite.
“Charles, how do you feel about the public confirmation of Lewis and (Name)’s relationship?”
Charles gives a practiced smile.
“I wish them both well.”
“Were you aware of their relationship before the photos surfaced?”
He shrugs.
“People have private lives. It’s not my concern.”
He’s doing well, too well.
Then someone from the back asks:
“Do you regret cheating on (Name), given Lewis’s comments suggesting she’s being treated better now?”
The air leaves the room, Charles’s jaw tightens. The PR manager in the front row visibly straightens.
Charles smiles — but only with his mouth, “That’s a private matter.”
“Do you think (Name) left because of the infidelity, or because she had already developed feelings for Lewis while you were teammates?”
That does it, The chair scrapes sharply as Charles leans forward.
His voice cuts hard enough that several cameras jerk toward him.
“You people don’t know anything about what happened between us.”
The room freezes. His PR manager is on their feet immediately.
“Last question,” they cut in quickly, stepping toward the podium, but Charles is already halfway standing, anger flushing up his neck.
“You take one photograph and build an entire story out of it—”
“Charles,” the PR manager says sharply.
The warning in their tone finally reaches him. He stops, but only barely.
His hands are shaking, and every camera catches it.
Tabloids--that evening.
“Lewis Hamilton confirms romance with teammate’s ex — responds with quiet class amid media storm.”
“Charles Leclerc visibly rattled after ex goes public with older teammate.”
“One Man in Love, One Man Unraveling: F1 Paddock Drama Reaches Boiling Point."
“(Your Full Name) Spotted in Los Angeles While Romance Headlines Explode Overseas.”
And the photos from LA spread just as quickly.
You wearing oversized sunglasses outside a dance studio in North Hollywood Arts District, carrying a garment bag and iced coffee, completely unaware that half the motorsport world is dissecting your love life. Smiling, busy, moving forward.
While in the paddock, Charles sits alone in his driver room, staring at the article comparing his outburst to Lewis’s composure. The worst part isn’t the headlines. It’s the comments under the photos. Thousands of them. And the one repeated over and over:
She looks happier
MONACO
The café is small and tucked away from the main streets of Monaco, the kind of place you only find if someone brings you here once and you remember it by instinct after that. Quiet enough that conversations don’t carry. Quiet enough that you can breathe without feeling watched. You chose it on purpose.
Neutral ground.
Not Charles’ world. Not yours in any official sense either. Just somewhere in between, where nothing feels like it belongs to him.
You’re already seated when Arthur arrives.
He spots you immediately and slows for half a second at the door, like he needs to confirm you’re actually here before he commits to walking in. Then he does, and you watch him take in the room as if it might change on him halfway across it.
He looks different. Taller than you remember, though you know he has been for a while now. Broader in the shoulders too, the kind of growth that happens when you stop noticing someone every week and start seeing them in snapshots instead.
But his face still gives him away. Still Arthur. Still the same boy who used to trail after you in paddocks, stealing chips from your bag and asking you questions like you had all the answers.
When his eyes land on you, relief softens everything immediately.
“(Name).”
You smile before you can stop yourself.
“Hi, bébé.”
It slips out naturally, like it always has, and you see it hit him in real time. He crosses the room and sits across from you, pulling his coffee closer like he needs something to hold onto. His hands are a little too tight around the cup.
For a few seconds, neither of you speaks. Then Arthur exhales, too fast, like he’s been holding it in since the moment he decided to come, “I’m sorry.”
You don’t even hesitate,“No.”
He frowns immediately. “(Name), I should’ve said something earlier. I should’ve—.”
“Arthur,” you cut in gently, but firmly, you lean back slightly, studying him. “You are not responsible for what Charles chose to do.”
His jaw tightens at the name anyway, “He hurt you.”
You nod once, “Yes.”
The honesty lands between you both without embellishment. Arthur looks down, “I didn’t know how to fix it.”
“You can’t fix it,” you say simply. “It’s not yours to fix.”
That makes him go quiet again. A heavier silence settles.
Then, softer, almost reluctant, he says, “I thought you’d stop talking to me too.”
That one actually stings. Your expression shifts immediately,“Never.” It comes out so fast it almost interrupts his thought entirely.
Arthur looks up sharply, you don’t look away.
“You don’t get to disappear on me just because your brother lost his mind.”
His eyes flicker, emotion catching before he can hide it properly, you reach across the table without thinking and cover his hand with yours.
“And for the record,” you add, because you need him to hear it properly, “you’re stuck with me.”
That earns a shaky breath of laughter from him, “You say that like it’s a punishment.”
“It is,” you say seriously. “For both of us.”
That gets a real laugh out of him this time. Tension loosens slightly around his shoulders. Arthur glances down at your hand over his, “I just didn’t know what to do,” he admits again, quieter. “He’s my brother.”
“I know.”
“And you’re…” He hesitates, searching for something that doesn’t quite exist. “You’re you.”
You raise an eyebrow, “That’s not helpful.”
“It’s true.”
“It’s vague.”
“It’s accurate.”
You sigh, amused despite everything, “You’re terrible at emotional arguments.”
“I’m not having an emotional argument.”
“You are absolutely having an emotional argument.”
Arthur huffs out a breath, finally relaxing a fraction more. For a while, the conversation drifts into easier things. Racing schedules. Travel complaints. The usual nonsense that makes up most of your shared history.
At some point, you lean back in your chair, watching him more than the table, “You know,” you say casually, “I always wanted a little brother.”
Arthur immediately narrows his eyes.
“There it is.”
“There what is?”
“The part where you pretend you’re significantly older than me.”
You blink, “I am significantly older than you.”
“You’re three years older.”
“Which is basically a decade in emotional development.”
Arthur groans and drops his head into his hands. “Oh my God.”
You smile into your drink. “It’s not my fault you’re permanently seventeen in my head.”
“I am twenty-four.”
“A child.”
“I race cars.”
“A child with a dangerous hobby.”
That finally pulls a laugh out of him despite himself.
He shakes his head, still smiling now.
“I regret coming here.”
“No you don’t.”
“I do.”
“You absolutely don’t.”
“You buy me expensive birthday presents and then talk to me like I need supervision.”
“You do need supervision.”
“I really don’t.”
“You once tried to microwave pasta in a hotel kettle.”
“That was one time.”
“It was three times.”
Arthur groans again, but there’s no real frustration in it now. Just familiarity.
“You’re insufferable.”
“And yet,” you say lightly, “you’re still here.”
You both go quiet and smile softly at one another. Arthur sighs, and hooks his ankle with your under the table, and your grin at the familiar gesture.
“Okay, enough emotions," he declares dramatically and you laugh, “Tell me about it, you and Lewis.”
You raise your brows, “Do you really want to hear about it?”
“I want to know that he’s making you happy.”
You smile, “He is.”
Arthur nods, “Good. Because I’ll kick his ass.”
“You’re too French and delicate to kick anyone’s ass.”
He gasps in offence, “I am not French, first of all, second, I’m taller than him--!”
You can’t hear him over your laughter.
~~~~~~
The winter break changes everything. It starts quietly.
One photo from a ski lodge in Switzerland — your face hidden in Lewis’s scarf while he takes the picture, both of you snow-dusted and laughing.
Then another from Christmas: you standing in the kitchen of his family home in France beside his mother, flour on your cheek, Lewis in the background pretending not to watch you with the kind of soft expression that sends the internet into a frenzy.
New Year’s in Monaco, your hand in his, fireworks blurred overhead.
Then his birthday.
A candid shot posted to Lewis’s account — a rare thing in itself — of him seated at a restaurant table, looking up at you like there is nowhere else he would rather be. Your hand is in his hair, his smile small and private.
No caption.
He doesn’t need one.
By the time pre-season testing starts, no one is calling you a rumor anymore.
You are simply understood.
Lewis’s girlfriend.
And somehow, that still feels too small for what the photos show.
AUSTRALIA
The new season opens under fresh regulations and an entirely reshuffled grid.
Lewis should, on paper, be struggling to adapt. Older drivers are supposed to take longer to settle into new machinery. The younger field is hungry, the car is radically different, and the paddock has spent all winter speculating whether his best years are behind him.
Instead, Lewis is in his element.
From the first practice session, he looks terrifyingly composed.
Every lap is precise. Controlled. Like he and the car came to an agreement long before anyone else.
And on Thursday morning, just as the paddock begins to fill—
There you are.
For the first time in months.
In person.
Charles sees you before he registers his own reaction.
You’re standing just outside Lewis’s garage, sunlight catching in your hair, laughing at something one of the engineers says. You’re wearing Lewis’s team jacket, his number stitched large across the back, sleeves slightly too long so the cuffs cover part of your hands.
You look bright and completely unmoved by the fact that half the paddock is staring.
Charles stops walking, actually stops, right in the middle of the hospitality corridor, because for one awful second he forgets how to breathe.
You should look awkward. At least a little uncertain. Instead, you look like you belong there.
And then Lewis walks out of the garage, catches sight of you, and without breaking stride presses a casual kiss to the top of your head before continuing toward engineering.
No performance, just the kind of unconscious affection that only comes from repetition.
Charles feels something inside him drop.
He tries to talk to you that afternoon.
He catches you near the hospitality terrace, alone for the first time all weekend, iced coffee in one hand and Lewis’s paddock pass around your neck.
You turn when he says your name.
And smile.
That is what destroys him, because it’s not forced, not cold, not even angry.
Just polite, almost friendly, like he’s someone you used to know.
“Hey, Charles,” you say easily. There is no trace of the woman who once kicked him out of your apartment, screaming and crying.
He swallows, “I— I wasn’t sure if you’d be here.”
You glance toward Lewis’s garage and shrug lightly.
“Lewis asked if I wanted to come for opening weekend.”
The way you say Lewis’s name is casual and warm and practiced.
Charles hates it.
He searches your face for something — resentment, nostalgia, anything. There’s nothing.
You ask him how winter training went. As if you are making conversation with a coworker. As if he did not break your heart. And before he can figure out how to steer the conversation anywhere meaningful, someone calls your name.
Arthur jogs over, carrying two coffees.
The second he sees Charles, his face hardens.
He hands one drink to you.
“Lewis’s looking for you,” Arthur says, pointedly ignoring his brother.
You thank him, then give Charles a perfectly pleasant smile.
“See you around.”
And just like that, you leave.
Arthur lingers long enough to level Charles with a look that says you did this to yourself.
Then he follows you.
Charles stands there feeling like he’s been erased.
The whole weekend is like that.
You spend time with Noah. With team staff. With Lewis’s family who flew in for the opener.
You laugh in the garage. Sit on the pit wall with headphones too big for your head. Post a blurry picture of Lewis’s helmet to your story with a single heart. And not once do you look at Charles like he matters.
Race day arrives with Lewis starting P2.
Charles starts P4.
The new regulations suit Lewis perfectly. The car rotates the way he likes, stable on entry, aggressive on traction. By lap twelve he’s hunting the leader. By lap twenty-three he takes the overtake in a move so clean the commentators lose their minds.
And once he’s in front, he never gives it back.
The checkered flag falls.
Lewis wins.
After the difficult previous season, after months of questions about decline and retirement and whether the younger generation had finally pushed him out—
He wins the first race of the new era.
The garage erupts.
Charles crosses the line in fourth and barely hears his engineer.
Because on the giant screen above parc fermé, Lewis is climbing out of the car, helmet in hand, grinning with a kind of open joy no one has seen from him in years.
And then he spots you.
You’re already waiting beyond the barriers, wearing his team number, eyes shining.
Lewis doesn’t hesitate.
He walks straight to you, takes your face in both hands, and kisses you in full view of every camera broadcasting live around the world.
The crowd screams.
The commentators stumble over themselves.
You kiss him back without a second of shyness, smiling into it, one hand fisted in the front of his race suit as if you don’t care who’s watching.
Charles goes cold.
Because it hits him all at once.
Not the jealousy, not even the humiliation. The finality. You are not his anymore. You are not waiting for closure or apology or one last conversation and what hurts most is the realization that you were never like this with him.
You had loved him privately. Carefully. Like something to protect.
But with Lewis?
You are loud about it.
Unashamed.
Proud.
As though being loved by him makes hiding unnecessary.
Charles has to look away from the screen because suddenly he cannot stand the sight of it.
By the end of the weekend, the headlines write themselves.
“Lewis Hamilton Returns to Winning Ways Under New Regulations — and Celebrates with Girlfriend (Your Full Name)”
“LOVE AND VICTORY: Lewis Kisses (Name) Live on TV After Stunning Season Opener Win.”
“One Ex Thriving, One Spiraling: Charles Leclerc Overshadowed by Teammate’s Comeback Weekend.”
“(Your Full Name) Returns to Paddock After Winter Romance with Lewis Hamilton — Couple Appear Inseparable.”
The photos are brutal.
Lewis, triumphant, arm around your waist, smiling like the world has aligned.
Charles in the background of another frame, helmet off, expression dark and hollow as he walks away from the podium celebrations.
The contrast becomes the story.
~~~~~~
That night, none of it matters.
The hotel room is quiet except for the distant hum of the city outside.
You’re curled against Lewis in bed, his arm tucked beneath your shoulders, your cheek resting over his heartbeat. He’s fresh from the shower, hair still damp, one hand absentmindedly moving through yours where it rests on his chest.
The winning trophy sits on the dresser across the room, forgotten.
You tilt your head up to look at him.
He’s already watching you.
That same calm, steady expression he wore stepping out of the car after winning, except now it softens in a way no cameras ever catch.
“You were brilliant today,” you murmur.
A small smile touches his mouth.
“You flew in for one weekend and I suddenly remembered how to win.”
You laugh quietly and tuck closer, your leg sliding over his.
He kisses your forehead, then your temple, then just rests his mouth there for a moment.
Nothing pressing in from the outside.
Just the quiet weight of his arm around you and the steady rise and fall of his breathing.You close your eyes, warm and content beyond measure, and let yourself sink into him. Across the world, headlines are still dissecting the kiss in parc fermé. But here, in the dark, with Lewis’s fingers tracing lazy circles over your back and his body curved around yours like he can’t sleep any other way—It feels wonderfully simple.
He won.
And at some point, without either of you saying it out loud, so did you.
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KINGDOM ¥ LH44 pt. 1
PAIRING: Lewis Hamilton x dancer!black!fem!reader
SYNOPSIS: Lewis Hamilton has never been a man to let opportunities pass him by. Following your break up with the Prince of Monaco, Lewis wastes no time in showing you exactly what it’s like to be with a King.
CONTENT: smut, fluff, angst, mentions of infidelity (previous relationship with Charles), self worth issues, age gap (reader is mid twenties), Lewis likes to spoil you, Rihanna being a bad bitch.
PARTS: PART 1, PART 2
(Word Count: 18.9k)
MONACO
THE EMBARRASSMENT HIT YOU SO HARD IT ACHED. You sat quietly in the middle of your apartment, curled up on the floor, your trembling hand clenched around your phone with a force that made your fingers ache. It wouldn’t stop lighting up, buzzing constantly like something alive, frantic, feral-- a beast you couldn’t control. Headline after headline, your name stitched to his, to betrayal, to humiliation. You had stopped reading after the first dozen, after that the words had blurred into a single ugly truth.
Three years. Three years of your life, your love, your time reduced to a trending topic.
You would have laughed if it didn’t hurt so much, you curled up tighter knees pulled up tight to your chest, still dressed in an oversized hoodie you had thrown on three days ago.
The Tony you had won less than two weeks ago sat on the shelf across from you, gold, gleaming and ridiculous, overshadowed by this. It felt like it belonged to someone else now, someone stronger. Someone who had done more than just sit frozen in her apartment, someone who hadn't made a spectacle overnight.
You heard the knock but didn’t move, your phone vibrated again.
Another knock. Slower, more patient.
“(Name),” came a voice through the door, low, warm and unmistakable. “I know you’re in there.”
You squeezed your eyes shut.
“Go away!”
There was a moment of silence, “No.”
Of course not. Stubborn bastard.
The sound of a key in a lock--you forgot that he had one. One time too many of Charles letting your plants wilt after leaving him with a key to water them when you weren’t in Monaco. A quiet interjection from the man opening your door. “I live close by, I can water them for you, just leave me some instructions.”
And now he had access, access that he used shamelessly. Lewis Hamilton stepped into your apartment like he had always belonged there. He didn’t look like the chaos that followed him on track. No helmet, no fireproof suit, just a black sweater, tucked perfectly into a pair of black slacks, sleeves pushed up his tattooed arms, his presence controlled and deliberate. But there was something coiled under the surface with him. Precision. intent .
He closed the door behind him and took in the state of the apartment, dark, stale, smelling a bit too heavily of bleach and other cleaning products, your plants beginning to droop, a quiet mirror of your own disposition. And you, curled up into yourself, small.
His jaw clenched, just briefly, before he gave you a soft look.
“Darling, you look terrible,” he said at last.
You let out a humourless laugh, “Thanks. Genuinely, Lewis, that’s exactly what I need today.”
He didn’t smile, didn’t soften it.
“Good,” he said, kicking off his shoes and stepping further into your space, “Because I’m not here to tell you what you want to hear.”
That got you to finally look at him, take in the expression on his face. It was that same steadiness that he carried on the track. The same one that had unnerved you the first time you had met him three years ago in a paddock lounge on Charles’ arm. He had introduced you to Lewis like it meant nothing.
Lewis had looked at you like it had meant everything, his dark brown eyes sparking as they flicked down your figure.
You’d ignored it. Carefully.
“I don’t want to hear anything,” you muttered petulantly, looking away again, “I want everyone to stop talking about me.”
“They will,” he said simply, offering you what he held in his hand, a bag of chinese food, you could smell the soy sauce and the honey.
“Because that's how it works,” you grouched sarcastically, as you eyed the take out. Your stomach rumbled. You took it with a quiet muttering of gratitude.
But before you could pull away entirely, he stopped, stilled like something had suddenly struck him. “What’s that?”
You blinked up at him in confusion, “What?”
“Your hands, what happened to your hands?”
You go to pull away quickly, but Lewis was quicker, taking hold of your wrist in a firm but gentle grip. Turning your palm up for his observation. Something in his expression shifted, “Baby, what did you do?”
“Nothing,” you try to pull away, but he doesn’t let you. “I didn’t do anything.”
“It’s not nothing,” he says, more firmly now, though his grip stays careful. His thumb hovers just above your skin, not quite touching. “What did this?”
You looked away. “Cleaning stuff.”
His jaw tightens. He exhales slowly through his nose, reining something in.
“Come on,” he says, standing and guiding you up with him before you can argue. “Bathroom.”
“I’m fine,” you insist weakly, stumbling after him anyway.
“You’re not,” he replies, already turning on the tap.
He positions you at the sink, adjusting the water until it runs cool, then gently brings your hands under the stream. The initial contact makes you flinch, but then the sting starts to ease, just slightly.
“There,” he murmurs. “Leave them there.”
You do.
For a moment, neither of you speaks.
The sound of running water fills the space, softer than the noise in your head, quieter than the world outside. Lewis reaches for a towel, then a small first aid kit from the cabinet like he’s done this before, like he’s catalogued your space in ways you hadn’t noticed.
He dries your hands carefully, then begins applying ointment with slow, deliberate movements.
You watch him.
The contrast feels surreal. The chaos of everything else, and then this—his focus, his steadiness, the way he treats your hands like they matter.
Like you matter.
You don’t realize how tight your chest is until it starts to loosen.
For a while, you say nothing.
Then the words slip out.
“He brought her here.”
Your voice sounds small. Not sharp, not angry, but worn thin.
Lewis’s hands still for half a second before continuing.
“In my apartment,” you add, swallowing. “In my bed.”
The words feel heavier out loud.
“I walked in and she was wearing my robe,” you continue, your breath catching. “My things. Like it was nothing.”
Your fingers twitch under his touch.
“Like I was nothing.”
His expression shifts, something darker passing through it, contained but unmistakable.
“I told him to leave. I shoved him out. I got him out, but it didn’t fix it.” You shake your head. “It didn’t make it go away.”
He doesn’t interrupt.
“I tried to clean it,” you admit, quieter now. “I thought if I just scrubbed hard enough…” Your voice cracks. “It would stop feeling like that.”
You look down at your hands, wrapped now in careful bandages.
“But it didn’t.”
The words barely make it out.
“I still feel…” You hesitate, then force it out. “Dirty.”
Silence settles between you.
Lewis finishes wrapping your hands, slower now, more deliberate, then lets them rest in his for a moment.
“Hey,” he says quietly.
You don’t look up.
“That feeling doesn’t belong to you.”
You let out a faint, disbelieving breath. “It feels like it does.”
“I know,” he says. “But it doesn’t.”
He waits until you finally meet his eyes.
“You didn’t do anything wrong,” he continues. “You didn’t cause it. You didn’t deserve it.”
Something in your chest tightens painfully.
“And you’re not carrying it,” he adds, his voice steady. “Not for him.”
You swallow hard.
He leans back slightly, still close enough that you can feel the warmth of him.
“If it helps,” he says, quieter now, “we can get rid of it.”
You blink. “What?”
“The bed. The sheets. Everything,” he says simply. “We start over.”
A breathless sound escapes you, almost a laugh. “That’s extreme.”
“So is what he did.”
You don’t argue with that.
“But not tonight,” he adds. “Tonight we make it hurt less first.”
Your gaze lingers on him.
“Tonight,” he continued, shifting tone just slightly, something more purposeful threading through it, as he moved out of the bathroom, tugging you by the wrist to follow after him, “you’re coming with me.”
Your brow furrows. “I’m not—”
“Finish eating. Shower. Pack a bag.”
“What the hell do you mean by that?” You questioned.
Instead of answering, Lewis moved through your space like he had already decided something. Opening your curtains letting sunlight flood in, too bright, too honest. You flinched back like it burned you.
“Lewis--.”
“Eat, then pack a bag,” He repeated, turning to face you, his expression bright with a sudden boyish excitement.
You stare at him. “Lewis, have you lost your mind--?”
“A bag,” he echoed, “Clothes, shoes, whatever you think you need to make yourself comfortable. I’ll give you an hour.”
Your pulse kicked up, irritation slicing through the fog. “Are you insane? I’m not going anywhere. Have you seen what they’re saying?!”
“Yes.”
“Then you know I can’t just--just parade like--like--.”
“Like what?” He tilted his head, “Like you didn’t do anything wrong?”
You faltered.
“I’m not the one--.”
“Exactly,” his voice dropped, sharper now, “You’re not the one. So why are you hiding like you did something wrong?”
You blinked, opened your mouth and closed it.
“I don’t,” your voice cracked. “I don’t want people looking at me like--.”
“Like what?”
“Like I wasn’t enough.”
Lewis went still. For a moment, something flickered across his face--anger, not at you, but for you. Controlled but there.
Then he walked back over, his steps slow and measured, he stopped in front of you. “(Name),” he started quietly, “you just won one of the biggest awards in your industry.”
Your gaze dropped, your eyes refusing to stray towards the evidence of it.
“You built something people are calling revolutionary. You’ve spent years being exceptional,” he leaned in slightly, forcing you to meet his eyes. “And you think one man’s lack of judgement changes that?”
You felt your lips tremble, “It wasn’t just any man,’ you whispered.
Charles Leclerc, Monaco’s golden boy, Monaco’s unofficial prince. Lewis’ friend, Lewis’ teammate.
Lewis’ jaw clenched.
“I know exactly who he is,” he said evenly, “that doesn’t make him right.”
Silence stretched between you.
“You’re not hiding,” he continued, “I won’t let you.”
Your breath hitched, “Since when did I fall under your jurisdiction?”
A flicker of something almost amused crossed his face.
“Since I decided you do.”
Your heart skipped a beat, annoyance, disbelief…something else.
“You don’t get to just decide things about me.”
“Watch me.”
You huffed out a breath despite yourself, tension cracked down the middle.
“You are unbelievable, Lewis.”
He smiled innocently, “I’m effective,” he corrected.
Another pause, softer this time.
“Why do you even care?” You asked quietly.
The question lingered in the air longer than the others. Lewis continued to study you, like he was weighing how much truth to give you.
“Because I’m your friend and because I have been watching you let yourself be small for three years,” he said finally. “And I’m done with it.”
Your chest tightened, “That’s not--.”
“And because,” he added, voice lower now, more dangerous in its honesty. “I’ve wanted you for just as long.”
You went still, breath catching your throat, he didn’t waver, didn’t look away, didn’t try and take it back.
Your mind inadvertently casts back.
“Come, I want you to meet someone,” Charles dragged you through the crowd, hand clocked around your wrist. His stride is a bit too fast, your heels a bit too tall. “Lewis!”
The crowd seemed to part around the man’s presence. Your breath hitched. You had been following F1 for as long as you could remember, you had watched this man for years, but nothing, nothing had prepared you for seeing him in real life.
Lewis Hamilton commanded attention like he had choreographed it, the crowd moving and swaying with his movement. He looked over his shoulder, spotted Charles first, smiling warmly.
“Charles, how’s it going, mate?”
“Good, good, I wanted you to meet someone,”Charles tugged you forward and suddenly Lewis’s attention was on you, his dark brown eyes steady in a way that made you bite back the urge to squirm.
Your breath hitched as his eyes raked down your figure, eyes lingering on the red dress you had let Charles pick out for you that night, tight, restricting movement. He cocked his head and smiled charmingly, his eyes sparking like something had finally become worth his time.
Charles was casual with your introduction, almost flippant, “Lewis this is (Name)--.”
“The dancer, right?” He held out a hand.
You blinked in shock, reminding yourself to smile and take his hand. His hands were warmer than you thought they’d be, calloused from years behind the wheel, but gentle in a way you hadn’t expected. “Yes , the dancer,” you giggled gently. “It’s nice to finally meet you, Mr. Hamilton, I'm a huge fan.”
“Just Lewis,” he squeezed your hand gently, “It’s nice to meet you too, (Name),” he drew out your name like it was something worth savouring, you shivered, convinced yourself it was the cold. His gaze sparked knowingly.
“I didn’t act on it then,” he went on, calm but unyielding. “Because you were with him. Because I don’t cross lines like that,” he took a deep breath, “ But that line is gone now.”
Heat crept up your neck, equal parts shock and something far more unsettling.
“Lewis…”
“I’m not asking you for anything,” he said, “Not now, not like this,” His gaze sharpened. “But I am telling you that you don’t get to disappear.”
Your heart was pounding now.
“Start eating, take a shower, pack a bag,” he repeated, softer this time, before he turned and began to move around your apartment, turning his attention to your plants already preparing to water them with the familiarity of man who had done it too often.
“Okay,” you whispered, sitting down to eat.
He shot you a smile over his shoulder, nodding softly.
BARCELONA
THE FIRST FEW DAYS WERE QUIET. He didn’t push. Didn’t flirt. Didn’t touch you beyond the occasional steadying hand at your back as you moved through airports and unfamiliar streets. Phones off. No headlines. No noise. Just movement. Bordeaux, then somewhere along the coast of Portugal, then Barcelona.
You slept a lot at first, then you started noticing things again. The way the light hit the water. The rhythm of footsteps on cobblestones. The way Lewis existed in a space, never rushed, always certain.
He watches you the way he always does, quietly, attentively, like he’s been tracking something subtle and important. You have found a little table at a small cafe, sunlight spilling over the table top, a cup of espresso, slowly cooling between your palms.
“You’ve been frowning at that croissant for ten minutes,” he said.
“I’m thinking,” you hum.
“Dangerous.”
You sent him a flat look, huffing but there was less weight behind it, “I used to choreograph in cafes like this.”
He tilted his head, curious, attentive, “Used to?”
You shrug, brown eyes drifting across the square to the street performers across the square. A guitarist. A dancer improvising beside him, messy, untrained…free.
“I don’t know how to explain it,” you admitted as you continued to watch the street performers. “Somewhere between opening night and…everything else, it started feeling like work. Like pressure, like if I stopped being good, I’d disappear.”
The confession took the wind out of your lungs as you sat there.
Lewis leaned back in his seat, studying with his calm steady eyes. “You didn’t stop being good.”
You sighed, eyes still fixed on the dancer, “I don't feel like it.”
“You just started performing for the wrong audience.”
You risked a glance at Lewis, there is no pity there , no softness that feels like condescension, just certainty.
You exhale slowly, looking back at the dancer, you watch her spin, unbalanced but joyful. You watch her for a second longer…then, almost unconsciously you mirror the movement with your wrist, a small flick, a correction against the grain of the table.
Lewis notices.
Of course he does.
He doesn’t say anything, just lets the corner of his mouth lift like he’s seen proof of something he already knows.
Tabloid-- 48 hours later
“From Scandal To Spark? Tony Winner Spotted Having Coffee With Seven Time WDC Lewis Hamilton.”
“Teammate Betrayal? Paddock Insider Steps In Where Ex Failed.”
LAKE COMO
IT'S QUIETER THERE. STILL WATER. SOFT WAVES. NO CROWDS PRESSING IN. You stand at the edge of the dock, barefoot, the hem of your dress brushing your calves. The world feels slower, like it has finally stopped running away from you. It felt safer. But it wasn’t enough to stop the hesitation in your throat.
Lewis stands a few feet behind you, leaning against a post, arms crossed loosely, dressed in soft linen.
“You’re thinking again,” he called.
You rolled your eyes, glancing over your shoulder to peer at his curious expression. “You say that like it's a crime.”
“It depends,” he started stepping towards you. “Are you spiraling or creating something?”
You look back at the water with a low sigh, “You’re not going to like my answer.”
“Try me.”
“Niether,” you admit with a sigh. “Just existing.”
He stopped beside you, not touching but close enough that you felt his body heat, “That’s fair. Existing is good.”
‘Is it?”
“Its better than spiralling.”
“Spiralling is productive.”
“Spiralling is counter productive and you know it,” he huffed in amusement. “Spiralling is what loses people championships.”
“Speaking from experience.”
He nodded slowly, “Twenty years of it.”
“Just existing, then.”
He nodded again, “I’ll allow it for today.”
You roll your eyes, but you’re smiling as you turn back to the water, body swaying to the rhythm of the lake. He stays with you, quiet, present, solid.
Tabloids--the next day.
A blurry photo of you and Lewis standing side by side on the dock. Another of you and him sharing laughter on a boat.
“Sunsets and Secrets: Are They Just Friends? Inside The Rumored Romance Heating up Lake Como.”
“Exclusive: Sources Say Team Is Not Thrilled As Driver Ignores Calls Amid ‘Getaway’ With Teammate's Girlfriend.”
BARBADOS
THE MORNING IN BARBADOS FEELS LIKE ITS ALREADY IN MOTION BEFORE THE SUN FULLY RISES. Music travels before light does--low, insistent drums rolling through the streets, gathering people like a tide. Colour follows. feathers , beads, gold and crystals catching early sunlight, bodies already moving as if the day has no beginning and no end.
You stand at the edge of it, watching the thrumming anticipation begin to build from your place on the balcony, a cup of coffee in hand. You stand for a long moment, long enough to feel that old instinct rise--the hesitation, the awareness of being seen. You hadn't been home on the island for a very long time and it was slowly dawning on you that you might never belong to it properly again.
Behind you Lewis leans against the door frame connecting your rooms, arms loosely crossed, button down fully open, revealing the tattoos on his chest. You force yourself not to stare. You fail spectacularly.
“You’re thinking too much again,” he says.
You roll your eyes as you exhale, still staring down at the parade forming. “I don’t think this is my scene.”
“Your scene is movement,” he retorted, “That’s all this is.”
“That’s not all it is,” you refute, turning to look at him fully, crossing your arms defensively over your chest. “This is…confidence. These are people who don’t have a hundred cameras waiting for them to slip or to suddenly break--.”
“You’ve had cameras on you, your entire career.”
“That’s different, that’s controlled. I chose what the camera saw, the movement it followed. This--,” you gestured vaguely, “This is chaos.”
He watches you quietly for a moment as you place your coffee down on the table.
“And I don’t know how to be in it without looking like I’m trying too hard, or that I’m not enough,” something in your voice falters at that.
He nods, because he no doubt finally sees it now. It’s not fear of dancing, it's fear of being perceived.
Lewis shuffles closer, “You’re not performing for them,” he states, “You’re existing with them.”
You shake your head, “You make it sound easier than it is--.”
‘It is that easy,” he insisted, “You just forgot,’ he tilted his head. ‘And I’m gonna remind you.”
You frowned at him, “And how do you plan on doing that?”
Before he can answer there is a knock at the door, sharp, loud expectant, familiar in a way that makes your stomach clench in dread.
You frowned, “Who is that?”
Lewis smiled sheepishly and moved towards the door, opening it to reveal--.
“You bitch! Why have you not been answering my fucking calls!”
“Shit!” You make a run for it, just barely dodging the shoe hurled your way. You duck into Lewis’ room.
“Absolutely not!” Rhianna’s voice (yes that Rihanna) is sharp and scolding as she marches after you. Hurling another shoe in your direction that actually hits you, right in the gut. You double over with a low wheeze. “Been calling your phone for weeks! Had me thinking that you had died. Then you have the audacity to come to my island looking all pathetic and sulky bringing down the atmosphere--I swear I could feel your ass down the block!”
“You bitch,” you groaned, shooting her glare. “First of all, I’m not sulking--second, that shit hurt.”
“Oh you think that hurts, wait till I put my hands on you--.”
“Wait! Wait!” You shriek, running across the room onto the bed as she raises a perfectly manicured hand to smack some sense into you. “I’m sorry! I’m sorry!”
Rihanna glared at you, pointing at you threateningly, “Get down here!”
“No! You’re going to hit me!” You whined.
“If I don't, who will, hmm? Get down--.”
“No!”
“(Name),” she said sharply, accent thick, “Get your ass down here! Because if I go up there I promise you it will be so much worse--.”
You looked at Lewis in betrayal, he smiled innocently, like he hadn’t thrown a grenade in your direction.
“Get down here so I can beat your ass, and get you dressed.”
You blinked, “Get dressed? Get dressed for what?”
Rihanna looked back at Lewis who had the sense to step back before she swung on him too, “You didn’t tell her?”
“Tell me what?”
She looked back at you, eyes narrowed, “You’re dancing in the parade.”
You stared in disbelief. “No.”
“Yes,” she said firmly.
“No!”
“Yes!” she lunged for you, but you were too slow to evade her hands, she grabbed you by the leg and dragged you down with a strength that stunned Lewis who made a sound of sympathy as you went toppling off the bed with a thunk.
“Nooo!” You shrieked, clawing at the ground as she dragged you by the leg towards the bathroom.
“Yes! You’re getting dressed!” the Bajan woman ordered, nodding sharply, “Yes--beacuse you’re going out there and you’re shaking ass--yes!”
“No, I’m not!”
‘Yes you are!” She snapped, “Lewis, bring me my bag!”
Lewis stepped forward obediently, handing her the handle of a rolling suitcase. You glared up at him as you slowly disappeared into the bathroom.
“Traitor!”
“I prefer ‘effective collaborator’,” he called after you, “I’ll see you later!”
“No, don't blame him! He’s trying to help you!” The older woman scolded, smacking you sharply, you whined as she slammed the door behind you. “Stupid girl! Tying your self worth to a man. A white man no less! Didn’t mommy and I teach you better?!”
“Ow! Ow! Okay! I’m sorry, sorry,” you winced as she got one more harsh smack to the back of your head. “No more.”
She huffed at you, turning around and lifting the suitcase up onto the sink. “I told you that he was a bad idea,’ she scolded, opening the bag with an aggression that made you weary as you curled up on the tiled floor, pulling your knees up to your chest. “But you didn’t listen to me, now look at you, heart broken, forgetting who are--I could kill him with my bare hands.”
“Robyn--.”
“I told you,” she said again, looking down at you with a stern expression, “That boys like him don’t know how to keep women like us, did you listen to me? No.”
You didn’t mean to linger as you watched him walk away with a slow confidence in his stride that intrigued you. Brown hair, green eyes that looked almost puppy-like.
“That one is a bad idea, babygirl,” Rihanna tutted as she came up beside you, throwing an arm over your shoulder.
“I’m just looking.”
“Uh -huh,” she said doubtfully, “Just looking she says--then you’ll be just bouncing on it--.”
“Robyn!”
“You can bounce on it all you want, but don’t go too far with someone like him,” she warned.
You frowned curiously, “Why not?”
“Little rich, white boy, french--.”
“Monegasques,” you corrected, she waved you off.
“Same thing,” she huffed. “They don’t know how to handle people like us.”
“Us?”
“People who’ve had to hustle to get where they are,” she informed you, “People who had to work three times as hard to get even a fraction of what they have handed to them. Now he looks at you like you’re worth it, like you’re interesting, soon you’ll find yourself walking a step behind him for the rest of your life. Your accomplishments? The ones that you bled for? They won’t hit the same when he’s used to things being handed to him.”
You glanced down the way he left, “He’s not like that.”
Rihanna looks unconvinced, “Maybe he’s not, just don’t shrink yourself down to stand next to him, don’t betray yourself like that.”
“I won't."
You did.
You looked down at your hands, shame curdling in your gut. “I thought he was different.”
She softened, "I know you did, baby, and I’m sorry he wasn’t. Okay, but he doesn’t get to dictate you. Alright? So, you’re gonna get ready, get out in those streets and shake your ass until you remember just how bad of bitch you are, then your choreographing my fucking commercial.”
“Robyn--.”
“No! I don’t want to hear it!” She scolded, pulling a new razor from the bag, “Strip!”
You stared at the razor in horror, “I am not stripping, last time I let you near me with a razor you cut me!”
She clicked her tongue, “That wasn’t on purpose, you sneezed! Strip!”
~~~~~~~
The costume was…a lot. It wasn’t bright and colourful, it was white, which in itself would be enough to draw people’s eyes for miles. Crystals in place of beads, silver wire, feathers that spread out almost an entire foot aside from you, strings of pearls drooping from your neck. There was almost nothing left for the imagination, the silver and the crystals barely covering your breast, instead almost choosing to cup and accentuate you in all the right places--or the wrong places, for someone who didn’t want to be seen.
To add to her masterpiece, Rihanna sprayed you with glitter.
“Fuck you look hot,” she said proudly, taking in her work with an appraising eye. “The poor man won’t be able to take his eyes off you.”
“Robyn--.”
“You and I both know that man is obsessed with you,” she said, adjusting her own costume.
You sighed, holding your head piece, it was too large to put on inside. “He may have said he has feelings for me.”
‘And what are you going to do about it?”
“Nothing.”
“Bullshit,” she shot you a look through the mirror, “You have feelings for him too.”
“I literally just got cheated on--.”
“You’ll get over it by tonight, trust me.”
You glowered at her, “Oh, no, what did you do?”
She winked at you through the mirror, “Nothing yet.”
‘Robyn!”
“Baby!” she turned to you, “you’re allowed to move on, you’re allowed to be happy! He understands you, I can see it.”
“You don’t know that--.”
“He called me, didn’t he?”
That stops you, you stare at her.
“He knew you needed me,” Rihanna continued, “you didn’t even have to say anything,” she motioned to your costume, “And this? You really think this costume just magically fits you like this?”
You looked down at yourself.
“He chose it for you, and knew exactly what would suit you. Nothing flashy just for the sake of it, but something to move how you move. To highlight you instead of swallowing you.”
You swallow thickly, breath hitching, heart hammering in your chest.
“He sees you, has been watching you like he’s needed you to breathe for years-- and you, you’ve been looking at him like you’ve been trying not to for a very long time.”
You don’t deny it.
She grins triumphantly. “Now let's blow his mind.”
~~~~~~
When Lewis sees you in your costume his brain quite literally detonates and he freezes, blinking at you as he tries to find the words. You were stunning. He knew when he picked out the pieces that they would reflect you in a way that would make you look ethereal, but this--this was almost blasphemous.
His eyes flicked down, back up and down again, eyes raking down brown skin that he wanted nothing more than to touch and stain with his hands. He swallowed thickly, unable to say anything for a moment.
“It's too much isn’t it?” The doubt in your voice is enough to snap him out of his stupor.
“No, no,” he shook his head, his eyes shamelessly trailing down your figure again. “It's exactly enough. You look absolutely phenomenal, darling. You look so fucking beautiful.”
For a moment he wondered how you'd look shedding glitter in his sheets as you writhe underneath him, moaning his name, he is quick to shut the thought down as he adjusts his shorts by shoving his hands into his pockets.
“People will stare.”
“That’s the point, baby,” Rihanna cooed, poking you on the nose.
“People will stare anyway,” he said roughly, clearing his throat, stepping closer, getting a whiff of your perfume, something so sweet it makes his mouth water. “The only difference is whether you give them something worth looking at.”
Your eyes meet him finally instead of darting around the room for escape. You take in his expression with steady eyes. “You already know how to do this, you’ve just been pretending you don’t.”
Rihanna claps once, “Exactly. Now stop over thinking and let's go shake some ass!”
You sigh at her and Lewis bites back a grin of amusement.
“Fine.”
~~~~~~
You almost allow the feeling of embarrassment to swallow you whole as you step into the crowd, onto the street.
“Don’t over think it, baby, just move!” Rihanna reassures, already dancing to the beat.
For a moment, you hesitate, it's too much, too loud, too bright. There’s too much skin too little covered, every movement is amplified. The atmosphere demands presence. There is nowhere to hide inside of it.
You force yourself out of it, let the drums take over before you talk yourself out of it.
It starts small, a shift in your hips, a roll through your shoulders. Then the rhythm finds you like an old friend--or maybe you find it first. The crowd isn’t watching you like you thought they would. No sharp attention, no dissecting gaze. Just shared movement, shared energy, everyone feeding off the same pulse.
Rihanna spins beside you, laughing, and you follow without thinking.
For the first time in weeks your body doesn’t feel like it's bracing, it's finally responding.
You laugh brightly as you move, bright, surprised at yourself and you let it carry you.
~~~~~
On the sidelines, Lewis watches you, sunglasses perched on his nose.
He doesn’t step in right away.
He leans back against a barrier, sunglasses low, arms loosely crossed, but there’s nothing detached about him. His focus is fixed, steady, entirely on you.
He tracks the moment it happens. That shift. The second you stop holding yourself back.
He sees it in the way your movements deepen, grow more confident. In the way your smile stops being cautious and becomes something real, something that reaches your eyes. It settles something in him. Not relief. Recognition. He knew it was there. He just needed you to remember.
Tabloids--Midday
“Heartbreak to Heat: Star Choreographer Dances Through Barbados Carnival with Rihanna at Her Side.”
“Moving Too Fast? Lewis Hamilton Watches from The Sidelines As Someone Special Takes the Streets”
The parade spills into something bigger as the day stretches on. A massive, chaotic, sun-soaked party, the music louder now, bass heavier, the air thick with heat and movement. This time Lewis doesn’t stay back, he steps into it. You don’t notice him immediately, mid laugh with Rihanna, breathless, your hair a dark cloud around your head, tight curls reaching out for the setting sun.
Then you turn and there he is. He’s shirtless, shorts hanging perfectly low on his hips, warm skin glistening, tattoos stark against the warmth of him. His braids were down, framing his face with a precision that made you forget to breathe.
You move towards him without hesitation. “You made it,” you say, still breathless, still smiling, “I thought I lost you in the crowd.”
“You didn’t,” he assured, “I was there the entire time.”
Your grin widened, “Liar.”
“Selective truth,” he decided.
You shake your head, but you’re still smiling when you reach for him, pulling at his arm. “Dance with me.”
He shakes his head, “That’s more your forte--.”
“Dance with me,” you insist with a pout, “Please.”
You tug him again, this time he doesn’t resist the pull following you into the crowd. The music is louder there, heavier, the kind you feel rattling in your bones. You move first and he follows, allowing himself to be pulled into your orbit.
The space grows tighter, the crowd pressing in, bodies close enough that there is no room for distance. Lewis’ hands gravitate towards your hips like second nature, anchoring you against the slope of his body.
You shiver at the feeling of his warmth so close. You don’t pull away, if anything, you lean in.
The rhythm moves through both of you, shared and unspoken. Your bare back brushes his chest, then settles there, your movement syncing with his without effort as you sway to the music. Lewis exhales a quiet laugh low in your ear.
“You’re enjoying this,” he murmured, lips brushing the jut of your jaw.
“How can I not?” You ask, tilting your head back slightly, just enough to glance at him. “Like you said, this is my forte.”
The crowd surges around you, music rising, bodies moving as one.
Lewis’ grip tightens slightly pulling you closer. The heat of you is unmistakable now, the rhythm of your body something he feels as much as he sees. For a moment, it’s not about anything else.
Not the headlines. Not the team. Not the past. Just this. Your laughter, light and unrestrained.
The way you lean into him without thinking.
He dips his head slightly, his mouth close to your ear. “There you are,” he says, quieter now.
You don't respond in words. You just turn in his hold, arms sliding up around his shoulders, hands finding the back of his neck and then finding his hair pulling him closer as the music shifts, body rolling into his. And he lets you. Easily.
Tabloids--That Evening
“From Scandal to Carnaval: Star Seen Dancing ‘Without a Care’ In Barbados.”
“New Romance Heats Up---Insiders Say Driver ‘Can’t Take His Eyes and Hands Off Her’.”
Somewhere far away from the music and the cameras Charles Leclerc is staring at his phone like it might just decide that it's playing a joke on him. It started with instagram, he had been stalking your page the days following the first drop of tabloids. Neither you nor Lewis had posted anything on your pages, and so he found himself scrolling through your mutuals (you were Lewis’ only mutual, that should have put alarm bells in his head sooner).
The post pops up on Rihanna's page--which shouldn’t have surprised him, the two of you were close--but it was the brutality of it, clarity that the tabloids couldn’t produce. You dressed--that was being generous--you done up in a carnival costume, white, silver, crystals and pearls, dripping off your body like water, emphasizing every curve and motion captured by the camera. Lewis is all but wrapped up in you, his hands splayed wide on your hips like he had any right to be touching you like that, attention solely on you.
The worst is the caption.
A Queen and her King blessing the streets--that’s what i’m fucking talking about.
“This is ridiculous,’ he muttered, pacing the length of his bedroom.
He finds your number with frantic fingers, he hits the call. It doesn’t even ring, it goes straight to voicemail.
“Cheri, call me back please--this is--call me, we can talk, please.”
He hangs up, paces some more, running a hand through his hair before he calls gain. The same.
“Of course,’ he snapped, accent thickening with frustration. “Of course she ignores me now.”
He pulls up Lewis’ contact, hesitating for half a second before he calls. It rings, no answer.
Charles lets out a short disbelieving laugh, pacing after now, tossing his phone across the room with a frustrated groan. “They think this is funny. This is a game to them.”
Under his frustration there was something else, something sharp and nagging. A creeping realization that he was being left behind.
~~~~~~
To say the party had ended would be a lie. It never really ended, the three of you had just decided to call it a night-- well morning. The sun was already beginning to rise by the time you had made it back to the hotel. You had barely stumbled out of the shower dressed in an oversized crew neck before you collapsed in bed, making yourself comfortable with your head cushioned on Rihanna’s lap before you were out like a light.
Rihanna didn’t seem bothered as she stretched out on your bed, dressed down comfortably, back against the head board as she held one of your hands, observing the scabs over the chemical burns on your palm and fingers.
Lewis sat crosslegged at the foot of your bed, hands resting on his thighs as they both watched you sleep for a moment.
“Chemical burns," he said and the woman glanced at him, brown eyes sharp and contemplative.
“I know,” she said simply, running a finger over your palm.
Lewis looked back down at you, a dip in his brows. “She--she told me that he brought them to her apartment. She found them in her bed, the girl wearing her clothes. Thought that if she scrubbed hard enough it would get rid of the violation of it’ he looked back at Rihanna, “said she still felt dirty.”
Rihanna exhaled slowly, leaning her head back against the headboard. “It’s not the first time she’s done something like this.”
“No?”
“No," she confirmed, she looked down at you before looking back at him. “You probably already know this because she’s talked about it before--she didn’t have the best childhood. Alcoholic father, absent mother. What she doesn’t talk about is just how much that impacted space. Living in a house with no structure, children make their own. The house she grew up in was filthy,’ Rihanna sighed. “I remember it, down the block from our house across the street. The children used to make fun of her for living in a place like that. But what they didn’t notice was how clean she was. Her uniform was pressed, her shoes polished, hair and skin untouched. So I got curious, invited myself over and she took me to a room at the very top of the house, locked with a padlock and key. Her bedroom. And when I tell you that it was so clean existing in it felt like a sin, I’m not lying.”
Lewis felt his expression open up in understanding, “I noticed it before. When I’d go water her plants, at first I thought it was because she wasn’t around enough--.”
Rihanna shook her head, “No that is just her. Cleanliness is her structure. Everything has a place and everything is in its place. It’s safe. She had gotten better, not as highstrung as she used to be, but every once and while when things get hard or don’t turn out she relapses. So imagine coming home expecting that structure, that safety and instead finding a bitch in your bed, wearing your clothes, fucking your man,” the older woman clicked her tongue. “This is not surprising. I’m more shocked that she let him walk away unscathed. That ‘s not like her.”
“She loved him.”
“No,” Rihanna denied, “She loved the idea of him, sold herself to have it.”
“That’s not fair --.”
“It is,” she retorted. “If she loved him, truly loved him she wouldn’t have been looking at you like she has for the past three years.”
Lewis’ breath hitched, he flicked his eyes between you and her, “Like what?”
“Like she can’t have you.”
Lewis’ eyes found you again.
“I’m only gonna say this once, little boy--.”
Lewis’ face scrunched up, ‘I’m older than you--.”
“Shut up and listen,” she waved him off. “If you hurt her I will hunt you down and make you disappear. I know people who know people, who know people, are we clear?”
Lewis forced himself not to smile, convinced she’d kick him off the bed if he did. “Crystal clear.”
Rihanna nodded firmly, “You make her happy. Don’t mess it up.”
“I swear.”
He meant it.
MILAN
THE BOUTIQUE IS QUIET ENOUGH THAT EVERY SMALL SOUND FEELS AMPLIFIED. The faint click of hangers. The distant murmur of a sales associate somewhere out of sight. The private dressing room was curated to perfection, soft lighting, mirrors that flatter, racks of clothing chosen specifically for you that looked more like art than something meant to be worn.
You stand in front of one of the many mirrors in a silk dress that drapes like it was made for you. You hesitate.
“It’s too much.”
Lewis doesn’t look up immediately, eyes on his phone as he scrolls through an email, brows furrowed as if debating if it was worth a response. He’s seated comfortably, one arm draped along the back of the chair.
When he does look, his gaze is slow and appreciative, measured in a way that makes heat rise along your skin. He abandons his phone immediately, tossing it onto the cushion to give you his full attention.
“It's not.”
You shift on your toes, “It’s expensive.”
“Yes.”
He admits it casually.
You frown at him, “Lewis.”
He waves a hand lightly, already dismissing the concern before it fully forms. “I’m rich and I want to spoil you.”
You stare at him, “You can’t just say that like it's a normal sentence.”
Lewis smiles innocently, “It is for me.”
A smile flickers at the corner of your mouth before you can stop yourself, “That’s ridiculous. You’re ridiculous.”
“And yet,’ he gestured to you, “You’re still here.”
You look back at yourself in the mirror, you observe how it drapes over you, how it skims over your curves in a way that feels effortless and deliberate all at once. It should make you feel beautiful, powerful. Certain. Instead you feel yourself shrinking.
Your fingers trace lightly over the fabric at your waist, then still. You gaze lingering on the woman in the mirror like you’re trying to find yourself.
“Too much,” you murmur again, softer this time.
Behind you Lewis moves. You hear him before you feel him, before you see him, his steps unhurried, controlled until he’s directly behind you, close enough that you can feel the warmth of him.
He doesn’t speak for a moment as he takes you in, you watch him observe you through your shared reflection, reading the tension in your shoulders, the way you hold yourself slightly back.
Then he touches you, his hands settling on you hips, firm, grounding, familiar now in a way that makes your breath catch just slightly.
“(Name),” he says quietly.
You meet his eyes in the mirror, uncertain. “I don’t know--.”
“Stop.”
Not sharp. Not harsh. Just enough to stop the spiral in its place.
“Look at yourself,” he says, his voice quieter now, steady in a way that draws your attention instead of demanding it. “Actually look.”
Your instinct is to deflect. It always is. Your gaze flicks up to the mirror, quick and practiced, just enough to register your reflection before you move on. You’ve done this so many times it barely feels like a choice anymore.
His hands, resting at your hips, tighten just slightly. Not enough to restrain you, but enough that you feel the intention behind it.
“Not like that,” he murmurs. “Not the way you do when you’re trying to find something wrong.”
You inhale, the breath catching faintly before settling. His voice doesn’t push, but it doesn’t leave room for dismissal either.
“Look the way I do.”
There is something in the way he says it that makes you pause. No teasing, no challenge, just a quiet certainty that lingers.
So you try.
You lift your chin slightly and let your shoulders settle back, not forcing the posture but allowing it to happen. When your eyes meet your reflection this time, you don’t skim past it. You stay.
You take in the line of your shoulders, the way the fabric of the dress follows your shape instead of fighting it. You notice the way you hold yourself, even now, even with doubt sitting just beneath the surface. There is strength there, whether you acknowledge it or not.
You don’t rush to dismantle it.
Behind you, Lewis watches your reflection, but his focus is on you noticing it.
After a moment, one of his hands leaves your hip. The absence is subtle, but you feel it. You watch him in the mirror as he turns slightly toward the display beside you. His movements are unhurried, deliberate, his attention narrowing as he selects something with care.
When he lifts it, the light catches.
A diamond necklace. Simple in its design, clean and precise. It doesn’t overwhelm, doesn’t try to command attention. It simply exists, catching the light in quiet flashes.
Your breath softens when you realize what he’s doing.
“Lewis—”
“Stay still.”
His voice is gentler now, but just as certain.
You do.
He steps closer, closing the space between you until you can feel the warmth of him behind you. He lifts the necklace and brings it around your neck. His fingers brush lightly against your skin as he fastens it, the touch careful and deliberate. The cool metal settles against your collarbone, a contrast to the warmth of his hands.
His fingers linger just a moment longer than necessary, enough that you feel it fully before he lets go.
When he does, his hands don’t disappear. They return to your hips, thumbs resting lightly against the fabric of your dress as if grounding you there.
“Now,” he says quietly, his voice close to your ear, “look again.”
You do.
This time, your gaze is drawn to the necklace first. It catches the light when you move, not as a distraction but as something that belongs. It doesn’t feel separate from you. It feels like part of the whole.
Your expression shifts, subtly but undeniably. The tension in your features eases. The uncertainty softens.
“You see it?” he asks.
You hesitate, your hand lifting slowly to brush against the necklace. Your fingertips graze the cool surface before falling back to your side.
“I think so,” you say softly.
His hands at your hips tighten just slightly, steadying, you bite back a whimper.
“Not ‘I think,’” he corrects, his voice calm but firm, lips brushing the side of your neck, “You do.”
You meet his eyes in the mirror again. This time, you don’t look away.
“You’re stunning,” he says.
There is no exaggeration in it. No performance, but a certainty.
Something in your chest shifts, settling into place in a way that feels unfamiliar but right.
And this time, it isn’t just because he said it.
It’s because, as you look at yourself, you believe it too.
~~~~~~~~~~~
Milan feels nothing like Barbados.
The air is sharper here, the energy more contained. Everything is curated down to the smallest detail. The streets hum with purpose, and inside the venue, that intensity sharpens into something almost electric.
You sit beside Lewis in the front row, surrounded by a sea of carefully composed faces and calculated indifference. Cameras flash intermittently, but not enough to disrupt the illusion that everyone here is above needing attention.
The dress you wear tonight is different from the one in the boutique, but it carries the same intention. It fits you perfectly, the lines clean, the fabric structured in a way that holds its shape while still moving with you. The diamond necklace rests at your collarbone again, no longer unfamiliar, no longer something you keep reaching for to make sure it is still there. It feels like it belongs now.
The lights dim, and the music begins to build.
The first model steps onto the runway, and your focus shifts instinctively. You lean forward slightly, your attention sharpening in a way that is second nature to you. This is not your exact world, but it is close enough that you understand it immediately. Movement, design, the way fabric tells a story when placed on the right body.
Beside you, Lewis notices the change.
He does not look at the runway at first.
He watches you.
He takes in the way your gaze tracks each look with precision, the subtle changes in your expression when something catches your interest. There is a quiet honesty in the way you react, an unfiltered appreciation when something truly lands.
Then the dress appears.
You still.
It is subtle enough that most people would miss it, but Lewis does not. The fabric moves like it has no weight, catching the light with each step. It is structured, but not rigid, soft without losing shape. It breathes as the model walks, shifting and settling in a way that feels almost alive.
Your gaze lingers.
Your lips part slightly, the smallest shift in your expression softening into something unmistakable.
You do not say anything.
You do not need to.
Lewis’s attention shifts to the runway just long enough to take in the details. The cut, the designer, the sequence in the show. He commits it to memory with the same precision he applies to everything else.
Then he looks back at you.
You are still watching.
Still just a little caught in it.
Something in his expression settles, quiet and certain.
A decision made without announcement.
You do not notice the cameras.
Not really.
But they notice you.
Tabloids--The Next Morning
‘Front Row Fixation: Race Car Driver and Tony Award Winner Turn Heads At Milan Fashion Show.”
"Style and Scandal: New Power Pair Steal Spotlight From Runway."
He does not mention the dress.
Not that night, not the next morning, and not when Milan fades behind you and the two of you move on to somewhere quieter. Somewhere warmer, where the air is softer and the pace slows just enough to breathe.
Time fills in the space. New cities blur into one another, each one marked by shared meals and quiet mornings. You get used to his presence in a way that surprises you, the steadiness of it, the lack of demand. He is simply there, consistent in a way you had not realized you were missing.
The dress slips from your immediate thoughts. Not forgotten, exactly, but no longer at the front of your mind. There are too many other things taking up space now.
It shows up three days later.
There is no buildup. No hint.
You walk into the hotel room and notice the garment bag laid carefully across the bed, positioned with intention rather than carelessness.
You pause.
Something about it feels deliberate.
“Lewis?”
He is by the window, his attention on his phone, posture relaxed in a way that feels almost too casual.
“Open it.”
You narrow your eyes slightly, already suspicious, but you step closer anyway. Your fingers find the zipper, and you pull it down slowly.
Then you stop.
It is the dress. The one from the runway.
For a moment, you do not move. You just look at it, your fingers brushing lightly over the fabric as if you need to confirm that it is real and not something your mind has constructed from memory.
“You didn’t,” you say quietly.
“I did.”
You turn to him, something unsteady flickering across your expression.
“I didn’t even say anything.”
“You didn’t have to.”
He sets his phone aside and walks toward you, his attention settling fully on you now. “You liked it,” he says, as if that alone explains everything.
Your throat tightens, and it catches you off guard.
Not because of the dress.
Because he noticed.
Because he paid attention without being told, without needing it spelled out.
“I…” You exhale softly, shaking your head. “This is too much.”
“It’s a dress.”
“It’s not just a dress,” you reply, quieter now, your gaze drifting back to it. “It’s thoughtful. It’s intentional. You chose it.”
He stops a step away from you, his expression steady.
“Then it is exactly what it should be.”
You look at him, then back at the dress. A slow smile pulls at your lips, small but real.
“I can’t remember the last time someone got me something I didn’t have to ask for,” you admit.
He does not react the way most people would. He does not make it bigger, does not soften into something overly sympathetic.
He simply nods once, like the statement makes perfect sense.
“That sounds like a them problem,” he says.
You let out a quiet laugh, the sound softer than it has been in days. But the feeling that settles in your chest stays. Warm. Unexpected. Yours, without needing to earn it.
“Try it on for me,” he prompts, voice a low whisper.
You do.
Tabloids--That Afternoon
“Gifting Glamour: Insiders say Driver Spoiling Star with High Fashion and Getaways.”
“From Heartbreak to Haute Couture: Has she Found Something Real?”
Somewhere else, far removed from the warmth of your hotel room, the reaction is far less composed.
Charles paces the length of his room, agitation radiating off him in sharp, restless movements. His phone is clutched tightly in his hand, the screen still lit with images he cannot seem to stop looking at.
“This is insane,” he snaps. “He is buying her dresses now? This is not normal.”
Pierre sits across from him, leaning back in his chair, unimpressed by the display.
“It is not for show if she likes it,” he says evenly.
Charles throws his hands up in frustration. “Of course she likes it. Anyone would like it. That is not the point.”
“What is the point, Charles?”
“The point is—” He stops, searching for something that makes sense even to himself. “He is doing this to get at me. The trips, the photos, all of it.”
Pierre watches him for a moment, then speaks plainly.
“You cheated on her.”
Charles stills.
“It was a mistake,” he insisted immediately. “A stupid one.”
“And she is supposed to what?” Pierre asks. “Pause her life while you figure yours out?”
“That is not what I said.”
“It is exactly how you are acting,” Pierre replies. “You do not get to decide how long she stays hurt.”
Charles’s jaw tightens, his gaze dropping briefly before snapping back.
“She is not like this,” he says. “She does not just move on.”
Pierre shrugs slightly. “Looks like she does.”
A sharp, humorless laugh escapes Charles as he drags a hand through his hair.
“This is not her,” he mutters. “This is him.”
“Or,” Pierre says calmly, “this is her without you.”
Charles goes quiet, the words settling heavier than anything else.
His gaze drops back to his phone. Another headline refreshes. Another image.
You, smiling.
Lewis beside you, close, steady, unaffected by the noise surrounding you both.
Charles exhales slowly, but there is no relief in it. Only pressure.
Because for the first time, it no longer looks temporary. It no longer looks like something that will pass. It looks like something real. And something real is a lot harder to undo.
VENICE
He doesn’t make an announcement about the premiere.
There’s no buildup, no careful lead-in. He mentions it the way he mentions everything else, casually, as if it’s just another item on an already full list.
You’re halfway through breakfast when he says it.
“I need you with me tomorrow night,” Lewis tells you, glancing up from his coffee.
You pause, setting your fork down slowly. “That sounds suspiciously like an order.”
“It is,” he replies without hesitation. “Black tie. You’ll like it.”
You study him for a moment, narrowing your eyes slightly as if that will make him elaborate.
“Is this where I find out you’re secretly starring in something?” you ask.
“God, no,” he says dryly. “I was invited. You’re coming with me.”
There’s a brief pause, something quieter settling in the space between you.
“As your date?” you ask, your tone lighter than the question feels.
His gaze lifts to meet yours, steady and entirely unbothered.
“Yes.”
The answer is simple. Direct. No hesitation.
Something warm settles in your chest before you can stop it, unfamiliar enough that you notice it immediately.
“Alright,” you say, softer now.
He nods once, like there was no other outcome. There wasn’t.
~~~~~~~
You know which dress you’re going to wear before you even open the garment bag.
You still open it anyway, fingers brushing over the zipper, a small, unnecessary ritual.
The fabric reveals itself slowly, and there it is.
The dress from the runway. The one you never said a word about. The one he noticed anyway.
You lift it carefully, the material falling into place with an ease that feels almost intentional, like it remembers you. When you step into it, it settles against your body with the same quiet precision it had the first time, no adjustments needed, no second guessing.
The first time was just for him, this time--this was for you.
The diamonds find their place at your collarbone again, cool at first, then warming against your skin as you fasten them. You look at yourself in the mirror. This time, there’s no hesitation. No instinct to rush past it or pick it apart. You recognize what you see.
Not just the dress. Not the way it fits.
You.
Behind you, Lewis adjusts his cufflinks, his focus momentarily elsewhere. Then he looks up, really looks, and stills.
The pause is brief, but it’s there.
“Good choice,” he says.
Your lips curve slightly. “I didn’t have to think very hard.”
“No,” he agrees, with a slow smile. “You didn’t.”
~~~~~~
The premiere is exactly what you expect it to be.
Bright lights cut through the evening, cameras flashing in rapid bursts. The red carpet stretches ahead, lined with people who understand exactly how to be seen, how to move, how to hold attention without appearing to try.
As you step out of the car, your instinct is immediate, you fall half a step behind him. It’s subtle, almost automatic. A familiar reflex to let someone else take the lead, to exist just slightly out of the direct line of focus where it feels safer.
Lewis notices.
He doesn’t comment on it.
His hand settles at your lower back as you step forward, not pushing you, not pulling you, just there. The contact is steady, grounding, a quiet reminder that you are not navigating this alone.
When the first introductions begin, he shifts.
“Have you met her?” he says easily, guiding you forward with a light pressure at your back.
Not presenting you.
Introducing you.
Like you are someone they should already know.
“This is the choreographer I mentioned,” he continues to a producer, his tone casual but intentional. “Tony Award-winning. She’s completely changed the way people think about movement on stage.”
You blink, caught off guard for half a second.
Then something in you straightens.
You step forward, offering your hand. “It’s nice to meet you,” you say, your voice steady again.
The conversation turns toward you.
It doesn’t feel forced. It doesn’t feel staged.
It just… shifts.
Lewis stays beside you, but he doesn’t interrupt, doesn’t redirect attention back to himself. He lets you hold it. It happens again with the next introduction, and the one after that. Each time, he gives you just enough to stand on before stepping back, letting you take the space fully on your own.
When photographers call his name, you feel the pull of instinct again, the urge to step aside and let him handle it.
He doesn’t give you the chance.
His hand finds yours, fingers closing around yours with quiet certainty as he guides you forward with him.
“Together,” he murmurs.
The flashes come quickly, one after another, bright and relentless.
This time, you don’t shrink from it.
You stand beside him, composed, your posture steady, your expression calm. In one frame, your hand rests lightly against his chest. In another, his arm settles securely at your waist.
He doesn’t hide you.
He doesn’t minimize you.
He makes it clear that you are meant to be there.
Tabloids--That Evening
“Red Carpet Reveal: Driver Debuts New Romance With Tony-Winning Choreographer."
“Not Just a Plus One: Inside The Woman Stealing The Spotlight Beside Him.”
“Power Pair Alert? Sources Say He “Couldn’t Stop Talking About Her.”
Inside, the atmosphere shifts.
The noise of the carpet fades into something more contained, more conversational. People cluster in smaller groups, voices lower, attention less performative.
You find yourself speaking with the film’s director almost by accident. What begins as polite conversation shifts quickly into something more engaging.
“You staged that sequence like a continuous shot,” the director says, studying you with interest. “It felt fluid. Almost cinematic.”
Your expression brightens instantly.
“That was the intention,” you reply, leaning in slightly. “I wanted the transitions to feel invisible, like the audience was moving with the performers instead of watching them.”
The conversation deepens from there.
You talk about movement, about framing, about how choreography translates through a camera lens. Your hands move as you explain, mapping out space and timing, your voice lifting with a natural energy that doesn’t need to be performed.
You’re not thinking about how you look.
You’re not thinking about who’s watching.
You’re just in it.
Across the room, Lewis watches.
He doesn’t interrupt or step in. He doesn’t need to.
He sees the shift clearly, the same way he has before, in different cities, in quieter moments.
This is where you thrive.
The way people lean in when you speak. The way you hold attention without asking for it. The way you forget to be self-conscious entirely.
Something like pride settles in his expression, quiet but unmistakable.
When your gaze drifts across the room and lands on him, he doesn’t look away.
He gives you a small nod.
He sees you.
Your smile deepens, just slightly, before you turn back to the conversation.
~~~~~~~
Charles paces the length of his hotel room, his phone pressed tightly in his hand. The silence from you has stretched longer than he expected, longer than he is willing to accept.
He calls again, any one, anybody just willing to talk.
This time, someone answers.
“What?”Arthur answers flatly.
Charles exhales sharply. “Finally.”
“I picked up because I thought this might be important,” Arthur replies. “Clearly, I was wrong.”
Charles ignores that. “Have you spoken to her?”
A pause.
“No.”
“I need to talk to her.”
“That sounds like a you problem.”
Charles’s jaw tightens. “Don’t start.”
“I’m not starting anything,” his brother says. “You already did that when you cheated.”
“It was a mistake,” Charles snaps. “A stupid one.”
“And?”
“And it doesn’t change how I feel about her.”
There’s a short, disbelieving silence on the other end.
“You think that matters right now?”
“She won’t even answer me.”
“Why would she?”
Charles stops pacing. “Because we were together for three years.”
“And you still managed to ruin it.”
Silence settles heavily between them.
Arthur’s voice sharpens slightly.
“You know I liked her,” he says.
Charles frowns. “What does that have to do with anything?”
“I loved her,” he replies. “She was good to you. To all of us.”
Charles looks down, his jaw tightening.
“And now she won’t even talk to me,” his brother continues, something in his voice trembles, not quite rage, something far more hurt. “Not because of anything I did. Because of you.”
The words hit harder than anything else.
“You don’t get to be surprised that she moved on,” he adds. “You gave her a reason to.”
Charles runs a hand through his hair, frustration giving way to something less certain.
“He’s doing this on purpose,” he mutters. “All of it.”
“Or,” his brother says plainly, “he just treats her better.”
Silence stretches.
This time, Charles has nothing to say.
Because beneath the anger, beneath the insistence that this is all calculated, all intentional, there is a quieter truth pressing in.
It might not be a strategy.
It might just be real. And that was so much worse.
~~~~~~
The noise of the premiere fades faster than you expect.
One moment it is all light and motion, cameras flashing, voices overlapping, hands reaching, and then it is gone. Replaced by something quieter, more contained. The low, steady hum of the jet fills the space instead, a constant undercurrent that feels strangely calming after the chaos.
You sink back into the seat, your body finally giving in to the exhaustion you had been holding at bay. Your heels discarded near your seat, abandoned without ceremony the second you stepped inside. The dress still drapes over you perfectly, but it feels different now. Worn. Lived in. Like it has followed you through something.
The diamonds at your collarbone catch the dim cabin light, softer now, less about spectacle and more about presence.
Across from you, Lewis looks entirely at ease. His jacket is gone, sleeves pushed back, collar loosened just enough to soften the sharpness of him. A glass rests loosely in his hand, his posture relaxed in a way that contrasts everything from earlier.
“Where are we going?” you ask, your voice quieter now, like the outside world no longer needs to hear you.
He glances at you, the corner of his mouth lifting just slightly. “Wherever I feel like taking you.”
You let out a soft breath that turns into a faint laugh, shaking your head. “That’s not an answer.”
“It’s the only one you’re getting.”
You study him for a moment, like you might press further, but you don’t. Instead, your gaze drifts to the window. There is nothing but darkness stretching endlessly beyond it. No cameras. No expectations. No one is watching.
Just this.
The quiet settles between you, not awkward, not strained. Easy.
Then, softer, almost before you realize you are going to say it—
“Thank you.”
His attention sharpens immediately, his gaze returning to you.
“For what?”
You hesitate, your fingers brushing lightly against the fabric of your dress as you gather the words.
“For tonight,” you say. “For not letting me disappear into the background.” A small pause follows, your voice lowering just slightly. “For… all of it.”
Something shifts in his expression. Subtle, but there.
“You don’t have anything to thank me for,” he says.
You look back at him, more certain now. “I do.”
“No,” he replies, calm and steady. “You don’t.”
There is no dismissal in it. No arrogance. Just something firm, grounded, like he believes it completely.
You tilt your head slightly, studying him, then exhale softly.
“Then I’ll thank you for something else.”
One brow lifts, just slightly. “Oh?”
“For making me happy.”
That lands differently.
The air seems to shift, the quiet deepening around the words.
For a moment, he doesn’t respond. He just looks at you, really looks, like he is taking in more than what you said, like he is measuring the weight of it.
You feel it.
The space between you feels smaller now, charged in a way that is new and not new all at once.
You shift in your seat, uncurling slowly, turning toward him. There is a flicker of hesitation in the movement, not doubt, but awareness. Of him. Of how close he is. Of how much this moment matters.
Then you close the distance.
Not rushed. Not uncertain.
Your hand lifts, settling lightly against his shoulder, grounding yourself there for just a second before you lean in and press your lips to his.
The kiss is soft at first.
Uncomplicated.
You don’t over think, you don’t hesitate--you let yourself want.
For a brief moment, it stays that way, gentle and steady, your lips brushing his in a quiet, intentional connection.
Then he moves.
His hand comes up to your jaw, warm and firm, his thumb settling beneath your cheekbone as he deepens the kiss. He draws you back in before you can pull away, closing the small distance you left between you with a certainty that sends a quiet shiver through you.
It changes.
There is nothing hesitant in it now. Nothing careful.
It is deeper, hungrier, like something held back for far too long finally given permission to surface. His grip steadies you as he tilts your head slightly, the angle shifting, the kiss becoming something fuller, more consuming without crossing into anything overwhelming.
You feel it in the way he holds you, in the way he doesn’t rush but doesn’t hold back either. Like he has been patient, like he has been waiting, and now that he has you here, he is not letting the moment slip past him.
Your fingers tighten slightly against his shoulder, your breath catching somewhere between one second and the next as you lean into him without thinking.
The world outside the jet disappears completely.
There is no premiere. No headlines. No past pressing in. Only this. Only him.
When the kiss finally breaks, it is not abrupt. It lingers, his forehead brushing yours for a brief second, his hand still at your jaw, his thumb tracing lightly along your skin.
His gaze drops to your lips, then lifts back to your eyes.
“Good,” he murmurs, his voice low, steady, carrying something quieter beneath it.
This time, you don’t question it.
You crawl out of your seat into his lap, knees bracketing his hips, your lips meeting him again with a desperation that makes his breath hitch. His arm wraps around your waist, settling you on his thighs as his mouth meets yours with the same force. Your hand finds the back of his neck, pulling him closer, deeper into you, your tongue flicking into his mouth aching for a better taste of him.
It’s not enough, every kiss, every caress of his hands against your neck, your waist, your thighs is enough to send bolts of desperation down your spine.
“If we weren't on this plane,” he muttered into your mouth, hand tracing up your thigh, pushing up the hem of your dress teasingly, watching you shiver before letting the hem of it fall back down respectfully. He lifted you, adjusting your position to something less likely to cause a public incident. Still settled into his lap, still pressed so close against hom you could feel his heartbeat thumping, his mouth lingering on yours before he slowly drew away. Pressing another kiss to your forehead, your nose, your cheek, your neck. Arms settling around your waist, holding you close.
You settled, barely, skin still thrumming, heart still running, breathing still heavy.
He didn’t have to finish his sentence, the way he held you was statement enough.
NORTH-EAST SARDINIA
YOU START DANCING AGAIN, ITS QUIET AND UNANNOUNCED BUT IT FITS INTO YOUR ROUTINE AS EASY AS A BREATH. The deck of the yacht is large enough to accommodate both of your separate activities. Lewis with his airpods in concentrating on his work out, movements slow and precise. You dance not so far away with your music on a loop, your body remembering the years of discipline, instinct and expression rushing to fill the space you had pushed it out of following the break up with Charles.
You spin, arms cutting clean lines through the air, a little giggle escaping you before you can stop it.
It takes you a moment before you realize that the movement across the deck has stopped. You fall out of your spin and turn to find Lewis watching you, with a soft expression, the barbell he had been in the midst of hip thrusting pushed to the side as he sat with his back against the work out bench.
“Shouldn’t you be preparing for your next race, Sir?” You raised a brow and he grinned innocently.
“I found something more interesting to look at.”
“Did you now?”
“Mhmm, come here,” he motioned for you with two tattooed fingers.
You hummed, crossing the deck to get to him, he pulled you down onto his lap, skimming a hand against your neck as you settled with your knees bracketing his waist, arms wrapping around his shoulders. You smiled sweetly at him. “Hi.”
He grinned in response, “Hi, baby,’ his hand brushed your waist. “I love watching you dance.”
“It was barely anything--.”
“Doesn’t matter,’ he hummed, pressing a kiss to the tip of your nose watching it scrunch. “I love it anyway.”
You hummed in response, thumbs tracing the back of his neck. “Where will we go next?”
Lewis tilted his head back slightly, a quiet encouragement to dig your thumbs deeper into his muscle tissue. “Amsterdam, we’ve been invited to a private party.”
“Sounds fun.”
“Then Paris.”
You groaned, “Ugh, not Paris. I hate Paris.”
He chuckled slightly, “Nobody likes Paris, they just pretend they do--but there’s a specific designer I want you to meet.”
You perked up, “More dresses?”
“Yes and unhealthy amounts of espresso.”
“You spoil me.”
“I like to,” he said simply. “You deserve to be spoiled and I’m rich enough to do it happily.”
“Why?”
“You know why.”
You smiled innocently, “I know, I just like hearing you say it.”
He grinned, leaning forward, his nose nudging yours, “Because I like seeing you happy.”
You closed the distance and kissed him sweetly, smiling softly into his mouth. “You make me happy,’ you whispered before kissing him again.
Lewis cupped your jaw and drew you closer, kissed you deeper. You sighed and pressed against him tilting your head to taste him better, he tasted like the strawberries from his smoothie. You pulled away just far enough to tell him and he giggled into your mouth as he chased your lips.
This kiss was sweet and teasing at first, but gradually grew deeper with every brush of your lips. Soon his hands were scrambling to find skin, sliding up the back of your shirt as you buried your fingers into his hair, undoing his perfectly tied pony-tail, letting his braids fall around his head. He groaned slightly at the feeling of your fingers scraping against his scalp. His hips rolled up and you gasped into his mouth, the intense friction sending shudders up your spine.
“You like that baby?”
“Mhm,” you nodded, kissing him again, hips rolling down with the need to get even closer, he groans, mouth dragging down the side of your neck, his hands down your waist, hands gripping your hips with a force that almost bruises.
“That’s it, baby,” he whispered, guiding your hips in a slow grind, you can feel him through his athletic shorts, hot and hard against your core as you spread your knees open even more, opening yourself up more to every grind. “Take what you need.”
You whine slightly, pulling his mouth back to yours and he pulls you down on to him harder.
It becomes a mess of heat, pleasure and desperation, you can taste nothing but him and the salt of the sea, can smell nothing but him, see nothing but him as the boat rocks to the slow waves of the sea. You grind down more desperately feeling heat crawling up your spine, you moan softly into his mouth and he groans.
“You’re so wet I can feel it through my shorts,” he whispered trailing kisses down your throat. “Is it all for me, baby?”
You nod rapidly, biting your lip to muffle the sounds of pleasure.
Lewis’ hand grips your jaw, his thumb pulling your lip from between your teeth, “No, I wanna hear you. Is it for me baby?”
“Yes , yes,” you whimper out, hands gripping his shoulder for balance as you grind down harder. Lewis’ hips twitch up, his breath faltering.
“Shit,” he moans, hips rock up to meet you grinds, his thumb slipping into your mouth, pressing down against your tongue. The taste of his skin sends a jolt through you as your lips wrap around his thumb, sucking gently without further prompting.
Lewis shudders a low gasp escaping his throat, his eyes fixed firmly on your face. “So pretty, baby, you’re so fucking pretty.”
Your moans pitch, eyes rolling back in your head. He grips your hip with his free hand, keeping the rhythm as you falter. “Are you gonna cum for me?”
You cannot answer as you focus on that sharp thread of pleasure beginning to unravel, hips rocking with desperation, your hands shake against his shoulders, fingers digging into the fabric of his dark blue muscle shirt. Lewis drew his thumb from your mouth to grip your jaw, keeping your face angled towards his as rocked his hips up into yours, the outline of him dragging deliciously over your clit.
You were so close--so fucking close.
“That’s it baby, cum for me,” he groaned. “You look so pretty.”
One more rock of your hips and the knot low in your abdomen snaps, you cum with a sharp sob of his name, body going rigid in his lap as your orgasm crested over you, your knees clenching against his hips, toes curling as he continues to grind up into you, his grip on your waist keeping you right there. “Fuck , Lewis!”
He pulled you into him, kissing you deeply with a low moan as his body shuddered beneath yours, his thighs clenching under yours, his breath faltering.
You slumped against him as the waves subsided, your kisses morphing into something slow, deep and filthy, his hands smoothing down your waist gently, almost reverently. You sighed contentedly into his mouth, your fingers tracing the nape of his neck and he giggled slightly.
You pulled away to look at him, “What’s so funny?”
“You just made me cum in my shorts like a fucking schoolboy,” he chuckled, laying his head against your chest. You laughed, wrapping your arms around his neck, pressing a kiss to his forehead.
“A bit of a waste if you ask me,” you hummed, and he tensed slightly, lifting his head to stare at you scoldingly. “What?’ you questioned innocently.
“Don’t start, I’ll fuck you right on this deck, and I won’t give a damn who sees,” he promised, his eyes dark, a shudder ran up your spine, you went to shift back but he gripped you tightly, drew back in forced yout to feel the damp mess you had both created. You whimpered in oversensitivity, fingers digging into his shoulders scoldingly.
“Too much.”
“Not enough,” he argued, pulling you into another filthy wet kiss.
“Staff will be back soon,” you whispered between kisses.
“I don’t care,” he muttered back, his hands trailing back up under your shirt to grab a hold of your breasts almost reverently, thumbs flicking your nipples, “No, bra? Are you trying to kill me?”
You moaned softly,”It would cause a public incident.”
“Good,’ he hummed, mouthing at your collarbones. “They’ll know that you’re mine.”
“Do you really want anyone else to see me like this?”
That brought him pause, you could see the gears behind his eyes start turning as he stared up at you with a small pout. Then almost as if the universe agreed with your sentiment the sound of the tender getting closer pierced the air. Lewis groaned in annoyance. “They’re gonna be all up in our business now,” he muttered petulantly, hands slipping from under your shirt to wrap around your waist, as he hid his face against your chest.
“You know I can pilot a yacht, right?” You questioned, scrubbing your fingers against his scalp.
He looked back up at you and raised his brows, “You can?”
You nodded, “I’ve lived in Monaco since I was sixteen. I own a yacht. It was my first reckless big girl purchase. Robyn scolds me every time she’s on it. It might not be as luxurious as this one, but it's small enough to not require a staff…private,’ you punctuated your suggestion with a soft kiss to his nose.
“You’re just mentioning this now.”
You shrugged, “You never asked.”
He shook his head and pushed off the floor with a sudden strong motion that made you squeak, arms wrapping around his shoulders as he hiked your legs higher around his waist, you crossed your ankles against his lower back as he walked below deck, towards your shared room before any one could see you.
“I can’t believe you have a yachting licence."
“I can’t believe you don’t have a yachting license," you retorted calmly.
“I did,” he defended, “I just forgot to renew it.”
You couldn’t help but laugh, burying your face in his neck.
AMSTERDAM
THE PARTY WAS A VIOLENT CLASH OF LUXURY AND DELINQUENCY HAPPENING UNDER THE BLIND EYES OF CAMERAS. Men and women dressed to the nines, alcohol flowing like a river, unmarked pills slipping from hand to hand, lines of white powder on tables, blunts rolled with clever fingers, thick cigars being traded like dollar bills, stunning men and women dancing on poles and stages. This was part of your element. You grew up on an island that never really slept, you hustled your way to the top of your field through parties like this and it showed as you moved through the bodies, the music thumping your chest.
The dress you wore bordered on a public incident, loose and a deep bloody red, shimmering under the lights, moving with you, complimenting the way your body moved, its neck so low you could practically see your navel, the hem ending so high up your thighs that the thought of bending over was nonexistent. You were dripped out in gold and diamonds, fun butterfly clips in the thick fluff of your afro.
Lewis was with the host of the party, above the chaos, looking down at the swaying bodies, like a King, looking absolutely sinful in his perfectly tailored blue three piece suit. He had discarded his coat at some point as the heat from below made its way up, his vest unbuttoned, the top three buttons of his shirt open.
You made your back to him like you’d never really left, your hand skimming over his chest possessively with your arrival, as you tucked yourself into his side.
He smiled down at you, arm snaking around your waist, leaning down to kiss you slowly, possessively. “Hi, baby, what have you been up to?”
You grinned mischievously, producing a black box hidden in the folds of your dress. “What I do best.”
Lewis raised his brow curiously taking the offered box and opening it, only to whistle appreciatively at what was inside. The host leaned over curiously, gaping in disbelief.
“Are those--how the fuck did you get those?”
A box of five Cohiba Behike BHK 52 Cigars.
You shrugged, nestling into Lewis as a blast of cool air hit your skin, “I hustled.”
The host raised a brow, “What else did you get?”
You pulled a blunt out from where it was tucked behind your ear, and handed it over with an innocent smile. He raised his other brow as he took the blunt, “You and I both know that’s not all you got.”
Your grin sharpened, and you produced a bottle full of pills, going to hand it over, but before he could take it, you snatched back, raising a sharp brow. ‘That’s not how this works.”
“It's my party.”
“Funny how even at your own party you can’t get the good stuff,” you retorted. “Show me how bad you want them.”
He chuckled, looking at Lewis who shrugged.
“What do you want for them?”
You smiled sweetly, eyes flicking to the item tucked into his front pocket, you leaned over, perfectly manicured nails crawling up his chest teasingly before you plucked it from his pocket. You took a moment to look the fountain pen over before you handed over the pills. You grinned coyly as you twirled the pen between your fingers. “Nice doing business with you.”
He laughed slightly, green eyes trailing down your figure,“I like you.”
Lewis’ grip on you tightened as he shot the host a sharp glare. A quiet but effective, “mine” that had the host holding his hands up in surrender.
“Have a nice night,” he nodded in farewell before disappearing into the crowd.
You turned your attention to Lewis who was watching you with sharp eyes, “Did you take anything?”
You shook your head, “I’m as sober as a judge. Partaking defeats the purpose of parties like this.”
“And what is that purpose?”
You held up your newly acquired pen, “Hustling.”
He took the pen and looked it over curiously, hand skimming over the red jewels inlaid into the pen’s unique pattern. “A bottle of unmarked pills for a pen?”
You smiled, wrapping your arms around his neck, “Baby, this is a Mystery Masterpiece by Montblanc, Van Cleef & Arpels in ruby. It’s over £ 700,000.”
He stared at you in disbelief. “What?”
“A bottle of unmarked pills for something worth a thousand times more, seems like quite the hustle to me.”
“How did you—.”
“Someone gave it to him earlier, he didn’t bother to look twice at it,” you scoffed. “Sometimes the richer the person, the less likely they are to see actual luxury when it passes them.”
“From experience?”
You smiled as you took the pen back, tucking it behind your ear. “I moved to Monaco when I was sixteen. Do you think I did that with hopes, prayers and a pretty face?”
He laughed slightly, eyes darkening as he took in the sharp knowing look on your face. “You hustled.”
“I hustled.”
“That’s hot,” he whispered, leaning down to steal a kiss that stole your breath. You laughed slightly against his mouth, your mind slipping elsewhere before you could stop it.
He noticed.
Of course he did.
He pulled away and watched you curiously,”What?”
“Nothing.”
“No, tell me.”
You sighed, “Charles hated when I did this,’ you looked past Lewis, to the grandeur, the luxury. “He used to say that it was distasteful, that I didn’t have to do it--or continue to.”
“Easy for him to say for someone with a safety net,” Lewis said calmly and you laughed slightly.
“I said the same thing.”
He smiled and drew you back in for another kiss, “I like it. You did what you had to and god forbid a woman has some fun making fools of rich white men.”
You giggled and kissed him again, something in you loosening up. “Come dance with me?”
Lewis frowned playfully, “Baby--.”
“Please! Please!” You grab his hands, intertwining your fingers and tugging him towards the stairs.
He sighed in feigned defeat, letting you pull him with you into the crowd. “Fine, fine, whatever the lady demands.”
~~~~
You and Lewis left the party in a careless flourish of limbs and laughter. You were leading the way to the car, your hand locked with his. There is a sea of paparazzi that linger outside the confines of the party. The moment they spot the two of you flashes go off with a liveliness that nearly blinds you. Before your impromptu adventure you would have cowered, angled your head away but you find yourself ginning as you tug him with you towards the car. They shout questions at the two of you as you pass by.
“(Name)! (Name)! Some think that this is a rebound, what do you have to say to that?”
“(Name)! You look phenomenal sweetheart, is the dress another gift?”
“Lewis! Over here!”
“Is this serious? Are you two together?”
“Lewis--any comment on the tension this is going to cause in the paddock?”
Lewis slowed slightly, face angled towards where the question came from, you didn’t quite hear his response over the yelling and the sound of Camera shutters. But whatever he says, however he says it causes the sea of paparazzi to swell with more questions. You tug on his arm and he looks back at you with a lazy, smugness that makes your stomach flip.
“Don’t encourage them.” you scold, he shrugs innocently.
“I’m not.”
You don’t believe him.
The car ride is anything but innocent, you thank god for the fact that there was a partition separating you from the poor driver in the front seat . Lewis can’t seem to keep his hands off of you.
You had been mid giggling, not because anything was funny, really, but because you had gotten a little tipsy between dances, your shoes kicked off somewhere on the floor of the car, dress hiked up high way passed appropriately and crooked from hours of dancing. Your head tips back against the leather seat, a loose grin still on your mouth as you turn to say something to Lewis you probably won’t bother to remember tomorrow.
You never get the words out.
Lewis kisses you like he’s been thinking about it all night and finally ran out of patience, like he hadn’t been kissing you exactly how he wanted to all night.
It’s not graceful. His hand catches the side of your face a little bit too fast, thumb brushing your cheek as he pulls toward him, and the suddenness makes a surprised laugh slip against his mouth. He kisses you through it anyway, and before you can even think, you’re kissing him back just as hard.
The car takes a turn, and both of you slide slightly across the leather seat, bumping awkwardly into each other. It should break the moment.
It doesn’t.
If anything, it makes you laugh again, breathless into his mouth, and Lewis smiles — just barely, just for a second — before he kisses you deeper, like he’s determined to stop you from talking at all.
You taste like champagne and sugar from the tiny desserts you kept stealing off trays all evening. He tastes like whiskey and mint, and the combination is dizzying enough to make your head spin harder than the alcohol did.
Your hand fists in the front of his dress shirt, wrinkling the expensive fabric without a second thought. At some point, you’ve shifted closer — then closer still — until you’re half in his lap, one knee braced awkwardly on the seat between his legs. Lewis’s hand slides to your waist, steadying you there, firm and warm like he has no intention of letting you move.
Not that you want to.
You kiss him harder, but the angle is wrong and you miss his mouth for a second, lips brushing the corner of his jaw instead. It’s messy enough that you start laughing again, trying to correct it, pressing another kiss to his mouth, then another, each one somehow less coordinated.
Lewis actually laughs this time, low and rough, his forehead bumping yours.
“You are impossible after two drinks,” he murmurs against your lips.
You narrow your eyes, pretending to be offended, though your mouth is still brushing his when you answer. “That was at least four. Be accurate.”
Something in his expression changes at that.
His gaze drops to your mouth, and suddenly he looks at you like the joke didn’t matter at all — like all he heard was your voice and all he can think about is kissing you again.
So he does. This time it’s quieter.
Still intense, still reckless, but slower in a way that makes your chest tighten. His hand slides up your back where your dress dips low, palm warm against bare skin, and he kisses you like he’s savoring it now. Like the rushed edge has softened into something heavier. Your fingers drift into his hair without thinking, and he makes a small sound against your mouth that sends a sharp heat down your spine.
The car slows at a red light.
the sudden stillness making everything feel sharper — your pulse, his hand at your waist, the way both of you are breathing like you’ve been running instead of just kissing in the back of a town car. Lewis rests his forehead against yours, his grip on you still firm, like he doesn’t trust either of you to pull apart now.
For a moment, neither of you says anything.
You can feel his breath on your mouth, warm and uneven. His thumb moves once along your side, just beneath the edge of your dress, and when you look at him, his expression has changed. The teasing ease from the party is gone. So is the smug little smile he’s worn all night whenever someone looks too long at you.
He looks almost overwhelmed.
His gaze flicks over your face — your hair shrinking from the night , lipstick completely gone, lips swollen — and then settles on your eyes. He swallows, like whatever he’s about to say matters more than he wants it to.
“I need you tonight,” he says quietly.
The words are low, rough around the edges, and somehow more intimate because of how carefully he says them. Not demanding. Not assuming.
Asking.
His hand flexes against your waist, just enough to remind you that you’re still half in his lap, your knees pressed into the leather seat on either side of him. He looks at you like he’ll stop if you tell him to. Like for all the intensity in the way he’s been kissing you, this part is entirely yours to decide.
Something in your chest pulls tight.
You don’t make a joke. Don’t tease him for how serious he suddenly sounds. Instead, you smile, a little breathless, a little dazed, and lean in until your lips brush his.
“Yes,” you whisper, and then, because the look on his face makes your stomach flip, you say it again, clearer this time. “Please.”
The tension in him breaks so visibly it almost steals your breath. His eyes close for half a second, like he needed to hear exactly that, and when he opens them again there’s something dark and relieved in his expression that makes heat rush through you.
You kiss him before he can say anything else. It’s not soft this time. It’s immediate, your hands catching his face, his mouth opening against yours like he’s been holding himself back and your answer snapped the last thread of restraint. His hand slides up your back, pulling you fully against him, and the car turning onto the hotel drive barely registers because all you can think about is the way he kisses you now — like your yes means everything.
When the car finally comes to a stop, neither of you moves right away.
Lewis’s lips are still against yours when he murmurs, almost like he can’t help himself, “Thank you.”
The words are so sincere, so unexpectedly tender in the middle of all that heat, that you laugh softly against his mouth.
Then you kiss him again, and this time when the driver opens the door, both of you are already halfway out of your minds.
The hotel room door barely makes it shut before Lewis has you against it.
His mouth finds yours again before the latch clicks, one hand braced beside your head, the other at your waist as though he cannot quite believe you’re actually here — that the answer you gave him in the car still stands now that the elevator ride is over and the hallway is quiet and there’s no champagne left to blame for any of it.
You kiss him back before he can second-guess it.
Hard enough that he stumbles a little, and you both laugh into it, still messy, still a little drunk on the party and each other. His jacket lands somewhere on the floor. Your heels are already gone. The room is all soft lamp light and the city glows through the windows, but you barely see any of it because Lewis keeps looking at you like he’s trying to memorize every expression that crosses your face.
He pauses once, just once, his forehead resting against yours, breathing uneven, his hands framing your face.
“You sure?” he asks quietly, even now, his patience thinner than paper.
You answer by pulling him back down to kiss you, smiling into his mouth when he exhales sharply against your lips, like that was the only answer he needed. He lifted you up hiking your legs up his hips, pressing you hard up against the door as his tongue licked into your mouth.
You can feel how much he wants you through the seam of his pants. There’s no pretending otherwise, the way he’s pressed against you, the heat of him, the way his breathing has already gone uneven, like he’s trying to hold himself back and failing at it.
He rolls his hips into you and a soft broken whine escapes you when you arch into him.
“Lewis,” you breathe against his mouth, your voice trembling with need.
He pulls back just enough to look at you properly, moonlight spilling through the curtains, catching the intensity of his gaze, dark, focused and completely fixated on you.
“Tell me if you need to stop,” he whispers, adjusting his hold on you in a show of strength that sends a shudder up your spine. One hand braced to your back, the other dropping down to cup you through the thin lacy fabric of your panties. You make a sound so guttural, it feels unfamiliar.
You shake your head immediately, fingers tightening against his shoulders, drawing him impossibly closer. “Don’t please. I want you. Now.”
That’s what undoes him. Whatever restraint he was holding snapped deliberately, your panties paid the price of it. Ripped off in one sharp controlled motion that sends need skittering through you like an electrical current. You clench around nothing, heat building in your abdomen at the shock of it. The air feels charged as he uses that same hand to efficiently undo the clasp of his trousers, unzipping and yanking until he was free. Hard and flushed right against your entrance. You whimpered at the heat of him resting against your slick slit.
He groaned at the contact, “So wet for me, baby.”
The air between you is too tight for patience, every second pulling you closer to the edge of something neither of you was trying to avoid. You reached between the two of you, taking hold of him with a trembling hand. He was so thick and long and--fuck a part of you balked at the though of taking him like this--the larger part swelled up proudly at the challenge. You stroked him once, twice, feeling him twitch in your palm before guiding him to where you needed him most.
The blunt head of his cock, notched against your slick entrance, his entire body shuddered.
He took hold of your thigh, hitching it higher up his hip, opening you up wider, pressing you harder up against the door. He pushed in slowly, inch by thick inch, your thoughts scattered violently, your head dropping back against the door with a dull thud as a sky moan escaped your lips. The stretch of him was overwhelmingly beautiful, your leg kicked slightly at his waist at the absolute intensity of it, your toes curling.
His hand tightens against your waist, steadying you, grounding you, keeping you exactly where he wanted you. “Breathe baby,” he cooed, “not even half way.”
You sobbed out the breath you hadn’t realized you had been holding, your hand dropped from his shoulder, pressing against his waist as he continued to sink into you, constant and relentless in his slow penetration. You gasp, sharp and involuntary, “Wait-- wait!” You push against him and the door, sliding up the wood slightly in a futile attempt to run away. “Too much!”
Your pride withered into nothingness.
He stops just enough, to take your restricting hand braced against his abdomen and pin it up above your head, fingers intertwining with yours. A warning and a reassurance all in one. You clench around him with a whimper, tossing your head back and clenching your eyes shut, overwhelmed tears at your lashline, “Too much--.”
“No,” he interrupts, quiet and firm. Unshaken. “Look at me.”
You do, barely.
His other hand slides up your back, anchoring you even closer instead of letting you retreat even an inch.
“You can take it,” he says, steady and sure as he continues his relentless claim of you.
“No I--too big--.”
“You can,” he encourages, he leaves your hand there, above your head, his eyes silently telling you to keep it there for your own good, he drops his hand, thumb circling your clit in slow relentless circles as he continues to work you open. “You can take what I give you.”
You sob, feeling a knot building sharply in your belly.
“You don’t have to pull away from me, baby,” he cooed, leaning forward to kiss you deeply, he tasted like champagne. He pulled away just enough to meet your hazy eyes, thumb circling your clit in fast tight circles. “I’ve got you,” he added, soft and certain. “Everything I give you is yours. I’m yours.”
That sends you over the edge, sharp and sudden, your thighs trembling around his waist as you cry out, your walls fluttering around his length as he finally bottoms out, hips flushed against yours, hand moving back up to grip yours, grounding and firm.
“That’s it baby,” he whispered into your mouth, “Such a good girl for me.”
The two of you stay there for a heartbeat as you come down from your high, breathing each other in.
“Fuck,” he breathes, swallowing thickly, “You feel so good for me.”
You couldn’t answer with words, you rolled your hips into his, urging.
Lewis started moving slow and deep, as you whined both in desperation and oversensitivity. His thrusts were steady and hard, rocking your shoulders into the door with every push. The wood creaked softly behind you, but you couldn’t find it in you to care. Not with him filling you, not with the way his cock dragged deliciously over that spot inside you over and over and over again.
Your high began to climb up once again, a bit too quickly, a bit too sharp, each thrust sending sparks racing up your spine. You tried to keep quiet, biting your lip, pressing your face into his neck but soft desperate whimpers left you with every deep stroke.
“Lewis, perfect--so perfect, right there,” you gasped, barely above a whisper. “Please don’t stop. Please.”
He groaned in response, pace picking up, hips snapping harder against yours. The door rattled dangerously at your back, your shoulders rattling against the wood. He kept one hand braced beside your head on the door, fingers intertwined with yours so tightly it almost hurt, you didn’t care, the other gripping your ass, holding you exactly where he wanted you as he drove into you again and again. The angle was deep, relentless, every thrust grinding against your clit.
Your leg tightened around his hip, back arching off the door as the coil in your belly wound tighter. You could feel your orgasm building fast, threatening to crash over you any second. “I’m close,” you whimpered against his skin. “Don’t stop…please-”
“I’ve got you,” he rasped, voice strained. He shifted just slightly, angling his hips to drag against that spot more deliberately. “Come for me, baby. Let me feel you.”
And he does.
He always does.
Everything tightens, builds, spills over — and he stays right there with you through all of it, refusing to let distance exist between you even for a second.
When it finally breaks, you’re shaking against him, clinging to his shoulders as he holds you steady through it. You buried your face in his shoulder to muffle your cry as your walls clenched rhythmically around him, pulsing hard with every wave. Your whole body trembled against the door, thighs shaking, vision whiting out for a moment as the orgasm tore through you.
He follows a moment later, a low sound breaking from him as his grip tightens just slightly at your waist,burying himself to the hilt with a choked groan, hips stuttering as he comes hard inside you. You felt every pulse, every warm spurt, his body pressed tight to yours, breathing rough against your skin like he’s riding it out with you instead of apart from you. His forehead drops to yours as everything goes still again. For a while, neither of you moves. You just breathe, clinging to that warmth, existing in the quiet aftermath of something neither of you tried to control anymore. Then he kisses you, slower now, deeper, almost reverent. Your legs felt like jelly, but Lewis’ strong frame kept you upright, his forehead resting against
“God, baby…you’re incredible.”
You smiled, dazed and glowing, still pinned sweetly between him and the door. “So are you,” you whispered back, fingers gently stroking the back of his neck, before drawing him in for another kiss.
Eventually he moves, still holding you, still keeping the two of you connected as you walk towards the bed, breaths softening between kisses.
Later, you’re half asleep on your stomach, the sheets tangled around your legs, your skin still warm from everything that happened before. Lewis is beside you, close enough that every slow breath he takes brushes your shoulder.
His fingers move lazily over your bare back, tracing absent patterns against your skin — circles, lines, the occasional pause at the base of your spine like he’s distracted by the simple fact that he can touch you whenever he wants now.
The room is quiet except for the muted city outside and the soft rustle of sheets when either of you shifts.
You should be drifting off, but one thing keeps replaying in your head.
The way his voice had gone low and certain earlier. The way he had held you and said ‘I’m yours’ like it was the simplest truth in the world.
You lift your head slightly, turning just enough to look at him. He’s on his side now, one arm bent beneath his head, hair a complete mess, all the polish from earlier gone. He looks younger like this. Softer. But his eyes are still on you, alert in the dim light. Your voice comes out quieter than you mean it to.
“Did you mean that?”
His hand stills. The lazy pattern on your back stops entirely. His gaze sharpens, and he doesn’t need you to explain.
“When I said what?”
You swallow, suddenly shy.
“That you’re mine.”
For a second, Lewis just looks at you. Then he shifts closer, enough that his hand can slide up to your face, thumb brushing gently along your cheek.
“Yes,” he says, and there isn’t even a flicker of hesitation. “I meant it.”
Your heart stutters. His thumb traces once over your lower lip, his expression steady in a way that makes everything inside you go strangely quiet.
“I’m yours,” he repeats softly. “If you want me, I’m yours. All of it. No games.”
The words settle somewhere deep, and before you can stop yourself, your face changes — something vulnerable must show because Lewis’s expression softens immediately. You stare at him for a second too long. Then the truth slips out before you can dress it up into something lighter.
“That’s dangerous for you to say.”
His brows lift slightly, not understanding. You shift onto your side to face him fully, one hand resting against his chest, feeling the slow, steady beat beneath your palm.
“Because if you mean that,” you say quietly, “I don’t think I’m going to be able to let you go.”
The room goes very still. Lewis doesn’t smile at first, doesn’t tease. He just looks at you — really looks at you — like he knows you didn’t mean it as flirtation. Like he understands exactly how much it costs you to say something that honest. Then something in his face gives way. His hand slides to the back of your neck and he pulls you into him, not roughly, just decisively, until your forehead rests against his.
“Good,” he murmurs, voice low enough that it almost sounds like relief. “Because I wasn’t planning on making it easy.”
You laugh softly, breathless, and it turns into something else when he kisses you.
This kiss is nothing like before. No impatience. No heat threatening to consume you whole.
It’s slow and deep and almost unbearably tender, like the two of you just crossed some invisible line and both of you know there’s no going back. When he pulls away, he stays close enough that his mouth still brushes yours when he speaks.
“I meant it,” he says again, quieter now. “And I’m not taking it back in the morning.”
Something in your chest tightens so sharply it almost hurts.
You kiss him first this time, because there’s no other response that feels big enough.
The minutes tick by slowly, languidly, you’re curled against him, your head tucked beneath his chin, his arm heavy around your waist. His fingers resume their lazy path over your back, tracing those same meaningless patterns, but now every touch feels deliberate. Like he’s reassuring himself you’re still here.
Eventually, his breathing starts to even out, slower and deeper, but his arm stays heavy around your waist, keeping you close even as sleep starts to pull at him. You lie there for a while longer, listening to his heartbeat under your ear. Your body feels pleasantly heavy. Your hair smells faintly like his cologne. The sheets are warm, tangled around both of you like neither of you had ever intended to sleep separately.
You think, not for the first time, that this is probably insane.
Lewis is older. Guarded. The sort of man who should be impossible to read, impossible to keep. And yet tonight, he handed you something startlingly real and asked for nothing in return except your honesty. Tucked against him in the dark, his hand still loosely curved over your waist even in sleep, all you can think is: How much worse is the bliss going to get if this is only the beginning?
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steamy— anthony “aj” joshua
Anthony Joshua x Black!Wife!OC (Amina)
Summary: after a triumphant victory over Jake Paul, Anthony and Amina celebrate in a way that only a married couple on their level of nastiness can.
Warning(s): a nasty married couple. that is all.
a/n: Lord forgive me for posting this freakiness on Easter. Amen.😭
The digital clock on the nightstand blinked 2:37 a.m. in dull red numbers. Just a few hours earlier the arena had been deafening with the mix of crowds shouting, cameras flashing, the thud of gloves echoing beneath the bright lights. Now the hallway outside the hotel room was silent.
Anthony pushed the door open with a tired shoulder, stepping inside and dropping his duffle bag beside the wall with a heavy thud. The adrenaline from the fight still buzzed faintly in his veins, but exhaustion was already creeping in behind it.
Amina followed him in a moment later, kicking off her heels and letting out a long breath. “Remind me again,” she said, rubbing her temples, “why your fights always end this late.”
Anthony chuckled to himself, a slight bounce in his shoulders with his laugh. He tossed the keys onto the dresser, “‘Cause I got it like that, love.”
Playfully rolling her eyes at his response, Amina dropped her purse onto the bed followed by the V.I.P pass that had been draped around her neck half the night. After the fight, Anthony had been occupied with interviews, meeting and greeting fans, and taking pictures. Of course, he made sure Amina stayed by his side through it all.
Now, they could finally unwind without a lens being shoved in their faces.
Unhooking her bracelet, Amina made her way into the hotel bathroom to get prepped for the night. Anthony followed close behind unhooking jewelry of his own, sliding his AP watch off of his wrist before setting it gently on the bathroom counter. “Sorry about earlier, Mina. I know it was a lot going on.”
Yawning, Amina shook her head dismissively before waving him off. “It’s alright,” she mumbled tiredly before turning on her heels and swooping her hair to one side of her shoulder. “I’m used to it.”
Anthony was all too familiar with her gesture. The moment she swept her hair over, he stepped up behind her. “Hold on,” he murmured. He maneuvered his large fingers as best he could around the delicate clasp, concentrating as he worked the small hook. After a moment it finally slipped free, the chain falling soft into his palm.
Amina turned to face him with a delicate smile, which he returned as she pinched the necklace from his hand. She reached up, her left hand cupping the back of his head as she lifted up on her tiptoes to peck his lips. He welcomed her act of affection, his lips curling into a smile against hers. “Thank you, baby.”
Lowering herself flat on her feet, Amina’s thumb brushed lightly over the faint red bruise forming beneath Anthony’s eye. “You okay?” Her tone was soft and laced with slight concern. He’d won the fight, sure. But that would never stop her from worrying about her man.
He answered with a small nod, his right hand settling gently on her side. “I’m fine, love. I promise.”
Amina smiled once more, this time a tad bigger. Though she knew there was always something aching after a fight, she decided not to push.
Taking the hand that still held the necklace, Anthony pressed a delicate kiss to the back of her palm before rubbing over that same spot with his thumb. “I never got a chance to ask you if you enjoyed the fight. Did you?”
“Only the part where you won,” Amina giggled as she wrapped her arms around his neck. She hunched her shoulder slightly from the tickle of his beard brushing against her skin as he kissed the crook of her neck. “The rest had me stressed out. But I enjoyed it.”
Anthony hummed, bending slightly so she could keep a comfortable hold on him. Amina wasn’t a short woman by any means. Standing five-foot-nine, she was what this generation would call a Stallion. Long legs, a pretty face, and the curves to match. But even then, she was still dwarfed by Anthony’s six-foot-six frame.
“And the knockout?”, he asked, a mischievous smile tugging at his lips.
“I’ve never felt a rush like that in my life,” Amina admitted with a grin, her thumb brushing softly against the nape of his neck.
At that, Anthony leaned in for another kiss. Though this time firmer and slower. “Eh, I think I could compete with that.”
Amina raised an eyebrow at his innuendo, “Oh? Knockout got us feeling a lil’ confident, don’t it?”
“Ah, come on. Don’t act like I don’t put it down every time,” Anthony’s arms snaked around her waist before pulling her in closer. “Besides, I think it’s time we have our own celebration.”
Amina’s eyes followed Anthony’s until they eventually landed on the shower, which was shielded by spotless glass. But knowing them, that glass would be smudged in no time.
The shower roared to life, and within seconds steam filled the bathroom. Anthony and Amina, both stripped bare and exposed kissed each other hungrily, their tongues wrestling one another for dominance. Amina should’ve known she would lose that fight, as she did with literally any other fight when it came to sex with Anthony.
Arms wrapped firm around his neck, Amina allowed Anthony to back her into the shower until they stepped under the spray, the water striking their shoulders in hot, steady bursts. It slid down their spines and pooled at their feet before spiraling toward the drain. The mirror had already vanished behind a film of fog, the air thick with the scent of lust. She pulled away from him just for a second, noting how the glint in his eye had turned from one of admiration to hunger, ready to take her down right here and right now.
Anthony wrapped an arm around her waist and pulled her into him before smashing his lips back into hers. Their moans and groans mixed together, being music to both of their ears. Anthony’s hands began to roam, his calloused palms ending up gripping the flesh of her ass. The two separated again, Anthony pulling away this time as he reached up behind Amina and grabbed a handful of her curly hair. He pulled her head back, her unmarked neck now exposed to her starving husband who wasted no time changing that.
Her lips were parted, moist from their kissing as Anthony licked at any part of her neck he could reach. The tickle of his beard didn’t mean shit now. It was go time.
Amina moaned into his ear at the feel of his lips which only seemed to motivate him more. “Anthony…”, she whispered sweetly, the pad of her thumb stroking the back of his head. “I-I can’t cover that.”
“Then don’t.”
She should’ve known he wouldn’t give a fuck. He never did. He loved when people saw the marks he left on her. It was just an indication that she was taken and no bum ass man big or small should try his luck.
Anthony turned Amina around, his hand snaking around her chest before tracing down the length of her torso with his finger tips. Eventually, his middle and ring fingers had found her opening, dipping in ever so slightly to gather her wetness before spreading the slippery substance around her swollen clit. Amina hummed in satisfaction, reaching back so the tip of her nails could graze his neck.
“Tell me what you want,” Anthony whispered in her ear, his lips grazing her earlobe.
Amina’s knees could’ve gave out right there. His voice whispering in her ear with that damn accent was enough to get her going, the juices leaking from her opening in response being a clear indication of that. Her back arched slightly, the curve of her ass meeting his rock hard length. She winded her hips, the friction between them causing Anthony to let out a deep moan.
“I want you to have your way with me,” Amina whispered, her tone sensual and welcoming. “Do whatever you want to me. Make me your celebration.”
Anthony listened with a keen ear. Have his way, huh? Make her his celebration? You damn right he would.
“Fuck me, Anthony.”
Those were Amina’s final words before Anthony walked her forward until her hands hit the cold shower wall. He reached down and gripped his phallus, pumping himself twice before positioning himself at her opening. Amina licked her lips in anticipation, impatiently waiting as Anthony thrusted his hips just enough to make his tip rub against her slit.
“Anthony,” Amina whined, almost begging. “Come on…”
Chuckling at her neediness, Anthony’s tongue darted out to wet his lips before speaking. “Put it in.”
Amina looked over her shoulder, her curls flowing with her movements as her needy brown eyes met Anthony’s. His eyes held a challenge. Like he dared her to disobey him, or even to obey him. It didn’t really matter which path she chose, he was gonna have his way with her either way. She decide to go with the latter. Tonight was a big night for him, so she wouldn’t be a brat this time.
She reached behind her, feeling around until her dainty fingers wrapped around his pulsing shaft. She could already feel his tip sticky with pre-ejaculation, courtesy of her earlier grinding. But poor Amina just didn’t know what she was really getting herself into. She once again lined him up with her entrance, opting to not move her hand until he was in there, snug and fit.
Anthony pushed his hips forward, the movement sending his length sliding into Amina’s slick entrance. She gasped, back arching and eyes rolling shut as the hand that guided his shaft inside of her moved to his lower abdomen. She didn’t push. Just sat it there in case it became too much too early. Anthony was patient for the first few thrusts and allowed her to get used to his size, now it was time for that hand to go.
“Move it,” he commanded, his left hand gripping her hip while his right hand lay astray, waiting to move her hand for her if need be. Amina listened, pulling her hand away to rest on the wall while Anthony moved his right hand to grip her unoccupied hip.
He moved in teasingly slow, dragging strokes, pushing and pulling every throbbing vein lining his shaft through her walls. His groans were low and sensual, body hot against Amina’s as his hips met her backside with every other stroke. Amina was nearly going mad, her walls closing tight around his length to suck him back in every time he pulled away.
Her back arched as she tried to get herself to a position where she could feel more of him even though she was already feeling all of him. That was what she loved about sex with Anthony. Even when she was getting it all, he left her still wanting more. He was intoxicating.
“Be patient, love…”, Anthony murmured, his eyes fixed on the way her arousal coated him, already seeing hints of white gathering at the base of his length.
Amina hummed once more, not necessarily in response to him or for any reason in particular. Her lips parted, a moan escaping through the opening before she muttered a faint, “More.”
“More?” His voice held a teasing tone, as did his hips continue to hold their teasingly slow pace. Amina didn’t care. She just wanted what she was asking for, so she nodded. “Yeah? You want more?”
Again, Amina nods her head, anxiously chewing her bottom lip in anticipation for what she knows is coming next. And just as she thought, Anthony’s fingers wrapped tighter around her hips as his own hips began to move faster. Not too fast, but fast enough to make Amina’s mouth fall open. “Like that?”
Unable to find words, Amina nods her head yet again, only this time there was some speed to it. She manages to ramble a yeah while simultaneously trying to keep herself from drifting into a whole new world.
“Yeah?” Anthony cooed, his bottom lip curling inward to rest between his teeth.
“Yesss,” Amina whined as her cheek pressed against the wall and her eyes fluttered shut, her tongue slowly protruding from her mouth to wet her lips. “Just like that, baby.”
At her approval, Anthony kept the new pace, his strokes long and deep. Amina’s sweet moans were music to his ears as he dug into her from behind, his bottom lip sitting content under his top row of pearly whites as he tilted his head to get a better view of her face. Her face pressed harder against the wall with each thrust of his hips while her eyes remained closed. Whenever she tried to open them, they’d just roll to a close again. The steam in the bathroom caused her hair to become puffy at the roots, which he knew he’d get fussed at for later.
Well, nobody told you to get in there with no hair protection. He could already hear himself saying it. He’d keep it himself for now.
Anthony couldn’t help the cocky grin forming on his lips at her current state, but still, she was the prettiest thing he’d ever seen. It was times like these where he wished Amina would allow him to record their sessions. The problem was, she was deathly afraid of their tape getting out and her coochie being on display for the whole world to see. No matter how many times Anthony tried to convince her, the answer always had something to do with that.
Shaking his head at the thought, Anthony reached forward and wrapped his hand around her throat. His hand sat high, pulling Amina’s face away from the wall and pulling her head back toward him. Her next few breaths came out rugged and her moans came out choked as Anthony applied pressure to the sides of her throat.
Amina opened her glossy eyes, bottom lip between her teeth as she locked eyes with a towering Anthony whose gaze was already locked on her. “Open.”
Dazed and dick drunk, Amina absentmindedly opened her mouth and watched with a lustful eye as Anthony let his saliva drip from his mouth into hers. He stood back to his full height, his lip finding its way back between his teeth for a brief moment, “Swallow.”
Anthony’s commands were short, but they sure held power when he and that big ass dick worked together. Amina did what she was told, swallowing what she was given before sticking her tongue out to show that everything was gone. With a nod of his head, Anthony lowered himself to her lips, his tongue immediately colliding with hers in the midst of their lip lock.
Oh yeah, you didn’t know? Anthony was nasty.
Amina moaned into his mouth, her thighs beginning to shake under his weight. When she stopped kissing back, Anthony pulled away to see her mouth hanging ajar and her eyebrows furrowing while her moans started to become louder. He knew what that meant.
“Oooh shit! Right there, AJ! Just like that, baby!” Amina cried while her eyes squeezed shut as her hands closed around nothing on the wall.
Since it was her world and he was just living in it, he followed her orders and kept his stroke in the exact same spot at the exact same pace. “Right there?” He pushed his hips deeper to hit that spot just a tad harder.
Amina whined, the arch in her back deepening as his tip came in contact with her spot, “Yesss, oh my god!”
Anthony removed his hand from her neck to her curly tresses, gathering it all in his palm before pulling her head back once more. He could feel the warm water running down his back, his muscles flexing with every thrust and pull of her hair.
Amina’s breath came out in pants and her mouth hung ajar as her eyes rolled back in her head. She tried to say something, to warn Anthony of what was coming. But there was no use. Her words were incoherent and slurred, overpowered by her whines and moans.
She didn’t need to tell him though. He could feel it. “I feel it, baby. Let it go.”
Her nails scratched against the wall and her sounds turned into full on pornstar moans as Anthony lowered himself to her ear, whispering some of the nastiest shit she’d ever heard in her life. Her eyes squeezed shut and her walls contracted around him as he groaned in her ear before running his tongue along her earlobe.
Amina went silent as her orgasm strengthened, Anthony’s teeth gently latching onto her earlobe contributing to that.
After about ten seconds of silence, Amina finally caught her breath. Anthony never slowed, his strokes remaining at the same pace they were before. He kept a vice grip on her hair as he stood to his full height, using his free hand to strike her ass cheek.
Squealing at the impact, Amina quickly became overwhelmed as she felt herself be pushed into overstimulation. She whined his name as her hand moved back to his lower abdomen, only this time, she put some force behind it.
“Don’t play with me, Amina. Move that shit,” Anthony warned, his hips fighting back against her weak pushes.
It’s not like her attempts at pushing him away were doing anything, but the simple fact that she was trying to pissed him off. It was his night. She said he could have his way with her, so that’s what he was going to do.
Even with his warning, Amina couldn’t bring herself to pull her hand away. So Anthony moved it for her.
He pushed it away from his pelvis before grabbing her forearm and pinning it to her lower back. And just for her going against her word, he let go of her hair and reached out to grab her other arm, pinning that one behind her back as well.
“Anthony,” she whined, her face pathetically pressing against the shower wall with each thrust. That seemed to be the only thing she could say.
“What?”
Amina squealed once again as his tip kissed her spot, her legs growing weaker and weaker by the minute. “W-waittt…”, she cried as she slightly came up on her tiptoes, doing anything she could to get away from Anthony.
Her nails clawed at his forearms, a nonverbal gesture begging to be released from his grip. She took a step forward, and Anthony followed. She took another step, and so did Anthony. Eventually, she was standing nearly completely straight, her breast pressed against the shower wall. Still, she couldn’t get away from him.
Amina’s thighs trembled under the pressure, her head falling back on Anthony’s chest. He kept both of her arms pinned behind her with one hand while the other crept up and gripped her neck. She mewled with yet another whine of his name, only this time, she got a sweeter response.
Anthony hummed, his lips kissing around that sweet spot behind her ear. “What’s wrong, love?”
The stimulation of another one of her spots had another orgasm running its course in no time. Amina’s nails dug into his forearm, eyes doing yet another roll inward as her body seized against Anthony’s. He held her close, stroking and talking her through it as her moans turned into cries.
Curses spilled from her lips and her eyes squeezed shut while she trembled, her hand rapidly tapping Anthony’s forearm in attempt to get him to ease up. “Ah, really? You’re tapping out on me?”
Anthony held a sly smirk, his eyes fixed on her face as he watched a stray tear roll down her cheek. Amina shook her head, mustering up the strength to hum a no. Mama didn’t raise no bitch. She just needed a little break.
Finally deciding she’d had enough, he gave her a few more strokes before pulling out of her completely, his arms wrapping around her waist to keep her from falling as her legs gave out.
Amina sighed, her body relaxing against her husband's as she caught her breath.
'You did so good for me, 'Mina." Anthony had a hand resting on her stomach, thumb caressing her lower abdomen as he kissed the side of her face and neck. Amina licked her parched lips, a weak smile painting her face at the tickle of his kisses to her skin. "I love you."
Amina hummed, not having the energy to give a verbal reply. Hands traveling up to cup her breasts, Anthony took a step closer to her, pressing his still aroused length against her ass. "You know I'm not done with you, right?"
Amina couldn't say she was shocked. Marrying a boxer came with dealing with his boxer stamina. Anthony had always been a long-winded lover. Sometimes too damn long. There had been nights when Amina literally had to force her damn legs closed because Anthony's ass wouldn't get off of her.
"Do I get a break?" Amina mumbled weakly, her hands coming up to rest on his as his teeth sank lightly into her neck.
"Nope."
Wasting no more time, Anthony spun Amina in his arms and lifted her like she weighed nothing. She wrapped her legs around his waist as their lips connected in perfect sync, their tongues colliding in perfect harmony. This time, there was no fight. Amina fell straight into submission, her arms wrapping around his neck to ensure her security as he began to take steps towards the bench in the far corner of the shower.
In just a few strides, he was there, and without disconnecting their lips, Anthony took a seat with Amina in his lap. He wrapped an arm around her waist and lifted her up slightly while his other hand reached beneath them. Amina could feel the tip of his shaft throbbing against her opening as he lined himself up at her entrance, moaning into his mouth as she sank down onto his length.
"Fuck," Anthony groaned, watching as Amina's head fell back in bliss. His eyebrows furrowed as his length became engulfed in her wetness and warmth in a new position. He gripped her hips tightly, using his strength to lift and lower her onto his shaft. "Just like that 'Mina."
Amina couldn't explain how she was feeling right now. There was something about her being on top; her and Anthony being in a position in which she could take full control. Yet, Anthony still found a way to be in charge. There was something about being handled the way he handled her. So rough, yet so gentle. He would always blur the lines of love and hate, leaving Amina wondering how he truly felt about her in the moment.
"Babyyy," Amina moaned aloud, her eyebrows furrowing as her mouth hung ajar. "F-fuck, you're so biggg!"
Anthony's hand reclaimed its rightful place on her exposed neck, yanking her forward before smashing his lips into hers as his free hand kept her hips moving. Amina, overcome by pleasure struggled to kiss Anthony back as her breath was taken away by the pressure he put on the sides of her throat.
He pulled away, his bottom lip between his teeth as he watched Amina fall deeper into submission under his touch. “Look at me.”
Amina peeled her eyes open, though barely because of the sensations she felt beneath her. Damn, he felt good. “Can I still make you my celebration, love?
Had Amina not been feeling the way she was feeling right now, she would have looked at Anthony like he’d lost his damn mind. Ain’t this the celebration? What the fuck was he feelin’ like?
Despite her subconscious thoughts, Amina nodded her head as her bottom lip found its way between her teeth. Anthony smirked, his thumb brushing the crook of her neck.
“Good. Ride it until I say stop, then.”
MICHAEL B. JORDAN IS AN OSCAR WINNER🥳
Cam x Chelsea Masterlist
• This is the Masterlist for the Cam x Chelsea saga. Although we’re already three parts in, if you would like to be added to the taglist for this series please comment below. I’ll be sure to add you from here on out!
• There will be smut in majority (all) of these chapters, some bd\sm themes, a bit of angst here and there. Readers discretion is advised. Happy reading whores!
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Michael and Wunmi cute moments
Compilation of some of the cute moments between Wunmi and Michael. I couldn't fit them all or this video would have been too long.
*quietly upload a slightly different version Sept 25, 2025
Me seeing all the tyriq withers/ cam cade fics coming in
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ꜱᴜᴍᴍᴀʀʏ: You run the farm alone now. The crops still grow. The animals still listen. And Josephine still drags the bodies down where no one will ever find them. Folks in town say the farm is cursed. But you’ve always wanted more—an audience, maybe. Someone to look at you like you were something worth loving. And tonight, a man’s car breaks down on the edge of your property, and you know it’s what you’ve been waiting for.
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ᴀ/ɴ: this fic is heavily inspired by pearl, which everyone should watch at least once in their life. it's unironically such an amazing movie and i love it sm. anyways, this was a SHAMEFUL one but as usual i adored writing it. had to pull back hard on my linebreaking due to block limits so if my formatting seems way diff that's why. i've been working on this for MONTHS so please love it or i'll sob. all i can say is strap in for the read ride of your life, both figuratively and literally.
ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢꜱ: 18+ MDNI (!!!!!), unapologetically dark fic, reader is fully the villain, reader is also very unstable, exposition dump, cleverly done timeskip, very short mention of an attempted assault (the reader kills the fucker), religious mentions, obsession, emotional manipulation, verbal abuse, toxic relationship, stockholm syndrome, threats of violence, graphic violence, murder, body disposal, accomplices, non-sexual drugging, sadism, masochism, begging, silverplay, dubcon, the power dynamic is fucked (literally), dom!reader, sub!remmick, pathetic!remmick, pet!remmick, feral!remmick, COLLARED LEASHED AND MUZZLED BABY, unintentional brat taming, praise/degradation kink, blood, bloodplay, vampirism, drool, spit kink, dacryphilia, cunnilingus, overstimulation, monsterfucking, p in v, pussydrunk, rutting, breeding kink, they're not afraid to switch, extremely unreliable narrator, excessive use of dividers, format butchering to bypass tumblr's block limit
The sun rose gold this morning, spilling across the fields like honey. You were already up, already working, already smiling.
You always smiled.
The hens clucked softly in the coop as you lifted the latch and greeted them with your usual chirp. They clucked back, feathers rustling as they hopped down from their roosts, and you gathered the eggs with practiced ease, cradling each one in your palm like it was made of spun glass. The pigs oinked next. You scratched the largest behind the ears, whispered that she was beautiful, and she leaned into you with a low sigh, as if she understood.
The mule got a kiss between the eyes. The cows got songs while you milked them, soft and sweet. Even the barn cats wound around your ankles, purring like little motors as you moved through your morning.
You were kind to everything that deserved it.
You wiped the sweat from your brow and squinted toward the horizon. The sky was starting to bake. Late summer meant everything stank a little more than usual, especially out by the edge of the swamp. Still, you didn’t mind the heat. You never had. You liked how it clung to you. How it made the hem of your dress stick to your thighs and curl damply around your calves. Made you feel alive.
You didn’t wear shoes. Hadn’t in years.
Your parents used to fuss over that.
They used to fuss over a lot of things.
You don’t miss them.
They left you the farm when they died, and that was the only generous thing they ever did. Even then, it wasn’t intentional. You could still hear your mama’s voice echoing through the walls sometimes—don’t embarrass us, girl, keep that mouth shut—but it always faded after a while. You only heard it when you were bored, mostly.
And you weren’t bored now.
Not with so much work to be done.
Not with Josephine waiting.
By mid-afternoon, the sun was a white eye hanging over your head, blinking slow and mean. The trees near the swamp shimmered in the haze as you made your way down the winding path, your fingers brushing the wildflowers like old friends. Crickets buzzed. Cicadas whined. Something distant cracked, like old wood splitting in two.
Josephine was there before you called her.
She rose from the muck like a shadow come to life—thirty feet from snout to tail, with jaws wide enough to snap a door clean off its hinges. Her scales caught the light like polished stone, and her yellow eyes blinked lazily as she drifted closer.
“Hi, pretty girl,” you called, crouching at the edge of the water.
She huffed through her nostrils. That was her way of saying hello.
You loved her. More than most people. Josephine had never asked you to be quiet. Had never told you to sit with your legs closed. Had never tried to put a hand up your dress or call you a whore behind your back like the boys in town used to.
Josephine only asked to be fed.
And you were good at feeding her.
You spotted it before you stepped into the shallows—a pale, water-bloated arm, half-covered in mud and dragging a trail of flies behind it. The hand was curled like it had something left to say. You grinned.
“Oh,” you said brightly. “You left your snack out.”
You stooped, grabbed the wrist, and flung the whole thing like a softball. Josephine moved with a speed that always startled you, even after all these years. Her jaws snapped around the arm midair—CRUNCH—and you clapped, delighted.
“Good girl!” you squealed.
Josephine sank back beneath the surface, tail dragging behind like a thick rope, and you sat at the bank a moment longer, kicking your feet in the mud. The hem of your dress was soaked and stained brown, but you didn’t mind. You liked the feeling.
You leaned back on your elbows and closed your eyes, letting the sun roast your face.
That one had been a banker, you thought. Loud, red-faced, soft around the middle. Called you girl in that disrespectful tone. Tried to push you into the corn with his belt already undone. Didn’t make it more than four steps before the axe caught him in the neck.
White men were always your favorite.
So easy.
So sure you’d let them do whatever they wanted.
They never saw it coming.
You hummed to yourself, a little tune your mama used to hum when she thought no one could hear her, and traced patterns into the mud beside you with one lazy finger. You imagined Josephine still chewing beneath the surface, teeth rending bone, her heart content for now.
You were content, too.
The farm was quiet. The animals were fed. The sun was high. The bones were buried deep. You had more meat hung in the cellar than you’d need for the month. Maybe longer. And Josephine never went hungry. Not anymore.
But still.
Still.
It felt like something was missing.
Not anything practical—no, you’d taken care of that. You had grain. You had milk. You had a pretty new dress for church, even if you hadn’t stepped inside that building since your mama’s funeral.
You just wanted—
You didn’t know.
It could get lonely on the farm, sometimes.
Not all the time. Not really. You had plenty of company, after all—the hens always had something to say, the cows were sweet as could be, and Josephine had the best listening ears in the whole world, even if her answers came in huffs and gurgles.
And you were great conversation, too.
Sharp. Funny. Endlessly clever.
You smiled at the thought. “Thank you,” you murmured, nodding to no one and to yourself all at once. “That’s very kind.”
The compliment warmed your chest like a fresh cup of coffee. You deserved it.
You lay back a little farther on the bank, mud squishing under your shoulder blades, and stared up through the trees. A dragonfly buzzed past your ear, wings catching light in flashes of green and copper. Somewhere far off, a bird cried, high and sweet.
You sighed.
Not unhappy. Just… tired, maybe.
The sun had made everything drowsy. The world felt soft around the edges, like a photograph that had been left too long in the window.
Your stomach growled. Loudly.
You blinked.
“Oh,” you said, rubbing your belly. “I forgot to eat.”
It happened more than you liked to admit. You’d get caught up in chores, in talking, in thinking, and suddenly the day would be half-gone without a crumb in your mouth. But that was alright. You had plenty in the kitchen. You always made sure of that.
You pushed yourself upright, brushing bits of grass and dirt from your arms. The bank was still damp, and the hem of your dress clung to your calves, streaked with muck. You’d track it into the house. You always did.
Didn’t matter. You’d mop later.
You headed back up the path, slower now, your bare feet slapping softly against the packed earth. The breeze tugged at your dress, gentle and forgiving. Something skittered through the underbrush just ahead—a rabbit, maybe. Or a squirrel. You didn’t flinch.
You were thinking about dinner.
About buttery mashed potatoes and gravy. A pork chop seared crisp on the outside, soft in the middle. Maybe greens, too. With just the right splash of vinegar to make them perfect.
Your mouth watered.
You liked to cook.
To take pieces of things and make something whole again. Something warm. Something that filled the air with smell and made your chest feel steady and full.
It felt better than destruction.
Sometimes.
The house creaked as you stepped inside, cool and dim after the weight of the sun. You swept through the living room, humming to yourself, dragging your fingers along the wood-paneled walls like you were greeting old friends.
The kitchen welcomed you like it always did.
And you smiled as you got to work.
Night had fallen. Deep, still, and wide.
You lay in bed with your arms folded over your chest, lips pursed in an unflattering frown as you stared at the ceiling fan lazily pushing warm air in circles. The damn thing squeaked. Always had. You’d meant to fix it back in spring, but then came the planting, then the harvest, then the killing—and well, you couldn’t be expected to remember everything.
You huffed.
“Insomnia,” the doctor said. Like that helped. Like some pretty little word could make it less annoying.
You’d taken his pills exactly twice. Didn’t like the way they made your thoughts run together like yolk on the floor. Didn’t like the stillness, either. If something bad came—and it always did—you needed your full mind. Your full self.
Still, it didn’t make it any easier when the nights dragged long and wide, every tick of the wall clock another tooth in your skin. You curled your knees toward your chest. Shifted. Unfolded. Shifted again.
Then came the sound. Low and sputtering. Faint at first, like a wounded thing crawling toward your porch.
Your brows lifted.
You threw the covers back with theatrical flair, pushed yourself to your feet, and crossed the room in three easy steps.
You kept the lamp on. You always kept the lamp on. It made it easier.
You peeked through the lace curtain, careful not to press your face too close. There, at the edge of the property, a car had rolled to a half-dead stop. Engine hissing. Lights dimming. And out of the driver’s side, a man stepped into the humid dark.
You tilted your head.
Even from a distance, even through the heavy blur of night, you could see he was white. Dressed too nice for a road like yours—like he belonged in one of those new department store ads in town with slicked-back hair and tailored trousers. His shoes were shiny. His coat too clean.
And furious.
He kicked the wheel once, shouted something you couldn’t quite make out, then turned—and saw the light in your bedroom window.
You smiled. And just as always, you slipped away from the glass.
Light drew them in. Like moths to a flame.
You padded quietly down the stairs, steps careful and practiced. You didn’t rush. No, you never rushed.
By the time you reached the mirror in the hall, you could hear the footsteps. Soft crunching of gravel, the porch creaking under weight that wasn’t yours.
Then, the knock. Gentle. Too gentle for a man so freshly angry.
You licked your lips and tucked a loose curl behind your ear. Your dress was thin cotton, not exactly flattering, but it framed your waist well enough. A dab of rose balm to your lips. You leaned in toward the mirror, tapping your cheek lightly with two fingers.
“Lovely,” you murmured. “Just lovely.”
The doorknob was cool in your hand. You turned it slowly. Opened it wide.
And there he was.
Light-skinned, but not pallid—warm-toned, even in the dark. Brown hair slicked back neat, not a strand out of place. His suit was a shade of blue just a whisper off from navy—expensive looking, though it didn’t quite fit his frame right. The jacket sagged a little at the shoulders, a size too big maybe, but his posture made up for it. He stood like a soldier. Or a preacher. Like a man used to being listened to.
Except tonight, he looked nervous.
"Evenin’, miss," he said, voice warm and rolling. Soft-spoken, too. "I sure do hate to bother ya, and I’m awful sorry for knockin’ so late, but my car went and gave up on me just a little ways back. I was wonderin’—would it be alright if I parked here for the night? Just sleep in it till I can get someone out come mornin’?"
His voice was honey. Not cloying. Just sweet enough to make you lean in.
You blinked slowly, drinking him in.
The faintest stubble dusted his chin. A gold chain sat modestly around his neck, almost hidden by the collar of his dress shirt. His canines were sharp. Not like a monster’s. Just sharp enough to notice. His eyes were dark blue, but there was something red behind them—something faint. Barely there. Like fire hidden under the coals.
And handsome. God, he was handsome. The kind of handsome you could’ve written sonnets about, if you’d ever been one for poetry.
You wondered how long it would take to carve the terror into his pretty face. If he’d cry when the knife found its mark, or if he’d try to hide it—swallow his sobs like a man with something worth dying for. If he’d still speak to you sweetly while he bled out, voice warm and shaking, trying to charm you even as the color drained from his cheeks.
You wondered what his breath would sound like, ragged and shallow, when it started to fail him. If it would hitch in that soft chest of his, little by little, until there was nothing left but wet rattling.
You thought about how his pupils might bloom wide as the pain caught up to him. How that slicked-back hair would cling damp to his temples when he sweated through his fear.
You wondered if he’d beg.
“Miss?”
You blinked again, caught staring.
His smile had softened with confusion, eyes squinting as he tilted his head politely.
You smiled right back.
“Out in that heat?” you asked with a lilt. “What kind of host would I be if I let you sleep in your car?”
He raised his hands, sheepish. "Now, I ain’t tryin’ to impose—"
“But you already knocked,” you said sweetly. “So I’d say the imposition’s already happened, wouldn’t you?”
That flustered him.
You liked that.
He glanced down at his shoes, sheepish, brushing a hand over his wrist. “I… suppose that’s fair. Still. Wouldn’t feel right acceptin’ too much kindness. Not from a good woman like yerself.”
Your smile widened.
“Kindness is for guests, sir,” you said. “And I only ever show it to people who come through my door.”
He hesitated.
But you didn’t.
You stepped aside.
“Come in,” you said, low and warm. “I’ve got an extra room made up. You’ll be comfortable.”
And he stepped in. So easily.
And you made sure to lock the door behind him.
The sound of the latch sliding into place was a familiar one. A good one.
You turned around with your hands clasped sweetly behind your back. "Are you hungry?"
He blinked. Took a second longer than he probably meant to. His eyes flicked toward the kitchen, then back to you. “Oh, no, ma’am. I wouldn’t want t’—”
“I made too much supper,” you interrupted, stepping around him lightly, your bare feet pattering on the wooden floor like you’d forgotten all about him already. “Three-course mistake. I do that sometimes. Don’t know what gets into me. But it’s lucky you stopped by! Really, you’ll be saving me from leftovers.”
“I don’t wanna put ya out, now,” he said as he followed a few hesitant steps behind. “Y’already been too kind.”
Your head cocked just a little. The smile didn’t leave your face.
And right on cue—his stomach growled.
It was soft, but loud enough to make him grimace and drop his gaze, almost sheepish. You didn’t laugh. You just turned on your heel, delighted.
“Go on and sit,” you said, already reaching for the stovetop. “I don’t let anyone go hungry in my home.”
The table was small—meant for two, even though it had rarely been set for more than one. The seats were padded with worn floral cushions, the kind your mama once swore made a guest stay longer. You liked that idea.
He stood awkwardly near it, still not quite sitting.
“Y’live out here alone?” he asked, trying to sound casual. “Big place like this?”
You hummed as you pulled out a plate and filled it generously, trying your best to give the warmest servings. “Sure do. My mama and daddy left it to me.”
He finally sat, stiff-backed. “They don’t help ya run it?”
“They passed,” you said cheerfully, spooning an extra heap of beans onto the plate. “Not too long ago.”
His brow creased just slightly. “I’m sorry t’hear that.”
“I’m not!” You said it like it was nothing. And to you, it was. You smiled a little to yourself. “They weren’t the kind of people who liked to share. Especially not space. Or dreams.”
He didn’t answer that.
You turned toward him—plate in hand—setting it in front of him like a prize. “I love having people over,” you said, clasping your hands together. “It gets awfully quiet on this farm with just me and the chickens and the cows and the sky. I talk to myself so much I start giving myself compliments.”
You laughed a little and leaned in, voice low and gleeful. “And I always say thank you.”
He offered a weak chuckle of his own. “Yer… real spirited, miss.”
“Isn’t that just the nicest thing to say,” you beamed, walking back to the drawer for silverware.
He rubbed at the back of his neck. “What do ya grow out here?”
“Oh, the usual,” you called. “Corn, sweet potatoes, berries, peppers, whatever wants to grow.”
“Ya take care of all that yourself?”
“Mhm.” You pulled the drawer open and clattered around until you found a clean set of polished silver.
The moment you walked back and set them down beside his plate, he jerked slightly.
His fingers curled away. His jaw tightened.
“Ah—” he winced, shifting in his seat. “I don’t s’pose ya have… steel? Or… aluminum, maybe?”
You paused. Looked down at the utensils. Then back up at him. The smile didn’t slip, but your eyes narrowed just a touch.
You turned away again without asking any questions.
“Picky eater?” you teased as you rifled through the odds-and-ends drawer under the flour bins. “You allergic to silver?”
“Somethin’ like that,” he muttered.
You found an old aluminum set and wiped it clean with a hand towel before setting it gently beside his plate.
“There,” you said. “Don’t say I never did nothin’ for you.”
He smiled again, but you noticed he didn’t meet your eyes this time. Still, he picked up the fork.
And ate.
He was careful about it. Polite, but with little hesitation. He chewed thoughtfully. Deliberately. Like he wanted to make sure he got every taste before swallowing. You watched his jaw shift, the little twitch of his throat as he swallowed. The slight tremble in his hand where he held the fork.
You leaned your elbows on the table, chin in your palms, watching.
He noticed. He tried not to. But you saw the glance. The way his spine straightened, the way he looked everywhere but at you.
“So,” you said brightly, “what’s your name, stranger?”
He chewed slower. Took his time before answering.
“Remmick,” he said finally.
You mouthed it to yourself. Softly. Like a little treat.
“What kind of name is that?”
“Family name,” he added, like he was used to the question. “And yers?”
You leaned in just a little closer. “I’ll tell you mine if you tell me where you’re headed.”
He hesitated. Fork paused halfway to his mouth.
“North Carolina,” he said, slow. “Got people up there. Was hopin’ to visit a few.”
“You married?”
He looked up sharply. “No, ma’am.”
“Ever been?”
“No, ma’am.”
You grinned. “That’s a shame. You seem real sweet.”
He shifted again.
You could practically smell the nerves now.
You liked that. Liked the way he was trying to be so composed, so gentlemanly, so proper. You could see the effort in every movement. And you could see it fraying at the edges already.
So easy to pick apart. So easy to slip a knife into.
You clapped your hands together once. “I knew tonight was gonna be special,” you said brightly, watching him squirm under your gaze. “Josephine said so.”
Remmick blinked. “Who?”
You pointed out the window toward the woods and the swamp beyond.
“My gator,” you said, smiling wide. “She don’t say much. But she’s always right.”
You laughed at his face.
And Remmick—Remmick managed a tense chuckle, lips twitching. But his eyes never quite left yours. Like he was waiting for something. Like he was trying to decide if he should be afraid.
And maybe he was.
You saw it. Just a flicker in his eyes when you rose from your chair and reached toward his plate. A blink-long flinch, quick and tight, gone as fast as it came—but not fast enough.
You took the plate gently, like you hadn’t noticed.
He cleared his throat and forced a smile, sheepish. “Thank ya kindly,” he said, nodding toward the cleaned-off plate in your hands. “That was… real good. Better than good, actually.”
“Why, thank you,” you said, your own smile rising soft and sweet. “Means a lot, comin’ from a stranger.”
You turned to the sink, rinsed the plate with the same care you did everything, and set it in the basin with a little hum. The house creaked around you, like it always did when the wind moved through. But the windows were still. The world outside had fallen quiet.
When you turned back to face him, Remmick was standing awkwardly now, thumb hooked on the strap of his suspenders, other hand tucked into the pocket of those neat blue slacks that didn’t quite match the dusty world around him.
“Let me show you to your room,” you said brightly, already moving toward the hallway.
He followed, slower this time, his steps measured.
You opened the door near the end of the corridor and flipped on the light.
It was perfect.
The linens were fresh, crisp and white with just a hint of lavender from the sachets you kept in the wardrobe. The floor was swept clean, the dresser dusted. The mattress was new. Or, at least, new enough. You’d turned it twice and flipped it once. Couldn’t have the stains showing through.
The air inside smelled faintly of bleach and pine. Clean. Comforting.
Nothing of the man who’d bled out there just a few weeks ago.
Remmick stood in the doorway for a beat too long, eyes taking in every edge. Not suspicious, exactly. Just… cautious. Like he couldn’t tell if it was too polished.
Then he stepped inside.
His eyes landed on the doorknob.
“Where’s the lock?” he asked, brow furrowed as he pointed toward the little brass handle and the empty round hole where the latch should’ve been.
You tilted your head and smiled. “Broke,” you said, voice light. “Years ago.”
A pause. Just long enough.
But he nodded, like he believed it. Or like he wanted to.
“Well,” he said, sitting gently down on the edge of the bed. “This is more’n generous, miss. I… I appreciate it, truly.”
His hands rested on his knees. The posture of a man not used to being taken care of.
You stood just inside the doorway, one hand on the frame, watching him settle in like you’d already begun carving out the memory. Or carving him open. What was the difference, really?
“Anything else you need?” you asked.
He looked up a little too quick. “No, ma’am. I’m— I’m alright. Ya’ve already done too much for me.”
You nodded slowly, lingering.
Then you let your voice soften again. “Well… if anything comes up, I’ll be right down the hall.”
He didn’t answer right away, just nodded and offered you another one of those hesitant, grateful smiles. The kind that looked like it didn’t get worn often.
“Goodnight, Remmick,” you said, voice curling sweet around the name.
“Goodnight, miss.”
You slipped from the room and pulled the door gently shut behind you.
You woke to the sound of metal grinding metal. And not gently.
It was still dark out—barely a stitch of light crawling past the horizon—but some dumb son of a bitch was out there raising hell like it was noon. You sat up in bed, heart hammering in your chest not from fear, but from irritation. The kind that sank deep behind your ribs and lit up like a match.
You knew who it was before you even pulled the curtain back.
There he was. Remmick. Fiddling under the hood of his car, brow pinched, jaw tight, making more noise than a dying horse.
Your lip twitched. He had the gall to sneak out? To wrench around in your yard like you hadn’t just fed him, sheltered him, welcomed him into your home like the good woman you were?
You were on your feet before the thought could settle.
Downstairs, bare feet quick and light against the old pine boards, you reached under the loose floorboard behind the coat rack. The click of the latch released with a familiar little song in your bones. Out came a wrench. Heavy, clean. Well-oiled. Meant for more than fixing. You held it for a moment, just feeling the weight.
Then, with a breath, you checked yourself in the mirror near the door. Smoothed your hair. Tugged your nightgown tighter at the collar. Pressed your lips together and pulled them into something pleasant. Not too wide. Not too stiff.
“You are lookin’ lovely,” you murmured. And then you thanked yourself for the compliment.
You always were polite.
The wrench was tucked behind your back by the time you opened the front door with a little too much force. Let it swing wide and hit the side of the house with a crack.
“Mornin’!” you called, raising one hand in a wave. “Aren’t you just the busiest bee this side of the county.”
He jumped. Actually jumped. That did something warm and golden to your insides.
“Oh! Mornin’, miss,” he called back, voice rising nervously. “Ain’t mean to wake ya. Just figured I’d get a jump on the car ‘fore it got too hot out.”
For just a second. Just long enough. You saw it—panic. That tight jolt behind the eyes. The flash of guilt, of being caught. But it vanished quick, replaced with that practiced easygoing smile you were beginning to suspect he wore like armor.
You stepped down the porch stairs one by one, each heel clicking like a metronome. The wrench stayed tucked behind you, swinging with the rhythm of your walk.
“Oh, that’s so considerate,” you said sweetly. “But you really shoulda let me know. I’d’ve made you some coffee. Or somethin’ to eat.”
He smiled again—too tight—and shrugged. “Didn’t wanna be a bother. Figured I’d get it goin’ and be outta yer hair ‘fore ya even noticed.”
You stopped a few feet from him. Tilted your head.
“Were you plannin’ to leave without sayin’ goodbye?” you asked lightly, voice still honeyed but with an unintentional tilt to it.
His smile faltered. “No, ma’am.”
Too quick.
You tilted your head. “Hmm.”
For a second—just a second—you pictured it. The arc of the wrench. The sick sound it’d make when it met bone. The way his body would slump forward against the car, eyes wide and confused, blood warm on the bumper.
You’d done it before. A dozen times.
Men like him always thought they could come and go. Thought kindness was something they were owed. And when they didn’t get what they wanted—when they got scared—they ran.
You didn’t like runners.
But not this time.
You blinked, and the vision passed. Instead, you smiled wider and stepped close enough to catch a whiff of whatever he’d used to wash—something woody, a little metallic. Something just shy of real clean.
“No need to rush,” you said sweetly. “Ain’t every day I get such fine company out here.”
Then you reached out and looped your arm through his. Smooth as butter.
He stiffened. You felt it. But he didn’t pull away. Didn’t dare.
“Come on,” you chirped. “I’ll give you the grand tour. Least I can do after all your troubles.”
“I really don’t wanna trouble ya more’n I already have—”
“Oh, hush,” you said with a light squeeze to his arm. “I insist.”
He looked down at where your hand sat so neat against his wrist. His mouth opened, then closed. Then opened again. But he said nothing.
You started walking, guiding him gently past the house, through the tall grass that had gone gold at the tips from the summer sun. The breeze was picking up now. The sky was glowing pink.
Remmick kept pace, though you could feel the tension radiating off him. The animals watched you from their pens as you passed. The cows shifted in their stalls. The chickens rustled on their roosts. You weren’t stopping for them. They knew better than to make noise when you were working. They knew who fed them.
But that didn't make for much of a tour, did it?
He kept stealing glances at you. You could feel it. That unsure curiosity. The way he watched the side of your face like he was afraid to look full on.
You didn’t mind.
His shoes scuffed along the dry path as you pulled him past the crop fields and beyond the thickets that edged the far back of your property. You could already smell the swamp—mossy, ripe, alive. Like it breathed.
He slowed as the trees thinned, eyes narrowing toward the glint of green water ahead. The dock stretched out in old, uneven planks, all grayed with time and slick with morning dew.
You tugged him to the edge.
“I wanna show you somethin’,” you said, voice bright.
He hesitated, boots stalling just before the first board. “What’s out there?”
You turned back and smiled. “My girl.”
He blinked. “What?”
You stepped up first, the dock creaking beneath your feet. Remmick followed, slower than before. Eyes darting. Shoulders stiff.
When you reached the end, you cupped your hands to your mouth and whistled. Loud. Sharp. Like you’d done since you were a child.
The swamp rippled. The trees hushed. And then—movement.
Water churning. Reeds splitting.
Remmick stumbled back a step, already starting to speak—“What the hell—” when Josephine rose from the shallows like something summoned. Massive, dark, ancient. Her long jaw split open in a low hiss of greeting, amber eyes blinking in that lazy, knowing way.
“God almighty!” He yelped, stumbling so hard he nearly toppled off the dock.
You caught his arm just in time.
“Careful now,” you said sweetly. “Don’t wanna lose you just yet.”
His heart thudded like a drum under your palm. You kept your grip tight as he teetered, then yanked him back with a cheerful laugh.
He stared at you, pale and breathless.
“She don’t bite,” you lied with a grin.
He glanced toward Josephine, who’d half-submerged again, only her eyes and snout visible above the waterline. She let out a low rumble, almost like a purr.
“I—I’m sorry,” he stammered, still breathless. “What is that?”
“That’s Josephine,” you said proudly, kneeling at the dock’s edge to run your fingers through the water. “Been mine since I was little. Raised her myself. I know I mentioned her.”
“Ya—ya raised a gator?”
“She’s family,” you said. “Ain’t that right, girl?”
Josephine blinked once. Slowly.
Remmick still looked like he was trying to decide whether to bolt or vomit.
You stood again and turned toward him, offering your hand as if the two of them were being properly introduced.
“Josephine, this is Remmick.”
Then, with a wicked little twist to your wrist, you gave his hand a shake. A purposeful one. A mean one.
He lost his footing again—just a bit—but it was enough to send him swaying, toes curling for balance as the drop behind him yawned wide and dark.
Your grip steadied him at the last second.
The way his eyes went wide, lips parting in a breathless, helpless little gasp—it made a heat bloom low in your belly.
You couldn’t help yourself.
You giggled.
He blinked at you, dazed. Shaken.
You held his pretty little face between your palms. Warm, smooth skin. Clean-shaven. A sharpness to the jaw you admired. His mouth, parted in something like confusion. Or maybe pleading. You couldn’t quite tell.
His eyes—those dark, stormy blue ones—had that red gleam again. Subtle. Fleeting.
He didn’t say a word. Couldn’t, maybe.
And you knew, with a strange and perfect certainty, that you were going to keep him.
He was it.
The audience. The company. The man who’d sit across the table from you, day after day, and pretend not to be afraid even when you knew better. Even when you saw it in his eyes.
You wanted that. You wanted him.
“I think you’re gonna stay a while,” you whispered, thumbs brushing his cheekbones. “Don’t you?”
He didn’t answer. Didn’t move. Not even a nod.
His breath came quick, nostrils flaring, hands clenched at his sides.
Oh, it made you dizzy.
You pulled back slightly, just enough to tilt your head and admire the view. Still close enough to feel his heartbeat through his shirt.
So much had happened already.
You thought about the night before. How he’d stood there on your porch, looking like a lamb lost in the woods. How you’d almost slammed the door on his neck and fed him to Josephine right then and there.
You thought about the kitchen, the way his eyes darted to the utensils, how he winced at the silver. How easy it would’ve been to follow that flinch with a knife under the ribs. Slice clean. Deep.
You thought about the way he’d slept—so still. So silent. You’d stood at the edge of his room for a long time. Watching. Breathing with him. Just one pillow pressed over his face and he wouldn’t have made a sound.
And this morning? The car? You could’ve crushed his throat while he was bent under the hood. Let him gurgle into the oil pan.
And now. Now he was here.
Your fingers itched.
But instead of hurting him—
You smiled. Because he was still trembling, and he didn’t even know why.
Yet.
“You’ve got the prettiest eyes...” you murmured, running your fingers through one side of his hair.
He swallowed.
You didn’t give him time to answer.
“Let’s get you somethin’ sweet,” you said suddenly, spinning away with a skip in your step. “I bake too, you know. You want peach or apple?”
His breath caught. “Uh—whichever’s fine, I—I’m not picky.”
You turned back to look at him over your shoulder, bathed in morning haze, and winked.
“Oh, Remmick.”
You almost felt sorry for him.
Almost.
You were going to ruin him.
You took his car apart that same night.
He’d begged you not to. Hands trembling, voice low but desperate. He didn’t scream—Remmick didn’t do much screaming, not even then. But you still remembered the sound his voice made when it cracked. The way he said your name like it meant something.
You’d just smiled. Crouched down in your dress and pinned-up hair and unbuttoned collar, fingers slick with engine grease, wrench clutched tight in your fist.
And piece by piece, you’d taken apart his only way out.
He stood there the whole time, fists clenched, jaw set. At one point he tried to stop you—reached out, just barely, like he might grab your wrist—but the glare you gave him made his hand drop. And then it was done. A gutted carcass of a car left to rot at the edge of your fields, tires rolled into the barn, battery sunk at the bottom of the swamp.
The next morning, he asked if you’d help him call a tow.
And you told him he wasn’t leaving.
He stopped asking after that.
The first body he saw you drag was two nights later. A man with too many rings on his fingers and not enough brains in his head, who’d thought he could “have a taste” before paying for eggs. You stabbed him in the neck with the edge of a broken shovel.
Remmick had walked in as you were sawing off the feet. You looked up, breathless and smiling, drenched in red, and asked him to bring you the tarp.
He didn’t move at first. Just stared.
And then turned and walked out.
You found him on the porch ten minutes later, staring out at the cornfields like they might lift up and take him away.
But they didn’t.
So the next time, when the meat truck driver with the twitchy mustache came looking for more than pork, you let him watch from the doorway. You made sure he saw the man’s eyes roll back. The way his body twitched. The way you licked your fingers clean.
You asked if he wanted a bite.
He said nothing.
But a few hours later, when you left the heart on the barn table, you returned to find they’d been eaten.
He never mentioned it. Neither did you.
Eventually, you replaced the brass knobs with silver ones. Polished until they shone like moonlight. You didn’t bother pretending it was decorative. You wanted him to feel it. To remember. If he ever got the bright idea to leave again, you wanted the first thing he touched to bite back.
He tried sneaking out twice more after that. Once through a window on the top floor, and once during a storm when he thought you were asleep.
Both times you caught him.
The second time, he flinched like he thought you might actually hurt him.
You didn’t.
You just stood in the doorway, hair soaked, nightgown clinging to your skin, and whispered, “Aren’t you tired yet?”
And that time, for once, he answered honestly.
“Yeah.”
After that, things changed.
Not all at once. Not overnight.
But slowly.
At first, he refused to touch you. Wouldn’t meet your eyes. Would sleep curled up on the far edge of the bed with his back turned and his arms tight around himself, like maybe if he stayed small enough, he’d disappear.
You didn’t push.
You just waited.
He folded eventually. They always did.
The first time he kissed you back, it was barely more than a flicker. A slow lean in, a tilt of his chin, a clumsy meeting of lips.
You’d felt him tremble.
You’d loved it.
He told you once, maybe a month in, that he still hated you.
You smiled and kissed his jaw.
“Don’t matter,” you said. “You’re here.”
And that was the truth of it.
He was here.
He fed now. Always after you were done dismembering, always with a grimace like he was swallowing bile instead of blood. But he fed. And he held you after. Hands warm and calloused on your back, mouth soft against your neck. Like he couldn’t bear to be alone in those moments. Like the only thing worse than touching you was not.
You cooked every night. He sat at the table, sometimes talking, sometimes just listening. You’d watch his hands curl around the chipped ceramic mugs like he was still trying to remember what they were for.
And in bed—well.
He stopped sleeping with his back to you. Started pulling you in instead. Kisses before sleep, lazy and familiar. Limbs tangled in the sheets. Sometimes he’d trace your scars in the dark. Sometimes he’d ask about them. You’d always tell the truth. That you gave as good as you got. That the world didn’t give kindness easy to girls who looked like you.
He understood that. Maybe more than he wanted to admit.
There were fights. Of course there were.
He’d snap. You’d scream. He’d accuse. You’d threaten. Sometimes it ended with him storming off to the barn, fangs out, chest heaving. Other times it ended with you crying on the kitchen floor while he wiped whispered your name like an apology.
But he always came back.
And you never asked for more than that.
Now it was fall.
The corn had gone brittle and gold. The apples were heavy on the trees. The air snapped cold at night, and Remmick wore one of your father’s old coats, sleeves too big buttons half-missing.
You still killed.
And he still fed.
And sometimes, when the silence between you got too thick, you’d rest your head on his chest and he’d murmur things you didn’t understand in some tongue you couldn’t name.
You never asked what it meant.
Didn’t need to.
He was yours now.
And you were so good at keeping things.
You made pancakes that morning. Thick and golden, stacked high with butter sliding slow down the sides, pooling where syrup had already soaked through. Eggs sizzling in bacon grease. Coffee dark enough to chew. The kitchen smelled like warmth, like spice, like something that should’ve belonged to a family and not just the two of you.
You hummed while you cooked, flitting from stove to counter in your house slippers and a nightgown far too thin for autumn, not that you cared. You liked the way Remmick’s eyes always tried not to follow you, like he was doing you a favor by pretending not to want.
“The chickens are still laying good,” you said cheerfully, plating everything up. “Might be the best season they’ve had in years. That big red one—you know the one—she’s been peckin’ at the fence again. I swear she’s gonna fight a fox one day and win.” You giggled to yourself, setting his plate in front of him. He didn’t meet your eyes.
“And Josephine’s doin’ so good. Belly full and happy, just like she oughta be. Did you see the way she rolled over yesterday? Like a puppy dog.” You laughed again, loud and delighted, sipping your own coffee while Remmick finally cut into the stack of pancakes like they might bleed if he took the knife to them too hard.
“She’s got that look about her, you know,” you said. “Satisfied. Like she knows she’s loved.”
Remmick winced.
You saw it, even if he tried to hide it behind a mug. You leaned in across the table, smiling slow. “She is loved, of course. I always take care of what’s mine.”
He didn’t respond. Just nodded, jaw working behind a thin smile. Took another sip of coffee. Said, “We oughta check those fences ‘round the southern field, too. Some of them posts were leanin’ last week.”
You blinked. That wasn’t the answer you wanted.
You tilted your head, syrupy sweetness still dripping from your voice. “Did you hear me, sugar?”
He nodded again, a little tighter this time. “I did.”
“Then why’re you talkin’ about fences?”
“I just—figured we had work to do is all. Y’been sayin’ the corn needed turnin’ and the pigs—”
“Why are you changin’ the subject?” you asked, flatly this time. No sing-song. No hum.
His mouth opened. Then closed. You stared.
“Was just… wasn’t meanin’ nothin’ by it,” he said finally. “Ain’t think ya wanted me commentin’ on Josephine like that.”
“Well I do want you commentin’,” you said. “I like to know what you’re thinkin’. It ain’t fair to shut me up in my own kitchen, Remmick.”
“I wasn’t—” he tried, but you cut him off with a smile sharp enough to bleed on.
“I tell you everythin’, don’t I? My thoughts, my dreams, the way I see the world. You know all about me. So it only seems fair you give a little too.”
He looked back down at his plate.
You stood, slow, and circled the table. “Or maybe,” you said, quieter now, closer, “you just don’t like the way I talk. That it?”
“That’s not it,” he said quickly, looking up—finally.
You put a hand on his shoulder. “You think I talk too much?”
“No, I—”
“Think I’m too much?”
“No, darlin’, I don’t—please—”
Your fingers tightened. “You think I’m crazy?”
His silence said enough.
You tsked, sweet again. “You wouldn’t still be here if I was.”
He didn’t say anything.
You leaned in. Nose to his temple. Lips just behind his ear. “Would you?”
He exhaled shakily, fork clinking against the plate.
You knew that sound. You loved that sound. Because no matter what he said, no matter what words left that pretty mouth of his, his body always told the truth. He hadn’t run. Not really. Not in weeks. Not since the night you caught him watching you strip down to wash the blood from your skin and he hadn’t looked away even once.
You pulled back, patted his shoulder like it was all a game, and moved back to your seat.
“I just don’t like feelin’ like a bore,” you said lightly, sipping your coffee again. “Or worse. Like an embarrassment.”
“Yer not,” he murmured.
You smiled, but didn’t thank him. You didn’t need his pity.
You watched him eat in silence for a while. He never looked up. Never wiped the syrup off his chin. Never once reached across the table for your hand like he sometimes did in the quiet hours of night.
You hated that.
You cleared your throat. “Josephine is happy, you know,” you said again, voice brighter now. “I know she is. She’s a good girl.”
Remmick just nodded, mouthing an agreeance.
You narrowed your eyes. “You really don’t think so?”
“I said she’s a good girl.”
“You didn’t mean it.”
He looked at you again, and something mean flickered behind his expression. Something annoyed. But still, he gave you a thin smile, syrup-slicked and hollow. “She’s real lucky,” he said.
“Yeah,” you replied, voice steely. “She is.”
And you let the tension hang there. Let the air get tight. Let the silence cling.
And then—abruptly—you stood. Chair scraping against the floorboards, his plate in hand, walking toward the sink like your body was pulling you away before your mouth could say something stupid. Something dangerous.
You rinsed the syrup off the ceramic in one motion, hands steady, water hot, steam climbing. The sound of the faucet filled the space behind you where Remmick sat, stiff and unmoving.
You stared down into the drain like it could quiet your mind.
He was trying to upset you on purpose. That much was clear now. He wanted a fight. Wanted the cold shoulder. The punishment. Maybe he thought if he pushed hard enough, made himself unbearable enough, you'd let him go. That you'd get bored. Give him an out.
You smiled, tight and sour.
Cute of him to think he could manipulate you.
You braced the plate against the edge of the sink. Just a little pressure. Just a test. Wouldn’t take much. A tap, really. Crack the porcelain, snap a piece off, drag it clean across that throat of his. Watch the life pour out of him in ribbons. Let Josephine have her fill and then some.
Your hands began to tremble. With excitement. With want.
You drew a breath. Let it settle.
Then you turned, eyes wide and sunny. “Since you’re so concerned about chores,” you chirped, drying your hands on a towel, “I think you can handle ‘em yourself today.”
His head lifted. “What?”
“You heard me,” you said, breezy and bright. “You wanna keep fussin’ about the south field and the leanin’ posts and all the other nonsense? Be my guest.” You walked back to the table, hands on your hips, gaze flickering down his body just for the fun of it. “I think you’ll look real nice swingin’ that axe.”
He started to argue. You could see it—the beginning of a protest rising in his throat. But something stopped him. Maybe it was the way your fingers tapped the table edge. Maybe it was the way you didn’t blink. Maybe it was the thought that you weren’t asking.
He sighed. Long. Heavy. “Fine.”
You beamed. Then followed him out the front door.
The clouds hung low like an omen. Gray and slick, heavy with promise, just shy of rain. Wind pushed through the fields in slow rolls, rustling the corn, sending the trees creaking and moaning. The animals were restless.
And you were gleaming.
You watched from the porch as Remmick hoisted the feed sacks into the wheelbarrow, his muscles shifting beneath the sleeves of his shirt. It had once been his Sunday best—sky blue, pressed and tailored—but now it hung looser across his frame, stained at the collar and fraying at the wrists.
You’d done that to him.
You’d made him work.
You’d made him stay.
“You look so handsome when you lift heavy things,” you called out, voice sing-song, arms crossed as you leaned on the porch rail.
He ignored you.
You grinned wider. “You know I’d climb you like a tree if you’d just say the word.”
He stopped at the gate, stiffened, then kept walking.
You giggled.
The wheelbarrow wobbled down the gravel path toward the pig pens. You trailed behind him like a shadow, arms swinging, breath light.
“You could at least thank me,” you said sweetly.
“For what?” he asked, without turning.
“For lettin’ you earn your keep.”
He muttered something under his breath, probably a curse.
You leaned your head to the side. “Say that louder, sugar.”
He set the feed down hard, enough to make the pigs squeal.
“I said—” he began, turning to you.
But whatever heat he meant to throw fizzled quick under your stare. Because you weren’t angry. You weren’t pouting.
You looked delighted.
You looked hungry.
And something about that scared him more than your rage ever had.
“Keep talkin’ to me like that,” you said, stepping closer, “and I might not let you come to bed tonight.”
“I didn’t—” he ran a hand through his hair. “I ain’t tryin’ to be disrespectful, alright?”
You reached out, brushed dirt from his shoulder. “I know.”
He flinched.
You laughed.
The rest of the day passed like a fever.
You didn’t lift a finger. Didn’t offer to help with the crops or the troughs or the compost. You just watched. Sat with your legs swinging from the porch or tucked beneath you on the fence rails, humming and calling out compliments like a proud wife.
“Look at you,” you purred when he rolled up his sleeves to clean the chicken coop. “Sweatin’ for me.”
He scowled.
You leaned in. “Don’t act like you don’t like it.”
His ears turned pink.
You nearly moaned with satisfaction. “Oh,” you sighed, hand to your chest. “You blush so pretty. I could eat you alive.”
He stood up too quickly, knocking his head on the coop’s frame. You howled with laughter.
He groaned, rubbing his scalp. “Christ, woman—”
You sauntered closer. Still laughing. Still beaming. Still thinking about the way his neck had flexed earlier while he hauled that feed. Still thinking about how tightly that belt clung to his hips.
“You alright, sugar?” you asked, voice dipped in faux-concern.
He grumbled something about being fine.
You just laughed again and kissed his cheek, ignoring the way he stiffened when you got too close. “Atta boy,” you whispered.
You turned your face to the clouds, the wind rushing through your nightgown, lifting it just enough for him to see the curve of your thigh.
And you saw it. The way his eyes flinched and darted away. The way his chest rose sharper. The way he hated this. Hated what you were doing to him. Hated that he couldn’t stop it.
You grinned to yourself, already fantasizing about that blush of his creeping lower, lower, until it spilled down his stomach and between his legs.
You could definitely get used to this.
“Don’t stop now,” you called sweetly, slipping back up to the porch and stretching across the swing like a satisfied cat. “Still plenty of daylight left.”
Remmick wiped his brow, biting down whatever curse sat on his tongue.
And went back to work.
That night, the house was quiet.
You lay in bed, arms tucked under your head, staring up at the ceiling as the soft splashes of water drifted from the bathroom down the hall. Remmick was in there, washing the day from his skin, muscles you’d watched flex all afternoon gliding beneath soapy hands.
You’d considered joining him.
More than a few times.
Considered waltzing in without a word, without permission, maybe still wearing your dusty day-dress—or nothing at all—and pressing yourself up behind him, palms flat against that broad back. Sliding your hands down his slick sides, hearing his breath catch in that way it always did when you got too close too fast.
You’d imagined biting his shoulder just to watch him flinch. Imagined how the soap would go sliding down the drain pink-tinged from his skin.
But you’d let him have his little win tonight. You’d taken the bath first. Given him the illusion of privacy he clung to so desperately.
You weren’t cruel, after all.
Well. Not always.
The nightgown you’d chosen was white, soft as river mist, and sheer enough to make an honest man sin. The thin fabric clung to your breasts, your stomach, the dip of your hips—and went nearly transparent where it fell between your thighs.
Remmick hated it.
Or, rather, he tried to pretend he did.
He always pretended not to look. Always tried to keep his eyes polite and his hands to himself. But somehow those hands always ended up wandering. A palm skating over your ribs. Fingers brushing your throat. A thumb pressing softly to your lips as though he could tug the words right out of you.
Tonight, you intended to make him work for it.
You sprawled across the bed, legs crossed, the nightgown bunched high on your hips. Waiting.
When he finally came out of the bathroom, steam rolling past him into the hallway, he froze.
He stood there in nothing but a towel, hair still wet, water dripping down the hard line of his chest. He looked half a wild thing—eyes wide and uncertain, mouth parted as if he’d forgotten how to speak.
Your lips curled into a slow, wicked smile.
“Somethin’ wrong, sugar?” you asked, voice like honey.
He blinked hard, as though trying to reset his brain. “N-no. Just… just gettin’ dressed.”
“Mm-hm.” You trailed your fingertips down your own stomach, slow and deliberate. “Don’t let me stop ya.”
He forced himself to move, crossing to the dresser, trying so hard to keep his eyes on the drawer pulls instead of the stretch of your thighs. You watched his throat work as he swallowed, watched the muscles in his arms twitch when you shifted on the mattress, making the gown slip another inch higher.
He pulled on a pair of loose cotton pants. No shirt. Not yet.
He tried to climb into bed.
You stopped him with your foot.
Pressed it lightly against his bare chest, right over his heart, so he couldn’t swing his legs onto the mattress.
He stilled, glancing down at your foot, then back up at your face. “Darlin’…”
“You grumbled all day,” you started, cocking your head to the side. “Got on my nerves somethin’ fierce.”
He flushed. “I… I ain’t mean nothin’ by it—”
You smiled, far too sharply.
“So you can sleep on the floor tonight.”
“I ain’t sleepin’ on no damn—”
You dug your heel in deep, enough to make him wince. “Come again?”
He kept his mouth shut.
“You wanna sleep beside me, sugar, you’re gonna have to earn it back.”
“Darlin’…” he breathed. “Please…”
“Earn it.”
He lowered himself to his knees, hands sliding up your calf, pressing reverent kisses to your ankle.
“Start there,” you murmured, voice gone breathy. “Make it up to me.”
He did.
He kissed his way up your shin, warm lips brushing your skin so softly you wanted to scream. He paused at your knee, pressing his forehead to it, breath shaking. Then he moved higher, mouth finding the sensitive skin of your inner thigh, sucking gently enough to leave a shiver behind.
He skipped over the slick heat between your legs entirely.
Coward.
You decided not to scold him. Not yet. Let him think he could get away with it.
He climbed higher, pressing soft kisses to your stomach, your ribs. His mouth lingered at the curve of your breast, hovering for a long moment before he finally took a nipple between his lips, sucking slow and careful. His fangs scraped lightly against the peak, just enough to make your breath catch.
You let out a low sound, fingers sinking into his hair.
He flicked his tongue over the sensitive bud, then drew back to kiss your other breast, open-mouthed and damp, leaving little trails of saliva cooling on your skin.
“Remmick…” you breathed, tugging him higher.
He obeyed, rising over you, chest brushing yours as he caught your lips.
You let him kiss you first. Let him keep it sweet. Chaste.
But then you seized it.
You tilted your head, lips parting wide, tongue diving past his as your teeth scraped his lower lip. The kiss turned messy and consuming, your moans vibrating into his mouth as you devoured him, letting the drool he’d been fighting so hard to swallow spill out, slicking your chin, your chest, his mouth shiny and wet.
You pulled back with a soft pop of suction, lightly tapping his cheek with your fingertips.
“Forgot somethin’, sugar.”
He blinked at you, panting, lips slick and parted. “Wh-what…?”
Like he didn’t know.
You raised your brows expectantly.
A flush crept up his throat as he ducked his head, shuffling back down your body.
Then his tongue pressed flat against your folds in one long, devastating stroke, licking from your entrance all the way to your clit, your thighs falling wider.
You let your head lull back, smiling knowingly.
Now he was earning it.
Remmick’s tongue pressed in again, this time slower, deliberate. He licked you in long, languid strokes, as though savoring each new slick taste, letting your wetness coat his tongue before pulling back just enough to breathe.
You felt his breath stutter against your cunt, hot and shaky, a tiny tremor in the wet heat of his mouth.
“Mmm… s-sweet… s’so… sweet…” he mumbled, half to himself, eyes fluttering closed as he flicked his tongue over your clit in soft, teasing circles.
A laugh bubbled out of you, high and breathless.
“Listen to you,” you gasped, voice shivering as he laved another stroke through your folds. “God, look at you. All that big man act, and here you are… drooling for my pussy.”
He let out a muffled, broken sound, as if your words cracked him deeper open. His lips sealed around your clit and sucked gently, sending lightning shooting up your spine.
“Oh fuck— Remmick—”
He groaned into you, the vibration rippling through your cunt. And something shifted then—some thin line of control snapping tight and then giving way.
Suddenly he wasn’t slow anymore.
He dove in with reckless hunger, tongue plunging into your entrance, twisting and writhing as if he were trying to bury himself inside you. His big hands gripped your thighs, squeezing bruises into the soft flesh as he pulled you open wider, forcing you to take every filthy lick.
Wet, wet sounds filled the room—obscene slurps and slick, messy laps. Your own moans rang out sharp, trembling, each one higher than the last as your hips bucked against his face.
“Fuck—fuck, Remmick—don’t stop—”
But he wasn’t listening anymore.
His fangs grazed you, just shy of biting, scraping along your swollen lips and making your breath catch in a ragged cry. He growled low in his throat, and you felt his tongue working frantically, plunging deep and withdrawing to flick over your clit with quick, feverish laps.
Drool spilled from his mouth, mingling with your slick until it coated his chin, dripping down the insides of your thighs.
“God damn,” you choked out, half laughing, half moaning as you fisted your hands in his hair. “You hear yourself? The noises you’re makin’? You sound pathetic.”
He lifted his head barely an inch, eyes wild, pupils blown crimson. His lips were glistening, shiny with your wetness, and a thread of drool hung from his lower lip as he panted.
“C-can’t help it… y’smell… s’sweet… s-so fuckin’ good—wanna live here—” His voice broke as he stuttered forward, burying his face between your legs again.
He moaned shamelessly, loud and aching, as his tongue fucked into you faster, deeper, almost frantic. Each thrust of it sent jolts of pleasure rocketing through your belly, your thighs quivering around his head.
Your own laughter turned ragged, punctuated by sharp, gasping cries.
“Ohhh, Remmick—shit—y’gonna come just from eatin’ me out, huh? That how easy you fall apart?”
He whimpered into your cunt, hips rolling uselessly against the bed as if he were trying to rut the air. The needy, broken sounds poured out of him, half-words and trembling moans, all muffled into the heat of your cunt.
“Please… need… m-make ya come—lemme—need t’—fuck, fuck—”
You threw your head back, eyes rolling, your laughter dissolving into a long, helpless moan as he sucked your clit between his lips, flicking it rapidly with the tip of his tongue until your whole body seized.
Your hands twisted in his hair, pulling him closer, grinding yourself against his mouth with reckless abandon.
“Shit—shit—Remmick—oh God—”
His fangs grazed you again, and that tiny brush of sharpness tipped you over the edge.
Pleasure crashed through you in a blinding wave, your hips jerking wildly as you cried out, your voice echoing around the room.
Remmick just held you there, moaning into you, tongue still lapping as if he’d never get enough, chasing every last drop you gave him.
And as you came down, trembling, breathless, a grin split your lips.
Remmick was still kneeling there, shoulders heaving, his face a disaster.
His mouth, chin, and neck glistened, dripping with slick and spit, globs of it slowly sliding down his throat. His lips were parted around shallow, panting breaths, eyes shimmering wet in the lamplight.
“D-darlin’…” His voice broke, hoarse and shaking as he licked at the mess still streaking his lips. “C-can I… please… get in bed now? My… my knees’re hurtin’ somethin’ awful…”
You tilted your head slowly to one side, pressing a finger to your chin in a big, exaggerated gesture of contemplation.
“Hmmm…” you said, dragging it out as you fluttered your lashes at him. “No.”
He blinked, stunned, a pitiful whimper catching in his throat. “Wh… why not…?”
“Took you long enough, ain’t it?” You swept your nightgown down over your thighs, smoothing the fabric, then shot him a look as sharp as broken glass. “I’m exhausted now. I could’ve run the entire farm twice while you were trying to figure out how to use your tongue.”
His face crumpled, an embarrassed flush crawling up his neck. “I—I was tryin’ so hard—”
“Try harder next time,” you said sweetly.
And with a sudden snap of your leg, you kicked him in the chest. Not viciously—but just enough force to knock him back so he landed flat on the floor with a little oof, arms splayed out like a ragdoll.
“Goodnight, sugar,” you chirped, already turning your back on him.
You were up before the sun, apron tied snug around your waist, hair pinned back in curls, humming to yourself as you cracked the eggs and watched the whites sizzle in the pan. “Sun ain’t even had her coffee yet,” you whispered to the stove, eyes bright. “Lazy thing.”
You swayed from side to side as you moved, bare feet brushing the floorboards, the hem of your dress dancing over your ankles. The smell of butter filled the air, thick and golden, pooling around fried potatoes and fresh sausage, two links for you and four for Remmick.
You liked watching him eat. Liked how quiet he got when his mouth was full. Liked how he always chewed so neatly, so polite. You glanced over at the second plate and sighed dreamily.
“What a night,” you said aloud, to no one in particular. “What a night.”
You weren’t sore—not exactly. But you could still feel the ghost of his mouth between your legs, the way he’d whimpered like a dog, like a man starved. “Poor thing,” you cooed to the skillet. “Workin’ so hard just to sleep beside me.”
You flipped the eggs. Behind you, the house creaked. You didn’t flinch. Just smiled, humming a little louder as you reached for the biscuits you’d baked an hour earlier. They were still warm in the basket, soft and flaky, slathered in melted butter and clover honey. You licked your finger clean as you set them out, plate after plate until the table looked like it belonged in a painting—except better, because it was yours.
Remmick was still upstairs. Still sleeping, probably. You wondered if he was dreaming.
And then, just as you laid the final fork down—a scream.
Loud. Wet. Ragged.
You beamed. Clapped your hands once, delighted. “Oh! There he is!” You wiped your palms on your apron and flounced toward the table, adjusting a napkin, fixing the syrup pitcher so the handle faced just right. Another scream—this one more guttural, panicked, echoing down the staircase. You could hear him stumbling against the walls.
He made it to the first landing with a thud. Then again at the bottom of the stairs, thumping into the hallway like he’d tripped over his own feet—or maybe just from the pure shock of it.
You leaned over the plates and breathed in deep. “Smells like love,” you sighed, and then turned just as—
“Darlin’—!”
Remmick burst through the kitchen doorway, rattling the frame so intensely you thought it’d crack. His chest was heaving, shirtless, still damp with sleep, pants barely pulled up right. His hands were shaking. His eyes were glassy and rimmed with red. And wrapped tight around his throat—smoking faintly with every frantic tug—was the collar. Thick. Tight. Silver.
His fingers trembled as he tried to yank at the buckle again, hissing when his skin touched the metal. You watched it burn him. Watched him keep going anyway.
He caught himself before he spoke, swallowing his curses, his breath, all of it down deep. Then he plastered on the sweetest expression he could muster and stepped forward, voice cracking with the effort to stay gentle. “D-darlin’,” he said, “what… what’s on m’neck?”
You tilted your head, blinking at him with wide-eyed fondness. Then giggled. “Oh, Remmick,” you whispered, sweeping forward and throwing your arms around him before he could back away. “Good mornin’, sugar!” You kissed his cheek, lips brushing sweat. He flinched. Hard. But you didn’t let go. You nuzzled into his neck, ignoring the acrid scent of silver against skin. “Ain’t you just the handsomest thing?”
He opened his mouth again, but you beat him to it. “I found it last night,” you explained, not even looking up. “Rummagin’ through the cellar after you fell asleep. Belonged to one of the old hounds my daddy used to keep. Can’t for the life of me remember his name. Wasn’t a very nice dog anyhow. Died real sudden. Think he got into the swamp.” You giggled at that. “But it was good silver. Can’t just let good silver go to waste.”
Remmick’s throat bobbed as he swallowed. “Did you…” he started, voice barely there, “…did you put it on me while I was sleepin’?”
You turned, eyes bright as dew. “I sure did,” you said, like it was the most romantic thing in the world.
He went quiet. You returned to your chair and sat, folding your napkin in your lap. “You wouldn’t’ve let me if you were awake,” you added with a little shrug. “So I gave you the berries. Just a few. The ones that make your head all foggy and slow. Little bit of that’ll knock out a bull!”
His face paled. Remmick stayed where he was, breathing hard, the faintest whimper leaking from between his teeth as he tried and failed again to pry at the collar. You could see the skin starting to welt, to bubble faintly at the edges, little angry red patches spiderwebbing across his throat. But he was too scared to yell. Too scared to scare you. He knew better.
You placed a hand on your hip and gestured to the table. “Now,” you said sweetly, “I made you breakfast. Sit.”
He didn’t move. So you stepped toward him again, slowly, and took his hand. “It’s alright,” you whispered, leading him gently. “Ain’t nothin’ to cry about, sugar. I think it suits you.”
He let you seat him. You slid his plate in front of him and kissed the top of his head. The collar hissed. You smiled. Then rested your elbows on the table, cupping your cheeks as you stared across at Remmick like he was the center of the whole world.
He hadn’t touched the food yet. Still trying to remember how to move with a burning collar around his throat. Still calculating how much pain each twitch of his head would cost him. But finally—finally—he lifted the aluminum fork with a trembling hand and sliced off the edge of a runny egg. He didn’t look up. Not once.
You leaned in closer, breath quickening as he tilted his head the tiniest bit, wincing when the silver sizzled against his neck. Oh, it sang for you. Right before he could slip the bite between his lips—
“STOP!”
He froze. His whole body jerked with it—shoulders stiff, fork halfway to his mouth, eyes going wide like a deer in headlights.
You gasped and slapped your palms on the table with a dramatic squeal, chair skidding back as you stood. “Don’t move a muscle,” you warned, grinning ear to ear. “Almost forgot your surprise!”
His mouth opened, but nothing came out. Frankly, you didn’t care what he would’ve said. You were already turning toward the cabinet. The tall one in the corner, one that neither of you really checked, which made it perfect. You opened it slow, savoring the creak of the hinges, fingers trailing along the bottom shelf like you were picking out fine china.
And then, from behind a bundle of dried herbs and spices—you pulled it out. Thick. Black. Shiny with oil. The leash.
Remmick didn’t make a sound, but when you turned around with it held high, his jaw dropped. Fully. Wide open, like he’d just seen a ghost. You cackled. “Oh, sugar,” you chirped, skipping back over to the table. “You should see your face!”
He blinked at you, stiff as a corpse. You laid the leash down on the table between the plates, smoothing the leather flat with one hand. It looked so good there. You couldn’t stop grinning. “I been meanin’ to fish this thing out for ages,” you said brightly, dangling it just a tad before putting it back down. “Didn’t even know if I still had it! My mama used to use it on that ugly dog. He hated it, poor thing. Choked himself half to death the first time she snapped it on.”
You beamed, as though recalling a fond memory. Remmick swallowed hard. Maybe it was spit. Maybe it was bile. Either way, it looked like it hurt.
“You excited?” you asked sweetly, batting your lashes at him.
His lips trembled. “Y… yeah,” he croaked, voice thin as paper.
You clapped, delighted. “Oh good! I was hopin’ you’d say that! We can take it for a lil’ test run after breakfast. Maybe do a walk ‘round the coop! Or down to the swamp, say hi to Josephine.” You leaned closer and dropped your voice to a conspiratorial whisper. “She’s gonna lose her mind.”
You dug into your food with a happy hum, cutting into your sausage and letting the juices soak the edge of your biscuit. Every bite melted on your tongue. You moaned, licking the honey from your fingers.
Remmick hadn’t moved. He just stared at his plate like it might bite him. You noticed. You didn’t mind. You gave him a look, head cocked, still chewing. “You’re eatin’ slow today.”
He blinked, startled. “I—I’m just tryin’ to savor it,” he offered, voice small. “It’s real good.”
You narrowed your eyes, fork mid-air. Then shrugged and giggled. “You’re so sweet to me, sugar. Always got such nice things to say when I cook.”
He smiled. Or something like it.
You jabbed a sausage link and made it dance on your fork, humming to yourself as you watched him cut another bite of egg. He moved like his limbs didn’t belong to him. Like every inch of him was fighting something inside. You loved it. It made your heart sing.
“Y’know…” you said thoughtfully, propping your chin on your hand. “I was thinkin’ last night. Right before I went to bed.”
He didn’t answer. Just kept chewing, slow and silent.
“I was thinkin’,” you went on, “that we oughta build a little shed out by the swamp. A real one. With a roof and a table and some hooks. Somethin’ sturdy.”
He looked up at that. Not all the way. Just a flicker of his gaze toward your face. You smiled back. “We could butcher ‘em out there. Hang ‘em up by the heels and drain ‘em before Josephine gets to ‘em.” You tapped your fork twice against your chin. “Bet you’d like that. Give you somethin’ to do with all that muscle. Show me how strong you are...”
Remmick’s mouth was a grim line. His fork had stopped moving. But he didn’t say no. Didn’t say anything at all.
You decided to let him be quiet today. Let him have this last calm before the leash clicked into place. Before the whole day rolled out yellow and warm at your feet. So you just hummed. And you watched him eat. Each bite slower than the last. Slower than anyone had any business chewing.
You kept your smile. Kept your tone light and your hands folded in your lap. You even hummed a little tune to distract yourself. But inside? Your nerves buzzed like hornets in a jar. He was dragging it. Just to spite you. Just to stretch out the moments before the inevitable. Bite after agonizing bite, chewing each mouthful like it might be his last—like the eggs might dissolve into a final miracle if he just waited long enough.
You tapped your fingers against the table once. Twice. Took a sip of coffee you didn’t want. Licked your lips and told yourself it was fine. That you were being patient. Kind, even. You hadn’t lost your temper yet. Proud of yourself for that, really.
But when he reached those last few bites—those very last crumbs of sausage and flecks of yolk smeared against his fork—you stood. Calm. Still smiling. And held out your hand.
Remmick paused mid-bite. His whole body tensed. But he didn’t argue. Didn’t whine or flinch or try to buy himself another minute. He just dropped his gaze, brought the fork to his mouth, and swallowed the last bit of sausage.
You snatched the plate from his hands the second he did. Light, sure. But quick. Sharp enough to make his shoulders jolt. You didn’t even rinse it. Didn’t pretend to care. Just tossed it into the sink with a clatter and turned back to him, your grin returning in full force.
Then you dropped. Right onto his lap. The chair creaked beneath the weight of you both, but you didn’t give it a second thought. You wiggled happily, thighs spread wide, grinding slow over the hard line of him through his pants. You felt the way he stiffened. Heard the way he sucked in a breath through clenched teeth.
And oh, how it delighted you.
Your fingers found the leash next—where it still lay coiled neat on the table. And you clipped it on. The snap of the clasp echoed like a gunshot. A soft hiss came from the collar, that same old burn—but not nearly as loud this time. Like the silver was running out of fresh skin to char.
Remmick whimpered low in his throat, flinching under you, and you took your sweet time drinking him in. Blisters had risen now, red and mean, dotting the edges of the band like broken pearls. But what interested you more were the strange deep marks traveling out in tendrils—like veins. Darker than blood, winding up his throat and slipping just beneath the skin of his collarbone. Like the silver was trying to root in him.
You pressed your thumb just beneath the burn, watching the skin give way, soft and hot to the touch. He twitched. And your stomach fluttered.
He looked... God, he looked beautiful. Absolutely wrecked. Exhausted. Skin flushed, lips parted, eyes glassy with pain. Like something you’d starved for.
You wrapped the leash twice around your wrist, tugging it just tight enough to make him blink. And then you kissed him. Open-mouthed. Wet. Devouring.
He made a wounded sound when your tongue slipped past his lips—like he didn’t mean to let it happen, but couldn’t stop himself. Like the leash did more than just keep him close. It made him obedient.
Your free hand cupped his jaw, thumb dragging along the sticky corner of his mouth, smearing spit from your kiss across his cheek as you leaned in harder, grinding again. You felt him twitch beneath you—felt the conflict thrashing in his hips. Part of him wanted to run. Part of him didn’t.
The leather between your wrist and his neck tugged softly as you shifted, and you giggled when his tongue jolted in your mouth—like a shock had gone through him.
You pulled back just enough to see his face. “Didn’t think I’d see you so flustered again,” you whispered, brushing your nose against his. “Thought you’d left all that self-respect between my thighs, sugar.”
His eyes darted over your face, sweat trickling down his temple. “I—I ain’t…” he started, but the words tangled and died before they found their way free.
You ran a hand through his damp hair. Then tugged the leash again. A sharp snap of silver tension, and he gasped, hips bucking up involuntarily beneath you.
You grinned. Leaned close again. “Y’know what I think?” you murmured, dragging your lips along the side of his face. “I think you like bein’ kept.”
“N-no…”
You pressed a kiss to the curve of his jaw. “Sure you don’t.”
You rocked again in his lap, slow and deliberate, dragging yourself over the bulge in his pants, feeling it throb beneath the weight of you. His hands gripped the sides of the chair like he was begging himself not to touch you.
You giggled and pulled his face to yours, nipping lightly at his lower lip. “Such a good boy,” you cooed. “Such a pretty, pretty thing.”
His breath hitched again, and you felt his thighs tremble beneath you.
And then—there it was. You saw it in the slow, uncertain twitch of his fingers. The way they unfurled one by one from the wooden frame of the chair, creeping up, hesitant, toward the soft give of your thighs.
You waited—let them rise just enough to ghost along the edge of your hips. Then you stood. Abrupt. Purposeful. Yanked the leash as you went and forced him to stumble up with you, nearly toppling the chair backward in his scramble to keep his footing.
You giggled, all teeth and joy when you caught the way his hips jerked forward with the movement—when you saw the thick, unforgiving bulge at the front of his pants.
“Well, look at that,” you cooed, head tilting sweetly as your fingers moved down to brush against it. He hissed softly through his teeth, already trembling again.
“There’ll be plenty of time for that later,” you promised with a wink. “But right now? I wanna test this little thing out.”
You gave it another playful tug, not hard enough to hurt, but just enough to make the collar snap taut against his skin again—just enough to watch the muscle jump in his throat as the silver hissed and sizzled fresh against his blisters.
He whimpered, eyes fluttering. But he didn’t speak. You wondered if it hurt for him to.
You turned on your heel and started toward the back door, your steps bouncing with glee, purposefully walking faster than usual—just to see if he could keep up. The leash stayed tight between you. His bare feet padded across the kitchen floor behind you in uneven, scrambling little bursts.
You didn’t look back. Not when the screen door groaned open. Not when you stepped out onto the porch.
The sun was already high, baking the roof tiles, bleached white and brutal overhead. But the trees lining the path to the barn were generous with their shade today, long-limbed and swaying, dappled light painting the dirt trail below.
You turned just enough to flash Remmick a grin over your shoulder. “You better keep up,” you chirped. “Wouldn’t want your pretty skin boilin’ off, would we?”
He didn’t answer. Just gave a tight little nod and braced himself as you set off—speedwalking now, steps quick and light, kicking up little clouds of dust as you went.
The leash tugged and bounced between you with every footfall, and more than once, you felt the tension snap sharp—followed by the soft, unsteady scuffle of Remmick nearly tripping behind you.
He never fell.
But oh, how close he came.
Each stumble sounded like a prayer, a bite-back whimper, a half-muttered “fuck” caught on the wind. And still, he followed. Always followed.
You beamed as you reached the wide barn doors and pushed them open with a loud creak, the hinges singing like they hadn’t been oiled in years. You stepped into the cool dark and let the leash slacken in your hand, uncoiling it from your wrist so it dangled freely now, just barely held in your grip.
Remmick panted behind you, cheeks flushed, sweat glistening at his hairline, and you turned to him like a proud hostess. “Well,” you said brightly, “get to work, sugar.”
His brow furrowed. “Work…?”
You gestured at the far wall, where rusted tools lined the hooks—shovels, axes, hammers, nails in glass jars, coils of wire and thick rolls of canvas tarp. All coated in a thin shimmer of grime. A few had darker stains. One of them still had a little chunk of something clinging to the handle.
“You sayin’ work like we didn’t already talk about this?” you asked, voice rising into a high, mock-wounded whine.
His brows pinched together, eyes flicking uncertainly toward the tools again.
You frowned, winding the leash tight—far tighter than you had earlier that morning—around your forearm, tugging him forward with little jerks as you took slow, deliberate steps deeper into the barn. He stumbled after you, hands lifted like he meant to soothe you.
“Wait—darlin’, I—I didn’t mean—please, I wasn’t forgettin’ on purpose, I just—I got distracted is all—”
“You forgot about our project, Remmick,” you said with a pout so heavy it almost cracked your face in half. “The shed, remember? Down by the swamp? We talked about it just this morning. You said it was a fine idea.”
You knew he hadn’t said a word in agreement, but he certainly wasn’t going to try and fight you on it.
“I—I know, I know,” he said quickly, nodding. “I swear I did—I just—my mind’s not been right since I woke up with this—this—thing—’round my neck—”
You yanked the leash hard, and he choked on the last word, the collar going taut again.
The sound it made was less of a sizzle now and more of a whimper, like the silver had grown tired of burning and instead burrowed itself down deep, content to throb inside his skin.
You gave him a sharp look—one that shut him right up.
“Start gathering,” you said, so flatly you surprised yourself. “Lumber’s in the corner. Nails’re on the shelf. You’ll need the hammer, the shovel, and probably one of those little saws too. Unless you wanna build it with your teeth, sugar.”
He didn’t argue. Just nodded once. And moved toward the tools.
You flounced back against the nearest hay bale and perched yourself there, crossing your legs with a lazy hum. And watched.
Hefting the heavier tools made his arms strain, muscles twitching in his bare chest—and only then did you remember he still hadn’t put a shirt on. The sun slipped through the slats in the walls in thin, golden stripes, but Remmick kept shifting to avoid them, ducking just slightly out of reach each time they threatened to graze his skin.
Every time he bent down to pick something up, you caught yourself biting your lip.
He really was pretty.
Especially with that chain trailing from his neck.
And oh, those marks.
Crawling further now. Right below his jaw, down toward his chest, some even skimming his chin in those vein-like streaks. Blooming like angry vines.
You tugged the leash.
He flinched.
Another tug. He stumbled.
You laughed.
He looked back, eyes wide with something soft and wounded—but didn’t say a word. Just nodded once more, gripped one of the thick wooden planks in both hands, and hoisted it up onto his shoulder.
“Mm-mm… grab two more while you’re at it, sugar,” you called sweetly. “And don’t forget the hammer! Crooked walls would make me so upset…”
He obeyed.
And you tugged again—just to watch the way his hands trembled, the way he jerked forward, like he was yours to puppet.
Which, of course, he was.
And you couldn’t wait to make him prove it.
You waited hours for the sun to get its selfish little behind out the sky. Too bright, too bold, too hot. She always liked to steal attention. You told her so—out loud, a few times, while watching from the kitchen window, arms crossed over your chest and leash wound in your hand like a ribbon of patience. But she finally tucked herself away. Which meant it was time to get to work.
Remmick had been building like a man possessed. Quiet, focused, bare chest and back damp with sweat, mouth going slack with every heavy breath. And oh, hadn’t he been good. All those planks cut to size, the posts dug straight, the frame already nailed tight. The walls were nearly done now, with only one side open to the swamp for your little friend to come and go as she pleased.
You sat in the grass nearby, knees hugged to your chest, cheek resting lazily on one arm as you watched the leash swing and tug with every movement of his neck. He was sweating. He was filthy. He looked beautiful.
“Take a break,” you chirped suddenly.
He hesitated—just for a moment—then set the hammer down, brushing his palms against his pants. “Don’t gotta tell me twice,” he said, and that smile—oh, that smile—blossomed out slow and real, his first honest one all day. No twitch behind the eyes. No edge of panic in his voice.
You beamed. He took a seat beside you, still too far, but you let it slide. For now.
You reached into the basket you’d brought and started pouring lemonade into a glass. Then paused. Thought better of it. With a bright hum, you pushed the whole pitcher into his lap.
“There you go, sugar. You earned it.”
He didn’t even hesitate—just lifted the pitcher and drank straight from it, throat bobbing with every deep swallow, jaw flexing as he gulped it down like water in the desert. You watched. You stared. Your own mouth went dry.
“I love watchin’ you drink,” you said dreamily, scooting closer until your bare shoulder touched his. “Like watchin’ a big ol’ dog at a water bowl.”
He choked on the last gulp, coughing softly. You patted his back, grinning, then plucked a sandwich from the basket—turkey, thick and cold with a generous smear of butter and two slices of tomato—and unwrapped it slowly.
Remmick turned his head, brows lifting.
“Oh, no,” you said, wiggling your fingers. “This one’s on me.”
And with that, you plucked off a corner of the sandwich and held it up to his mouth.
He hesitated. But not long. He opened, lips parting slow—and you didn’t just feed him.
You slipped your fingers into his mouth, slow and deliberate, feeling the soft heat of his tongue as he closed around them. Then deeper. Just a bit. Letting your fingertips slide past his tongue and press lightly against the back of his throat.
He didn’t gag.
Didn’t flinch.
Just held your gaze.
Steady. Obedient. Unblinking.
Slowly, you began to pull back, your fingers grazing the sharp points of his fangs on the way out—light, teasing, just enough to feel them graze your tips. A long string of spit followed, stretching wet and shimmering from his lips to your knuckles.
You lifted your hand, tongue darting out to catch the drool with a pleased little hum.
“There’s my good boy,” you murmured, feeding him another piece. “Makin’ up for bein’ so sour yesterday, aren’t you? Bein’ sweet now. Bein’ real sweet.”
He chewed and swallowed, his eyes flicking sideways, all that confidence sapped in an instance.
“Yer takin’ care of me,” he said softly. “It’s… real kind of ya.”
“Kind,” you echoed, like the word was candy on your tongue. “You think I’m kind.”
Another piece. Another bite. His lips brushed your fingertips this time.
You smiled. Wider. Licked your teeth.
When the sandwich was nearly gone, you dropped the last piece into his palm and watched as he finished it, your eyes locked on his mouth, your hands twitching in your lap. You didn’t say anything. You just stared. Until he looked up. And then you pounced.
You pushed him backward, fingers splayed over his chest, and climbed on top of him in one fluid motion, your knees pressing into the grass on either side of his hips.
He made a soft, startled sound—but didn’t fight. Didn’t move. Just blinked up at you, pink creeping up his throat.
You folded your arms on his chest and rested your chin atop them, gazing down at him, rocking just slightly where you sat.
“Have I been mean to you?” you asked, voice pitched soft. “’Cause I’ve been thinkin’ about it… and I worry I’ve been mean.”
He went tense beneath you. A full-body kind of still.
“No,” he said too fast. Too sharp. Then softened it. “No, darlin’. Y— y’ain’t been mean.”
“Really?”
“Mmhmm.”
“Are you sure?”
His bottom lip trembled. He bit it. But he nodded.
You grinned. Bright as the evening stars.
Then leaned down and peppered his face in kisses. Soft ones. Wet ones. One on the nose, one on the cheek, one at the corner of his mouth. His lashes fluttered with each press.
“My sweet boy,” you whispered. “My sunshine. My angel pie. My beautiful lil’ farmhand. Lettin’ me feed you, lettin’ me sit on you like this. Letting me love you.”
He made a sound—barely audible—but it buzzed against your lips as you kissed his jaw.
You sat up, straddling him, hands resting lightly on his ribs. Then he stiffened, suddenly.
Huff.
You blinked. Turned your head.
A slow grin split your face.
There she was, Josephine!
Her big eyes and broad snout breaking the swamp’s glassy surface, nostrils flaring.
“Well, well, well,” you cooed, tilting your head. “You want in on our picnic, baby girl?”
Josephine huffed again.
Remmick—still pinned beneath you—stared at her with wide, horrified eyes.
You turned back to him and leaned down close, nose brushing his.
“She likes watchin’,” you whispered. “Likes seein’ you be good for me.”
He swallowed, hard.
You gasped like he’d confessed to a crime and slammed both palms flat against his chest. “You ain’t even pet her yet!”
The thud from your hands knocked the wind out of him—he let out a stunned little grunt, halfway between a hiccup and a groan, like someone’d punched him in the ribs. His eyes blinked wide.
“I—I didn’t—didn’t know I was supposed to…” he stammered, breath catching as your hands stayed firm on his sternum.
“Remmick,” you said, voice low and grave as you leaned in close. “That girl has loved you from the moment she laid eyes on you. She welcomed you into her home—my home—and you haven’t even given her a single pat on the head?”
He opened his mouth. Closed it. Tried again. “I—I don’t… I mean, she’s a gator, darlin’—”
“Oh, hush.” You were already on your feet, brushing dirt off your thighs, your smile bright as ever. The leash gave a soft tug as you wrapped it tighter around your fist. Remmick’s body stiffened.
“C’mon,” you said, sing-song. “On your feet, sugar.”
He sat up slowly, like his bones ached. “Darlin’, I dunno if that’s such a good—”
You gave the leash another gentle yank. Not mean, not yet. But the message was clear. “Now, Remmick.”
He stood without another word.
You led him by the collar all the way to the edge of the dock, your pace just a little too fast to be casual. When you got there you flopped belly-first against the old, sun-warmed wood, your feet kicked up behind you. The water lapped quietly beneath the boards.
You patted the dock beside you. “Get down here.”
He hesitated—but not for long. Soon he was lying stomach-down beside you, arms tense at his sides, chest rising and falling with slow, measured breaths. Like he was trying very hard to keep calm.
You reached out toward the water like you’d done it a thousand times before, fingers splayed wide, wrist loose. And from the murk below, Josephine rose. Just her snout and those big sleepy eyes, surfacing slow and steady, her nostrils flaring once in greeting. Her wide head pressed against your palm, and you scratched under her chin, down her neck, nails dragging over the thick hide. She made that low, slow, rolling sound again—somewhere between a growl and a purr.
“There she is,” you cooed, rubbing her head with both hands now. “There’s my good girl. My beautiful, scaly angel. God, you missed me, didn’t you, baby? You missed mama. You missed your treats.”
Remmick lay frozen beside you, not breathing. Not blinking. You could feel the tension in him, like a little live wire strung tight at the edge of the dock.
You pulled your hands back slowly and smiled at him. “Your turn.”
He looked at you like you’d asked him to saw off a finger. “I—I don’t think I should—”
You rolled your eyes, and your tone took on that extra sugary sweet edge it always did right before something snapped. “Remmick. She knows if you’re scared. She feels it. She’s an empath, remember?”
His mouth opened. “I—since when is—gators ain’t empath—”
“She’ll bite your damn hand clean off if you hesitate,” you added with a nod. “But no pressure.”
He gulped. And, with a hand that shook like a leaf, he reached out.
Josephine let him touch her—but just barely. He managed to graze a few fingers along her head, and for a moment she stayed put. Then she huffed through her nose and sank back down into the water, gone in a blink.
You sighed, fond. “She don’t like nervous men.”
“I—I wasn’t tryin’ to be—” he tried.
“Shhh,” you sounded, digging through the basket behind you. “She still loves you.”
You pulled out a turkey sandwich and leaned forward, tossing it into the water. “There you go, sweet pea,” you called, watching it land with a plop. “Just a snack, alright? I’ll get you a full meal soon. Promise.”
Josephine’s head rose again briefly. Then disappeared, sandwich and all.
You turned back to Remmick, your face practically glowing. “Ain’t she just the sweetest?”
He gave the water a long, slow look. His voice, when it came, was high and hoarse: “Y-yeah. Real sweet.”
Remmick’s breath had evened out, but yours hadn’t. You were too wrapped up in how soft his hair felt against your fingers, how his body melted so easily into yours tonight—like he was made to lay right here, head on your chest, arms circled around your waist, every inch of him lax and humming from the day’s work.
You’d let him clean you earlier. Run that sweet, reverent mouth of his between your legs while the bathwater turned lukewarm. He’d made dinner after, too, so gentle when he set the plate down in your lap and fed you the bits he noticed you liked most. He’d been perfect. So good you’d even considered taking the collar off.
The thought had risen up, a quiet little whisper in your brain, as you looked down at him just now—curled up against you like a dog freshly dried and warmed by the fire. For a moment, you’d imagined slipping your fingers under the clasp, lifting the chain from his neck, kissing the spot beneath. You’d even smiled at the idea.
But then you laughed. Out loud.
The sound made him twitch a little, like he’d heard it from underwater. You stroked his hair to soothe him, the warmth of his breath on your skin making it so hard to believe he’d ever been anything but soft. Silly thought. You weren’t taking the collar off. Not tonight. Not tomorrow. Maybe never.
Your eyes had just begun to flutter shut when it came—a sharp pop from beyond the trees. Like a firecracker. Then the low hiss of rubber gasping its last breath. You blinked, cocked your head. Another few seconds passed. And then, right there through the window: the silhouette of a young man coming up the drive. White. Frazzled. Bag slung over one shoulder and both arms waving as he called out toward the house.
“Oh!” you squealed, lips already curving with glee. “Remmick!”
You cradled his cheeks and kissed his mouth, giddy as you shoved his face further into your chest.
“Remmick, wake up—we’re gonna do this one together, you and me!”
He grunted softly, blinking up at you, mind still foggy from almost-sleep. You didn’t wait for him to catch up. You practically threw the blankets back and hopped out of bed, breathless with excitement as your feet hit the floor. He sat up slowly, still dazed, brows furrowed like he couldn’t believe what he’d just heard.
“Someone’s here?” he mumbled.
“Mhm! On foot. Tire popped, I bet. Looks all helpless.” You giggled, digging into the back of your wardrobe. “I was wonderin’ how long it’d be before another one of ‘em showed up uninvited.”
He stood stiffly, the creak of bed springs behind you betraying his hesitation. You fished around the top shelf until your fingers brushed cool leather.
“Here it is!” you said, spinning around with the muzzle in your hands like a prize you’d won at the fair.
The blood drained from Remmick’s face. You practically skipped back to him, grinning from ear to ear.
“No, no—wait, wait,” he said quickly, stepping back. “I can behave. I—”
But you didn’t give him a chance to finish. You mounted him right there, legs wrapping tight around his waist as he stumbled back onto the edge of the bed, catching himself with both arms behind him. You clutched the muzzle between your teeth just long enough to use both hands to grab his face.
“You’re not in trouble, silly,” you whispered sweetly. “I’m proud of you.”
He didn’t move. You reached behind his head and clipped the muzzle into place, firm but not too tight. His jaw flexed slightly under the leather straps, but he didn’t fight it. He just closed his eyes for a moment like he always did when he wanted to pretend he wasn’t here.
“You’re my best helper, you know that?” you chirped, patting his cheek once it was secured. “But I don’t want you gettin’ any ideas before I’ve had my fun. Or gettin’ too hungry. You remember what happened last time.”
He blinked. You beamed, smoothed your hands down his chest, then slid off his lap and stood tall.
“I’ll be quick,” you promised, brushing down your nightgown and walking to the mirror, tilting your head back and forth. “They always say you should look your best for company.”
He didn’t answer, of course. Not with the muzzle on.
You could feel his eyes on your back as you grabbed a light shawl and wrapped it around your shoulders, humming quietly while you fixed your hair with your fingers. You heard him shift on the bed, a quiet creak of wood beneath his feet, the sway of the leash still hanging from his collar. You turned and offered him your hand.
He took it.
You led him downstairs with a big smile, reaching the door just as the knock came—a hesitant, almost embarrassed little tap. You looked back at Remmick once more, just to drink him in.
There he stood, framed by the moonlight pouring through the window. Eyes dark and still and tired, lips hidden behind the black leather muzzle. Leashed. Collared. Silent. Perfect.
You turned the knob.
And opened the door with a smile.
The moment your eyes landed on his, you felt your blood start to sing. Long blonde hair, pale and tangled in front of his forehead like he’d been running his hands through it. Blue eyes, too soft and mellow for someone his age. No older than twenty, if that. His cheeks were flushed with exertion, and he’d clearly been moving fast, his white button-down stuck to his chest with sweat, sleeves rolled up to his elbows, shoes caked in dry mud.
He started speaking before he’d even fully reached the porch. “I’m real sorry to bother y’all—tire blew out back on the main road, and I ain’t got a spare or no way to patch it, so I figured—”
Then he looked up.
You watched his mouth falter mid-sentence, eyebrows pulling together in a way that made your jaw twitch.
His gaze fell on you first. Your nightgown. Your bare feet. The smile that hadn’t dimmed even once. He squinted. Tilted his head just slightly. Looking you up and down like you didn’t make sense, like you didn’t belong here. You could see the words forming behind his teeth. Wondering whose house this was. Wondering if you were the maid or the mistress. You knew that look. You’d spent your whole life learning it.
But you smiled wider. Steadier. Tilted your head right back.
And then his eyes shifted. To Remmick. And oh, how they stuck.
The young man blinked. Once. Twice. His shoulders went taut, and his jaw clenched hard enough to crack. He didn’t even try to hide it—the long stare, the bewildered skim of his gaze over the leather muzzle stretched tight over Remmick’s face, the silver collar buckled low on his neck, the black leash clutched loose in your hand. Remmick didn’t say a word. Just stood behind you, silent and stone still.
The man's face rippled with something—confusion, disgust, maybe even fear—but he buried it fast. Took one full step back and cleared his throat, looking anywhere but at either of you.
“Y’all wouldn’t happen to have a spare tire layin’ around, would ya?” he asked quickly, voice breaking just slightly at the edges. “Don’t mean to impose. I’ll be on my way soon as I can.”
Your smile didn’t budge. “Sure we do,” you said sweetly. “It’s a little ways out back, but we’ll show you where it is.”
He nodded fast, grateful. “Thank ya. I really appreciate it.”
But you didn’t move. Not yet.
Because your mind was still ticking, loud and red and quick, on the ways you could end him. You pictured him bent over and gagging on the floor, his hands flying to his neck, eyes wide and wet as blood slipped through his fingers and soaked his shirt. You saw his head cracked open on a tree stump, the edge of your axe buried deep between those golden locks. You imagined peeling him apart slow, piece by piece, just to see how long it would take before his throat gave out.
He’d scream pretty. You knew it.
And if you let Remmick off the leash? If you took off that muzzle and gave him just ten minutes?
There wouldn’t even be blood left to mop up.
You stood there and stared, jaw slack with quiet delight, until the silence stretched too long.
A hand brushed yours gently. Large. Cold.
You blinked.
Remmick, still behind you, tilted his head down, muzzle twitching slightly as he nudged your arm. His palm hovered near, careful not to touch too much. Just a reminder. You’d been still too long.
“Oh,” you said suddenly, breath hitching with a laugh.
The man blinked. Nervous now.
You squeezed Remmick’s hand once as a little thank-you, then turned your grin back on the stranger like nothing had happened at all.
“Well, come on then, sugar,” you said brightly. “Let’s get you fixed up.”
And without another glance back, you stepped off the porch into the night, leash taut in your hand.
You took your sweet time with the walk to the shed. The man walked a few paces ahead, wiping sweat from his brow with the back of his hand. Remmick trailed close behind—head down, footsteps silent, muzzle already dark with spit.
It felt like walking a pig to slaughter. The thought made you smile.
“You from around here?” you asked casually, raising your voice just enough for the man to hear.
He glanced over his shoulder and shook his head. “Nah. I’m from up near Tunica. Just passin’ through.”
“Tunica,” you echoed, lips puckering in mock thought. “Ain’t that where the river bends all funny?”
He nodded, smiling faintly. “That’s the one.”
You hummed like you cared, hand swaying gently at your side. “And what brings you out this way?”
The man rubbed the back of his neck, shoulders slumping a bit. “I was comin’ back from a work trip. Construction job got cut short. Figured I’d surprise my boy by gettin’ home early.”
You cocked your head, grin sharp behind your teeth. “Oh, that’s sweet. Little one?”
He smiled a little wider. “Yeah. Just turned seven.”
“Even more reason for you to get back on the road quick,” you said, voice light as air. “Can’t have him thinkin’ Daddy disappeared.”
He chuckled politely, missing your tone entirely.
“You got a wife?” you asked, sing-songing it this time.
He looked back again and nodded. “Sure do.”
“Good,” you said brightly. “Means your son’ll still have someone to watch over him.”
Remmick inhaled sharply behind you.
It wasn’t loud. Not to anyone else. But you heard it. Felt it, even—the tight recoil of breath through that muzzle, the slight yank of the leash in your hand from where he’d jerked forward. You didn’t slow down. Didn’t look back.
The man turned to you fully now, brow furrowing. “…What’s that supposed to mean?”
You barked out a laugh so loud it echoed off the trees.
“Oh honey, nothin’!” you said, voice too high. “Meant it’s good someone’s there watchin’ him while you’re gone, that’s all! My brain just runnin’ ahead a bit, that’s all. Don’t mind me!”
The man forced an uneasy grin.
You rounded the final bend and reached the shed, looking even sturdier than how Remmick and you had left it earlier that day.
You gestured with a lazy wave. “Tires’re in the back. Light’s back there too.”
He blinked. “You don’t got a switch up front?”
“Nope,” you lied. “It’s one of them pull-chains. Back right corner.”
He hesitated, just a beat too long. Then stepped inside, head low, hands outstretched to feel along the wall.
You waited until his back was turned. Then reached out and undid the first strap of Remmick’s muzzle.
Click.
The second strap came undone slower. Your fingers lingered.
Click.
The muzzle dropped loose, hanging heavy from the bottom strap until you slid it off entirely. And there he was.
Mouth slick and twitching. Fangs fully bared. Saliva dripped down his chin in thick globs, smacking softly against his chest. His breathing was ragged now—barely controlled. Eyes blown wide, flashing red at the pupils, neck pulsing like a wild animal held too long by the throat.
You lowered your voice to a murmur. “Wait.”
His claws were already showing—both hands curled and trembling, fingers warped to talons, nails long and glinting in the moonlight. His arms flexed like they were begging to be loosed.
“I said wait,” you whispered again. “Let him find the light first.”
Remmick swallowed hard. He nodded once.
Inside the shed, you heard the young man shuffling farther in. “Can’t see a damn thing in here,” he muttered. “Y’all sure it’s in the back?”
You didn’t answer. You just watched the muscles twitch in Remmick’s jaw, the way his tongue darted out to wet his fangs. His hands clenched, unclenched. That breathy whine he let out—barely audible, like pain. He was holding himself back, just for you. Only for you.
A soft click. Then a low buzz. The lightbulb flickered once, then caught—glowing dim yellow in the far corner. The man turned toward it.
And Remmick moved.
It was a blur, really. A shadow that passed before it could be registered in the mind. He was on the man before you could blink—one claw buried in his shoulder, the other raking down his chest with a wet, splitting sound that sent a shock through the air. The man staggered, howling, shoes skidding on the wood floor slick with the evening’s humidity and his own blood. But the scream barely made it past his lips before Remmick’s teeth found his throat. Not deep enough to end it. Just a warning. Just enough to make him scream again.
Remmick didn’t kill him outright. Not this time. He made sure to stretch it out.
You stepped further into the shed, the door groaning shut behind you as your shadow fell over the two bodies. Your arms were crossed loose beneath your chest, the smile on your face softening into something dreamy and mean. Tender, even. Like you were watching a man recite poetry rather than slowly dismembering a living thing.
You crouched next to them. “Good boy,” you whispered. “So good for me.”
He didn’t look up, but you could see the satisfied tremor run down his back, his jaw twitching against the metal cage of his own control. You knew you wouldn’t need the muzzle. Not anymore. Not when he knew how much you liked to watch.
You’d taught him so well.
The man was still alive, writhing now—his pale lashes fluttering, chest heaving in broken spasms as he tried to speak around the ruined meat of his throat. It came out a gurgle.
Remmick had his claws hooked through his ribs, peeling back his shirt and skin like a page. The cartilage popped wetly. Something deep inside gave a muffled snap.
You cocked your head, breath catching, and let out a delighted little sound.
“Oh, that was a good one,” you said. “Do it again.”
His lips peeled back in a snarl—blood dripping from his chin, his fangs a mess of crimson and sinew. His glassy eyes snapped to yours, searching your face for every little flicker of praise. You didn’t even have to ask again.
He slid his claws deeper, dragging them downward with a slow, deliberate tug that sent shudders through what was left of the man. He jerked once. Twice. His legs kicked and went still.
Another rib snapped. Another noise from you—soft, breathless, touched with something like laughter.
You moved closer. The floor was red beneath your feet. The metallic smell filled your head, and you couldn’t help but to stick your tongue out, just to see if the air tasted how it smelled. It didn’t, to your disappointment.
You leaned into the man’s face this time, watching his eyes struggle to focus on you through the blur of blood and salt and panic.
“I was right, you know,” you cooed, brushing his hair back from his face, careful not to get blood on your dress. “About your wife. Your son. They’ll be just fine.”
His lips moved, but nothing came out.
Behind you, Remmick let out a moan—feral and needy, full of blood and longing. He’d sunk his teeth into the man’s stomach now, peeling muscle away from bone, his tongue lapping over the exposed cavity like a man possessed.
You turned slightly to watch him, resting your chin on your palm.
“You’re showin’ off,” you teased, voice sweet. “Tryna impress me, sugar?”
He made a sound that might’ve been a laugh, muffled by a mouthful of lung. You could see the shake of his hands—those gorgeous claws twitching, begging for more. His chest rose and fell with frantic rhythm. Still hungry. Always hungry.
You could always tell when he hit that point—when the blood wasn’t enough, when the meat beneath his tongue stopped satisfying and the ache between his legs outgrew the one in his belly. He was panting now, eyes locked on yours like he was starved for something you hadn’t fed him yet. His mouth twitched around the torn-open cavity of the man’s stomach, strings of gore catching on his fangs. His chest heaved. His claws flexed like they didn’t know what else to grab. And then he whimpered. That soft little sound he always made when the hunger shifted south.
You smiled back. Slow, loose-limbed and syrup-sweet. “Aw, sugar,” you cooed, stepping over what was left of the man on the floor. “Poor thing got all worked up, didn’t he? All full on blood and nowhere to put it?” His lips parted under the mess, his tongue flicking out slow and clumsy. He tried to nod, but his head lolled a bit to the side, too overwhelmed already to keep still. You reached out and cupped his chin, tilting his mouth up toward you. His cheeks were glazed in spit and gore, his breath hot against your palm. His eyes had gone wet and wide—unblinking. Pitiful.
“Look at you,” you whispered. “Such a filthy little thing.” He whined again, louder this time, and the sound vibrated all the way up your arm. “Down.” He dropped like a sack of bones. Not even a second’s hesitation. Muzzle gone, collar tight, blood still drying in patches across his jaw—and he went down like it was the only thing he knew how to do.
“Good boy,” you crooned, pushing your nightgown up past your hips as you stepped over to straddle his lap. “You want me to make it better?” His hands gripped the backs of your thighs, claws twitching, trembling with restraint. You laughed softly and cupped his face again—gentler now. You leaned in close, close enough to feel the heat of him thrumming like a furnace between your legs. He was already hard, already leaking, rutting helplessly up into the air like he couldn’t stand not being inside something.
“Aw, sugar,” you breathed against his lips, voice full of mock-pity. “You didn’t think I was gonna let you fuck me after all that mess, did you?” He blinked fast. Swallowed hard. His claws curled tighter into your skin. “Look at yourself,” you said, dragging your thumb across his bottom lip. “You’re drippin’. You’re disgustin’. You killed him like a pig and now you think you get a reward?” He nodded, frantic. “Mm. Maybe. But you’re gonna work for it.” You leaned in and drooled into his open mouth.
He moaned like you’d fed him salvation. Your saliva dripped down his throat, thick and warm. He swallowed it like he meant it—like it was communion, like it was blood. His eyes rolled back a little, lashes fluttering. One of his hands slid from your thigh to your hip, clinging like a lifeline.
“There we go,” you purred. “There’s my good boy.”
You sank down to your knees in front of him, dragging your mouth over the curve of his throat, lapping at the gore still caked beneath his jaw. He whimpered. Bucked once. The leash in your hand tugged taut when he tried to move too fast.
“Ah-ah,” you warned, mouth brushing his ear. “Be patient.” He was already crying. Tears welled in the corners of his eyes, thick and trembling. He sniffled once, just the barest hint of it, but it made your cunt clench anyway. You reached between your legs and wrapped your fingers around the base of his cock, already leaking through the fabric of his pants, dark and wet where the cloth clung tight.
“I’ll let you have it,” you whispered. “But you gotta make me come first. Think you can do that, Remmick?” He nodded violently. “You sure?” You dragged your thumb up the length of him, just light enough to tease. “You’re not gonna get greedy like last time, are you?” He whimpered again, eyes red and glistening.
You smiled. Leaned in. Bit his neck hard enough to draw fresh blood. Then you shoved him down onto his back and mounted his face. The sounds he made weren’t human. You don’t think they ever had been. He tongued you like a starving thing, like your cunt was the last source of freshwater in the whole Delta. His nose bumped your clit again and again, sloppy and desperate, until your thighs were shaking and your fingers were wound in his hair hard enough to hurt.
And all the while he moaned, shamelessly so. You ground down harder, slick soaking his face, his cheeks, his collar. You swore you saw his eyes cross when you spat again, let it drip right down into the mess between his lips. He sucked it in like breath as his hips bucked uselessly into the air, trembling beneath you.
His mouth was a mess—slick and starving, tongue working like it was trying to dig something out of you, like he thought if he licked deep enough he’d find god. But it wasn’t his tongue that made your breath catch like that, wasn’t his moaning or the obscene noises spilling up from between your legs. It was the fangs. You’d felt them graze you before—barely, just teasing little pricks of pressure when he got sloppy or hungry or careless. But now he was deliberate. Letting them drag sharp and slow along the tender seam of you, edged enough to sting, not enough to break skin. Not yet. They slipped over your folds, parted you with reverent care. Cool against the heat of your cunt. Maddening.
And then—goddamn him—he grabbed your hips. Both hands. Clawed fingers curling tight around your waist, holding you there, anchoring you like he thought he was in charge. Like you needed help to fuck his face. You felt the dig of his claws, not breaking skin, but close. Too close.
Any other time, that’d earn him a slap hard enough to ring in his ears. You’d drag him by the leash and make him beg for forgiveness, make him cry while you jerked him off just enough to feel it, then left him dripping and untouched on the floor. But not now. Not when your whole body was locking up, thighs trembling, belly tight and aching, the pleasure pulsing low and vicious between your hips like something with teeth. Not when his mouth was this good.
Your orgasm hit like a thunderclap—sharp and brutal and fucking filthy. It tore through you like lightning, blooming behind your eyes, down your spine, in your belly, all molten and obscene. Your vision went white. Your thighs clenched tight around his head, grinding down hard enough to bruise, smearing slick across his face and into his mouth as you rode out every last trembling second.
You moaned loud and mean, head tossed back, throat bare and aching with the sound of it. His fangs pressed firmer, dragged once more across your clit—deliberate, slow, cruel—and your whole body seized, another gush of come soaking his chin. It was too much. Too good. Too fast. He didn’t stop. Wouldn’t stop. Not even when your hips bucked to the side or your breath hitched high and painful like your lungs forgot how to work. He licked you through it, mouth open and greedy, drool and spit and slick all smeared together in a wet, glistening mess.
You seized the leash and yanked it with every ounce of strength you had, jerking his head back so fast it made his whole body flinch.
“I knew you’d get selfish,” you snapped, voice low, hot, vibrating with fury and lust. “I knew it. Couldn’t just behave. Had to grab me like you fuckin’ own me. Like you ain’t mine.”
His eyes rolled back for half a second like the leash alone could make him come.
You had already started to lift your hips when he finally came to. “No—no, no, no,” Remmick choked out, voice hoarse and shredded.
You stared down at him with disdain curling in your gut and heat pooling thick between your legs. But you didn’t stop him. Not when he pushed you back to the floor with a desperation so raw it made your cunt ache. Not when he climbed on top of you like a man possessed, already fumbling with the buckle of his belt like he thought he’d die if he didn’t fuck you right this second.
“I’m sorry—I’m so sorry—I didn’t mean it, please—please—I’ll be good, I swear—” His belt clattered to the floor. Buttons popped. He shoved his pants down far enough to free himself, cock flushed and slick and trembling with need. He was panting now, a sob catching in his throat as he lined himself up and pushed in.
You didn’t stop him. You watched him. Watched his face crumple with pleasure and relief the moment his cock sank into you, the moment he was back where he belonged. His mouth fell open in a silent moan, shoulders shuddering as he bottomed out, your cunt sucking him in like it had been waiting just for this.
“I’m sorry,” he choked, burying his face into your neck, into your mouth, anywhere you’d let him go. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry—please don’t take it away—I need it, I need ya—” His tongue pushed through your lips like he was trying to crawl inside you completely, hot and sloppy, tasting of blood and tears and spit. He rutted into you hard, fast, helpless, sobbing into your lips as his hips snapped against yours with a punishing rhythm.
You groaned into his mouth, not from the force of it—but from how ruined he was. He was crying—no, sobbing—again, tears falling with every thrust.
“Look at you,” you said between kisses, teeth grazing his lip as he thrust deeper. “On top but never in charge. You’ll always be mine.”
“I know, I know—I know—I’m yours—I belong to ya—don’t send me away—don’t take it back—” You dragged your fingernails down his chest hard enough to make him hiss, then gripped his hips and dug your heels into the backs of his thighs, pulling him in deeper, harder.
“You want forgiveness?” you whispered against his ear.
He nodded, trembling.
“Then fuck me like you mean it, sugar.”
And oh, how he tried. Tried to rut into you like he could dig his way into your womb, tried to kiss you like his soul depended on it. He sobbed your name like prayer, like apology, like the only thing left inside him worth saying.
And when he came—God, when he came—it was like something broke loose inside him. Like all that hunger, all that grief, all that cracked and clattering need had finally found the smallest hole to spill through. His whole body went taut, muscles locking like he’d been struck by lightning, and then he howled. Loud and guttural and torn straight from the pit of his belly, as his cock twitched hard inside you and spilled deep. Thick. Endless. You felt it flood your cunt with a heat that made your back arch, made your thighs quake, made you clutch at his hair just to feel something hold you steady.
Remmick sobbed as he kept grinding into you, every pulse of his cock another desperate little claim, another pathetic apology that soaked the inside of you with seed. You wrapped your legs tighter around him, locking him in place.
“You stay right here.”
He whimpered again, collapsing fully into you, face buried against your throat, arms trembling as he tried to stay up on all fours but couldn’t. Couldn’t even hold himself up after the way he came. His hips twitched every time you clenched around him, milking the last thick spurts of come from him.
He moaned into your neck. Tried to thrust again. Failed. His cock twitched, spent and going soft, and his breath hitched like he might cry again.
“I didn’t mean to be bad,” he whispered, barely audible. “I was scared y’wouldn’t let me… I just wanted—just wanted to stay inside, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry—”
You turned his face to look at you. “You did bad,” you said, smiling. “But you made up for it.”
You kissed him—deep, wet, slow.
He melted. Boneless in your arms, body trembling, chest still hitching with the weight of what he’d given you. You kissed him again, sweet and slow, and tasted the remnants of his fear and relief on your tongue. And when you pulled back—just far enough to see the shape of his face, flushed and glistening—he said it. Soft. Raw. Almost ashamed of how much he meant it.
“I love ya,” he paused, then raised his voice. “I love ya so much it hurts. I—God, I’d die for ya, I’d kill for ya, I’d crawl in the dirt and stay there if ya asked. I can’t—” He shook, breath catching again. “—can’t be without ya. Don’t want t’ be.”
You just smiled.
“I know, sugar,” you said sweetly.
And without ceremony—without breaking that smile—you reached down and slipped the muzzle back over his face.
Click.
You gave his cheek a little pat, then rolled your hips just once—for the sole purpose of hearing him moan again, deep and pathetic behind the muzzle. His cock gave a feeble twitch inside you, and you laughed, light as dew.
He helped you get up. Still trembling, still leaking, still raw—you stood. His hands obeyed yours when you pointed to the corpse, and together you dragged what was left of the man across the yard. His body left streaks in the dirt. Pinkish-red. Bits of viscera caught on rocks and roots. You didn’t bother covering it up.
The moonlight was sharp tonight, painting the trees silver and casting your shadows long behind you. He followed without complaint, his leash slack between you, muzzle in place. Silent and obedient.
Beneath the water, still as stone, was Josephine. Her long body rippled once beneath the surface.
You gave her a low whistle.
She came.
All muscle and patience, her jaw parting with the faintest creak as you laid the man at the edge of the swamp. His head lolled sideways, hair matted with blood, one eye still open.
You sighed, almost wistfully. Then crouched down beside him, lips puckered in a kiss that never touched flesh. “Bon appétit, baby girl.”
Josephine surged forward with a pleased sound—more purr than growl—and you watched, grinning, as her jaws snapped wide and slammed shut over the man’s torso. The crunch echoed deep, wet and final.
Remmick sat beside you, still panting through his muzzle. You didn’t speak. Just leaned your head against his shoulder and watched your girl feed—limbs torn clean, guts strung out like ribbons, skull crushed between rows of ancient teeth. It took less than a minute for her to finish, and when she slipped back beneath the dark water with a satisfied grunt, the surface stilled as if nothing had happened at all.
You stayed there a while longer. Let the stillness settle over you like silk. Let your fingers toy with the leather strap of his leash. Let your pulse slow and even, heartbeat thumping with a rhythm made only for you.
Because you’d won. He was yours now. All yours. And the world, stupid little thing that it was, would keep spinning, none the wiser to what you were building out here. What you'd tamed. What you'd fed.
You rose at last, and he followed, crawling dutifully at your side.
The swamp swallowed the rest.
And the night? It sang just for you.
phases of exploration | tyriq withers — Phase 1
Pairing: Tyriq Withers x Selah Andrews Summary: It's been 7 years since Selah was in a relationship. Now, 7 years later, Selah is exploring the phases of intimacy with a new lover. Warnings: 18+ sexual themes and situations, and mild language. The Phases: Phase 1 WC: 3183 Note: Be nice and engage!
Weekly date nights were non-negotiable. A ritual to satisfy Eros to ensure their love would survive the twists and turns of life. A time to shut out the demands of the outside world and cocoon themselves in each other without distraction.
It began how it usually did. He arrived at her door—fifteen minutes early, as usual—with new flowers to accompany the overflow of tulips on her dining room table, and a smile and gentlemanly charm that made her knees buckle and her stomach leap with glee.
She shouldn’t have been surprised. He’d been perfect since day one—and since making their relationship official just shy of four months ago, he continued to prove himself worthy of her attention and adoration.
Yet, it was different from what it had always been. A deeper attentiveness to her needs. Whether it was when she eyed her water level and asked for a refill. Or remembering her preference to soak her silverware in boiling water, a nice ceramic mug waited for them on their arrival. Perhaps it was as simple as giving her his napkin once hers hit the floor.
Maybe time did that to a person. Made them hypersensitive to the desires that nestled themselves deep under selflessness and fear of being too much, too soon. She didn’t know.
Selah should’ve known better than to get so deeply into her head at a perfectly planned dinner with her perfect man that she still wasn’t sure how she was blessed with. But when she heard his laugh, hearty and straight from the belly, she was sucked back in. She smiled.
It was a nice restaurant. Small and dimly lit with soft jazz from a live band playing in the background. The food was delicious—her steak was cooked to perfection, mashed potatoes whipped better than Willow Smith’s hair, and roasted broccoli with the perfect crunch.
Not to forget the company she was blessed to keep. He kept her on her toes—asking thoughtful questions, praising her for what she’d consider the bare minimum, making her laugh so hard she thought wine would come out of her nose.
“I have a question...suggestion—however you receive it,” he said once her laughter subsided to a gentle sigh. Her fingers cupped the base of the wine glass, and she swirled one, two, three times before raising her eyebrow in anticipation.
He leaned back; his long arm tossed lazily across the back of the neighboring one. His knee brushed against hers. The slender stem of her heel grazed against his calf in response. His lip quipped. “Stay with me tonight.”
Record scratch.
She blinked, unsure if she’d heard him right. Suddenly, the wine seemed more interesting than him. The words hung in the air like perfume—sweet, lingering, and slightly overwhelming. Stay with me tonight. It hadn’t been the first time he invited her into his space, but it was the first time it felt like a question with layers.
She’d come over in the morning for breakfast. Maybe stop by to drop off lunch when he worked from home. Perhaps she’d stay while he wined and dined her after a long day. But never did she stay overnight.
She tilted her head and pushed her glasses further upon her nose. “You’ll see me tomorrow.”
He hummed and nodded, slow and sure. “Even more of a reason for you to stay.”
Her heart thudded, once, then twice. Loud and boisterous in her ears. He could see her thinking—could hear the well-oiled gears turning behind her eyes. So, he softened, leaned in just enough to know he wasn’t pressing.
“But only if you want.”
She felt like Alice. The rabbit hole opened.
Her lips parted, but no words came. Stuck. She felt stuck. Her jaw had been locked and wired shut, like her brain forbade her from permitting herself to enjoy what the night could bring. So, she did all she could do without alarming him—smile and nod.
God, he looked at her like she hung the moon and the stars—with pure adoration.
Soon, she was home. Standing in front of the suitcase that hadn’t moved, but taunted her all the same. Should she bring her bonnet? Of course. Her hair would be frizzy if she didn’t. Oh! Her eczema cream—that was in her skincare bag. Oils, oils, oils. Her scalp would get dry. Hopefully, it wouldn’t stain his pillows. Wait—how could she assume she would be sleeping in his bed?
Did she want to? Did he want her to?
“Get it together, Lah,” she grumbled as she fished for her phone in the front back pocket of her wide-leg jeans. Her mind raced faster than 44 on the track as she searched for her sister’s contact. “Pick up, pick up, pick u—girl, I am freaking out!”
“For what?” Judah questioned. Selah could see it now. Her sister’s eyebrow raised and upper lip ticked in confusion.
“He asked me to stay the night. I’ve never stayed the night before. I’ve never stayed the night with a guy before, Jude! Oh my goodness—what if I snore? Do I snore? Like, is he even used to seeing Black women in their natural state, like for real?”
Selah wasn’t dumb. She knew what came with being with a man of his caliber. Being the “first” wasn’t always the flex people assumed it was. But here she was. The first and the freaked out.
“Selah, he likes you. He’s been with Black women before. They may not have looked like you, but they were there. You’ll be good. If you really don’t want to go, don’t force yourself to. But it could be good for you. Get a lil’ more comfortable with each other.”
So she packed slowly, deliberately.
Her favorite crewneck with her sorority letters on the front. Her new electric toothbrush, which she was determined to use to get the most out of the price she paid, skincare, and other items to hold her over. She even packed another outfit just in case. She mentally high-fived herself.
“It’ll be fine,” she told herself as she stuffed her phone charger in her purse. “You’ll be fine.”
Selah should have known he would find something to do in her absence. When she re-entered the living room, she saw him sitting on the couch, legs spread wide, phone in hand, scrolling through pictures of—take a guess, now—her.
“You weirdo,” Selah laughed and pulled her suitcase behind her. “M’gone for 20 minutes…”
Tyriq turned to face her with a smile and wiggled his eyebrows. “Girl, you should know I don’t play about you. Come here…”
He stood to his feet, his body towering over hers. She thanked God for glasses, or else she’d never get to see the beauty of her man in the way she could now, from his sandy hair to his pretty eyes and gentle persona. If she were bold enough, she would’ve pinned him against the couch.
A smile would do.
“Mhm, mhm, mhm, girl.” He brought his left hand to her face, finger drumming against her bottom lip before capturing her mouth with his own. Selah’s grip loosened on her suitcase, and her fingers clawed the expensive fabric of his shirt as she whimpered softly.
Her body was on fire. Her glasses fogged. All of a sudden, one heartbeat turned into two. She broke the kiss before he had his way with her in the living room.
“You,” she sighed, wiping her lip gloss from his lips. “Are a problem.”
She pushed her glasses upon her face, swiped her purse off the edge of the couch, and slung it over her shoulder. Tyriq grabbed her suitcase and began to haul it out of the apartment, but not before swatting her backside. She gasped.
“Takes one to know one, baby. Let’s go.”
The ride to his apartment was short. Filled with soft laughs, lingering glances, and squeezes on her thigh. Less than twenty minutes—14 to be exact. Enough time to calm her nerves, but not enough time to prepare herself for what the evening could bring.
While she’d never admit it, she almost liked his apartment more than hers. She’d yet to turn her house into a home, but that’s all she felt each time she crossed the threshold. The outside world was drowned out by rich incense and soothing R&B on vinyl.
In the few days she’d been gone, he managed to add a few pieces to his space. Old vinyl covers on the wall in the dining area. Two fine line drawings of a Black woman. A new vinyl—Mahalia Jackson—beside a funky lap on the side table.
So contemporary. So him.
“You okay?” He asked attentively, eyes scanning hers for any sign of discomfort. Any sign that she felt coerced rather than fully on board.
Selah’s stomach twisted. No, no, no. Now she felt bad. He’d gone above and beyond, as he always did, and her mind was keeping her from enjoying being in his space. She stepped forward, took his hands into hers, and said: “I’m great. I do wanna take a shower though.”
Relief fell on him like a rushing wind. Tyriq smiled and nodded. “Alright, cool. Let’s get you settled in.”
Selah’s feet tapped against the floor until they reached his bedroom. It was cozy. He’d changed the bedding since the last time she’d been there. Gray sheets had been exchanged for a white comforter as white as snow.
On the nightstand was an updated picture as well. No longer was it only a photo of him and his friends from his college days. A photo of her beside him was next to it. Her heart fluttered.
Tyriq rolled her suitcase by the closet door and clapped his hands together, capturing her attention. “Towels are on the counter. If you forgot anything, check under the sink—I’m sure you’ll find what you need there. Imma hit the other bathroom and pick a movie…cool?”
Selah nodded twice. “Smooth.” He ducked down to press a kiss against her cheek before heading toward the door. “Holler if you need me.” With a soft creak of the door, he was gone.
Selah scratched the crown of her head and huffed, dropping to her knees to open her suitcase. She pulled her self-care items out and shuffled to the bathroom before he returned to retrieve something.
“Breathe…” she told herself as she bent over the soaking tub to turn on the water. One, two, she flicked the switches for the fan and the lowlight, then shed her sweater dress and heels before stepping behind the curtain.
The water beat against her skin soothingly. Pounded her chest like it was trying to knock the thoughts loose. This was new territory. Crossing uncharted waters. And it felt foreign.
It had been seven years. Seven years, and she'd only been intimate once, which was a total failure, if she admitted it out loud. So bad that she considered herself a virgin, and the event was a fragment of her imagination with a non-playable character.
It had been seven years and for the first time in a long time, she'd accepted a boyfriend’s invitation to stay the night—freaking the hell out over what hadn’t even occurred.
“Worried about the wrong shit,” she mumbled, forcefully rubbing her hands over her face. But was she, though?
There were two answers—yes and no. He was the personification of the trauma she had to face. No, not like that. On one hand, a part of her still held onto the pain of being disregarded and belittled by men who looked like him, and was scared shitless for a man to see her vulnerable. Flaws and all. On the other hand, she was weighed down by half the stuff she’d just made up in her head.
The last time that happened, she ended up dissatisfied and embarrassed—something she declared would never happen again. Yet here she was, standing in his shower, listening to him shuffle through his drawers for clothes, ending a beautiful night with a man who put her on a pedestal.
What was there to worry about?
Deciding not to run his water bill through the roof like she’d done her own, Selah turned off the water and stepped on the plush black rug below her feet. It was soft and soothing. God, he had great taste.
She lifted her skincare bags, searching for her pajamas. Her eyebrows furrowed. Black and satin. Not in her possession. She groaned under her breath, half laughing. Figures. “Oh my go…Tyriq?”
The shuffling stopped.
“Yeah, baby?”
“I, uh…I forgot my pajamas.” She mentally face-palmed—it sounded like a corny setup she read in books. Lo and behold—she was no better. “Can I wear one of your shirts, please?”
The rustling resumed. “Uh, yeah. Yeah.”
His knuckle tapped the door twice before opening it slowly. His strong arm poked through, a neatly folded shirt loosely in his grip.
“Thank you.” Her eyes scanned the riffs and ridges of his strong forearm before breaking away to moisturize her body and slip the shirt over her head.
She huffed lowly and wrung her hands tightly—an anxious tick. She shook her shoulders and knocked everything into her bag one by one—lotion, oil, cortisone cream, toothbrush, toothpaste. She folded her curls into the bonnet that was on its last leg and looked into the mirror. “Let’s get it.”
When she opened the door, there he was. Lying on the bed, comforter pulled just below his navel to show his toned chest and broad shoulders as he thumbed through the movie selection.
His eyes caught hers, the endless rom-com options forgotten. He smiled and beckoned her closer with a wave of his hand. “Hey, pretty girl.” Immediate swoon. “How was your shower?”
Selah smiled small and crawled onto the bed beside him, tucking her heels beneath herself. Her fingers drew lines along her bare thighs. “It was good.” She felt small beneath his gaze, albeit full of wonder and awe. She drew her hand up and scratched her neck awkwardly. “Anything peak your interest?”
His light eyes lingered on her for a beat before nodding. “Yeah. You said Revenge of the Bridesmaids was one of your favorites, right?”
Could this man be even more perfect? He could be, she noted. But then, he’d explode because no more perfection could fit in the wineskin that stored what was already there.
Selah’s eyes lit up. “Yes!” Thank her lucky stars for a man who liked her enough to remember every detail about her.
The movie had no audience. They were distracted, unable to focus with the heat of warm bodies pressed against their own. They lay beside each other in true intimate fashion—him on his back, one hand tucked behind his head while the other caressed her thigh. Her head rested on his shoulder, but her hand clenched the comforter. The closeness was nice, but boy, did it make her nervous.
“You’re tense,” he murmured, voice like velvet in the dark. His thumb swept slow circles against her thigh. “Feel free to get comfortable with me. However you need.”
Her lips parted, but nothing came out. What did comfort look like? She didn’t know.
She inhaled deeply. It had been years, but comfort wasn’t supposed to feel foreign. Just let yourself lean. He’s steady—you can trust that.
She eased her leg over his hip, testing, measuring his reaction. The way his chest rumbled told her it was more than okay.
Her palm rested against his chest—solid, warm. She hadn’t forgotten what that felt like, only how safe it could be.
Her palm settled against him, her fingers instinctively curling—the tips of her red nails scratching at his chest softly. Then, she felt it—his heartbeat, drumming fast and unsteady under her fingertips.
His grip on her thigh tightened just a fraction. Enough for her breath to tremble and for an additional, unwelcomed heartbeat to appear. She quietly prayed he couldn’t feel it.
His breath fanned her ear as he asked, “Better?” His question fell on deaf ears. She was infatuated; she couldn’t shake the feeling of his erratic heartbeat beneath her palms. It wasn’t just her, it was him, too. He was human. Warmth. Flesh. Nerves. Just like her.
When she lifted her eyes, his were already waiting. A seafome green ocean with raging waters coming to ravish the shores with accompanying hurricanes. The movie flickered and hummed behind them, but it was static compared to the pull between them.
“Come here,” Tyriq murmured, coaxing, but not commanding. His hand left her thigh to brush a fallen curl from her cheek. His fingers toyed with the hairline of her bonnet.
She hesitated. How much closer does he want me? Until his thumb swept across her skin again, higher this time. Slowly, carefully, she shifted. Her left knee dug into the mattress, then the other. She straddled him, nervous laughter caught in her throat.
Tyriq’s gaze roamed her face, deliberate and reverent. “You’re so beautiful,” he whispered. And, goodness, did he mean it. Fully and wholeheartedly with his entire being. She was art to be observed, studied, and immortalized. From her eyebrows, which she swore were too thick for her face, to the lips she hated wearing red on, to her thighs, she often covered to keep eyes off her flare-ups. Everything about her—stunning.
Her hands found his abdomen, curling around his firm sides, grounding herself.
He didn’t push her. Just lay there, looking at her, letting her decide like the chivalrous man he was.
Her chest rose and fell, her nerves humming. Beneath the jitters, a realization set in like an imprinted thought. She wanted to be here—with him, on him, in an intentionally crafted space that forced the world away. Her hands lingered on his abdomen a beat longer, fingers pressing into the warmth of his skin.
She exhaled, letting herself revel in it all—the feel of him beneath her, the way he looked at her like she was the creator of the cosmos.
Selah leaned down—first tentative, then firm—pressing her lips to his. She felt it. How quickly his chest rose and fell once she kissed him. She heard it. The smallest sound—a moan, groan? She didn’t know. She liked how it sounded; she did know that.
Tyriq pulled her close, and for a split second, she felt him falter—an almost imperceptible inhale and shuddered exhale. Her thighs squeezed his sides, and the tiniest movement of her hips—instinctual and unplanned—had his teeth grazing her bottom lip. A curious hand crept around her waist and followed the curve of her back before falling on her backside, giving a gentle squeeze.
Every noise she made, he swallowed whole, and it proved to be fuel to a flame. Movie be damned. Selah was stepping into her power. One tentative kiss, one deliberate move at a time.
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