What does it feel like to be perceived as a playboy flirt, a dumb twenty something year old and constantly sexualized, in all commercial ads and you not being able to break that perfect hero persona, because you know the HPSC fucked you up, you know what they did to Nagant, but you still subside so it, because you think, since there's apparently noone behind Hawks the hero, it's better it being you, than someone who has their whole life ahead of them, and the only people who maybe you realize that maybe Keigo DOES exist, are the same ones you betrayed, and the person you had wayyy too much sexual tension with, was the first one to call you by your name in 20 years?