hopeless and romantic

19F just a place for my thoughts

[fifteenhourseast]

it is cold tonight, and I wish I were wrapped up in the warmth of you

[fifteenhourseast]

04/18/2013 - 04/01/2026

[fifteenhourseast]

to whoever is reading this

whoever you are and wherever you are

I hope you have the courage to pursue what you love, to follow your dreams

to ignore the noise of everyone and everything around you

[fifteenhourseast]

tomorrow is your last full day on earth, and I cannot help but think it is a kind of cruel knowledge to know that you will be gone so soon

[sacredmindd]

[eymurn]

In your 20s, you'll feel like you're losing the race. It's important to understand that there is no race.

[fifteenhourseast]

I'm proud of myself because I am not texting you "new year, new us?" instead I am choosing myself instead I am saying to myself "new year, new me" a me without your influence or your opinion, a year without you.

[fifteenhourseast]

I feel as though I'm forever waiting for a message that never comes, forever waiting on you.

[fifteenhourseast]

lord knows I can't keep losing sleep dreaming about a life where we work out

[fifteenhourseast]

I remember every word I ever said to you

[fifteenhourseast]

I want to scream

Please don't leave

Please don't leave me

But you're not leaving me

You're just leaving

[fifteenhourseast]

tonight was the family dinner I wanted to invite you to.

the entire time, I wished you were there.

I couldn't help but glance at the shitty couch wondering what it would feel like to have your arms wrapped around me, my back pressed against your chest.

I wanted to cuddle with you in front of all of my friends, I thought you wanted that too.

I thought you wanted me.

[fifteenhourseast]

"I'm on your side sweetheart" or is the only side you're on your own?

[fifteenhourseast]

I wish I could erase you from my mind, I wish I could shrug you off the second you don't respond. but it's been a week and still I wait, hopelessly, pathetically, wondering if every text that comes through my phone will be from you. but they never are.

how do you tell me that you're obsessed with me, how do you call me sweetheart, say you want to make love to me, and then toss me aside? I wish I was so nonchalant, so carefree.

why is it you get to spin stories in my head only to dissappear with your pretty words, your stories are coming to life in my dreams. they're haunting me.

[fifteenhourseast]

pathetic. you make me feel pathetic.

[fifteenhourseast]

maybe I could give you my body, but I could never give you me.

how sad I know this without ever having met you.

[fifteenhourseast]

go ahead and create world's in my head and then disappear.