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Top Gun 40 Fest Day 1: Colours - White

I just found out this is happening and so I am late but I shall persevere.

Currently writing a fic where Mav gets lovingly bullied into wearing a white skirt, the only evidence of the incident being this photograph from 1986 (that he was blackmailed into signing). Thought I’d share some fanart that will accompany it because hey, there’s a color in here! White is a color. So it counts. Probably.

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And when Adriane said that she and Ayrton were in a restaurant and she saw three models enter the place (Cindy Crawford, Naomi Campbell and Linda Evangelista) and, knowing that Ayrton had already dated one of them, she said: "You won't believe who just arrived at this restaurant"

And then he quickly looks at her and asks: "Prost?"

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“i was his goal, i didn’t know that” “whole of his career, he was pointing at me” “im glad he had his final breakfast with me” “there will never be another like him” “ayrton, you marked history, you marked me” “no one can talk about him without mentioning my name, and no one can talk about me without mentioning his” "he said 'okay, but I need you'" "I will always remember that day [when he died] and in the morning when he said on tv: 'alain, I miss you'" "he had, without me, lost his bearings" "the photos in his room from when he was karting-- it was me" "we are one whole, and one cannot live without the other" "never before have we been so close to each other as the very end. and now we are getting closer and closer..." "see you soon"

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One thing that always catches my attention when Alain talks about how deeply upset he is with the Senna movie is that it’s not just that surface-level “I’m always the villain” stuff. It’s obvious that what really bothers him the most is specifically that radio message, where Ayrton told everyone that he was a dear friend and that he missed him.

When he says he was upset, specifically with that part, in several interviews he makes it clear that he felt that way after finding out the team didn’t want to include it because they thought it was fake. Even though it’s literally something he once told RoadBook Magazine — that this audio means everything to him.

I feel bad for him sometimes, because even with the biggest proof in the world that their relationship had gotten better, a lot of people still prefer not to believe it and live in the eternal fanfic that they were rivals until that day at Imola.

But at the same time, I don’t really feel that sorry. He’s at peace with himself about this because only he knows what was said to him in those phone calls and what they talked about that exact day in Imola. Not everything he knows is something he’ll ever share, and if he’s at peace with that, then there’s no reason for us to stress so much about it.

(but I care and I will kill everyone who keeps insisting he’s a villain nowadays)

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found an even better version of this video lmao

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brocedes feat. prosenna

I'm insane now...

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Still evil and mischievous 🥰

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Quiet cat gf vs loud dog bf

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sometimes mental illness does make you act like a piece of shit. when my ocd was undiagnosed a couple years back I was absolutely insufferable because I could not control my confession/reassurance and rumination compulsions at all and I fucking hated myself so everything had to be morally pure or I would spiral and I made myself believe and said some things that made my personality not the best. sometimes healing means knowing that you are not perfect. sometimes mental health issues make people act awful and that does not give you the right to demonize and dehumanize them or the disorder. yes even that disorder. and sometimes you have to forgive yourself for the bad things you believed. you are not perfect and that is a good thing.

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Now that I think about it. Mental health discussions in f1 have always been swept under the rug, haven't they?

As a short example: to this day there are people who think that the sole and primary reason Nico Rosberg retired was so he could go out as an undefeated winner who was afraid to loose, and that was a whiny thing to do. And not the fact that the sport was more than likely killing him (he cut his hair and changed helmet colours to loose weight. What do you think he could have done to his own body?). It's been near nine years since then, and yet.

There is a very dangerous narrative of hyper masculinity pushed onto drivers to this day and it is terrifying to witness.

Another example would be the way many men (and boys) praise Max Verstappen's father for being abusive, because "Max is a champion! It worked!" But what about the very real kid? What about the adult man today, who sees his own merits and accomplishments shadowed by people claiming they are due to his father? And when he is angry it is "dangerous", when he is happy it is "pride," why isn't he allowed to feel? Why does he have to be the picture perfect driver that he'll never be, because he's a human and not a racing machine?

When Lando Norris expresses sadness and anxiety he is a whiny little kid. When Lance Stroll distances himself from hateful criticism he is a spoiled brat. When Oscar Piastri is aloof he is cold and calculating. And whatever feeling Lewis Hamilton will express, the press will analyse and criticise tenfold.

Why have we decided that F1 drivers were not allowed to be humans? Why do we retain these dangerous ideas of toxic masculinity even in 2025, and refuse to acknowledge the complex emotions they are allowed to feel?

They are not perfect and never will be. Pretending that they are, constructing houses of cards on a pyramid of lies will only allow for the narrative and the fall to hit even harder when a facet of their true, flawed, personality reaches the surface.

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To add to this

The reaction Isack Hadjar got when he cried was horrible. A person trained all his life for this very thing and couldn't succeed. Is he not allowed to show his emotions in that moment? Should he have to hide it, put on a smile and face the camera? He can't shed tears because he's a man?

When Oscar showed his emotions post race, as opposed to his usual behaviour, people started criticising him for it.

They're human beings with thoughts and feelings. It's a sport where these people put their life on. They are allowed to express their emotions without getting hit by backlash.

#f1

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it’s so fucking hilarious stumbling across f1 content from years ago. this guy was writing self insert fanfiction about him and seb and he didn’t even realize it. bro is writing about how vettel is apparently a dickhead but said “He made you want to ruffle his hair, buy him a milkshake and listen to him for hours on end as he chatted about British comedy.” and talked about what going to mcdonald’s with seb would be like for a whole paragraph. “Unfortunately I think if I were to go for a McDonalds with Sebastian now he would sneakily steal the toy from my Happy Meal and play with it in front of me as I wept into my fries. No, I’ll never be going to McDonalds with Sebastian Vettel, I can assure you of that.”

sam fry should just admit that he had a crush on him and wanted vettel to take him on a mcdonald’s date.