vent|minor|genderfluid|they/them
diagnosed osfed, no longer clean from sh
not really trying to get better rn. pro recovery ofc
i follow from sanyaisstudying, active dec
im sixteen and this is my safe place to discuss my issues and find people dealing w the same! block dont report, very pro recovery! seasonal depression is a bitch and i relapsed recently so im here more often. would love to meet more ppl!!
backup is @ihadntthoughttostopfordeath
reblogs on @shereblogsonmypost
aesthetic blog: @runningfromthetruththathaunts
dm me for my real main! moved off of here for a bit bc i was doing better lol
(to my irls this is a reminder to let me know when you read the blog if at all possible!! you know how i am about Knowing)
masterpost of pages in this journal of a blog that i want to go back to
about me under the cut <3
my interests:
goth and rock music (vison video, the vaccines, scary bitches, the cure, kino, little flames, arctic monkeys, etc)
other music w a specifc vibe i think? (the last dinner party, florence + the machine, the amazing devil, ethel cain, etc
poetryyyyy specifically 19th + early 20th century
appetite suppressant maxing
calculus
i hate having a long list of disorders and pathologizing and labeling my mental health like that but i understand that it helps people get a feel for who i am so the most important ones are: osfed, autism, adhd, depression (dysthymia w/ major episodes and seasonal), generalized anxiety
tags i want to start using (new year's resolution):
sanya shed: triggering stuff related to scissors (not gay) and ed (not early decision)
vent post: venting!!
wifeposting: talking abt gf in a yearning sort of way
bloody: blood tw tag
why so queerious: leftist and proud <3
important posts: idk. what it says
dni:
conservative people but like in a hateful way. if you're vaguely conservative but you love thy neighbor its ok
i block tcc and similar tags so if thats all you post maybe dni
if you have mdni in your bio dont interact
terfs never ever interact
also im happily taken!! not into polyamory where partners dont know each other so functionally not polyamorous so dont hit on me lol. aesthetic attraction georg though if i call you pretty or gorgeous its not flirting!!
mutuals can always dm me but be warned i talk like your coworker who is trying too hard to get to know you and my response times are akin to the response times you might get if we were communicating by letter
ok before i eat: i do think it's hilarious im slipping back into old self destructive habits when my life is actually the best it's been in a hot second.
maybe its the duplicity of feeling great about some things and ignoring others while at home everyone walks around our problems like it's shattered glass on the kitchen floor that no one wants to clean up. because getting a broom means recognizing the glass, and the glass is clear enough we can totally just ignore it despite the tiny little cuts on our feet
one funny thing about recovery is that i still have really prominent collarbones and cheekbones, i just have thicker thighs and a larger waist and much much healthier hair. and im not afraid to eat a cupcake, i really feel joy eating food again <3
there is a very real tendency of teenagers with anxiety disorders self diagnosing with considerably more stigmatized and impairing mental illnesses (e.g. schizophrenia, DID, personality disorders), but the best response to that isn't to get angry with them for "appropriating" lol. instead you show them coping resources for the problems they're actually having and deemphasize diagnostic categories in general. if an 18 year old is claiming to have alzheimer's, they're probably making an innocent mistake and are in genuine distress. be kind.
Also I think this trend comes, at least in part, from how brushed aside anxiety disorders can be. If your parents and teachers dismiss you with 'oh everyone feels anxious', then inevitably you're going to start thinking that there must be something else going on with you
”You must feel very scared right now; let’s talk about how to help you personally, tailored to your symptoms” will always be more helpful than “stop faking (X) for attention”. If theyre that desperate for attention or an explanation, something is wrong.
im so happy this post is getting traction please go eat some lentils or beans or tofu or edamame. you can have lentil soup or hummus or cassoulet or chana masala or chili con carne or falafel or pasta e fagioli or kimchi jiggae, there are sooooo many wonderful legume dishes out there!!!!!
