Fighting For My Soul

cancer, Introvert (INFJ with a little INFP), awkward, aro-ace, music lover, book lover, story lover really.  love animals,hate fakes/liars, try to be positive and helpful, openminded, accepting and non-judgemental and caring.  Eh, anything else, just ask. Oh, I hate bull shit too.

[fightingformysoul83]

I can't believe it....

Well, I guess I can. My sister and I are very different, but she thinks we have to be the same. Well today I found out my sister is a Sugar or a Sussex Squadie. She actually thinks MM is okay... she thinks the Royal Family treated her badly and that I believe everything the Royal Family says.

She claims to have read Spare.... however doesn't know that like half the book has been proven lies. Harry admits in the book that MM treated the staff poorly, which is one part of book that is proven true. He also has admitted it was MM who made Catherine cry not the other way around like MM says. My sister doesn't realize that the Royal Family hasn't even said anything negative about the duo, they have more class then that. My research has been based on the accounts of people who are close to both sides, you know what we have all been looking at for years. She believes William cheated, even though it's been debunked so many times. She laughs at the meme about William loosing his hair, about Diana snatching her looks back. William is still handsome, he still has that sweet smile and gorgeous blue eyes, he's tall and fit. Hair is not the only thing that makes someone good looking. My sister has no right to judge anyone else's appearance.

I don't even think my sister realizes that Diana wasn't as good as everyone likes to think she was. Diana was passionate about her charities and did want to help people, she passed that down to William, she also passed on her charisma to William.

However Diana was rude to staff, was childish and selfish, Harry got those traits.

Now I don't think Harry is innocent in all this but MM manipulated him and they married too soon and I think he would have been better off without her.

She says there's nothing wrong with MM. I can't believe mt sister doesn't know about the lying, manipulating, narcissistic person MM is. Which I don't really want to talk about. Just say that so many lies told by this duo has been proven to be lies.

Harry broke the promise he and William made to each to not drag each other in press or in public (as we all know siblings fight, they know dirt on each other). The only thing Harry can say about William is that he lost his hair. Then claims William didn't marry for love... only he and Meghan did.

Whereas William could let leak everything that Harry has done in the past and completely ruin him, but William won't, he has class and is a stand up guy. I am so sick of people, mostly fellow Americans believing Harry and Meghan, they are awful people.

Mind you I didn't get fully ingulfed in the Royal drama until about a month and half ago. I knew a little here and there but always sided with William and Catherine, I have always had a good instinct about people, like since I was a kid, , a fact my sister seems to forget or ignore.

I even got into it with Sugar on Threads this week because they couldn't believe and American would side with Wales'.

[pollsnatural]

Of the three main actors, whose performance on the show was the worst?

Jensen

Jared

Misha

All of them were equally good at acting

All of them were equally average at acting

All of them were equally bad at acting

Secret 7th option

Voting ended onFeb 6, 2024

[fightingformysoul83]

Prince William is not ugly, he's still handsome.

Okay so I have been having a hard few months. I wanted to talk about something fluffy that does not matter in the slightest (I don't really give a fuck about what someone looks like I do notice if someone has a pleasing face).

I finally caught up on The Crown. I am one year younger than Prince William and one year older than Harry. So the last two seasons of the show took place during my lifetime. I remember when William was 13 and signed the book to go to Eton College (A private, boarding High School), a weird concept to an American. I remember gaining a crush on him then. (mind you I grew up to be AroAce, so I have never felt anything more then like an 11 year old crush type feeling, but do have major crushes on fictional characters) He seemed to be a real life Disney Prince so far away yet my age and kind of relatable. As we all know he just grew more handsome over the next few years. He took a Gap year before university and literally lived in terrible conditions doing charity work, cleaning, cooking, manual labor and had basic military training for a couple months. Then went to ST. Andrews University, partied like normal College kid and met his future wife... the rest is easy to figure out.

So after watching the last season of The Crown where they showed Willsmania, I felt nostalgic, Yes it was real. It lasted from when he was 15 till he was about 30ish. I was reading and watching posts/youtube/tiktok that younger people didn't understand Willsmania because Prince William is ugly... just to find out is was because he is balding. Then when wearing his military uniform with a hat, that covers his head, he suddenly looks handsome and 10 years younger. Yes hairstyles can look good or strange on certain people but doesn't change their face, neither does balding. He still has those gorgeous blue eyes and incredibly sweet smile, not to mention, he's tall and fit. I remembered he had a beard for like 3 months about 11 years ago and thought he looked great with a beard. Then I thought to myself, well if he shaved his head and grew a beard, he would pull that off great and maybe people wouldn't complain. Right after that thought popped in my head... I read it on a post too and they had photoshopped it... not the best but enough so you could see it.

Below are photos and labels that will show you what I was rambling about just because I needed unimportant fluff.

age 17 in 1999

age 19 in 2001

22 or 23 25ish

These 3 are in his late 20s, like I think he was 29 maybe 30 when he had a beard.

Both of these in 2023 when he was 41 years old ( I spoke of the difference above)

Lastly the photo shop of him shaving his head and growing a beard... see still a handsome fella!

[fuckyeahhansonfamily]

[ropoto]

Every time Morgan calls Reid ‘Pretty Boy’

[wontliveforever]

• @iamalihoss The Voices Project, Feb 16, 2023. The first time Taylor Hanson played this amazing song for us in Jim Scout stidio😍 15000 people sang in the final version 👌🏻

[mamakitty187]

some ‘beater shots for fangirlscrapbook… enjoy!

[caramelfool]

A moment of silence please, to remember what once was.

[gaytaylorhansonfans]

In the words of George Takei….“Oh my!!!!!”

[confessinbouthanson]

“There’s no way Taylor’s kids are getting an adequate education. They have a high school graduate teacher who has to multitask wish two babies now. Those kids will be woefully unprepared for college (as if the girls would even be encouraged to)”

[fightingformysoul83]

Uh.... They only partially do traditional homeschool.  Natalie has said that.  They have a curriculum they follow (which is approved by the local school district and state) and have tutors, and most of the kids have spent some time in Private Schools. I am a teacher and knowing what I know about the education system across the US, Oklahoma's Public School system is one of the worst academically in the country.   They are probably getting a better education with what they are doing, especially traveling and seeing the world.  

[confessinbouthanson]

“ I wonder about Taylor. He seems so great with his effort in his community, but then he hangs out with shitty people like Zach Myers, Joe and, well, his siblings.“

[fightingformysoul83]

Too the person who submitted this... Taylor may only tolerate Zach because of his brothers. Take it from someone who knows about having a Toxic sibling, you have to choose your battles and not rock the boat. Taylor by nature, like me, is a peace maker, doesn't like conflict. It takes a lot of strength to not just cut them out of your life especially when you have so much tied up like he does with shared profit of the band and 3CG.

[confessinbouthanson]

“Taylor’s girlfriend? Lately I been listening to taylors songs on RGB album and I’ve noticed his lyrics are talking about someone other then his wife. Okay Taylor we get it you are in love with another lady.. Show her already! We tay fans just want to see you happy with someone else. #ibelievethemarriagerumors“

[fightingformysoul83]

another example of Hate on Taylor and Natalie's marriage because certain fans want to believe they have serious troubles, are they perfect, no. No relationship is.... those lyrics could be about Natalie, they could be about a friend's situation, could have been inspired by a movie.... Hanson, especially Taylor likes to leave lyrics open for each person to feel a connection to.

[confessinbouthanson]

**Double post “Of course Natalie’s the only wife on the Europe tour 🙄 because she don’t trust her husband 😂🤣 insecure Natalie at her finest.”

“I don’t know why natalie joins Taylor on tour. She never watches the shows and when she sees fans she gives them a fake smiles. I’m sure she’s there just to make sure he doesn’t play away”

[fightingformysoul83]

I have met Natalie and she was really sweet and genuine. In fact she talked about how Taylor being charming, accidentally flirts with people and she thinks it's cute when he realizes it ten minutes later and face palms. So she doesn't mind him talking to people at all. Most of these types of confessions about Taylor being unfaithful are bull shit from fans who still fantasize about being with him.

[confessinbouthanson]

** Double confession

“I dont buy that Taylor is a saint but at least he tries unlike the other two”

“For all you whining about Taylor going solo and commenting on the news….you all realize he owns guns and is a conservative right? Taylor is rolling his eyes and they’re all laughing at you“

[fightingformysoul83]

The second one is so single minded. LIBERALS OWN GUNS TOO! Taylor may be conservative but he is a reasonable open minded one who definitely leans more left then the other two. Having spoken with all three of them at different times it becomes painfully clear that Taylor is actually more Liberal then Conservative these days as is Natalie, they both lean more left then they did 15 to 20 years ago.... still conservative but definitely nearing the middle ground.

[fightingformysoul83]

Life of a teacher

I teach Elementary School.   I am so tired of people saying we don’t teach cursive, we do.  We teach telling time on an analog clock, We say the pledge, most teachers agree that the “Under God” should be taken out.  We also believe that the pledge is an out dated, useless practice but we do it to appease parents... ( We pledge allegiance to a flag, a symbol... no other country does that)  Critical Race theory is just teaching real history, truth.  It’s a non-issue that overly conservative Karen’s and (Daren’s) think is a big deal.   They don’t want us to teach about puberty and sex but don’t want to do it at home either, you want them to google or ask a friend and probably get the wrong information.  You don’t want kids is grads k-3 learning about gender and sexuality when they are asking questions at that age.  It can be simple, basic and age appropriate.   it’s not a big deal but others make it out to be.   The average age to start touching yourself in curious way, noticing it feels nice is about 7, not on a regular basis or anything but still.   It’s important for kids to know it’s okay to give boundaries and say no things that others might want them to do.  If you don’t talk to them at home.... where are they going to learn it if we don’t teach/talk about it at school?   

I have had kids ask me the difference between boys and girls, I have little girls who ask me if it is weird they like playing with cars.  I have had little boys like having painted nails.   These are small things that are considered gender or sexuality.  I just tell the kids, be a kid, like what you like, have fun, that’s all that maters.   Because if we even start to discuss gender roles or sexual stereotypical ideals we get parents who complain.

Sorry for the rant it just bothers me that some people don’t know their own kids and don’t understand what it’s like to be a teacher.

[teamzaylor]

[fightingformysoul83]

I have known for a very long time that Misha Collins is Bi.  I mean pretty much since the beginning.   The way he answered questions, the phrases he would use he told us all he was Bi, but some people didn’t pick up on it until he said more blatantly yesterday.  Plus Vicki’s book about threesomes, most of the time when couples participate in a more open relationship both people are Bi.  it’s just a statistic. (not always but more commonly).  Also his single mindedness toward the Destiel shippers and catering to them and somewhat ignoring the other fans points of view (Again he doesn’t always do this but it happens a lot)  He was the one to say Cas was in love with Dean in that one online chat, Mark Sheppard agreed but then RSJ tried to back track and say they had talked about how it was to left open to interpretation, which is actually what happened and Misha just went ahead and said what his take on it was.  Which is fine but it lead to the extreme desteil shippers harassing Jensen for saying it was more like Cas’s love was something humans couldn’t understand because it is celestiel love, which I think is beautiful. - I liked the idea of Cas being on the Aro Ace side because I relate to that.  I also think that men should be allowed to express, platonic/familial love without it being seen as gay/queer, because otherwise it’s pushing toxic masculinity. ( You know men can’t express their feelings) -  It’s why Misha always said he played Cas Bi, even if it wasn’t in the script and no one else knew.   

I remember over the years mentioning Misha being Bi and a lot of people would shut me down and others were like “Oh Yeah I know. “  

So to me he has always been a Bisexual human and to those of you who needed to hear it straight, he didn’t have to do that he’s been saying it for years.  And to those who are waiting for Jensen or Jared to show him support. I can tell you they are his close friends, they’ve knwon for a long time and have been supporting him for years. that’s what good friends are for.   They don’t have to make a public statement.  It took a lot of you a long to catch on that Misha was Bi, show you’re support, but don’t harass his close friends who have been there for him all this time.   

[schrodingers-fyke]

Believe in satan and fuck off

[getvalentined]

BOW DOWN TO SATAN AND BE THE NIGHTMARE

[soulbiscuit]

Feed the Witch and KILL YOUR GOD

[fightingformysoul83]

Bow Down to the Witch and Try Necromancy

[fightingformysoul83]

Just slightly annoyed

Not that this is a big deal to many people, probably not even other fans.  All the sudden i got really annoyed that Hanson was releasing the new song tomorrow, April 15.   It could have been last week or next week. I was thinking how it would have been nice to celebrate the 25 year anniversary of when MMMBop was released on it’s own, not with a new song.  Even thought I am loving the new songs.... I know I am weird and conflicted because on the other hand hey new music on the 25 year anniversary is cool too... Anyway just wanted to vent.  I am good now that I got it off my chest.