why does it hurt

needed to put these thoughts somewhere

[filling-myvoid]

i wonder how my death would effect them.

[filling-myvoid]

i feel like i’m finally understanding myself after all the confusion and hurt that i’ve felt these past few months

[filling-myvoid]

how does it feel now that it’s happening to me?

i ask myself

it doesn’t hurt knowing that she’s in bed with another. It’s just more reassurance that she’ll never put in that effort that i crave.

[recaption]

[recaption]

[recaption]

[compulsive]

[melisica]

[recaption]

[honorized]

[filling-myvoid]

sometimes living seems like a chore

better get it done & figured out quick before you get left behind

so much pressure to figure out how to make money and where to find love

the thought of ending it all seems like a breath of fresh air.. no more weight suffocating me

[filling-myvoid]

i wonder if i’ll ever feel fulfilled by one person

[filling-myvoid]

[filling-myvoid]

M,

i’m sorry for not being able to love you the way you needed me to. if i could go back in time i would’ve chosen you

it’ll always be you

[filling-myvoid]

this morning was so empty.. no connection

this afternoon.. empty

this evening i started to feel good about myself

all it took was one sentence from A to make all of those feelings present again

has A betrayed me?

[filling-myvoid]

ill only ever have myself

[nevver]