u were almost never there, but the almost infected my brain a lot, cause when u were there u showed me how not to act with love, u showed me how to be a shitty person, u showed me how to let someone down. u made me think i did not deserve to be loved and appreciated. u made me think i always had to fight for it. u made me think i was not worth it. u gave me love and nothing at the same time in a way that made me think that it was normal. u infected my ways of life my mind my personality with your wrong ways to act. u said too much & did to little. i was never a priority although every other person in ur life was truly not as valuable as me. and after saying that out loud in ur face and trying to keep the connection - u always failed to do ur part. and i hope that sometime u will get it. that sometime u realize what u have done to a child, to a girl, to a women who only wanted to be taken care of, to be cared about & to feel loved. but someday the time will come to fully let go. and i think it is already to late to right ur wrongs. fy
