i dont think i've really planned on explaining what my connor is to people… it probably wouldn't hurt to do it here though. sorry if this is a bit boring to read, it's just a wordvomit loredump
also cw for st/at/ic/no/is/e
he doesn't have a defined species, but i think he can be described as a shadow demon thing who gets his form from y/10's paranoid imagination. he's kinda like a minor eldritch horror who doesn't really have much power over anything (like faker), and he can appear human to people who are not y/10. he's originally pretty much a normal human in his source but i changed it because that's kinda lame
what essentially happened was y/10 unknowingly made a deal with him (mistaking it for a lighthearted joke promise) when they were both young, that they would get married with each other if they haven't found a partner by the time they became adults. connor LOVES this deal because he's convinced y/10 is his soulmate (im not being vain, this part is ripped directly from his source), and he does everything to prevent it from finding someone else, following it everywhere it went like a shadow. y/10 coming out as aroace only fueled his motivation to prove himself as ‘the right person’ (also ripped from his source).
everything went smoothly for him until y/10 met void right before the deal had to be upheld. he's the first target of his that had too many eyes on him, had bodyguards, that he can't kill or injure in any meaningful way even if he didn't. and most importantly, he's the first one that grew past being a crush or a phase. hence his undying hatred for him.
outside of the stalking, homicidal tendencies, obsession and questionable amount of respect for boundaries, he's actually a perfect bf material! he's good with kids and animals, works out, can cook, knows everything y/10 likes and dislikes, and he would do anything to keep y/10 happy and safe (all of this also ripped from source). objectively speaking, there's really no good reason why y/10 wouldn't take him over void.
oh and he's currently working as a waiter at a diner i guess? i think that's everything
I think I know everything of the context without being there aw I'm so sorry 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂
also was gonna speak in tags but AGAIN it's very blunt and personal so it goes under cut
actually I had vented about similar thing somewhere before- I get your feelings 🫂🫂
and HOW CAN SOMEONE RUNNING DAILY ACCOUNT FOR YEARS (AND DID VERY MANY OTHER STUFFS) WOULDN'T BE A CRAZY VOID LOVER but people barely think about it hands in head... I know who might've caused this and I had problems with them before(becuase it's that person who I mentioned week ago about copied my doodle + copying me sighhhh) so if I go violent and exaggerative with my personal feelings. do they even think???
I know they try to think and they are getting better but whatever at least in this moment
at the same time I don't like this is not just that one person's view but a lot of people go like that because of the phenomenon I had vented before: that people only think someone who do romantic typical(husband/wife/boyfriend/girlfriend) type of love are the REAL lovers. and when it goes to no.n.sh.ari.ng ya.nde.re in violent and obsessive possessive way -> people THEN consider it as crazy.
I mean yea that's crazy but that's not the only form of crazy but the problem is people validate it as crazy love ONLY. AND go like they love (character) the best! because they love (character) so much that they couldn't help but went ya.nd.er.e! oh fuck off.
not trying to invalidate y.an.d.ere type of loves or invalidate someone who is considered as crazy void fan of course but the problem is we can see and feel how other loves/lovers(especially when it's not husband/wife type of relationship) getting invalidated in general.
like if I randomly begin self-ship and post it, calling vo.id as my husband/boyfriend(It's just an example. I won't.) I can see people would go "I didn't know you love vo.id THAT MUCH" and if I insist Im yandere then people would go "you are CRAZY at vo.id" ughhhh the sidelining of other form of love is just wild
also! also what crinkle said. people just tend to stick to people who are popular artist in server which is. that's not everything??? but then? that person who might've caused this actually seems wanting to get attention from you and li.gh.t.-.n.im, tracking you both. I don't think they think. /lh
at least they don't think by themselves in this area because they have no interest to void- more like absorbing what they hear... I'm pretty sure if I mention you as crazy void fan several times to them they will be like ohhh I see! they are crazy void fan! ngl I knew it! sighhh okay Im going way too personal aaaa my beef sorry </3
NO COME ON really how can someone who made entire Q&A compliation and fucking(/pos) ppt and releasing covers is not a crazy void fan. people. come on. their only cues are just surface level popularity in server and typical stuffs sighhhhh
you and crinkle both are very VERY crazy void fans/lovers/cravers. and more outside here!!! I believe people who are actually into void a lot and aware of you all would validate you all much more than how server people do although we don't really speak loud about that... because it's so obvious for us!!
aaaaa I hate when people make you feeling overshadowed or invalidated hugs you 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍💐💐💐💐💐💐
brain: isn't it so awesome if ac is just walking a.c.cre.tions might be able to hold AC for 1 second before AC pushes them away with gravity because being AC means having stronger gravity manipulation- not like him getting physical stronger <- if this was the case mic would crash when ac was clenching so hard in base poses
Im curious in the college au are they all still their regular species or have you changed them into something else (you mentioned void/faker having a childhood)
they're still their regular species for the most part but kinda more toned down to be closer to humans, mostly just so they can get hit by The Ailments more easily. them having childhoods is kinda just to make them fit the setting more since i dont think their canon counterparts (other than minus) could go to college as is
cw implied self-harm, attempted self-harm, implied drug misuse
makes college au for pervert reasons → first dedicated fic is dead serious angst with zero pervert elements orz
anyway here's college minus and plushie having a moment hope you guys enjoy(?) it
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BANG!
Vincent flinched hard at the sudden noise, his head snapping to the direction of Nil's room. Judging by the lack of other reactions, he guessed that he was the only other person in the apartment. When the commotion continued, his feet guided him to its source. This couldn't be anything good.
The room's door was half way open, as if whoever went inside was in too much of a hurry to consider their own privacy. Vincent didn't manage to think much of it until later as he stood in the doorway, observing the hunched over figure of a man a bit more than a head taller than it is.
Nil is an even-tempered person. Although he raised his voice a little more regularly than Vincent would like, he had always prioritized amicable approaches to situations. For all the times he had wronged it from sheer carelessness, Vincent still liked him for that.
The man standing in front of it was not even-tempered. His breathing came in and out with ragged puffs, his body trembling as he fidgeted with his own closet door with entirely too much force, his eyes wide with rage. Vincent felt itself frozen in fear, its nervous system bracing it for a much louder, much more terrible noise than a crash. Like a shout, or a scream, despite the fact that it hadn't heard a single vocalized sound this entire time.
But then, it caught a glimpse of a faint crack on the closet door, and the fear gave way to dread — it was perfectly levelled with his forehead. And it could see him beginning to wedge his arm between the closet doors. It had to do something. Now. Anything would do. Just something to distract him, any sound would do, just—
‘Hey!’
It forced itself to blurt out before the closet door could slam shut. It tried to ignore its shaking hands and racing heart as his bulging eyes landed on it, its mind screaming danger. But then, slowly, as the man observed it, his breathing began to quiet, his gaze became less wild as rage was replaced by recognition, and his body seemed to forget what he was doing. Vincent could almost see the gears in his head turning as he briefly looked around his room, trying to remember where he was.
‘…You, uh… good…?’ in a much meeker voice, it asked.
Nil looked back at it a bit blankly, and seemed almost defeated in his demeanor. Then, without a word, he gently and safely closed his closet door before backing himself up into it. Following its surface, he slid down tiredly onto the bedroom floor, his fingers curled into his hair as he pulled his knees to his chest, a quiet, frustrated groan escaping his dry throat.
Still shaking slightly on adrenaline, Vincent hesitated in the doorway. The crisis had been averted, and whatever happened next wasn't any of its business. It probably should give him the space to organize his thoughts. But this train of thought proved meaningless as it dragged itself to take a seat beside him anyway. It supposed some part of it didn't want him to be alone.
As it sat, waiting for its flatmate to decide what to do next, its eyes got drawn to a familiar looking medicine bottle on his desk, just three steps ahead the both of them in the small rented room. Its lid was left a few centimeters away from the rest of the bottle, and through its transparency, it could see that half of its contents had been emptied.
‘…I want to pay rent,’ Nil's voice came suddenly. Uncharacteristically quiet, as if trying to bury itself in the silence. Ashamed. ‘It just… hurts too much if I don't—…’
He didn't say much more after that. His breathing was quivering, all of his willpower used up in holding back the emotions behind it.
Vincent didn't say anything, either. It figured there was nothing it could say that would console him more than the silence.
…It would have to check for injuries after he had calmed a bit more.
I was kinda feeling bad for not giving chance to them. like. I could've choose asking them "please avoid doing that because (explanation)" or something
but? now my brain is remembering what they did and said one by one so nevermind
