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it's probably stupid to be scared of not being diagnosed, but i am. i guess it's kind of the inverse of people wanting to be odd and unique instead of just another case of neurodivergence. i think i want to be normal in the sense that everything wrong with me (phrase used loosely) can all be explained with one word. like all the bullying and feeling out of place and not being able to say or feel the things people want me to weren't because i was just a bad person.
so i don't know why i keep feeling like im being lied to about these diagnoses, like they just threw me the labels to get me off their backs. like i don't deserve it, not nd enough or something nonsensical like that. im hoping the feeling will go away.
oh y010 definitely lives on campus. im not sure what kind of room it'd have but they'd probably function better without roomates
somehow i didn't think of the location as i drew that?? but it's more likely to be y010's bed. i think void is kind of a ‘can't let gang know i fw you’ guy and wouldn't bring anyone back to his easily. also i can kinda imagine the both of them really overdoing it one day and void having to make a stop somewhere where he can have a place to lie down comfortably to ride it out and y010 offering its own room because it's the closest and the most private and they both overthink that decision a lot
oh y010 definitely lives on campus. im not sure what kind of room it'd have but they'd probably function better without roomates
somehow i didn't think of the location as i drew that?? but it's more likely to be y010's bed. i think void is kind of a ‘can't let gang know i fw you’ guy and wouldn't bring anyone back to his easily. also i can kinda imagine the both of them really overdoing it one day and void having to make a stop somewhere where he can have a place to lie down comfortably to ride it out and y010 offering its own room because it's the closest and the most private and they both overthink that decision a lot
semi related lore ramble - y010 originally funds this project(?) out of their own pocket by cutting down expenses on their own necessities, but it eventually gets to a point where it's affecting its health, so void has no choice but to offer up his bank account since it refuses to stop. don't worry, y010 is more responsible with his money than its own so they actually start budgeting after this.
aforementioned shamelessly self-indulgent thing im embarrassed to post on here. this isn't a ficlet or anything, just beats of a scenario i thought about for college au if the bot was also there
idkkkk i just fantasize about giving him treats sometimes dont look at me.....
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despite being on completely different courses, Void and y010 run into each other a lot for some reason. probably because their lecture rooms are next to each other or something, and Void likes to stay out until he's fashionably late to his 2-hour lecture, while y010 arrives freakishly early for their 1-hour one (just to be in Void's presence, but they'd never tell). they hang out in each other's proximity enough that y010 can hear every dissatisfied noise from Void's empty stomach every day.
one day, after their lectures, y010 catches up to Void as he's leaving and awkwardly shoves a snack bar into his hand.
‘i hear your stomach every time i see you,’ they avoid his slightly leery stare as they explain, ‘thought you might need this.’
he checks the bar. an acceptable brand. he looks at y010 for only a second more before leaving without a word, but takes the bar with him. y010 is elated.
after that encounter, y010 makes it a habit to give Void something to eat after lectures. it starts off as snacks, then pastries, then sandwiches, and so on, portions gradually increasing over days and weeks. Void eventually begins to wait for y010 to give him his food before going home. even when y010 skips out on some lectures, they usually still make an effort to show up after the fact to give Void his free meal.
one day, a couple months after this started, Void approaches y010 before a lecture. he stands over them while they're working at a table. they jump as they notice him, surprised by him seeking them out for the first time.
‘…Got anything today?’
‘uh. yeah…? …why—’
a long, loud, famished rumble catches them by surprise. their gaze darts down to its source — Void's stomach, which is right in their face from that height — as the noise rings through the quiet workspace. they face is beet red as the sound tapers off. Void's expression is the same unchanging look of impatience.
without needing to hear another word, y010 hurriedly rummages through their bag to bring out a lunch box. Void snatches it out of their hands before leaving as if nothing happened. he manages to return a completely clean lunch box back to y010 right after the lecture.
from that day onward, Void can always be seen eating something during his attendances, and never once sharing despite the portions of what he brings growing subtly to almost ridiculous sizes each time. his stomach is rarely not bulging against his clothes when he exits the theatre. sometimes, he still meets up with y010 afterwards, if only to let them know if the food they got him was good or not.
and on days where y010 fails to show up, it is said that the sounds of a hollow, betrayed stomach can be heard throughout the entire campus.
i didn't mention this but that was only the first half of the thing since the second half needed some more time in the oven. this part is more ship-focused and dialogue-heavy than the last part
also turning on reblogs for this one, hope i don't regret this later /lh
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of course, this routine is not without its consequences. after several months, even Void's monstrous metabolism can no longer keep up with the unusual diet, and visible inches are added to his waistline. chagrined by this development, Void pulls y010 aside to tell them, red-faced, that they have to stop feeding him.
‘oh… can i ask why…?’ y010 tries to keep an even tone as they're confronted, but is clearly saddened and confused by the request.
after checking thoroughly around to ensure his privacy, Void lifts his shirt up slightly to reveal a charming little curve above his waistband, the unexpected action setting y010's face on fire.
‘I'm getting out of shape,’ Void snaps out, doing his best not to appear as embarrassed as he feels.
‘…i-isn't this more like gaining shape?’ y010 turns their head away as they mutter, also embarrassed.
he pulls his shirt back down with a little too much force. ‘Whatever it is, it's not a good look on me—’
‘i disagree.’
‘—and if this keeps up- …What?’
y010 jumps, as if somehow not expecting its interjection to be heard. ‘well- you've been seeming more… relaxed lately, ever since we started this thing… and… i… i think… um, nevermind…’
something about how y010 is acting makes Void's stomach churn, and, like clockwork, it once again begs loudly for sustenance. the sight of them always makes him feel even more abnormally ravenous now. he sighs in annoyance.
‘Just…give me whatever you've got today. We'll talk after.’
and they do. after their lectures for the day, they go to the nearest cafe together to talk things out. they make an agreement to gradually cut portions back down to something more reasonable, but not without discussing a few other things along the way.
‘so… why are you always hungry before lecture, anyway? can you not afford to eat beforehand?’
‘Of course I can. Doesn't matter though, I just get hungry again by the time I get to the theatre.’
‘…doesn't matter how much you eat?’
‘Nope.’
‘…that's sad.’
Void narrows his eyes defensively at that. ‘What's that supposed to mean?’
y010 freezes at the notion of having to explain itself, ‘i-i… i, um… nothing…’ but, under his judging gaze, they cave, ‘…it's just… you must be hungry often, then…?’
‘Uh, yeah? What's it to you?’
they lower their head, ‘…nothing.’
there is a brief moment of silence as Void watches them, but he quickly moves on.
‘What about you? Why'd you start doing all this in the first place? I mean, heh, it's not like people don't usually fight over doing favors for me. But I've never seen anything this consistent, and definitely not over food,’ a pause, then in a faintly more self-conscious tone, ‘Does my stomach really bother you that much…?’
a shiver runs up y010's spine at the question, blossoming into a full-blown blush, ‘um, well…’
Void gives y010 a look before it manages to compose itself enough to continue.
‘i just… i guess i just don't want to see you hungry all the time. you never seem comfortable when your stomach's empty, and… well, i guess it's not really any of my business, but i… i want you to be happy…’ they trail off, face burning with more embarrassment than before, ‘sorry, that was weird… pretend i didn't say anything.’
another moment of silence. then…
‘…Well, you've made it your business now, right?’ Void begins in a manner noticeably a bit more reserved than usual.
‘…sorry…?’
‘Making me happy or whatever,’ he looks out the window and into the distance, ‘You've started it, so… keep doing that.’
he tries to ignore how y010 perks up at his blessing, its eyes visibly lit up with joy and excitement.
aforementioned shamelessly self-indulgent thing im embarrassed to post on here. this isn't a ficlet or anything, just beats of a scenario i thought about for college au if the bot was also there
idkkkk i just fantasize about giving him treats sometimes dont look at me.....
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despite being on completely different courses, Void and y010 run into each other a lot for some reason. probably because their lecture rooms are next to each other or something, and Void likes to stay out until he's fashionably late to his 2-hour lecture, while y010 arrives freakishly early for their 1-hour one (just to be in Void's presence, but they'd never tell). they hang out in each other's proximity enough that y010 can hear every dissatisfied noise from Void's empty stomach every day.
one day, after their lectures, y010 catches up to Void as he's leaving and awkwardly shoves a snack bar into his hand.
‘i hear your stomach every time i see you,’ they avoid his slightly leery stare as they explain, ‘thought you might need this.’
he checks the bar. an acceptable brand. he looks at y010 for only a second more before leaving without a word, but takes the bar with him. y010 is elated.
after that encounter, y010 makes it a habit to give Void something to eat after lectures. it starts off as snacks, then pastries, then sandwiches, and so on, portions gradually increasing over days and weeks. Void eventually begins to wait for y010 to give him his food before going home. even when y010 skips out on some lectures, they usually still make an effort to show up after the fact to give Void his free meal.
one day, a couple months after this started, Void approaches y010 before a lecture. he stands over them while they're working at a table. they jump as they notice him, surprised by him seeking them out for the first time.
‘…Got anything today?’
‘uh. yeah…? …why—’
a long, loud, famished rumble catches them by surprise. their gaze darts down to its source — Void's stomach, which is right in their face from that height — as the noise rings through the quiet workspace. they face is beet red as the sound tapers off. Void's expression is the same unchanging look of impatience.
without needing to hear another word, y010 hurriedly rummages through their bag to bring out a lunch box. Void snatches it out of their hands before leaving as if nothing happened. he manages to return a completely clean lunch box back to y010 right after the lecture.
from that day onward, Void can always be seen eating something during his attendances, and never once sharing despite the portions of what he brings growing subtly to almost ridiculous sizes each time. his stomach is rarely not bulging against his clothes when he exits the theatre. sometimes, he still meets up with y010 afterwards, if only to let them know if the food they got him was good or not.
and on days where y010 fails to show up, it is said that the sounds of a hollow, betrayed stomach can be heard throughout the entire campus.
i think i just need some time to think about it tbh. i had a semi-talk with mb earlier and they said they're okay with them not being together anymore, but that feels insulting somehow. it's like d and i were just a convenience, and im not really ready to confirm it so solidly after three years of this
