Anissa Willemina Drake

“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” ― Eleanor Roosevelt, This is My Story

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Yes. I am wearing my night gown. What’s it to you?

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You're standing in the middle of the common room.

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7/30 in the evening.

[youngjae--lee-deactivated201501]

He decided to listen to Anissa speak. Why he was allowing her to give him her input was beyond him. He was just sick and tired of Everett right now. He had lost a best friend and for what? Because Everett was infatuated with a submissive who was overly emotional? Anissa was still speaking and his mind was still in a flurry of anger. 

"I’m wonderful. I love getting punched in the face by my best friend." He retorted. Edward rolled his eyes and reached up with his index finger to feel his nose. He would survive. It wasn’t that bad, it just mentally, was unbearable. "Anissa, can you walk with me to my room? I’d like to clean up, although, I don’t want to be alone right now. It’s best I go with someone who knows how to handle me." He tried to keep the tone soothing, but he could feel, his voice was still demanding and angered.

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It wasn't hard to read Edward's face when it came to whether or not he was fully paying attention to what Anissa was saying. She knew he was listening but at the same time his mind seemed to be a million miles away. This fact didn't bother her. She knew how it was when it came to a Dominant giving their full attention to a sub. They listened but only focused on the parts that were either highly important or showed disrespect towards them. Anissa had seen it a thousand times with her father. 

Hearing Edward's answer to her question about him being all right made Anissa realize she should have know she's get a sarcastic answer from him. "I meant is your nose all right? Do you think you should see the doctor?" She replied back to him, even if it wasn't what she really wanted to say. However, this was Edward and such comments could get her into deep trouble with not only him but her father as well. "Um.. Of course." The answer was given in a bit of shock. The idea that anyone could handle Edward in the way he was referring to was not something Anissa thought was possible. "It might be best to put some ice on it. We should pick up some from your common room on our way." Anissa hoped she wasn't over stepping by her suggestion.

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"Yes! It is a great day to be in the water!"

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"That is it. Not sure how many we have of  them left but it's best to make the best of each one that we can.

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Edward felt her soft lips and was entranced by the overall performance. He didn’t think she would do so exceedingly well. Her first kiss was shared with him and he was taking it all in. The way she was feeling near him and the way her lips pressed against his own. Edward could feel her body stiffen when his fingers were instinctively on her thighs. He tried his best to behave.

"Seems I can’t really help myself." He mumbled, trying to shift his position, so that he wasn’t touching her in that way again. "I just want you comfortable. Wouldn’t want your first kiss to be a tragedy." He grinned.

Edward kissed her again, his movements a lot more passionate, and aggressive. He wanted to teach her how to kiss the way he knew how. 

"Do you want me to keep kissing you?" He asked.

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"It's me, not you. I don't know if I'm ready to go..." Finishing the sentence didn't seem that important after hearing the rest of what Edward had to say. Nor did she get much of a chance to before his lips were on here once more. This was a new kind of kiss though. One with passion and a lot of aggression to it. At first Anissa wasn't sure about it but over time she soon find herself enjoying it. With her body relaxing and her mind lost in the kiss, Anissa felt something she hadn't felt since the demo. 

It was that feeling that only Edward's tough so far was able to create within her. Since the demo she's wonder if it would be the same with other man but fear kept her from testing that theory out. If most people found out about this fear they'd tell she should be more afraid of what Edward could do to her then what could happen with another man. Anissa knew she should pay attention to the fact; however, right now she was to far gone with it came to kissing Edward and the feeling he was awaking inside her to care about any of that.

"Yes," was all she moaned before continuing the kiss. 

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Ballroom Humiliation |Anissa & Edward|

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Edward was now preparing himself for using the whip next on his submissive. Anissa had proved to be such an amazing woman that even he was astonished by it all. He still wanted to break her. Whatever it took to make her say those words he had given her. He wanted to see more of her skin break, but he knew, he had to be respectful of her wishes. Being a dominant sometimes meant you had to listen to your submissive so that one day you would have someone to claim. He wouldn’t want to leave the worst impression on Anissa.

"I am going to be using this quality 4’ bullwhip next on my submissive. Remember Anissa, when you feel the need to say the safety word, please do so in a voice that I, and the rest of the board directors, can hear." He stated in a authoritative tone. "I’m going to be standing behind Anissa, popping the whip over her head teasingly, and then will strike her." 

Edward walked back behind Anissa and allowed his finger tips to brush against the back of her neck. They trickled down to her bare back and he strolled back into the position he was at with the flogger, only taking a few more steps away, so that he was in the right position for the whip to make contact with skin. He raised the whip and popped it over her head to allow the tension to build up. The momentum continued like this and two more times he would raise it and pop it near her so that she could feel terrified being in his presence.

He looked in the audience and was now prepared to break skin with his submissive. “I will be striking you now, Anissa. Remember your safety word and repeat it to me.” He ordered. 

"My safety word is red." She responded.

Edward raised the whip once more and let it loosely flow from his fingers to pop into her back. The sound she made from the whip was so mesmerizing. The whip went into her skin and began causing a few cuts into her back. He licked his lips from the sweat trying to pour down onto his face. He was so aroused by the blood he was seeing into her cut. After a few more times of striking, he lowered his whip, and walked closer towards an exhausted submissive. She had been flogged and now whipped. Lastly, he would be demonstrating how to use a cane against her. 

He walked around her so that now he was facing Anissa. He reached for her cheeks and waited for the infirmary to help clean up her marks. “You’re doing too well.” He said only loud enough for her to hear. 

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No whispered words of how she was going to pay for saying the safety word came to her ear had Anissa wondering what new game Edward was playing at now. There was no way he was going to let what happen go. She had broken his rule. There was no way that was going to be just forgotten about. With no idea what Edward was up a new worry came to Anissa's mind. She tried her best to shake it off. For there was no way she could do anything about it right now. She needed her mind to be on what was going to happen next. Edward was done with the flogger but Anissa knew he wasn't done with her. There was still time on the clock that needed to be used up or else both their grades would be affected if they didn't. 

The question now was what did Edward have in store for her. He wasn't done causing her pain that was for sure. Pain seemed to be the one thing Edward loved to hand out. Anissa knew if she had been paying attention when Edward was explaining his plans for the demo she would know what was to come. Alas she couldn't change the past and now had to wait. Thankfully or not she didn't have to wait very long. The whip, that was what was to be used next. The damage that could be done with a whip in the right hands or wrong as the case may be was unimaginable. With the right force and snap a whip could turn a person's back into mush; make it look like minced meat. If this was happening anywhere else Anissa would have found herself freaking out. With the board members and headmistress here she knew there was no way Edward could take it that far. 

Having learned that listening to Edward even when he was speaking to the board and headmistress Anissa was able to start preparing her mind for what Edward called the  teasing strikes. She was almost in her mind set when the Dominant brushed his finger tips down her back. A breath caught in the back of her throat. Was her body really deceiving her right at the moment when she needed to hold it all together. There was no way she could be affected by a simple touch and yet here she was—affect. Doing her best to hide the shiver that Edward's touch had caused Anissa put all her effort into finding the right head space for what was to come.   

Taking deep breaths once more, Anissa let herself drift back into the head space that would keep her from losing with each hit Edward made to her back with the whip. At the same time though, she couldn't shake the way the man's touch had stirred, awaken something inside her that just didn't want to die down. One snap, two snaps, and then a third had Anissa's thoughts pulled from whatever these new feelings that were consuming her body and onto the man behind her who was making the snapping sounds. Anissa knew she had to get it together or else this would end badly for her. She waited for the next snap to happen. It never came instead Edward spoke once more, asking about her safety word. Giving it to him she waited once more. 

It wasn't long before the whip finally at last made contact with her back. The sting was more than the girl could take and just as pain flew throughout her back Anissa let out a yelp. However, pain wasn't the only thing she was feeling. It seemed the strike of the whip also caused the new feelings that the Dominant's touch had stirred up to grow even more. With each strike after that pain got worse but so did the sensation that was now centered in her lower abdomen. By this point she wasn't sure if she wanted to go away or keep building. Closing her eyes she waited for the next strike to come but it never did. It was over with Edward was done with the whip. If only that meant this was the end. That she could come down from the hook but it wasn't. There was more to come and Anissa wasn't sure if she could or would make it through whatever else Edward had planned. For now she would just breath. 

Trying to think of anything else was just too much for her at that moment. One breath in and one breath out, if she kept breathing the end would come at some point. She would have kept on like that if it wasn't for the cold clothe that was placed on her back out of nowhere. It was that wet feeling on her back that made her realize that her panties were wet and this wetness didn't come from sweat. Opening her eyes looked into Edward's just as confusion spread throughout her face. This meant something but what. Edward's words meant something as well but there was just too much going on inside her mind for her to even grasp that she was being praised. 

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Well, Anissa, do what you want. I actually like your company. You’re a breath of fresh air. If that makes any sense. Now why would I do that? I wouldn’t want you to get into trouble. That would be unfortunate.

I know. You’ve been raised right.

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I've upset you, haven't I? I'm not trying to be difficult. I'm young. I'm still trying to figure all this out. My father might have raised me a certain way and taught me to expect but in the end all of this is so new to me. I know how to behave. What I don't know is how to deal with all these feelings I'm now having to deal with. You scare me. Really? I thought you might want him to straighten me out.

I really am sorry. I don't know what I was thinking when I said what I said.

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Well, if you don’t really enjoy being around me then I would suggest you do yourself a favor and find someone who you like. Your father is intelligent at least. He isn’t like most parents around here, which is unfortunate, because I don’t think he would like it knowing you have these types of views.

You say that now, but, I’m not too sure you really mean it.

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I didn't say I don't enjoy being around you. I just haven't figured out all my feeling about you yet. What! You're not going to tell him, are you? You can't tell him. Please?

Of course I mean it. I wouldn't lie to you.

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Well then. Answer me this. Do you like being near me? You seem to always pop around at interesting times. You may be young, but still, why look for something when you already know what your life is going to be like when it’s already mapped out for you? I’ve known for quite some time what my path was going to be.

Excuse me? Did you really say that to me? You’re getting a bit too comfortable.

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I don... It just.. It's easy to be around you than other Dominant. I know what to expect when I'm with you. Running into you so much was never my intent if that's what you mean. I was on my way to the library when I saw you this time. As usually I'm lost. Just because I know something doesn't mean I want to accept it. This is the life my father wants for me and I can't help the part of me that still hopes I can change it.

I'm sorry. I wasn't... It was rude of me and I apologize. It won't happen again. I'm sorry.

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What if there was something more for you? What else is there? I think the important thing is to find someone who actually wants to claim you. You’re quite the rare one, to me, anyways. It’s hard looking for someone whose willing to do anything their dominant asks of them. 

A partner who likes to do more then just study. Practice more on intimacy if you can understand what I mean.

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I don't know. A part of me wants to find out though. Love. The change to be more than just a submissive. To have a life that doesn't just revolve around your Dominant's life. I'm 18, Edward. I think I have time. Rare, never been called that before. With time I'm sure other submissives will be the same. It's easy to fall into step when this is all I've known my whole life. Just because we're willing doesn't mean we like doing it. 

It's not hard to understand what you mean, Edward. Some times I wonder if you have a one track mind.

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It sounds to me you already know your place. That’s what I like about you, Anissa. You at least know who you are. Most submissives around here aren’t the brightest when interacting with someone whose a dominant. Learning is fun when you have a study partner.

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I know the place I was taught to be in but... What if that's not the place I want to be? Is it so wrong to want to be more than what someone else wants me to be? Most submissives are still trying to figure out who they are and where they fit into this world. A good number seem to have never been fully exposed to a Dominant other than a parent and grandparents. A study partner?

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And you? What do you believe yourself to be? I probably did, but then again, I’ve had so much..fun in the years I’ve been at this school, that I hardly remember.

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It's not hard to figure out what I am or what I was raised to me. I'm the kind of submissive who gives up all control. Follows all the rules in order to please her Dominant. Fun? I don't believe I've ever heard someone refer to learning as being fun.

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Project you say? Tell me all about it. I’m sure it’s far more interesting then what I have going on. 

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Yes, a group project. I'm not sure how it's more interesting then what you're doing. We have to research the different types of submissives there are, write a group report on it and then write individual report on which type we believe ourselves to be. You probably had to do something close to it your first year. 

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This is the part where I start to relax from classes. I’m not really looking forward to tomorrow. 

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I wish I could say the same. This project for Societal Etiquette is slowly killing me.

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"I always thought having a brother would be cool."

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"They're not that cool. My oldest can be quite bossy when he wants to be, which is all the time. I don't really know much about my younger brother. Other than he can be a brat at times.

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"Yeah! She’s so rad, her name’s Felix but I call her Fee. She calls me Frankie. I’m kind of like…Felix’s biggest fan."

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"That... She sounds great. I just have two brothers. Brothers aren't the best.