Finding Jane Doe

The journey of moving forward instead of backwards.

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Words to live by! 

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Mommy

Today I'm grateful to be a mom. It's not easy but so rewarding. I suck at cooking but our easy go to is tacos. I successfully made tacos for dinner that everyone enjoyed, and got to help one of my kids with her homework. Homework is a struggle and takes a long time...but I do miss spending this kind of time with her where I invest in her future just by sitting and helping with homework. Sounds silly but I really believe that these little moments aren't as insignificant as we think. I love the little things in life. It's easy to be stressed and overwhelmed, but today reminds me that I need to see the good. The glass is half full, I tell myself!

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There are no perfect moms, just real moms

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Thoughts

Why do I find it so hard to love myself? Why do I constantly feel jealous? It's so easy to want what I don't have. Other people have money to get their hair done, have as many kids as they want... that's what I'm really struggling with lately. I keep comparing myself to other people when I know I shouldn't. Everyone looks at me and says I'm beautiful but sometimes I just don't see it. Today I will start finding my own beauty. I have a great smile and I am beautiful!

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9.27.17

One of the new things I need to do daily is being thankful! I took positive psychology in college and believe that this practice can really help. Today I'm thankful for: 1. My husband. He hasn't been feeling well the past week or so with a cold, but he does a lot for us. He goes to work and when he comes home he'll cook dinner, do laundry, walk the dog, etc. 2. My kids. It's really hard to raise two kids especially when it's truly not just me raising them. Life is confusing but I'm going to keep investing myself in them having a good future. 3. My job. I'm thankful that I have one! My bosses care about me and let me take off when I need to.

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Step 1:

Today I'm making changes. Deleted Facebook off my phone. Replaced it with tumblr so I have a place for my real thoughts. Waking up every morning is hard and a struggle. I want to enjoy life! I weighed myself at 146lbs this morning and want to get down to around 120lbs. I know weight is not everything and I should love my body... But I just don't feel comfortable enough to love where I am right now. I know I can get in better shape to have a healthier future. I'm going to establish a new morning routine so that I don't feel dreary all the time. There's a lot I'm struggling with but this is a start.