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[findingkimber]

I tried shifting while on acid here’s what happened

So let me just start this by saying this was my first ever trip — I’m also kinda still just coming down fr

I decided like a dumbass to take acid to shift at like 4 in the morning. Listen I know it was stupid idk what the hell I was doing but I’m thankful my friend was there on the phone with me to help me through this.

For the first few minutes I didn’t even feel anything, the most was really just things being blurry bc my pupils were dilated (I’m guessing) I even messaged my plug and was like yo man i deadass don’t feel anything 😭 — safe to say I was wrong as SHIT

When that shit kicked in fully I was seeing colors and my ceiling looked like it was moving. I was staring at my LED lights. I had them set to blue thinking it was a safe color, soon the room started looking like shades of blue and pink and purple and green. It was cool. I felt euphoric. There was even a point in time where I wished it was darker because my phone was “making the room glow” all different colors.

I’ll be honest with yall I’m a DOWN BAD girly and I wanted to shift real bad, I kept coming back to the thought bc it was why I took the trip in the first place. But when I tell you I don’t see how anyone could actually shift like that. Especially if it’s their first time tripping I DONT see it. It felt like everything was coming and going in waves. Everything being “too much” doesn’t even describe it. It genuinely was all too much too fast. I was laughing, crying, angry, euphoric, scared, all of the above. And when I say if you think you’re gonna do this shit and poof into your s/o’s arms like I did you might sadly be mistaken.

If you’re someone like me that feels like they need to control everything, even if you don’t think you are, this might be you. I don’t recommend trying this. A lot of what I “learned” was that I’m not ready. And trust me as someone that’s been “trying to shift for years” I thought I was ready and thought this would be easy and it wasn’t.

If you want imagery that I personally think was symbolic I’d say that I saw a golden book in my hands and my ceiling reminded me of water. And I felt that that in itself was me telling myself that the answer is within myself I just need to trust it and ACTUALLY LET GO.

I think a lot of you may be having this issue and not even realizing it till maybe ur like me tripping balls on acid and realizing you had it within you to do it all along. a lot of you need to let go. That doesn’t mean say you’re letting go, or close your eyes and listen to a subliminal but still do your own breathing and peak and hope for shit to magically start morphing around you. No. LET GO. that doesn’t mean say a bunch of affirmations every day or manifest it and then pray about it or beg the universe for a sign. No dude. LET GO. You have to realize that shifting is inevitable. It WILL happen but not if you’re forcing it or pushing when you aren’t ready. It’s like trying to paint a wall with dry paint. You still have paint, you still have a brush and you’ve still got the wall. And yeah you could wait till summer, maybe it’ll make the paint hot, or you could just use wet paint. Which basically just means use what you’re given without all the struggling.

I saw what to me looked like a clear veil on this reality. It looked as though someone had just took clear tape and stretched it across the open air in front of me. But even that probably wouldn’t do it justice. And I saw what looked like tiny little threads stretching everywhere. Idk if it makes sense but it felt like myself or the universe telling me that everything was somehow connected but also closer than I think, that what I want is really just within reach.

I think I was so hyper aware of everything that I couldn’t mellow out and that was the issue. I was my own issue. I even remember saying out loud “I’m not ready” subconsciously I knew I wasn’t. But I’ve been trying to push anyway. And it’s not bc I can’t do it. It’s because I can’t let go and have faith that it’ll happen on its own. I kept seeing shifting as this big thing. Like maybe my room itself needed to change before my eyes and morph into Hogwarts or something for me to believe it. When that’s not the case. I also was putting too much into things like subliminals and trips to help me shift when I didn’t need to.

I tried listening to subliminals. I put on one from shades shifting brew because I saw comments say it helped them shift. I’ll be deadass I turned that shit off quick bc it felt “demonic” so idk take that as you will. I’m very in-tuned with myself and my gut so yall be safe.

A lot of the time I just wanted stuff that felt mellowed out and soft. I started listening to the weekend till I didn’t want to anymore and then i put on a guided meditation by alunir. I will say this one felt calmer than the other but I still saw myself having issues because I wouldn’t just breathe like she told me I was too worried about my breathing and not being able to breathe so it was tripping me out. Ultimately I couldn’t even focus on imagining the dr I actually wanted to go to I just kept trying to picture stuff that was mellow and would calm me down and for some reason ended up picturing avatar way of water and kept saying avatar over and over again till my friend helped ground me.

Pretty sure those were like the only times I tried. I felt pulled in a trance and kind of close till I heard my friend say something and it pulled me back and snapped me out of the meditation.

Real shit tho? I wrote half of this while still kind of tripping and basically fighting for my life to shit bc that damn thing made me dehydrated and constipated 😭 — I don’t even rlly remember where I was going with most of this but if I do I’ll add to it or make a part 2.

Few highlights from when I was high , these are some things I said that I wrote down or my friend did bc I told her to make sure to take notes for some reason bc “I’d want to remember this” (even tripping balls she’s a smart baddie queen 🙂‍↕️🤏)

Be present in the moment

Focusing too hard on it let go

Expecting too much

Everything's a reflection of you

Be okay with the now

✨Time✨ (bc for some reason this was special ?? — it likely was and my friend is just an ass note taker 🙄)

Maybe you haven't shifted because you haven't found the answers in yourself

“a lot happening in a small amount of nothing” is shifting

Your problem with shifting is you don't know how to be present

There was more but like I said she’s ass at taking notes and didn’t rlly take many / write them word for word.

Moral of the story though I learned a lot — like the fact that the only thing “getting in my way” was myself. My own expectations, my own need to see and feel and control everything. I know you’ve heard the whole “you don’t need anything but you to shift” speech. But seriously take it from someone that tripped on acid just to do it (and deadass still can’t sleep 15 hrs later bc it’s still in my system) you really only need yourself.

I was the same way, hearing that and still thinking no I’ll do it my way bc just saying that felt like it didn’t provide any actual clarity. But what it likely means is you just need to mellow out. (No im not saying green out or take acid) I’m saying be present in the meditation if that’s what you’re using. Stop focusing on when you’ll feel symptoms or when you’ll see results. Just listen. Just breathe. Just be there. Accept that it will happen because it will. Know that you don’t have to know how, you don’t even have to control the method. It’ll all just work itself out.

A lot of what I learned about my own “blockages” was really just that I need to sit back and learn to let things roll how they roll, but also I need to stop having these weird massive expectations surrounding shifting and what could happen. It throws off simple victories that do happen because they “aren’t as big” or “what I wanted.” But I also learned that it’s ok to let things happen when they happen. Because 9 times out of 10 you likely just aren’t ready and that’s ok, that could be as simple as you not knowing how to take the backseat, to you not actually knowing what dr you really feel most at home in.

Don’t be like me and push when you don’t need to. Sometimes things happen the way they do for a reason and that’s ok. — earlier in the week before trying this I kept seeing the wheel of fortune card and angel numbers everywhere. I even saw it at the back of my tarot deck before I lost the deck and i think it sums up the situation perfectly and is fitting since it’s about learning to take the backseat. Even when I would pull tarot asking if I should shift and if I was ready, months and weeks prior it said no and still I pushed and saw no progress. It wasn’t the pushing that was the issue. It was not knowing the root of the issue that was the issue and now I do and can fix it.

Idk man this is getting long but if I feel like adding stuff I’ll make another post or just answer questions. — as always be safe. Do as I say not as I do. Don’t be a fucking dumbass and take LSD or fucking try drugs just to shift bc you’ve seen me post it. That’s not what I’m saying and I highly advise against it. What I do think you should do is either shadow work or very detailed tarot, otherwise if you’re like me and think you’ve gotta figure shit out the hard way on your own then take a breath and a step back and remember that this will happen. It doesn’t need to happen instantly to happen.

౨ৎ I hope that at least something in here helped. Idk man I need sleep real bad. So bye and happy shifting

DO NOT FUCKING TRY THIS SHIT AND YOUR ASS BETTER BE 21+ EVEN THINKING ABOUT TOUCHING DRUGS OK? Mk.

[findingkimber]

Sometimes I really sit and think about the time I tried to prove shifting to myself . . .

ཾ ۪ ♡ ⊹ at one point I was really obsessed with trying to shift

ཾ ۪ ♡ ⊹ my friend could do it easily and I really started to get into the mindset of if she can do it why can’t I?

ཾ ۪ ♡ ⊹ I tried to make it easy for myself so I thought the best thing to do was shift to an alt cr where everything is basically the same as here except one thing.

˚ ७୧ ₊

— ❤︎ ◞ I chose one random thing to change and that was the Reddit app

— ❤︎ ◞ I decided that to prove to myself I could do it and that it was real I would know by looking at my phone and seeing if the apps logo / icon was different.

— ❤︎ ◞ to my surprise it was. I was really shocked. I called my friend and told her but she insisted the app always looked that way and that maybe it was a glitch on my phone or an update.

— ❤︎ ◞ I didn’t choose to “shift back” or anything because I started to doubt that I had even shifted tbh. But I remember waking up one day and checking again and the app was back to normal. I shrugged it off and figured maybe it was a glitch or update. But now thinking back on it her thinking that it’s always looked like that makes sense if in that reality it has always looked like that. So maybe it was a shift !!

Im going to try this again with something else & see what happens !!

˚ ७୧ ₊

[findingkimber]

I genuinely just don’t want to be in this reality anymore

at least not right now..

my mom is so draining and I just can’t take it anymore. The longer im here the worse I feel. I just want a break from it all. This house. Her. This family. I’m just tired.

[findingkimber]

Morning everyone

—— ౨ৎ ——

I didn’t shift — but tbf I didn’t try. I was rlly tired and doing homework so I just went to sleep. My friend did shift as me again. And like guys that dr is actually crazier than I thought.. if anyone wants to hear about it I’ll share!!

But anyways , happy shifting ! ( say it with me, liking and reading this blog gets me closer to shifting ! liking and reading this blog gets me closer to shifting ! ) ♡

[findingkimber]

Small update for anyone curious —— I did not shift

When I tried it was rlly late and I was already rlly tired. I do think I got close to the void though. It felt like being enveloped in green and purple if that makes any sense at all. I tried my best to let go and focus but it didn’t rlly go as planned so I think I’m going to take a break and stop trying so hard. Progress is progress I’m still grateful for that just a little bummed I didn’t make it to my dr bc I had a rlly good feeling last night but I think my sister being up like all night in the kitchen (my room is next to it) kinda nerfed me. Sorry guys 😭

[findingkimber]

When you say you restarted your journey wdym by that?? Im asking bc id like to do the same but im VERY stuck and confused 💀

Girl don’t worry I be stuck sometimes too 😔

But basically what I mean by “restarting” my journey is just taking a break for a little and then coming back to shifting when I’m ready and feel motivated to shift. Finding small things to do that help me feel connected to my dr and normalizing it rather than putting it on a pedestal and trying every night only to get upset over “failed attempts” in short terms it’s really just me taking a breather and then picking one thing to do to connect me to my dr, whether that’s create a new one, save pins on pinterest, robotic affirming, picking a method etc. and then doing that consistently for at least 3 weeks bc that’s when you should start seeing movement.

Just take a break and come back to it with fresh eyes / a fresh mindset. realize that you have time and your dr isn’t going anywhere. Don’t try to chase shifting connect to it. Pick something you can do to hold yourself accountable for “trying”— hope this help ♡

[findingkimber]

I’m planning on shifting in a few hours when everyone in my house has gone to sleep. I kind of just wanted to ask for a bit of help / advice.

Usually when I try to shift I reach what I’m pretty sure is the void. Sometimes it’s just rlly dark and sometimes there will be a really bright white light. Almost like I’m looking directly at a light being on in my room or the sun or something. Does anyone know what I should do when that happens I haven’t rlly ever gotten past that / further than that.

[findingkimber]

So I made a dr with my friend — I asked her if she could shift there as me because I haven’t had the best luck shifting lately

She shifted there last night and told me about it this morning. She even met herself in the dr. Tbh it’s not what I expected but I’m still eager to shift there.

I’m not sure what I need to do to help me shift. Most people say you just decide one day and then it happens but it feels like I’ve been doing that for ages. Maybe my mindset isn’t helping me but it’s hard when I haven’t really seen progress.

⊹ ₊𝄞 she told me about how I look in the dr and tbh it’s a bit different than I thought. My eyes were also a different color and I’m not sure why. I’m pretty sure I have a younger brother there which is news to me since I didn’t really script any family.

⊹ ₊𝄞 when she was there (as me) she said I was picked for the maze. In this dr there’s a city in the sky and a civilization on the ground. I was on the ground. The ground looks in ruins and is very overpopulated. It’s dark and ugly and greystone with fog. People are living in tents instead of houses, there’s little to eat and drink. People are skinny and starving and dying.

The people on the ground think that the city in the sky (atherium) is where the gods reside. And you can be chosen every nine years to become a god because of what they call “the day the sky bleeds”

Every nine years people are chosen to go into the maze on the ground. The sky turns red and rains what the people on the ground think is blood. (Though she said it didn’t smell like blood) and they’re happy about it. If your child is chosen (I think they have to be 19) there’s some sort of marking that’ll burn on their skin to let them know and give them the ability to go through the maze. If they make it out of the maze alive they and their family get to go to the city in the sky to be with the gods.

It’s said that in the sky there’s no hunger, nothings bleak or dirty or broken. Basically everyone wants to go there. And few do.

She told me the maze was terrifying. It was huge and tall (more than 100ft) its stone and grass and mold and plants. And it moves while you’re inside, trying to kill you. she said she couldn’t see other people even though she knew hundreds of children went in. She said there were parts of the maze that had limbs inside of it. Heads, arms, people’s legs. Different body parts sticking out of the walls and rotting. That it was completely silent, so quiet she could hear the blood moving in her veins. That there are creatures and at one point she was chased by a worm like creature with red eyes and teeth. (Think the worm in ACOTAR from under the mountain but not as big)

She said that she (basically me) was 4th or 5th out of the maze and that only 7 people made it out including her. 4 guys and 2 other girls. Everyone else that entered and didn’t make it out died. She said when it was over the maze disappeared. She said she asked what happened to everyone else and one of the boys responded that they were all dead and that that was the point of the day, that the ground is so overpopulated and disgusting that that’s why everyone is always happy when the sky turns red. Because once a kid is chosen their family disappears with them so it leaves more resources for those still on the ground. Basically like population control.

She said that after talking the ground opened up. Like a sinkhole and a tall man came out and so did this flat floating surface, almost like a flying ferry (like boat? Or a solid magic carpet) and he told everyone to get on and took them to atherium.

She said atherium is beautiful, the sky is purple and gold. The buildings are high and beautiful and things look magical and like a dream. The people there that have been picked by a god look inhumanely beautiful and perfect. They were told they’d get more time to explore the city later but for now they needed to go to Elsbane (the school) she said when they got to the school she met herself (who she was actually supposed to be if she weren’t shifting as me) and she already goes to the school and ended up welcoming them and showing them around.

Before the man left he said to them “time is the first divine gift and the last divine lie”

One of the girls asked what happened to their families and the girl guide (K : who my friend is actually supposed to be when she shifts as herself) said that they were fine and would be taken to the city. One of the guys asked if K was a god and she laughed and said no. She said that that’s only a myth from the dusted. (What they call the people on the ground. — they call the ground “the below”) apparently they use the word dusted almost like a slur. Calling people from the ground that because they think those people are dirty and dust and that they’ll go back to dust when they die.

K said you don’t become a god, gods allow you to be one with them. They give you gifts, pieces of them if they think you’re worthy of it. They make you one like god but you’re not a god, and you have to prove you’re worthy of it.

The school is in the middle of the city even though it’s secluded and K said before they could go into the school and be sorted they had to be cleaned. She took them to a place called the hall of mirrors. Which is like a room/building with hundreds of different mirrors. As soon as she (my friend shifting as me) went in everyone else disappeared, and she was left just staring at her (my) reflection. Until the reflections start moving. They start pointing and talking to eachother, looking at her and whispering. One reflection smells her and backs away. Then they all look at eachother, then look at her and start touching and grabbing her. And it burns, it feels like her skin is melting off of her body. They start poking her and ripping her clothes, and it goes on for a really long time. When it stops she’s naked and K comes back with a robe, and says that she’s clean now and can be allowed to enter the school.

She told me a bit about the school as well but I’m kinda tired lol and this is pretty long. So I’m gonna end it here. But if anyone wants a second part to this I’ll talk about the school and continue it.

She’s shifting there as me again tonight for a little more info but I think this will be the last time she shifts as me.

I’m trying to shift there tonight as well so we’ll see what happens ♡

Thanks for reading if you read this far

[findingkimber]

⠀˚᭄̣̣̣ •̩̩͙* update || sorta ᭄̣̣̣ •̩̩͙*

So I had a dream, I don’t remember much about it other than in it I asked someone when I’d shift and they told me “when you’re ready”

Normally I’d be frustrated bc like what does that even mean??

But I wasn’t and I’m not. I wasn’t actively trying to shift when this happened and I wasn’t in some great mood either. If anything I had just had a fight with my girlfriend and was watching youtube to sleep.

What I think is interesting about this though is that before my friend shifted she also had a dream / a few dreams either about her dr or with people from her dr and she wasn’t aware of it then. She had one with someone from her dr in it (she didn’t know they were from her dr) and the person told her she wasn’t ready to shift yet. So maybe this means I’m close.

Either way I thought this was interesting so I wanted to share incase anyone else has experienced anything similar. But I’ll continue to update if anything happens <3

— 𝒦

[findingkimber]

Morning / afternoon everyone

I’ve decided I’m going to try this differently.

◟ DAY ONE !  RESTART

𖥔 🦋 . ノ instead of documenting my attempts like I was I’m just going to act as if. So everyday I’ll update and say that I have shifted . . . Even when/if I haven’t. I’ll say I have and I’ll talk about various dr’s and things that “happened” to saturate my mind with shifting and the possibility that I can do it no matter what. I’ll basically just “live in the end” until I see genuine change. I’ll likely just state things that happened here and change them to fit my drs

I suppose I’ll let you guys know how this goes.

— 𝒦

[findingkimber]

Morning everyone

—— ౨ৎ ——

◟ DAY ONE !  

𖥔 🪷 . ノ i did not shift , i had a few weird dreams , and slept a lot but that’s pretty normal. . . I wasn’t rlly expecting to shift or trying bc I was rlly tired I kind of just hoped a little and fell asleep. But yeah there’s not much to report bc not much happened.

[findingkimber]

⊹ kimber is currently online ❞ •

I’m going to try to start updating this daily, I think it’ll help give me more motivation to shift and will saturate my mind with it.

⊹ ₊𝄞 first steps in my shifting journey restart 𝄞₊ ⊹

﹙ trusting myself ❞ 000. ୧ ' ... even if no one actually reads this I still want to try documenting things and hold myself accountable. I feel like this is the best way to saturate my mind with shifting till there is no more doubt. So I’ll consider this my launching point.

˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ — 𝒦 .

[findingkimber]

I can’t stop thinking about my haunting adeline dr

All I want to do is shift there

Like it’s genuinely a problem atp… I want to be there so bad, not because I want trauma or anything like that. I just genuinely love zade..

The fact that I haven’t shifted there is pissing me off so much

[findingkimber]

This blog is still rlly new, I’ll update it when I get the chance and feel more comfortable. For now I just want to post, even if no one sees this. I was pulling tarot a while back because I felt stuck with shifting, it told me that talking to others and I guess essentially joining a community could help. So I’m trying with this. Idk maybe someone out there is feeling like me. Maybe someone can give me some tips or help or maybe i could just update with my attempts.

࣪ ˖ ୧ . ࣪ ˖ ୧ . ࣪ ˖ ୧ . ࣪ ˖ ୧ .

ʚ . I haven’t been really sure what to do when it comes to shifting. Feels like I’ve been trying for a really long time. I’ve been into it since 2020-2021 and even told my friend about it. She ended up shifting before me and has been ever since and tbh it’s a little discouraging seeing how far she’s gotten and comparing it to myself even though I know I shouldn’t.

ʚ . We have a shared dr but I haven’t gotten there yet. She goes all the time and tells me about myself there and the brother I have there and it’s nice but also makes me sad.. it feels like I’m missing out on so much.

ʚ . I don’t know what to do to get closer to shifting. Everyone says to just allow yourself to shift but idk how..