Queen in training

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Watch "Russ - Losin Control (Official Video)" on YouTube

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Watch "Dabin & Nurko - When This is Over ft. Donovan Woods" on YouTube

Some days it still hurts. Some nights I still miss him.

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One step closer

I've almost completely forgotten how it feels to be loved by him.

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Is it weird I still think about him? You would think I could move on by now.

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I write in hopes someday I will be heard, even if its not until after I'm long gone.

Ae

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It would be nice for a man to be upfront with his intentions to leave when life gets difficult.

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You haven't truly felt the cold until you fuck me over. Now you get the Ice Queen

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I miss him everyday

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Well, hello sir 😙

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#Atlas

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“The first time I saw her, everything in my head went quiet.”

— Neil Hilborn, from Our Numbered Days 

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My knees always became weak to his name.

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Another sleepless night

I lost my best friend this year. I'm still in mourning. I'm still in shock. My life is nothing like I expected or wanted.i want my best friend back. I'm tired of being angry. I'm angry with myself. Why do I push people away? normal people don't do that, people do that. But why would I believe that about myself I'm so mad at him. I miss him. I love him. Some times I tell myself I just love the idea of him. I don't think it's real, any of it. There are no long stares of adornment. No secret love notes, no brushing hands as you go by. None of it. I'm angry. And I'm hurt I hate that I fell in love with him. I always told him everything on my mind, all my stupid thoughts, random questions...I was opening up. I don't know what I did but I'm sure it was me that ruined it. I'm good at that. I got angry so I lied & said I didn't love him. I'd give anything to hear him say it to me again. I miss texting & his 7am calls. I miss believing in something that isn't real.

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I miss you #atlas

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Will I forever be nothing more than the other woman? Who can I cry to when he goes right back to his happy life as if I never existed? Noone. How much longer until I can feel something without thinking of him?