Well, this fucking sucks! TM sent me and her son a group text message about another cruise next May. I was all for it but then she started making passive aggressive comments. Her son mentioned buying the drink package (free alcohol throughout the cruise). She said she would get that this time too. And then about a minute later she sends another message saying “cause {her husband} will be coming with me.” Just two months ago she told him she wants a divorce…. because of his drinking. Later she said to both of us, “All you have to do is commit to it by booking it.” She knows about my financial situation and the bankruptcy. In fact, she is one of the people that convinced me to go through with it because she’s already been through it herself. I’ve already looked at the prices. I can’t pay it right this minute but I can start saving for it. It’s a year from now and that gives me more than enough time. And If the bankruptcy is completed by September or October that’s even better. But her comment about committing to it seems like she wants us to pay for it full right now. That’s almost $2000. I can’t do that. She knows this.
I’m frustrated and scared and worried. I don’t want to lose my bestfriend. She has also struggled with alcohol. She still drinks but has pretty much had it under control the entire time I’ve known her. I had only seen her drunk once and that was the day of her son’s memorial service. But on the cruise, there was an incident where she got really drunk and did something that was pretty much ‘wrong time, wrong place’. It wasn’t horribly wrong and there was a bit naivety to it but it was not appropriate for the time and place and she could have been really hurt if we weren’t there. I’m worried. In the morning, I’m going to, sensitively, ask her about all of this. My concern is that she is texting both of us this stuff while she is drunk.
It really does feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. Stuff happened at work today too but I’m going to create a different post for that.
