Descent into madness

Shreya, 33. In search of cats and relief from soul-crushing inadequacy. Somehow surviving an eating disorder even when I wish I weren’t.

[notaplaceofhonour]

girl unhinge ur jaw

[notaplaceofhonour]

UNCLENCH. I MEANT UNCLENCH

[theaeolianharpist]

My sister changed the batteries in every smoke detector in our house and somehow the chirping is if anything louder 😭 they probably need to be replaced (they have no dates on them so we don’t know for sure) but who has the energy for that. Certainly not us.

[theaeolianharpist]

Me when I feel full after a meal: I must have eaten too much so I am Bad.

Me when I don’t feel full after a meal: My appetite is out of control so I am Bad.

(I knowwwww that hunger and fullness are both morally neutral but UGH)

[heartattackinblackdye]

this summer i recommend shower wipes or body wipes to people who struggle with hygiene due to disability, mental or physical. yes i know it produces unnecessary waste. yes there’s the argument of “if you buy the wipes then you’ll never shower,” but chances are most people who are struggling would Not Have Showered with or without access to wipes. i know it isnt a full shower but wiping yourself down can make a big difference in how you feel!!

along these lines you can think about buying mouthwash and getting any kind of friction at all on your teeth when it’s too hard to brush fully, dry shampoo if it’ll help keep your hair less oily when washing your hair is overwhelming, etc. you deserve easier ways to care for yourself and feel clean. also remember you are not a failure for struggling with hygiene even if society tells you otherwise!

[this-is-accessibility]

This is Accessibility!

I am someone who is Autistic and two of my main lifelong sensory overwhelms are showering and brushing my teeth. These types of things have helped me so much

[cleolinda]

Peeling an orange that doesn't want to be peeled is the most thankless fucking task. What in the zoo animal enrichment.

[anglaised]

it is so annoying being so self aware about all my issues like okay what now girl

[capacity2]

Me to myself every 20 minutes

[kosmogrl]

[theaeolianharpist]

“why spoil a good day by eating more” well maybe because in order to have days with something to spoil you need to eat

[theaeolianharpist]

I made absolutely zero effort to socialize this weekend because a) Food, b) feeling dysregulated about the mismatched skill levels, and c) energy. It was probably what I could manage at the time but it does feel a little sad because a lot of the participants were friendly with each other. Oh well. Next year maybe.

[gandalfsbignaturals]

isnt it really cool how your memories can just physically attack you at random

[theaeolianharpist]

Wooo we’re going to perform one movement and I am going to attempt to hold the group together if it kills me

[theaeolianharpist]

Concert went okay and more importantly was fun. I thought I would be feeling a ton of jealousy about the other groups and what/how well they were playing and there was a bit of that but it wasn’t as bad as I expected.

[theaeolianharpist]

lol love when “on this day” shows me a food pic from a pass during 2024 treatment 🫠

[museify]

[justsomepetermemes]

[theaeolianharpist]

*lies on the floor forever*

[fairyinthetrees]

do you still think i'm hot with this giant hole in my chest

[theaeolianharpist]

The groups that are at my group’s level seem to be playing at lunch so I’m nervous we’ll look like fools at the concert later compared to the more advanced groups. Oh well.