I've been thinking for a while about whether to tell this story or not, but I think many of you might find it quite interesting 🙈
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When I was verely 19, I'd been living in a big city for over a year. I wasn't living alone, so any sexual encounters couldn't take place in my apartment. One night I agreed to meet with an older man, he would pick me up in his car after his night shift ended, so this meeting happened in the middle of the night. I'm not sure what I was thinking honest, just that I was looking to get off with someone. So, I spoke to him and said yes.
The first thing I noticed when I opened the car door was that he looked very different from the photo he'd shared with me, but despite that, I went ahead. I was very nervous, but also very horny.
He took us to the middle of a large park just outside the city. It would be almost impossible to go there these days, as it's become a notorious spot for people to do "indecent" things, and the police patrol it constantly.
Along the way, he'd made me drop my pants and started touching me. And as soon the car stopped, he was all over me.
The truth is, by the time we got there and I realized the situation I was in, I wasn't entirely comfortable with it, but I didn't know how to stop him. Despite telling him several times that I "wasn't sure," he ignored me and started groping me all over. I still remember his smell and the taste he left in my mouth. I remember staring out the window, desperate but completely motionless while he did whatever he wanted with my body. I remember him telling me he had a daughter exactly my age, and how I reminded him of her, while forcing me to suck him off, he told me all the similarities.
I did nothing, even though I didn't really want to be there, much less with him, I let him do whatever he wanted to me, let him use me.
By the time he dropped me off at my place I'd already blocked him off. The first thing I did when I got there was rinse my mouth out with vodka and take a deep shower. I felt used and dirty.
The worst part of all of this is that I look back on that day today with the same feeling of shame, but it makes me really horny. So I'm clearly sick and can confirm i'm a hopeless slut 🫣😈
Ko-fi
