Here’s my own BlackHill content:
Note: All my stories have content warnings for discussion of past trauma, mental illness, child abuse, I write about trauma and recovery.
1. Enough of You in Me (complete, Maria POV-- based off comic-canon Maria, post-Age of Ultron)
Summary: Maria Hill found purpose in her dedication to her work as an agent of SHIELD (and before that, as a Marine). Driven by an intrinsic motivation to protect lives and haunted by trauma and pain, she rose through the ranks to become Fury's deputy. Until it fell on her to destroy the organization because of the Hydra infiltration she had not foreseen.
In the year since, Maria grappled with the consequences. One night, Natasha, who has struggled since her defection to SHIELD to live with her own demons, reaches out to her, and in the relative peace after Sokovia, the two bond over a mutual and long-standing empathy as they move forward with their lives in an increasing complex world.
2. No Longer a Spy (Ongoing, Natasha POV, set post-Endgame with a strong rejection of Endgame’s canon, Endgame fix-it fic)
Summary: Thanos is defeated. The five years between his snap and Hulk’s have no longer occurred. Natasha has reunited with Maria, her girlfriend of eight, or three years. It’s like the Avengers never lost that first battle with Thanos—except not for Natasha. Natasha remembers her five years of lonely struggle, and she remembers sacrifice, loss, and the horror of imagining her loved one’s worlds without her. She remembers death.
Now spread out before her is her life, where the possibilities excite and exhaust her, where she can no longer avoid normalcy, and where Maria can no longer relate to the depth of her experiences. Then Death itself, angered by Natasha’s survival, shows up, leaving Natasha to confront the depth of her soul.
3. A Hero in Her Own Right (Incomplete but never forgotten)
Summary: A mission gone poorly forces Natasha to relive some of her most traumatic memories. The memories haunt Natasha, even after she is safely home. Despite her torment, Natasha puts herself back into the line of fire-but now, she is hallucinating, and her ability to be one of SHIELD's best agents is slipping. No longer able to do the one thing she staked her identity upon, she spirals into depression, and her entire life unravels, leaving her deeply in need of intervention from her friends.
Months later, SHIELD helps Natasha arrange a new life-working at a library in a suburb of DC. But because she finds some peace in her non-super life doesn't erase her connections to villains. It starts with a train robbery and Natasha's new superhero-crazed boss, and it sets the recovering Natasha on a journey to confront herself and her own version of the oft-asked question--what it means to be a hero.
