i know its been a while since it came out but im preeetty sure this is exactly how CATWS ended
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i know its been a while since it came out but im preeetty sure this is exactly how CATWS ended
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MCU Fandom: "Tony Stark never tells anyone about his fears".
Tony Stark: *tells everyone*
thank god Coulson is their handler because I don't think anyone else in SHIELD could deal with those idiots
could you do one where reader is the kid they forgot grew up? the avengers saved reader from hydra at a young age and since then, that’s all they’ve seen them as. they forget that what she went through wasn’t something a normal kid would go through and mentally she’s not just some small innocent kid.
Just a Kid
Avengers & Teen!Reader [A/N] Literally how is it Monday again already though? Does anyone have any fun plans coming up this week? ❤️ Thank you so much for the request my lovely anon, hope you enjoy this one 😘
Maria smiles as you climb into the passenger’s seat of her car, “Hey kid. Good day at school?”
You glare at her, putting your headphones into your ears and staring straight ahead sulkily. Maria simply smiles to herself again as she pulls away from the kerb, having not expected anything more. She’d teased Tony a few times that she’d been put on ‘babysitting duty’, but she didn’t mind picking you up really. It was one of the few areas of her job where she felt she could truly relax. Besides, your grumpiness didn’t bother her. She liked you.
Maria does the school run for you most days but if she’s not available for any reason the Avengers take turns. There isn’t one of them that you aren’t sullen with, not one of them that you seem to be closer to than the rest. Steve had been hopeful, used to having a laid-back way with teenagers but you’d ignored all his efforts to try and relate to you. Tony had tried too, hoping his more playful method would bring you out of your shell but that had been rejected too. He’d even tried to bribe you with a candy bar, and you’d simply rolled your eyes, turning your music up louder.
Maria talks steadily to you as she drives back towards the Avengers compound, assuming that your music is too loud to hear her but trying anyway just in case. You’ve been living at the compound for three months now, ever since the Avengers saved you from Hydra. Everyone else they’d rescued from that facility had been an adult, and had been rehabilitated into the community but as you were younger it was proving more difficult. None of them wanted you to go into a group home but finding a prospective family for a traumatised teenager was proving almost impossible. In the meantime, you were to remain in the Avengers custody.
“Nat fell out with Stark again, not that I blame her. He loves to wind people up, something I’m sure you’ve noticed. Sometimes he goes just a little bit too far. Anyway, he’s going out of town for a few days so hopefully everything will blow over by the time he gets back, and everyone can breathe a little easier. It’s not that people even dislike Stark, it’s just that… Well, he can be a lot sometimes. Clash of personalities.”
You glance over at her and that’s when Maria realises that you’re taking in every word, even with your headphones in. So she continues, “I try not to get involved. Stark’s annoying sure but his hearts always in the right place so what else can you ask for? I can see why it irritates Natasha though. She’s normally so unflappable but somethings been bothering her lately.”
You hesitate before offering quietly, “What do you think it is?”
Maria raises her eyebrows, surprised that you’ve asked her a question. “I don’t know,” She admits. “Maybe you could investigate for me.”
You shrug, “No one tells me anything.”
“Huh,” Maria says. “Well, how’s about we look at your homework when we get back? I could make you a snack and-”
She hears you scoff and that’s when she hears the faint music starting to come from your headphones, signalling you’ve turned it up louder to tune her out again, blocking her out just as quickly as you’d let her in. Maria sighs, tapping her fingers against the steering wheel before putting the radio on low. If you weren’t going to talk to her…
Once you’re back at the compound Maria tries to direct you to the kitchen to have a look at your homework, but you ignore her, slinking off to your bedroom and slamming the door behind you. Wanda raises her eyebrows as Maria sits down, running a hand through her hair but they all leave you to it, appreciating you might need some time to decompress after a full-on day at school.
As suspected you do appear in the kitchen at dinnertime. No matter how bad of a mood you’re in, they can count on you to appear in the kitchen at mealtimes, and they’ve been careful to serve them at the same time every day. Food can make you anxious, probably because you didn’t get much of it in Hydra and if any meal is late you start to stress. At seven o’clock on the dot the evening meal is served, and you sit down at the far end of the table, opening the book you’ve been reading and holding that in one hand whilst you use the other to carefully eat.
Clint takes a seat opposite you, nudging your foot with his, “Hey kid. Whatcha reading?” You glare at him over the top of your book before turning your gaze back to the printed words, not responding. Clint tilts his head so he can peer at the cover, “Looks good. Are you enjoying it?”
You sigh like this conversation is painful to you before nodding, keeping your gaze on the words. “I like reading,” Clint says. “Don’t always get much time to do it though between work and family.”
Slowly, you begin to lower the book, and you ask in a small, tentative voice, “What kinds of books do you like?”
“Action and Sci-Fi mostly. You can never go wrong with Jurassic Park.” He looks at your book cover again then grins, teasing, “This might be a bit ahead of you though. Wouldn’t you rather read… I don’t know, ‘The Hunger Games’ or something?”
Your guard is instantly back up, and so is your book as you fix him a fierce glare before turning back to your reading. Clint raises his eyebrows so Wanda takes a seat next to you, “Hey! Did anything fun happen at school today?”
“If you have any homework, we’d be happy to look at it with you,” Clint perseveres when you don’t reply. “Can’t honestly say we’ll be able to help with everything, but we can try. I’ve got three kids, all of them-”
“For fucks’ sake, I’m not a kid so will you please stop treating me like one?” You snap, your voice raising louder than any of them have ever heard it. Clint is about to apologise when you suddenly stand and pick up your plate before throwing it at the wall with a ferocious scream, the food splattering against the surface, the plate breaking with a loud bang.
“Wow, Y/N,” Steve says, standing up. “Calm down.”
“I’m sick of you all talking down to me all the time! It’s so annoying! I’m not an innocent little kid!” You burst into tears as you grab your book and run out of the room.
Everyone looks at each other, not sure what to do. Steve is about to offer to go after you when Wanda stands up, giving him a small smile, “I’ll go. It’s okay.”
Wanda finds you in your bedroom, a room that you hadn’t bothered to decorate. “What’s the point?” You’d snarled when Tony had suggested getting you some posters. “You’re only going to ship me off the second you can find someone to palm me off to anyway.”
Your book has been left abandoned on your desk and you’re lying on your bed, face down in your pillow as you sob. Wanda hesitates in the doorway for a moment before crossing the room and sitting tentatively on the edge of your bed. You feel the bed dip beneath her weight, but you don’t say a word which Wanda takes as a positive. She doesn’t try to touch you yet, she simply talks instead, her voice soft. “I moved here after the mess that happened with Ultron in Sokova. Did you hear about that?”
You nod, sniffling, “Yeah, they let me watch it on the news.”
“It was really hard finding my place in the Avengers,” Wanda says. “I have these amazing powers. I’m arguably the most powerful Avenger… Well, I was until Carol came along but… Well, it was difficult sometimes. I’d lived so long fending for myself. Yes, I always had my brother by my side, but I wasn’t some clueless kid. The moment I arrived here I might as well have been though, as far as everyone else was concerned. The American culture was different, I was mourning my brother, I was so homesick. People misunderstood that for weakness, and they treated me like I didn’t know what I was doing. It was really frustrating sometimes.”
“I don’t have any powers,” You mumble tearfully.
“No,” Wanda says. “But you know a thing or two about looking after yourself.”
You let out a small sob and Wanda waits patiently, not pressuring you to talk immediately. After a moment she puts a hand on your shoulder, giving it a small squeeze. You don’t push her away. Wanda sighs, “Can you try and tell me what’s bothering you?”
You swallow hard, trying to keep your voice from cracking as you speak, “Everything.”
“I see. Can you give me some examples?”
You take a deep breath, sitting up so you can face her, tears still trickling down your cheeks. “I’m not… Dumb. I know I’m only twelve. I know that technically I’m a kid but I’m also… Not.”
Wanda nods thoughtfully, “And it bothers you when we treat you like one?”
“I don’t like being called ‘kid’, it’s so patronising. And I don’t like constantly being asked about school and homework and all these… Normal things because… How am I supposed to be normal? It’s like… None of you have any idea what I went through but now I’m free, I’ve been shipped off to public school and I’m expected to just know what to do, and I don’t.”
Wanda nods again, reaching out to take your hand in hers, “Can you tell me? About your days in Hydra?” You hesitate and Wanda squeezes your hand, “Maybe you don’t know this but I actually volunteered to be part of a Hydra experiment. I had a choice and I made the wrong one. I sided with the bad guys. But you didn’t have a choice Y/N. So whatever you tell me, I won’t be judging. I’m just listening.”
You take a shaky breath and tell her, “I… They never sent me out on missions. They said I was too young; I was working up towards them but they… I had to practice. They brought people in, people that they said were enemies and I…” Your voice drops to a whisper as you admit in the quietest voice Wanda’s ever heard, “I killed them. But that’s not even the worst thing. I did so many bad things because they told me to and if I didn’t, bad things happened to me, bad things that I don’t like thinking about because they make me feel sick and like the walls are closing in on me…”
Wanda can see that for all the teams babying of you, you’ve mostly been left to fend for yourself, to navigate what had happened to you without any guidance. As if rescuing you was the end of your recovery journey, rather than the beginning. As if school, hot meals and a warm bed were all you needed. “Did anyone talk to you about therapy?”
You sniffle, “I’m not… They said I could have it but better to do it after I’ve moved.”
And when would you move? Next week, next month, next year? How long were you supposed to put your life on hold before you could start to move on from the terrible things that had happened to you? You were in limbo but expected to act like you were perfectly fine. “I’ll talk to the others,” Wanda offers. “Get them to stop calling you ‘kid’.”
You nod, quickly wiping the tears on your face with your free hand. Wanda gives you a small smile, “How is school? Have you made any friends?” You swallow hard again before shaking your head. “Is it difficult?”
“I don’t know what they’re all talking about,” You admit tearfully. “They keep making these jokes like… And I don’t get them, and they all want to talk about things I’ve never heard of and- They think I’m weird, but I just can’t… I can’t relate to them. I’m a kid who isn’t a kid anymore.”
Wanda moves across the bed to sit next to you, wrapping an arm around your shoulders. You don’t resist, leaning your head on her and letting out another sob. “I’m kind of limited on what I can do,” Wanda says. “But I’ll speak to Stark about your school too. Y/N… I know you went through a lot and you probably can’t play or relax like other kids you age but… It’s okay to still need us. It’s okay to still need some adult guidance.”
“It just makes my blood boil when I try to talk to people and I get shot down then all they talk to me about is stupid kids’ stuff. Or how they don’t let me in on their precious adult conversations when I’ve heard far worse than whatever mundane shit they’re talking about and it’s like… I can tell they’re thinking I’m just being a broody teen and that’s not fair.”
“I get it,” Wanda says. “Trust me, I get it.”
That night Wanda stays with you. At first she tries to resist the urge to tuck you into bed but you don’t seem to mind her physical comforts so she gives in, smoothing out the blankets and then lying down next to you, one arm around you as you continue to cry quietly until you fall asleep. You didn’t finish all of your dinner last night, so Wanda makes sure you have a good breakfast before setting off to school that morning.
Afterwards it’s Maria who picks you up again. This time when you slide into the passengers seat you don’t put your headphones on straight away but you glance at her, offering quietly, “Is Natasha still mad at Tony?”
Maria smiles as she begins driving, “I think so but Tony hasn’t been here to irritate her, he left late last night. He’ll be in Copenhagen for a couple of weeks.”
“That’s probably for the best.”
“Definitely,” Maria says. “Hey, I never meant… I never meant to irritate you when I went on about homework. I guess I just thought I was looking out for you.”
“I get it,” You say quietly. “And I appreciate it.”
“And I know you don’t like being called ‘kid’, Wanda told me. Not that I can blame you, I wouldn’t want to be called a baby goat either.” You can’t help but give a small laugh at that and Maria smiles, “I just wanted to say that I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay. Like I said, I appreciate it. Having someone to look out for me.” You look out the window thoughtfully. “For however long I’m with the Avengers anyway.”
“I wanted to talk to you about that actually,” Maria says, keeping her own gaze out the window in front of her. “So um… There aren’t a lot of prospective adopters out there looking for a teenager and it… Well… I like you. And I thought that we got on okay, maybe not always but- God, this is a lot of words when all I really want to ask is, what do you think about coming to live with me?”
You glance at her, surprised. Maria mistakes your hesitation and continues talking, “I know I haven’t always said the right thing and I probably will be painfully dull, moaning at you about homework and… Whatever. But I do care about you. And you can still see the Avengers whenever you want, I know that Wanda, Steve, Sam, they all care about you and… Maybe you don’t want to and if you don’t that’s fine, I won’t be offended, I just thought-”
“No, I want to,” You say quietly, your voice thick with emotion.
Maria smiles and nods, having to swallow hard herself before speaking, “Well then… That’d be great. I’ll… I’ll see what I can do. Leave it with me ki- Leave it with me. I’ll get it sorted.”
The world turns blurry behind your tears as you turn to gaze out the window again. You’re not sure what Maria knows about your time with Hydra, and whether she would still be so keen to adopt you if she knew everything that you’d done. But she’s nice. Better than nice. And if it means you can keep in touch with the other Avengers whilst still having somewhere to call home… Well, even better.
School is still hard. You can’t relate to the other kids and you’re not sure you’ll ever be able to. Too much has happened to you, and you had to grow up too fast. But maybe the Avengers could be your friends. Or… Maybe even your family.
Matching Napkins & Mixed Feelings🕊️
Natasha Romanoff x Reader
Summary: A story of a fake date with real chemistry and absolutely zero self control.
Word Count: 11k
Weddings were supposed to be happy.
Natasha Romanoff scowled at the cream-and-gold envelope like it had insulted her personally. Which, in a way, it had.
Natasha wasn’t sure what annoyed her more: the fact that everyone was going, or the fact that they were all excited about it.
The invitation had been couriered in a velvet-lined box, a typically extra touch from Tony, who had apparently gone full sentimental since his wedding to Pepper. Stark had insisted on hosting Wanda and Vision’s nuptials himself, at some sprawling manor house he owned in the Hamptons. Big enough to fit the entire SHIELD team, plus family, plus plus-ones.
That was the part Natasha kept getting stuck on.
‘You are warmly invited to join us for the weekend- rehearsal dinner Friday, ceremony Saturday, brunch Sunday. Formal attire. Plus-ones welcome!’
The words stared back at her from the heavy cardstock like a dare.
Everyone was talking about it. Clint was coming with Laura and their kids. Steve had RSVP’d “maybe” because apparently he was still awkward about parties and modern social norms. Sam had mentioned bringing a woman he’d been seeing, serious, apparently. Even Carol had raised an eyebrow and said, “Think I’ll ask Maria. She’s better at tuxes anyway.” And true to her word, the next time Natasha saw them they were planning on matching suits.
And Natasha? She had… no one. Which wasn’t tragic, just a little inconvenient. Because for all her sharp edges and hard-earned detachment, even she knew what it would look like when she showed up alone to a house full of love and champagne flutes. She didn’t need the stares or the nudges or the pity disguised as small talk.
Not to mention: if she had to listen to one more person ask. “So… who are you bringing?” She might snap.
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The next morning, she was more in her head than she liked to admit. Her boots echoed through the sleek hallways of Stark Tower, a bitter coffee gripped loosely in one hand, the other tucking her hair back absently. She hadn’t slept. Her thoughts spun circles, rehearsing excuses, brushing off questions, imagining herself at the rehearsal dinner with an empty chair beside her and a glass of vodka she didn’t want.
Which is probably why she didn’t see you coming.
You stepped out of a side hallway with a tablet in one hand, reading something intently, just as Natasha rounded the corner.
The collision was minor. The spill was not.
Splash.
Dark liquid sloshed across your blouse, splattering your chest and neck in one fast, shocking second.
“Shit-“
You froze, flinching at the sudden heat.
Natasha swore under her breath and reached instinctively for a napkin tucked into her jacket. “Damn it. I didn’t see you. I’m sorry.”
You blinked, not out of fear, just processing the impact. Your shirt was soaked and your tablet was now dripping and beeping sadly.
“Well...” You said after a pause, “I guess I’m awake now.”
Natasha looked you over quickly, assessing but not in a threat analysis way. You were younger than her, dressed in business casual with a lanyard tucked into your jacket. She didn’t recognize your face and she always recognized people in this building.
“Do you work for Stark?” She asked, brows drawing together slightly.
You nodded, still dabbing at your shirt. “Marketing. Technically Pepper’s team. I do a lot of the external communications stuff. Press kits, campaigns, corporate fluff.”
“Figured.” Natasha said. “I know every face in this tower. Yours isn’t one of them.”
You raised a brow. “I’m new. Just finished onboarding last week. I guess you really do know everyone.”
“I make a point of it.”
The way she said it wasn’t bragging, just fact. You tilted your head slightly, as if seeing her with fresh eyes. “That’s… a little intense.”
“I’m a little intense.”
You laughed, not mocking but genuinely surprised. “Good to know.”
For a second, neither of you moved.
You were standing in a puddle of cooling coffee, your blouse stained and your morning derailed. But you didn’t look angry. If anything, you looked curious like she had just disrupted your day in a way you hadn’t been expecting and maybe didn’t mind.
“I should sort this-“ You excused. “New shirt, coffee bath, and my calendar’s erased itself. Great day.”
“I can call down for dry cleaning.” Natasha offered, already pulling out her phone. “Or get someone from facilities to grab you a spare shirt from the merch room.”
You shook your head, still smiling faintly. “It’s fine. I was overdue for chaos today anyway. Seriously, I’ll be fine.”
Natasha wasn’t used to this. Casual ease. Civilians who didn’t flinch. You didn’t try to make conversation or ask for a selfie, you just were. Steady, warm, smart-mouthed. A weird comfort she hadn’t expected on a Monday.
“No, please. The dry cleaning downstairs can have it washed and dried in 30 minutes.”
“That’s impressive.”
“And needed.” Natasha eyed your blouse, the brown stain almost bleeding further across the stark-white material. “And I’ll buy you a coffee for the trouble?”
“Aslong as I don’t have to wear it this time.”
You laughed softly, trying not to fidget too much in your damp shirt and followed the redhead as she turned and led you toward the elevator. You tried not to stare at the way she moved, efficient, confident, like she was wired tighter than everyone else in the building. There was no wasted motion. No small talk, either. She held silence like armour.
“Stark really has his own laundry service in the building?” You asked after a moment of silence, trying to fill the quiet.
Natasha glanced sideways, a trace of amusement in her voice. “This building has a quantum-powered smoothie bar. Laundry’s not the weirdest part.”
“Right. Forgot I work in sci-fi now.”
She actually smirked at that.
The laundry room was pristine, tucked down a narrow hallway you were sure wasn’t on any public floor plan. Matte steel machines lined the walls, humming softly, nothing clunky or coin-operated about them.
Natasha tapped in a short code at the touchscreen console and one of the machines slid open like a bank vault.
“Drop it in.” She said, nodding toward the opening.
You hesitated, eyeing your blouse. “Right. Should probably take it off.”
Natasha, already crouched by the control panel, paused. “Yeah.”
You started to unbutton it slowly, aware of her presence, but doing your best to play it cool. The fabric peeled away sticky and cold from your skin. You folded the shirt and passed it to her, now left standing in your bra. lacy, a soft lavender and probably not entirely office-appropriate.
You could feel her glance before she looked back at the machine, slipping your shirt inside like it hadn’t just gotten a little awkward.
“Timer’s set for twenty-eight minutes.” She smiled, her voice steady. “You’ll get it back warm.”
“Great.” You said lightly. Then added: “Just one problem.”
Natasha turned. You were hugging your arms over your chest now. “I didn’t exactly plan on stripping in front of the whole of SHIELD today, so I don’t have anything else to wear.”
For a beat, she didn’t say anything.
Then without ceremony, she reached for the hem of her long-sleeve black shirt and pulled it off in one motion.
You blinked. She was already holding it out to you. “Here.”
“Are you-“
“I’ve got a sports bra on. You don’t.” Her tone was matter-of-fact.
You took the shirt, trying not to stare at her bare shoulders, the faint glint of a scar along one collarbone. Her sports bra was simple and sleek. Functional.
Natasha Romanoff was all sharp lines and quiet edges. And yet, somehow, she was handing you a piece of herself like it didn’t matter at all.
You pulled it over your head. It was loose, warm, smelled faintly like cedar and something darker like wind after a storm. It covered you down past your hips.
She looked at you, nodded once then leaned against the counter, arms folded.
“So.” You smirked, not quite sure what to do with yourself. “How many coffee related injuries do you cause per week?”
Natasha’s mouth quirked. “You’re the first.”
“Well.” You gestured at your borrowed outfit. “Glad I could make an impression.”
That pulled the smallest smile from her, a ghost of something wry and curious.
And just like that, the silence between you didn’t feel so heavy anymore.
“I still owe you a coffee.”
“Lead the way.”
Ten minutes later, you were seated across from her in the sleek Stark Tower café, far less flashy than expected, tucked into a glass alcove overlooking Midtown. It was quiet this time of day and your coffee order had come out faster than it should’ve. You suspected Natasha had something to do with that.
“You know…” You said, cupping your hands around the mug. “I expected you to be way scarier.”
Natasha leaned back slightly, one brow raised. “Disappointed?”
You tilted your head, teasing. “Not sure yet.”
She let out a low laugh, barely audible but real. “You’ve got guts.”
“And caffeine.”
“Same thing.”
There was a comfortable beat of silence as you sipped. You weren’t sure how this had happened, being here, sitting across from her but you weren’t about to question it. Not when the tension had softened into something almost easy. Almost fun.
Natasha was watching you. Not obviously, not unkindly but carefully. Like she was trying to figure out what box to put you in. You weren’t sure she’d found one yet.
“So.” She said finally. “What were you doing in that hallway anyway? Not just wandering around looking to catch flying coffee cups, right?”
You smiled. “Helping Pepper with some last-minute wedding planning.”
That earned a groan. You couldn’t tell if it was dramatic or genuine.
You grinned. “What?”
“She’s been in a spreadsheet induced spiral for three days.”
“Oh, I know. I’ve seen the color-coded seating charts.”
Natasha rolled her eyes. “Of course she color-coded.”
“She color-coded by personality type.” You added, with a smirk.
She stared at you, deadpan. “You’re joking.”
“I wish I was.”
You both laughed and for a moment it felt like you’d known her longer than thirty minutes.
“Why the face?” You asked, stirring your coffee idly. “You groaned at the word ‘wedding’ like someone was threatening you.”
She hesitated, just long enough for you to notice.
“It’s not really my thing.” She shrugged. “Big groups. Matching napkins. PDA. Plus-ones.”
You raised your brows. “Don’t like a good open bar?”
“I like vodka.” She countered. “I don’t like pity small talk from married people asking me why I’m alone.”
“Wow.” You said, deadpan. “Whoever asked you that must have a death wish.”
“They were brave. And drunk. Didn’t last long.”
You laughed, fully this time, a rich, bright sound that made her glance up again, this time without the usual walls behind her eyes.
“Well…” You said lightly. “I also hate matching napkins and PDA. I’m also being a loner this weekend and every other weekend.”
Natasha tilted her head, amused. “Are you offering to be my plus-one?”
You shrugged with a grin. “I mean, I wasn’t but I’d be happy to be of service. Besides don’t I owe you for the courageous offer of your shirt so I wouldn’t flash government officials.”
“Pretty sure I owe you.”
You sipped your coffee. “Exactly. I’m repaying a debt. Like some kind of marketing department damsel in distress.”
Natasha considered you for a long moment then set her cup down.
“…Alright.”
You blinked. “Wait. Really?”
“You basically offered.”
“Yeah but-“
“And I accepted.”
You opened your mouth. Closed it. “Wow. I didn’t think that would actually work.”
Her lips twitched. “You said it yourself, you’re free this weekend.”
You tried to look nonchalant and failed completely. “Guess I am.”
Natasha picked up her cup again. “Good. Then pack something formal. Stark weddings are never subtle.”
“Noted.”
Another beat passed. This time, the silence felt like static, charged, not quite flirty, not quite serious. You broke it with a grin.
“So… is there a dress code or expectations for being an Avenger’s fake date?”
Natasha didn’t blink. “Don’t die.”
You raised your cup in a toast. “I’ll do my best.”
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Your phone buzzed while you were packing.
Unknown Number:
Send a pic of the dress.
You blinked then stared at the text for a second too long.
Well, that wasn’t ominous.
You texted back immediately.
You:
Bold of you to assume I’d be into anonymous dress kinks.
But sure, what are you wearing?
It only took a second before a reply came through.
Unknown Number:
It’s Natasha.
Shut up.
You grinned, already halfway laughing.
You:
Ohhhh well in that case? Still no.
You’ll see it at the wedding. I like the dramatic reveal.
Three dots appeared… then vanished. Then again.
Natasha:
Why are you being weird?
You:
You asked for a picture of my outfit like a sugar daddy? What’s the protocol here?
Do I send you feet pics too?
Across the city, in her apartment, Natasha stared at her phone with the dead-eyed expression of someone questioning every decision that had led her here.
Then, finally.
Natasha:
Just tell me the colour.
You chewed your lip, fighting a smirk, then typed.
You:
Technically? It’s ‘shadowed evergreen with cool ash undertones and a satin twilight finish’
Ten seconds of silence.
Natasha:
What the hell does that mean?!
You:
It means it’s a very sexy forest🫶
Natasha:
That’s all you had to say at the beginning.
Also that’s not a colour.
You:
You asked.
Don’t get snippy just because you don’t understand fashion.
Another pause.
Natasha:
...Is it short?
You felt your heart skip once, just once then smiled as you typed back.
You:
Wouldn’t you like to know?
It’s fitted. High slit. Low back.
You’ll manage.
Natasha:
You’re enjoying this.
You:
You asked.
Natasha:
I regret it.
You:
You’ll regret it more when you see me.
Try not to let it become a problem.
Natasha:
What I regret not leaving you soaked in coffee.
You:
Two more days and you can have a do-over with champagne…
Three dots. No reply.
You pictured her somewhere in her minimalistic apartment, tossing her phone onto the couch and muttering something Russian under her breath.
It made you grin harder than you wanted to admit.
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The trees were thinning out ahead of them, tall pines giving way to the manicured gravel drive that wound toward Stark’s Hamptons estate. But the car ride still had time to stretch, twenty more minutes of shared space and too much quiet.
You shifted in your seat and glanced over at Natasha, arms on the wheel, eyes fixed on the blur outside the window. She looked like a statue someone had wrapped in black silk.
“We should probably get our story straight.” You commented, putting your phone down and turning towards her.
She blinked, just once then looked at you. “What story?”
“How we met.” You gave her a shrug and a crooked smile. “We’re supposed to be dating, remember? People are going to ask.”
Natasha made a face like she’d just remembered she agreed to something ridiculous. “Can’t we just say we matched on some app, I spilled coffee on you, which I did and kept it vague?”
“That’s your fantasy origin story?” You teased. “You spill coffee on my shirt and you’re like Better take this one to a wedding.’”
“I’ve done dumber things.”
You laughed. “Okay, fine. Let’s workshop it.”
She sighed and leaned back into the leather. “Alright. Shoot.”
You held up an imaginary notepad. “Option one: You saved my life during a corporate hostage situation. You fell for me literally, as crawled through the air vents.”
She looked at you flatly. “Pass. Also you work for Stark, I think he’d know if there was a hostage situation with his employees.”
“I work with Pepper and can say Stark doesn’t even know what time to shower unless Pepper tells him. Anyway, no problem.” You grin. “Option two. We were seated next to each other on a red-eye. You stole my pretzels. We fought. Then we made out somewhere over Nebraska.”
Her expression didn’t change but her lip twitched. “That one’s better.”
“Thought so.”
“But I don’t take red eyes. I have a quinjet.”
“Ok, show off.”
“What else have you got?”
“The boring kind. Meet cute in the supermarket? Friend of a friend set us up on a blind date? I stalked you like a weirdo fan.”
“The last one!”
“Of course you’d say that.”
“It’s realistic.”
“Not quite, I’m more of a Wanda fan.”
“She’s getting married, tough.”
“Only because she hasn’t met me yet.”
“You’re so-“
“I know.” Natasha went quiet, not in anger but admiration, she’d met her match.
She was quiet for a moment, then said. “So what’s your real type? Since we’re lying to each other.”
You looked out the window. “Hopeless romantic. The usual.”
“Fairy tales. Flowers. Making eye contact during sex?”
“Exactly.”
She snorted. “You don’t strike me as the hearts and roses type.”
You smiled, a little softer now. “I don’t believe in love. I just like pretending it’s real.”
That made her glance at you again, properly this time.
You added. “It’s like horoscopes. Bullshit but comforting.”
She didn’t answer right away.
Then: “I hate love.”
You arched an eyebrow. “Hate’s a strong word.”
“So’s ‘forever.’”
“Touché.”
“I like what love pretends to be.” She shrugged. “But love itself? Messy. Manipulative. Weak.”
You didn’t push. Just nodded. “So what do you believe in?”
Natasha stared out the window again.
“Control.” She deadpanned. “Chemistry. Sex.”
“Ah.” You said, biting back a grin. “The holy trinity.”
She finally smiled, crooked, deliberate. “At least I’m honest about it.”
You shrugged, settling into your seat. “Alright then. New origin story? We met at a bar. You said something cold. I said something stupid. Then we slept together. And just… kept doing it.”
“That…” Natasha said, eyes still forward, “…is the most believable thing you’ve said all day.”
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The car pulled up to the Stark estate, all towering stone archways and elegant glass, an estate that looked like it had been custom-built to host emotionally complicated billionaires and superhero weddings.
Natasha stepped out first, looking entirely unbothered. She wore a smart-casual line shirt tucked neatly into lightweight black dress pants, sleeves pushed just enough to show her forearms. Her sunglasses sat low on her nose, her expression unreadable.
Effortless. Controlled. Of course she looked good.
You followed her out of the car, brushing your palms over the fabric of your summer dress, a soft floral number, simple and light. It was the least daring of the dresses you’d packed for the weekend. You weren’t easing into things. You were pacing yourself.
Her eyes flicked over you, unreadable.But her fingers brushed your lower back as you stepped up beside her.
Instinct? Acting? You weren’t sure. Neither was she.
Inside, the front room was alive with voices, laughter, clinking glass and the full roster of Avengers in various states of casual travel attire. Sam, Carol, Maria, Clint, Tony, Steve and Bucky, all circling round the reception.
All eyes went to you and Natasha the moment the door closed behind you.
“Romanoff brought a date.” Sam said, mock-scandalised.
Carol blinked. “Wait, seriously? You weren’t kidding?”
Maria nudged her. “Let her get a drink first, damn!"
Natasha just raised an eyebrow like this was nothing new.
You smiled, stepped closer, and casually slid your hand into hers. She didn’t flinch or pull away. Just laced her fingers with yours like she’d done it a thousand times.
Pepper spotted you across the room and froze. “Wait- What?!”
You grinned. “Hi, boss.”
“I- I- How did I not know about this?”
Natasha answered smoothly. “We’re very discreet.”
“I work with both of you.”
“Exactly.” Natasha added, stepping in close to your side, her hand still warm in yours. “She only visits me after hours.”
“Please stop.” Pepper muttered.
“We met after work.” You explained. “At a bar… we didn’t know at first. A few drinks and Natasha was all charming but just so so broody-“
“Then we slept together.” She finished flatly, cutting you off.
Sam snorted into his drink. “Okay. I like this story. Let’s go back, don’t spare any details.”
“We’ve been inseparable ever since.” You smile, cuddling up against her side like it was second nature.
Natasha’s arm instinctively wrapped around your waist.
She gave you a sideways glance, low and amused. “That’s funny. Because someone didn’t text me back for three days.”
“I was playing hard to get.” You said, nudging her. “You liked it.”
“You were ghosting me.”
“I was thinking!” You turned to Pepper. “She’s so clingy.”
“I left for a mission.” Natasha said, deadpan.
“Exactly. Clingy and mysterious.”
“Please. You begged me to take you home.”
“Well maybe because your flirting was so bad, someone had to do something about it!”
“Maybe if you weren’t so unemotionally available to talk to!”
“I was not!”
“No, she’s right. She wasn’t…” Natasha’s hand slid a little lower on your back. “She cried after sex.”
“I did not-“
Maria burst out laughing. Sam actually gasped. Pepper covered her mouth.
You gasped, indignant. “You said I was the best you ever had!”
“I say that to everyone.”
You slapped her arm lightly but enough to earn a subtle smirk in return.
“Can we get our keys before I commit a public murder?” You asked sweetly.
Pepper, still recovering, handed over a sleek black envelope. “Second floor. Shared suite. Far end of the east wing.”
“I hope the bed’s big, we need a big enough one to fit her ego.” Natasha said, locking eyes with you.
You didn’t blink. “So do I, you snore like a pig.”
Natasha just smiled. “You’ll be too busy crying after sex again to notice.”
The whole room groaned.
As you tugged Natasha toward the stairs, hand still in hers, you leaned in and whispered. “Bet you’re not used to being out-charmed in your own games.”
Natasha just squeezed your hand and muttered under her breath, low and amused. “Game’s still on.”
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The suite was exactly what you’d expect from a Stark estate, bigger than most apartments, with sleek wood floors, modern furniture and a full glass wall that overlooked the trees outside. One kingsized bed sat against the far wall, all clean lines and crisp sheets, like every other part of the estate, nothing out of place.
Natasha walked in first, tossing her jacket on a chair, already scanning the place like she was expecting it to self destruct.
You followed behind her and dropped your bag on the bed closest to the window.
“So.” You said, eyeing the space. “Do you want the side near the door so you can make a quick escape or shall I take that one and make things interesting?”
She glanced at you with that unreadable look. “You were projecting down there, you're the one who snores. I can tell.”
“Wow. Judgy.”
“You talk in your sleep too.”
“Oh so now you’re just fantasising.”
She let out a short breath, maybe a laugh, maybe a sigh. Hard to tell. Then she said: “Rehearsal dinner starts in thirty. Don’t be late.”
You raised an eyebrow. “Is that your way of saying you want to match outfits or?”
But she’d already disappeared into the bathroom, and the door shut behind her with a soft click.
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You changed into one of the nicer dresses you’d brought not the showstopper, that was for the ceremony but the second-best one. Fitted, with a complicated strappy back, a deep neckline and a stunning shade of red that didn’t just draw the eye, it demanded attention and held it hostage.
You were just putting in earrings when Natasha emerged.
She’d traded the linen for something sharper. Dark, tailored, open collar. A suit jacket this time, no tie. Hair in loose waves, something nobody saw often with a few braids scattered.
She stopped when she saw you. Just for a second.
And then she said. “That’s the second least daring dress you packed?”
You smirked. “I told you I was pacing myself.”
She tilted her head, eyes dragging over the length of you. “You pace like you’re trying to kill someone slowly.”
“And you look like someone who doesn’t believe in foreplay.”
“Only with people who’ve earned it.”
You stuttered out a laugh, caught off guard but you’d never give her the pleasure of knowing that. “Let’s go, there’s a champagne glass with my name on it.”
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The rehearsal dinner was already in full swing by the time you reached the main hall, tall ceilings, string lights overhead and a long banquet table running the length of the room. Waitstaff circled with trays of champagne and hors d’oeuvres. Soft jazz floated in from a live trio in the corner.
Wanda spotted you immediately and lit up. She hugged Natasha first, quick and surprisingly warm then turned to you.
“And you must be…” Wanda’s eyes sparkled.
“Trouble.” You finished, smiling.
Wanda laughed. “I like her.”
"How are you feeling?"
"Nervous, excited. The wedding is this easy part, it's keeping up wit this spectacle Stark forced on us."
You mingled easily. More easily than Natasha expected, judging by the way her gaze kept flicking toward you from across the room.
You weren’t loud. You weren’t fake. But you were good.
Polite. Political. Smart. The kind of person who answered nosy questions with grace and just enough mischief to keep them guessing.
“I work in marketing for Stark Industries.” Natasha overheard you say once, hand resting lightly on someone’s arm. “Which means I lie for a living but only beautifully.”
You handled Clint with charm, Bruce with kindness, and Carol with so much wit that Maria had to hide her grin behind a champagne glass.
You even made Tony pause.
“Who is she?” He asked Natasha at one point, halfway through a glass of scotch. “She works for me?!”
Natasha didn’t answer, just watched you from across the room.
You caught her eye once and held it. And smiled like you knew something she didn’t.
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Wanda stood near the fireplace, her glass of wine barely touched. She watched Natasha across the room, now alone, swirling a drink slowly in her hand. The corner of her mouth twitched.
She walked over.
“I like her.” She said softly, without preamble.
“She’s good at pretending.” Natasha didn’t look up. There was no point in lying to a literal mind reader.
Wanda smiled. “That wasn’t pretend.”
“She’s charming. It’s a skill.”
“Maybe. But she wasn’t the one pretending tonight.”
Natasha glanced at her then, sharp, neutral. “You reading me now Maximoff?”
“I don’t have to.” Wanda said, swirling her wine. “You wear it like perfume."
“Wear what?”
“The way you look at her.” Wanda said, her voice velvety smooth. “Like she’s a loaded weapon you’re hoping never gets aimed at you.”
Natasha raised an eyebrow. “She’s not a threat."
Wanda tilted her head. “Exactly.”
For a moment, neither of them spoke.
Then Wanda added, low and knowing, “She wants you. And you’re trying so hard not to want her back, it’s practically screaming.”
Natasha’s jaw flexed.
“I can help you lie to everyone else.” Wanda said gently, stepping back. “But not yourself.”
And with that, she slipped away, leaving Natasha standing in the amber-lit room, silent, glass still in hand.
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The rehearsal dinner had finally wound down, the last glasses of champagne drained and someone, probably Clint, caught trying to sneak dessert into a napkin for later.
The suite was dim when you returned. You kicked off your shoes, sighing like you’d just survived a battlefield. In a way, you had.
Natasha followed you in, quiet as ever, closing the door behind her.
“So?” You asked as you started to undo the copious amount of jewellery that adorned your body. “How did I do?”
There was a pause.
“You’re terrifyingly good at this.”
You grinned, stepping towards her and turning, gesturing towards the zip. “Told you I lie beautifully.”
Her hands shook as she pulled down the zip, watching more and more skin appear, the curve of a shoulder, the dip of her spine, each inch undoing her composure like thread unraveling in slow motion.
“Done.” She croaked out, immediately clearing her throat after.
“Thanks.” You smiled, holding up the dress with your left hand, disappearing into the bathroom, hearing a sigh of relief behind you.
When you came back out, you were in an oversized tee, bare legs, no makeup and smelling of a mix of vanilla and coconut. You looked casual but soft. Natasha had already stripped down to a tank top and loose joggers, sitting on the edge of the bed, scrolling through something on her phone like she wasn’t hyper-aware of you.
You walked over and flopped down beside her.
And the second your weight hit the mattress, her eyes flicked to yours. “I can take the sofa.”
“I think we’re a little past pretending we’re that polite,” You told her, pulling your legs up and stretching out beside her. “Besides, I don’t bite.”
Her lips curled slightly. “That’s disappointing.”
You raised an eyebrow. “Didn’t say I wouldn’t if provoked.”
She didn’t look away. “Noted.”
And just like that, neither of you moved, the bed suddenly feeling too big and way too small at the same time.
You turned off the bedside light.
And in the dark, your voices felt quieter. Closer.
You rolled onto your side, your arm brushing hers. “Don’t worry. I don’t kick or snore or talk in my sleep. No matter how much you insist I do.”
“Great.”
“But I do cuddle.”
“Immediately no.”
“I can’t help it. I’m like a koala bear.”
“Yeah well I’m like a polar bear so don’t try it.”
“Yeah, yeah.” You mumbled tiredly. “Big, scary, dangerous assassin. I could do some damage too, you know?”
“Oh yes, I’m so scared of the biting, cuddle threatening koala that knows all things marketing, how will I ever escape colour coded files and manipulative email- OW.”
“I told you I bite.” You simply murmured, watching through lidded eyes as she rubbed her arm where your teeth sank.
“You are insane.”
“I must be to be here right now.”
“Go to sleep.”
“You really do have a thing about control.”
“And you really like pretending that doesn’t interest you.”
You smiled into the dark. “Just trying to understand the rules of the game.”
“There aren’t any.”
You let that hang between you for a moment, the silence heavier than it should be.
“Sweet dreams Natasha.”
She didn’t respond but she didn’t roll away, either.
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You felt her move before you heard her, the shift of weight on the mattress, the whisper of sheets, the near-silent sound of feet hitting the floor.
Natasha never really slept, not the way most people did. It was more like she paused… reset. Eyes still closed, you heard her zip something up, then the faint creak of the door opening.
Of course she would run more miles than you could count on both hands before a wedding like it was any other day.
You didn’t move. Just let the door click shut behind her and sank a little deeper into the pillow, the scent of her shampoo still clinging to the sheets beside you.
By the time she returned, you were out of bed, hair half-styled, robe cinched loosely at your waist, mascara in hand and one earring in.She stepped inside, sweat-slick and infuriatingly calm, like her pulse had never spiked.
Her eyes flicked over you, bare legs, flushed cheeks, one slipper on.
“Morning.” You grinned, like it wasn’t completely unfair how good she looked post-run.
She nodded once. “You start getting ready without me?”
“I figured you wouldn’t need help getting dressed.”
Her gaze lingered a second longer than necessary.
“You’d be surprised.”
You raised an eyebrow, a smirk tugging at your lips. “Is that a request?”
“Not yet.”
And just like that, she disappeared into the bathroom, leaving you there, smiling into your second earring like this wasn’t building toward something inevitable.
The sound of running water humming to life seconds later. You stared at yourself in the mirror, hair nearly finished, makeup done, skin still warm from the hair appliance and nerves.
Then you turned to the dress. That dress.
That deep shade of green, open back, structured yet slinky all at once. You’d worn it in theory before when you described it to her via text and she acted unimpressed.
But now it was real.
You stepped into it slowly, carefully adjusting the fabric where it hugged your hips, smoothing it over your thighs. The straps fell into place across your shoulders, fabric twisting at the bottom of your back in delicate, purposeful chaos.
The zipper was halfway up when the bathroom door opened
You didn’t turn around.
“Romanoff?” You called over your shoulder, playing it casual.
A pause, a few footsteps. She didn’t answer, not right away.
You reached behind you, fingers fumbling at the zipper.
“Can you help?”
A moment of silence followed before a few footsteps again. Slower this time.
She came up behind you, close enough that you could feel her body heat before she even touched you. You caught her reflection in the mirror, damp hair swept back, skin still flushed from the shower, eyes locked on the open expanse of skin down your spine.
Her fingers brushed the small of your back, just once. Then found the zipper.
She pulled it up slowly, carefully, dragging the fabric into place with the kind of precision that felt practiced. Mechanical. Except her touch lingered a second too long at the top, fingertips brushing your skin before dropping away.
You exhaled. “Thanks.”
Natasha’s voice came quiet behind you. “You were right.”
You blinked. “About what?”
She met your eyes in the mirror.
“That dress is a problem.”
“I could take it off if it’s going to cause problems.”
She didn’t flinch, just tilted her head, lips curving slightly. “You’ll have to behave yourself at dinner. We’re with the team.”
“Oh, I won’t.” You said, brushing past her on the way to the bathroom. “But it’ll look polite.”
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The ceremony was beautiful. Wanda glowed. Vision looked like he’d downloaded five separate wedding manuals and still managed to look overwhelmed.
You and Natasha sat close, too close in the front row. Her knee bumped yours once. You didn’t move. When the bride walked down the aisle, you leaned in just enough, your voice low, words almost too casual.
“Is it wildly inappropriate to admit I’ve been undressing the officiant with my eyes for the last ten minutes?”
Natasha choked on her breath and tried to cover it with a quiet cough.
“Unbelievable.” She muttered. “She’s at least double your age, if not triple.”
"She’s giving such divorced professor who teaches ethics but definitely doesn’t follow them energy.”
Natasha blinked. “What is wrong with you?”
You shrugged, sipping your drink. “Don’t worry. I’ve got a type. Emotionally distant women with sharp tongues and commitment issues.”
Her jaw ticked. “Charming.”
You glanced at her. “Takes one to know one.”
You’d never seen her look more alive than when she was trying not to smirk in public.
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Later, at the reception, the two of you drifted between conversations, hands brushing, fingers ghosting over the backs of chairs, subtle glances exchanged across champagne flutes. Your act was flawless. But something was cracking at the edges.
Natasha watched you laugh at something Sam said and looked away too fast.
You caught her watching and smiled like you’d caught her red-handed.
At one point, Tony stood up, scotch in hand, eyes already a little too glassy and tapped his fork against his glass like he was hosting an awards show.
“Alright, alright.” He grinned. “I’m invoking a sacred wedding tradition.”
Groans went up across the long room.
“Oh, shut up. I’m being romantic.” Tony insisted. “To celebrate love, passion, mutual tax benefits, all the lovers in the room, grab your partner and kiss ‘em.”
You and Natasha exchanged a look across your wine glasses, a perfect mix of horror and absolutely not.
Then, in unison, you both made a very quiet, very dry fake gagging sound. It was subtle. Synchronized. Discreet enough for dignity.
Until you looked up and realised everyone else was actually doing it. Lips meeting. Hands on cheeks. Some modest, some… very much not from those who had indulged in a glass of champagne too many.
You froze. Natasha went unnaturally still beside you.
And then, of course. “Don’t be shy, Romanoff!”
Sam called across the table, raising his glass with a grin. “We know it ain’t your first time.”
The whole table turned.
Carol looked way too amused. Bucky raised an eyebrow. Even Pepper was watching with the kind of polite curiosity that made it worse.
You turned slowly toward Natasha.
She didn’t say anything, just arched a single brow.
You cleared your throat, leaned in slightly. “Well…” You murmured. “…you did say we were committed to the bit.”
“I said I was committed, not an exhibitionist.” She gave you a once over, slow and unreadable. “Just keep your hands to yourself.”
“Where’s the fun in that?”
And then, with every eye on you, she leaned forward.
One hand rested on your thigh beneath the table, grounding. The other found the edge of your jaw, fingers light.
She kissed you.
Not quick. Not hesitant. Not entirely performative.
Just long enough to hush the room. Just slow enough to register.
And then she pulled back, face impassive like she hadn’t just lit your entire nervous system on fire.
“Better?” She said quietly, looking around the table.
Sam raised both eyebrows. “Well damn.”
You reached for your wine without a word, mostly to hide your smile.
Natasha’s thumb brushed your knee before she let go.
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After dinner, music picked up. Lights dimmed. Someone tried to drag Natasha to the dance floor. She muttered something about bruised toes and melted into the shadows, only to appear beside you five minutes later with two glasses of wine.
You took yours and clinked gently against hers.
“To fake love.” You said.
“To real chemistry.” She replied. You didn’t break eye contact.
And for a moment, nothing existed beyond the space between your knees brushing under the table, her gaze flicking to your mouth and that magnetic pull that had stopped being part of the performance sometime around… yesterday.
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You didn’t drag her to the dance floor. Not really.
You just walked up behind her during some slow jazz instrumental and held out a hand without looking like she’d already agreed.
Natasha gave you a flat look then sighed like it pained her and followed you out anyway.
She didn’t dance, not properly. She shifted her weight, let you twirl lazily in front of her, arms loose around your waist like she was making sure you didn’t trip. You teased her about her rhythm. She muttered something about ‘former assassins not being trained for ballroom etiquette’.
“Yeah but you’re holding me like you’ve done this before.” You said under your breath.
She didn’t deny it.
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You ended up back at the table after a few too many wedding cocktails. Natasha stretched out beside you, one ankle crossed over the other, wine glass spinning slowly between her fingers.
Bucky was mid story when you casually dropped. “Oh, Nat? She told me when we first met that she’d have left if I’d ordered a mojito.”
“She did what?” Clint asked.
“Swear to God.” You said. “It was the mint. Apparently it’s weak.”
Natasha didn’t blink. “You told the bartender you wanted a cocktail that ‘tastes like a vacation and a bad decision.’”
You nodded proudly. “And you stayed.”
“I was bored.” She drawled. “And you were wearing that backless thing. I was curious how it came off.”
Carol spit her drink.
You just raised your glass and said. “So I won.”
“I meant to ask earlier…” Sam trailed off. “How hard were the new agents coming at you? Your arm is a mess.”
Natasha frowned, looking at where Sam had pointed and saw exactly what he meant. The smirk immediately appeared, her voice teasing. “That's not from the agents."
“Oh.” The fake couple saw the realisation set in. “OH!”
“Sorry.” You shrugged, brushing your knuckles against the blossoming bruise.
“You two are something else. Remind me to thank Pepper for putting my room the hell away from yours!”
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You volunteered to get the tequila. Seemed fair since Natasha had endured dancing, your relentless one-upping and two rounds of you using her as a human shield to avoid sentimental speeches. A round of shots felt like a peace offering.
The bar was busy. You leaned against the counter, waiting for the bartender, when someone slid up beside you.
Tall. Confident. Overconfident. Drunk.
You clocked the energy before he opened his mouth.
“Don’t think I’ve seen you around before.” He sneered, eyes flicking down your dress in a way that made your skin crawl. “You here with someone?”
You gave him a polite smile. “Yeah. My girlfriend.”
“Yeah?” He grinned. “Where is she?”
You resisted the urge to roll your eyes. “Somewhere very close.”
He laughed like that meant something else entirely. “You sure she wouldn’t want to share?”
You blinked. “I’m gay.”
He leaned in a little. “That’s because you’ve never tried me…”
You opened your mouth, not entirely sure what you were going to say when a voice slid in behind you, smooth and cold.
You turned slightly, and there was Natasha. Calm, unreadable, dangerous in that effortless way she carried herself. Her arm slid around your waist, her other hand casually taking the shot tray from the bar like this was all completely ordinary.
“She’s not interested.” She said, her voice low but sharp enough to cut glass.
The guy didn’t take the hint.
He gave her a slow once over, cocky grin in full force. “What, you speak for her now?”
Natasha’s smile turned razor edged. “When you stop listening? Yeah.”
He laughed, short and loud like he thought he was still in control. “You got attitude. Bet you’re a real bitch in bed.”
You felt Natasha’s body shift beside you. The hand on your waist tightened, just slightly, not for show this time but restraint.
She stepped in, slow and deliberate, her mouth right near his ear. “I’ve killed men for less than what just came out of your mouth.”
He pulled back, startled, blinked like he’d just realized he was speaking to the Natasha Romanoff.
“Now baby…” Natasha said, her voice smooth as silk but still humming with the edge that made your heart pound. “Are you ready to go back to the table?”
You should’ve said yes. You should’ve grabbed the tray of tequila and made a joke, rolled your eyes, kept the game going like nothing happened.
But you didn’t.
Instead, you stared at her, flushed, breath tight, stomach doing somersaults and before you could second guess it, you stepped in.
And kissed her. Not for show. Not for the team. Not to out-do anyone. Just because she was so hot it physically hurt.
Because her voice in your ear, her hand on your waist, the look on her face when she threatened that man like it was just another Tuesday, it short circuited your good sense. The kiss was firm, deliberate, a little reckless. You felt her inhale sharply through her nose, like you’d surprised her and maybe you had.
But she didn’t pull away or laugh or joke or make it part of the bit.
Her hand came up, thumb brushing your cheek as her mouth moved with yours, just once. And the team lost their minds somewhere in the distance.
“Holy shit.”
“Okay, damn.”
“YES, NATASHA!”
You barely heard them. You were too busy clinging to the edge of breath.
Then she pulled back, barely, her eyes somehow darker than before.
“Now I’m ready.” You breathed, pupils blown.
“Good girl.” She murmured quietly, taking your hand in her spare one and pulling you back to the table.
And just like that, you knew you were in trouble.
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By the time the last round of drinks hit the table, you were both quieter. Not tired but full of whatever this was now. Charged. Loosened. Buzzing.
The kisses, plural now, had come and gone. One from Tony’s toast. One you initiated because she’d said baby like that.
But neither of you had really recovered.
Natasha was sitting too close, thigh pressed to yours under the table, hand resting dangerously high on your knee. Her arm wrapped around the back of your chair and her fingers running up and down the skin of your arm. At one point, you leaned in to say something and didn’t pull back. Her lips brushed your jaw like it was an accident. It wasn’t.
You fed her a lime slice with your fingers. She licked the juice off and smirked when you stared.
You said goodnight to the team, barely got the words out between half-laughs and flustered smiles.
Natasha didn’t say anything. She just stood when you did and followed. Her hand landed on your lower back like it had every right to be there.
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The hallway was quiet, carpet soft beneath your heels and her presence behind you was heat.
You were laughing about something stupid, something she said in your ear that made you snort and nearly trip out of your heels. She caught your elbow automatically, steadying you, her fingers lingering. You didn’t step away.
“Stop looking at me like that.” You said without turning, your eyes a little glassy.
“I’m not looking at you.” She replied.
You could feel her looking at you.
“You’re bad at lying when you’ve had tequila.”
“I’m bad at pretending you’re not beautiful when you laugh like that.”
You stopped walking and turned to her.
She nearly ran into you, didn’t bother stepping back. Just stared down at you with that half smile, half dare playing on her mouth.
Your voice came out a little breathless. “This isn’t part of the bit anymore, is it?”
Natasha’s gaze flicked between your eyes, her voice low. Honest.
“It hasn’t been for hours.” And then she kissed you. Not careful or playful or performative for the others.
It started soft, mouths brushing, testing but there was nothing uncertain about it. Her hand found your waist, pulled you flush and your breath hitched as you reached for her shirt like it might ground you. She broke the kiss for half a second. Just enough to breathe. Just enough to look at you.
Then her body pressed forward, backing you into the hallway wall with a clumsy, desperate kind of precision. Her mouth found yours again, messier this time, deeper and needier.
One hand slid to the side of your neck, her thumb under your jaw, holding you there like she needed the contact. The other braced flat beside your head, trapping you in like she wasn’t giving you the option to think, let alone run.
You moaned into her mouth, surprised, maybe by how badly you wanted this. Somewhere between kisses, your hand fumbled for the key card. It slipped once. She cursed softly against your lips, took it from you and shoved it into the lock like she could break it open with willpower alone.
The door swung open. She guided you inside without looking. The room was dark, quiet, unfamiliar and none of it mattered.
You kissed her again, harder now. A laugh caught in her throat as you tugged at her blazer, fingers sliding beneath the hem. She turned you, walked you backwards blindly until your knees hit the edge of the bed.
Somewhere in the dark, her voice dropped to a whisper.
“Tell me you want this.”
“I do.” Your answer was instant. “I want you.”
And then her mouth was on your throat, your hands under her shirt, her laugh low against your skin as you gasped. All heat and grip and tension finally snapping.
Fingers tangled in hair, knees shifting on sheets, hands gripping thighs. You felt her everywhere, her hands skimming under your dress before she near enough ripped it off, her mouth dragging across your collarbone, her breath at your ear like a promise and a warning all at once.
You gasped something, maybe her name, maybe just a sound and she answered with a shiver, a press of lips against your throat, a whispered “I know.”
And everything you hadn’t said, written across skin instead.
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You woke first. Kind of.
Your eyes opened slowly, sunlight spilling across the room in quiet gold. The sheets were twisted around your waist. The air smelled like hotel linen and skin. Warmth bloomed behind you, a body, close, breathing even.
Natasha.
She was still asleep or doing a very convincing impression of it. One arm slung low across your stomach, her legs tangled with yours, her nose tucked into the back of your shoulder like she’d meant to keep her distance and just… hadn’t.
You stared at the ceiling, smiling like an idiot.
When she finally stirred, a soft sound in her throat, a stretch, a slow blink, her hand flexed where it rested on your ribs.
“Morning.” You said, voice scratchy.
She didn’t answer right away. Just looked at you, heavy-lidded and sleep-mussed and hummed like you were a warm secret she hadn’t meant to keep.
Then she flopped onto her back and muttered. “You snore.”
You gasped. “I do not.”
“You do.” She said flatly. “I knew it. Cute but loud. Like a small, overconfident animal.”
You rolled over and hit her with a pillow.
She caught it mid swing, smirking.
The sheets fell to her waist. You stared for a second too long.
She noticed but did nothing about it.
“You hungry?” She asked, casual.
“Starving.”
“I saw the menu for the brunch downstairs last night. It looks incredible, we should sneak down early to get the best stuff.”
You grinned. “Why sneak? We’re practically newlyweds now.”
She snorted. “Right. Mission complete.”
You blinked.
“Huh.”
“Mission complete.” She repeated. “One more day of fake hand holding and pretend kisses and you can go back to emails and tinder.”
Just like that, it shifted. She didn’t mean it cruelly. It wasn’t harsh. Just a throwaway comment. A reminder. That it was fake. That it was supposed to end.
“Right. Of course.” You nodded, quiet. "Mission complete."
She didn’t notice the change in your voice. Or she did, and ignored it. You sat up, reaching for your robe, trying not to show the sting.
Her eyes flicked to you. Opened her mouth. Closed it.
But she didn’t say anything.
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Brunch was already in full swing when you and Natasha arrived. She should have known the team would think the same as her and beat her to the good stuff. The sun was too bright, everyone a little hungover and louder than they should’ve been. Mimosas clinked. Chairs scraped. Someone cheered when you stepped onto the terrace.
“Look who finally emerged!”
“Hey, lovebirds! Rough night?”
“Hope the hotel charged double for damage.”
You smiled, barely but just enough to be polite.
While Natasha gave them a look. “You’re all disgusting.”
Clint wiggled his eyebrows. “You’re glowing, Romanoff. I’m just saying.”
You laughed, quiet and short, and reached for a glass of juice instead of champagne. Natasha followed you to the table, sliding into the seat beside you. Her hand found your thigh under the table, thumb brushing slow circles, familiar, casual.
You stiffened. Not entirely dramatically but just enough. Then, without a word, you crossed your legs and gently dislodged her touch.
Natasha stilled. Her eyes flicked to you, studying your face like a puzzle she hadn’t realised she needed to solve.
You didn’t look at her.
You were busy stirring sugar into your coffee, listening politely to Pepper talk about the speeches later, nodding along like you hadn’t been wrapped around Natasha Romanoff eight hours ago whispering her name against her skin.
She leaned in, voice low near your ear. “You okay?”
You didn’t look up. “Fine.”
Something inside her curled. Wrong. Tight. Had she said something? Had some done something? You were happy this morning, right? Even happier last night.
This was different. You were different.
Still warm on the outside, still smiling, still engage but that spark, that electricity she’d gotten addicted to overnight? Gone. Like you’d pulled it back behind your ribs where she couldn’t reach it.
And Natasha didn’t understand why it felt like a loss.
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Natasha didn’t push it.
She let you be, all through brunch, all the way to the car. No comments, no teasing. Just silence, stretched thin between you in the back seat.
She glanced at you as the engine started. “Want to talk?” She asked, voice low.
You didn’t look up from the window. “I’m just tired.”
And true to your word, you were asleep within minutes. Head tipped against the glass, arms folded across your stomach. The kind of sleep that only happens after emotional exhaustion, not rest.
Natasha watched you for a long moment before settling back, quiet. When the road curved, she took it slower than necessary. At one point, you shivered, even in the sun. She peeled off her hoodie at a stop light and carefully laid it across your lap, tucking it under your arm so it wouldn’t fall.
No one spoke the entire ride home.
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When they pulled up to the tower, she turned in her seat and touched your shoulder gently. You stirred, eyes slow to open, still soft from sleep.
“We’re here.” She said.
You blinked, sat up, then slowly started gathering your things. No words yet. No smile.
Just quiet.
And then at the curb, you turned to her, expression calm but something unreadable behind your eyes.
“This weekend was nice. Really.” Natasha opened her mouth but you kept going. “Thanks for inviting me. And… I hope you find what you’re looking for.”
She blinked. “Wait- Can we just-“
But you were already stepping out, already walking toward the elevators with that same gentle poise that had undone her all weekend. Not angry. Not cruel. Just done.
The doors slid closed before she could follow.
Natasha sat in the car a while longer, hoodie still warm from where it had rested against your skin and didn’t move.
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It was late afternoon when Natasha found herself standing in the common room, fingers curled loosely around a mug she hadn’t touched. She hadn’t meant to linger in the tower like a lost puppy but her legs didn’t take her anywhere else.
The doors hissed open behind her, soft heels and familiar energy.
“Hey.” Wanda said, breezing in with a duffel bag over her shoulder. Her hair was braided loose, the way she always wore it when she traveled. “I’m grabbing some things before we disappear. Don’t tell Tony or he’ll throw another brunch.”
Natasha gave a faint huff. “The last thing I need is to be sat on another table with all of them again.”
Wanda paused, looked at her properly and could sense the turmoil. “You okay?”
Natasha hesitated.
Then, finally and for once, honestly. “No.”
Wanda said nothing, just walked to the kitchen, poured herself a coffee and leaned against the counter, waiting.
“Don’t you have somewhere to be?”
“I’m right where I need to be right now.”
Natasha didn’t look at her when she started. “You know I invited someone to the wedding. And I know you know it was supposed to be a fake date. But it wasn’t fake. Not really.”
Wanda tilted her head, quiet.
“There was always something there.” Natasha continued. “We kissed, more than once. We-“ She stopped, swallowed. “Saturday night, we- It wasn’t pretend anymore. But I said something this morning about the whole thing being a bit, about it being over. And she-"
Her voice cracked, just slightly. “She just… shut off. And left.”
Wanda was quiet for a moment, sipping slowly. Then, gently. “So let me get this straight. You took a girl you really like to a romantic weekend with your entire found family, made her feel wanted, kissed her like she was yours, slept with her and then reminded her it was all pretend?”
Natasha winced. “It wasn’t like that.”
Wanda raised an eyebrow. “Wasn’t it?”
“She knew the deal. We were joking about it from the start.”
“And did you tell her when it stopped being an actual joke for you?”
Silence.
Wanda softened. “Nat… that girl looked at you like you hung the moon. I saw it. Everyone saw it.”
“She brushed me off.” Natasha said, quietly. “Didn’t even want to talk about it.”
“Because she was probably humiliated.” Wanda said, still kind but honest. “She gave you more than she meant to. And she probably thought you didn’t even notice.”
Natasha’s jaw tensed. “I did.”
Wanda set her mug down. “Then maybe it’s time to tell her.”
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You weren’t supposed to see her.
That was the whole point, sneak in, drop off the hoodie, grab Pepper’s flash drive and her backup files and get the hell out. You were already late, already unraveling.
Your bag felt like it weighed thirty pounds. You’d dropped your phone directly in some stupid water feature at the office and somewhere between your apartment and the security desk, your lanyard had vanished.
“Ma’am.” The guard said, definitively. “I can’t let you in without ID.”
“I work here.” You snapped, trying to keep your voice polite. “Well not here but for Pepper Potts so I kind of do! I’ve been in and out of this building for months.”
“And today…” He said, unmoved. “…you don’t have ID.”
“I just need to go up and drop something off. I’m not trying to hack the Pentagon for god sake-"
“I need you to calm down.” He interrupted, like it was a reflex.
You bit down hard. “I am calm.”
“Ma’am.” The lead guard said, clearly already bored. “We’ve been over this. No ID, no entry.”
“I’m literally on the list-“
“There is no list.”
“I’ve been here dozens of time-“
“And today?” The younger guard cut in, smug. “You’re not cleared. So either step aside or-“
“I don’t have time to step aside! Do you not understand I’m trying to do my job?”
The younger one moved. “And so am I-“
“No, you’re being unreasonable! Just call Tony Stark.”
“We will not be bothering Mr Stark!”
“Call any of them, they know me!” You almost begged now.
"Yeah, yeah, they always do." He laughed. "Why don't you call him?"
"I can't because my phone isn't working-"
"Convenient. If you continue to harass the Avengers or any SHIELD agents, I'm gonna have to take you into custody."
"Custody? I WORK HERE!"
“Look ma’am, I need you to calm down and come with us.”
“No.” You snapped, chest tight now. “I am not being manhandled because I can’t find my damn badge when I WORK here!”
Before it could escalate further, he moved again, grabbed your arm, too hard.
You yanked back instinctively. “Get off me-“
That was it. He spun you, fast, one hand in the middle of your back, the other twisting your arm behind you. The cuffs were on before you could catch your breath. Too tight. Metal biting into skin. The hoodie you had clenched in your fingers, her hoodie, that had been dry cleaned and ironed was down crumpled on the dirty tiles.
“I said stand down!” He barked, like you were some kind of threat. “Do you know how many stupid people I deal with a day? Pretending The Avengers know them?!”
“I do know them!”
The pressure on your wrist made your knees buckle. “Yes and I know Barack Obama.”
“No, wait- You’re hurting me!” You gasped, trying to squirm free, tears springing hot and sharp at the corners of your eyes. “What the hell is wrong with you-“
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“Security breach in the Lobby, Zone A.”
Friday's voice came through the tower’s comms, flat and automatic. Most people ignored it.
But Sam, glancing at the monitor, frowned. “What now?”
He tapped into the security feed, projecting it on the flat screen that hung on the wall in the common room and just as the camera came into focus. “Wait, is that-"
Natasha was already gone.
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You were still protesting when the elevator doors opened, his voice echoing in your ear, loud enough for Natasha to hear and to almost sprint over.
“Little girls like you need putting in their place, it’s all women’s rights these days and you think you can do what you want.” He sneered, tightening the cuffs. “You just need a firm hand like me to put you in your place.”
You didn’t see her at first. You were too busy trying to breathe, wrists burning, arm throbbing from where it had been twisted up too far. Your voice had broken halfway through yelling.
And then. “What the hell do you think you’re doing?”
Everything stopped. Natasha’s voice cut across the lobby like a gunshot. The guards froze.
You turned, dazed. She was stalking toward you, red-faced, furious, lethal. She didn’t care who was watching.
“Take those off her. Now.”
The younger guard stammered. “Ma’am, she- she was uncooperative-“
“She works here. She’s cleared under Pepper Potts’ access and under mine.
He quickly worked to undo the handcuffs and it took one look at your face for Natasha to crumble. You knew you probably looked a mess, tear streaked cheeks, pouting with your arm held by your other, rubbing softly over where the pain was currently throbbing, drops of blood running down your arm from where he had inappropriately tightened the handcuffs.
Natasha was in his face now, pure venom in her voice. “She’s bleeding. She was detained over what? A lanyard and a bad attitude? You think that justifies twisting her arm? Do I look like I tolerate that kind of shit?”
No one answered.
“Did she ask for clearance?”
“She said to call you but- Ma’am- Agent Romanoff, a lot of people ask to see you. Fans and-“
“I’ve heard enough.” She silenced him, turning to you, hands already at your wrists.
Her fingers were feather-light as she ran her fingers over the marks the cuffs left, like even touching them hurt her more than you.
Your breath shuddered.
“Come on.” She said softly, eyes locked on yours now. “Let’s get you cleaned up.”
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Natasha didn’t say a word as she led you through the tower. No more guards. No apologies. Just her hand hovering close to your back, not touching but there if you needed it.
Her room was dark and quiet when she opened the door for you. Unfamiliar but predictably minimalist. The hoodie you’d meant to return was still clutched in your good hand, wrinkled and useless now.
She flicked the bathroom light on, rummaged silently through the cabinet and returned with a small kit.
“Sit.” She said, gently, nodding toward the bed.
You sat, too tired to argue, too raw to speak.
She knelt between your legs without hesitation, ignoring the squeeze in her chest. She didn’t say much, just moved with quiet purpose, opening the first aid kit, switching on a soft lamp. Her touch was gentle as she cleaned your wrists, one hand steadying you, the other dabbing antiseptic with controlled care. Almost too gentle. Like she was scared you might flinch away.
Her eyes kept flicking up to your face, trying to read you, trying to make sense of what she’d done, what she hadn’t said.
You flinched slightly when her fingers grazed a nasty spot on the inside of your wrist. “Sorry.” She murmured.
“It’s fine.”
“It’s not.”
“I had this dry cleaned and ironed but now-“ Your voice cracked as you placed the hoodie on the bed, the day weighing heavily. “Now it’s creased and he made me drop it.”
“Shhh.” She soothed. “It’s okay. It’s okay. They shouldn’t have hurt you.”
You didn’t speak, just looking down at her to finally meet her eyes.
“I hate that you got hurt.” She murmured, voice low. “I hate that it happened here, where you were supposed to be safe.”
“I’m okay.”
“That’s not the point.” And then she reached out, slow, careful and tucked a piece of hair behind your ear. Her hand lingered. Your breath caught. The look between you shifted, it was too warm, too familiar.
You didn’t know who leaned in first.
But suddenly, her mouth was on yours.
A kiss that meant too many things. And for a moment, just a moment, you self indulged and let you let it happen.
Until the weight came crashing back. You pulled away with a sharp inhale, standing too fast. “I can’t.”
“Wait-“
“I shouldn’t have come. I just- I need to go. Pepper is waiting and I-“
You turned, heading for the door but her hand caught your arm, not tight, just grounding. “Please.” Her voice was almost a beg. “Don’t go. Just… talk to me.”
You stopped. What did you have to lose anyway?
“The weekend wasn’t fake to me.”
She didn’t speak.
You turned back around, heart pounding. “I know it started out as just some fun but I didn’t pretend. I wasn’t acting. And you were- God, you were so there. And then the second it was over, it was like none of it mattered.”
Natasha opened her mouth but you kept going, hurt spilling out like a slow unraveling.
“You kissed me like you meant it. You held me like it mattered. And then you went back to pretending. You shut me out. You made me feel stupid for believing any of it meant something. And I shouldn’t be blaming you because I knew this was fake and I’m a big girl. It’s my fault if I felt something and you didn’t but I-“
Her eyes flickered. “I did.”
“What?”
“I did feel something- I do feel something.”
You hesitated. “Then why didn’t you say anything?”
“Because I didn’t know how.”
She stepped closer, carefully, like she was afraid of breaking whatever was left between you.
“You’re not stupid. You’re not overreacting. I hurt you, and I’m sorry. I should’ve said it then, I should’ve stopped pretending sooner. But it was real for me, too.”
You stared at her, trembling, still a little breathless.
“You’re not just saying it?” Your voice came out so small, it shattered Natasha’s heart just a little.
“I’ve pretended to be a lot of things but this? I never pretended to want you.”
And when she kissed you this time, it wasn’t desperate.
It was an apology and a new beginning all in one.
You let her guide you backwards, falling slow into the sheets, her mouth never leaving yours. Her hands moved with confidence now, familiar, dragging your jacket down your arms, fingers ghosting under the hem of your shirt like a promise.
You arched up into her, breath hitching when her mouth trailed along your jaw. She was just starting to slide over you fully, knee between your thighs, when-
Bzzz. Bzzz.
You groaned. “You have got to be kidding!”
Natasha reached over without looking, snatched the phone from the nightstand, glanced at the screen, and smiled. wicked, unhurried.
“It’s Pepper.”
You sat up halfway, flushed and disoriented. “Oh god- Just ignore it!"
But she’d already answered. “Potts, now’s really not a good time.”
A pause.
Then Natasha glanced at you, smile deepening as she looked you over, shirt half-off, lips kiss-bitten. She’s… extremely unavailable.”
You couldn’t hear Pepper’s reply but Natasha eye-rolled fondly. “Pepper, I will do anything you want me to do if you just give us 30 minutes-“ She smirked. “Make it an hour and then I’ll come over and help you myself.”
She hung up before Pepper could reply, tossed the phone somewhere behind her and leaned back down with a smirk.
“Now.” She murmured against your throat. “Where were we?” You laughed, breathless and buzzing.
And then you stopped thinking altogether.
Willing and Able - Natasha Romanoff x Fem!Reader
short summary: You're both assigned on a two-month-long journey, delivering information across a few United States. In a world built on survival, falling in love might be the most terrifying thing Natasha Romanoff has ever done.
word count: 9k
!!! warnings !!! : *** blood, gore, killing, swearing, guns, knives, reader has scars, apocalyptic world, mutated human beings, clickers / zombies, drinking ***
Pairings: The Last of Us x Marvel, Apocalyptic!Natasha Romanoff x Fem!Reader
(These events are based on TLOU games, but not completely necessary to know!!)
Some lore that might be helpful!
** Infected = Humans that have been infected by a Cordyceps brain infection (fungal), who mutate into aggressive creatures
** Clicker = Zombie / infected human (Stage 3. Blind, but can use echolocation)
** Firefly = A revolutionary militia group against the current government
** FEDRA = U.S. military, responds to disasters and manages emergencies
-
The first time Natasha considered you a liability, you were laughing.
You were leaning against a deserted gas station counter, shaking your head at something one of the smugglers had said before they left, like this was any normal day. Like the past few hours were already brushed off your shoulders.
Natasha could feel every muscle in her body. Tense. She had watched the door, not you. This was her usual, always the door, any exit she could find.
“Try and keep it down,” she’d said.
You glanced at her, still smiling. “Are you always this fun?”
She pressed her lips together before answering.
“I’m alive.”
Your smile didn’t fall. It should have, just like so many others did around her. People quickly learned what kind of person Natasha was.
They respected it, so they kept quiet around her.
“Good,” you said. “Me too.”
-
That was your first assignment.
Easy enough, something you and Natasha could do in your sleep. Deliver information, then get the hell out.
She’d heard about you before this, of course, she had.
The infamous rogue Firefly.
Before your boots ever even touched the coarse soil of Wyoming, everyone in Jackson had heard about you. Now, without the Fireflies to run with, the safe town of Jackson took you in with open arms.
To Natasha, it only became a problem when you’d return after months of long, grueling assignments, only given to those who could really handle themselves.
You became something to the town, stretched miles away from any real settlement, miles from anything resembling safety.
You weren’t whispered about in fear, not spoken about like a warning.
But admiration.
It was careless, the way people talked about you.
Like the world hadn’t ended, and being known didn’t get you killed.
Sure, there were some days Natasha could forget everything and submerge herself in this safe town. Maybe years ago, she didn’t have a family, a sister she looked after. Her only friends were those that she’d made in Jackson, and her days were spent getting groceries, assisting farmers, and teaching languages to young children.
She’d return to her room, forgetting that it was designed to look like everyone else’s, and she’d drift off to sleep, a small smile at the edge of her lips.
And then, in the blink of an eye, she’d be right back. 5 am.
Heavy black boots tightly squeezed the soles of her feet. Knives and guns clanged slightly in her slim backpack as she prepared the horses to be ridden. Remembering why she fought, why she dragged herself out of bed.
A new assignment, more infected to wipe out, more ground to cover, and new paths to secure.
Just like that, everything comes back.
Natasha knew better than anyone that being wanted was dangerous. She didn’t trust people like that. Didn’t trust people who let others get close enough to talk, she couldn’t afford it anymore.
-
Natasha was called for a meeting, a new assignment that would take place effective immediately.
“You’ve gotta be kidding,” Natasha had said, flat.
Maria just crossed her arms.
“She’s the best shot we have.”
“She’s loud.”
“She’s effective.”
“She’s known,” Natasha shot back. “That’s a problem for a job of this nature.”
Maria gives her a look, and silence fills the room. Natasha doesn’t realize how hard her arms are pressed into her chest, her muscles beginning to tremble from it. She forgets how many eyes of the council are on her.
“So are you.”
Natasha looks away, teeth grazing the inside of her cheek. She gives a final nod in defeat. Who did she think she was, arguing back to those who’d pulled her out of the worst situation of her life?
Voices fill the room again, discussing everything this upcoming job entailed. Usually, Natasha would be laser-focused on the council members, eyes sharp, knuckles tightening like how they would over a shiv.
But her eyes drift to the window, people clamoring over a figure sliding off a horse, and she blinks at the sight.
Being known wasn’t the same as being liked.
-
The meeting ends with a decision, never a discussion. For being as well known in this town, rather well needed, Natasha would like to think she’d have more of a say in missions she was willing to risk her life over.
Each time she didn’t, she’d have to close her eyes and remember everything they’d provided.
Routes were assigned, supplies were rationed, and they were already being packed up by able hands. Pairs were finalized.
“Romanoff. You’ll also be running point on the Oregon route. It’ll take anywhere from 40 to 60 days to complete.”
And there you were. Natasha leaves the meeting with precise movements, gathering her things quickly while lively chatter fills the room, the loud scrape of chairs against wooden floors.
You’re still outside, speaking to the same group of people that’d greeted you, but it’s a growing crowd. A stable hand had taken your horse; you were surrounded by gifts of all kinds, arms of those around you full of canteens, burlap sacs placed at your toes full of food and supplies.
The shape of your name floats back to her amongst conversations.
“… entire route was clear because of her-”
“...turned against the Fireflies-”
“Are you heading out again?”
“Looks like it,” you say, giving the old man an honest nod. Your eyes are lit up, lines covering your face from your aching smile.
“But you just got back!”
A young voice rings out from the crowd, and you kneel, your jeans hitting the gravel. You playfully poke the girl's nose, a small scrunch following. She giggles, throwing her arms around your neck.
“She’ll still have tonight. We leave early tomorrow morning.” The crowd parts slightly as Natasha’s tone carries over the voices.
The small girl detaches from your embrace, and you stand, brushing dust off your pants.
“Natasha,” you say. “It’s good to see you.”
Her blonde hair was well past her shoulders, showing you just how long it’d been since you saw her last. She gives you a quick nod as a response.
You watch as she walks over to you, the sea of bodies falling back to its original shape, with her now in the center. Her boots stop right in front of yours.
“Been a while,” you add.
“Not long enough,” Natasha replies. Her arms are folded over her chest as she looks at you. The group around you quiets at her words, and you grin.
Her feet move quickly, separating herself from the group, no longer wanting to feel their collective burning stare. Or yours, for that matter.
“I’m glad you’ve stayed the same,” your voice catches up to her, leaving the crowd without hesitation.
“Oh yeah?”
“Really. Looks like we’re paired up,” you say.
“Looks like it,” she echoes.
Natasha catches a small glimpse of you as you walk, not daring to look too long. There’s still dirt smudged on your face, and holes in your long-sleeve shirt. Mud caked over your boots. A faint split in your lower lip from your previous assignment.
She stops dead in her tracks when she feels the soft grasp of her arm in your hand. It’s warm, and it has her turning towards you.
“Do you have a problem with that?” you ask.
Natasha’s eyes narrow slightly. She could feel heat in her face, and she ignored it.
“Why would I?”
Before you can answer her, your name is called from the same group you and Natasha were just standing in. They’re saying something that she can’t hear, but she watches you, the way your attention leaves her. The way your hand drops from her arm.
She’s gone before you can get another word in.
-
3 weeks later. Eastern Idaho.
Natasha stares into the light of the fire, flames engulf the reflection in her pupils. It had been a while since she’d been on an assignment this long. But if there was anything this life had taught her, assignments were stripped down to what mattered.
Routine, survival, and silence.
Do what worked, watch each other's back, and don't get killed trying.
In the first few days, Natasha had kept her distance from you with the clearest of intentions. You could tell she didn't trust easily, and she certainly didn't trust you.
But you didn't mind. Conversations with Natasha were kept short, narrowed down to directions, timing, and risk.
The whole world was quieter out here. There were no crowds, no patrol rotations. No distant chatter from the town of Jackson to remind her that life still went on.
Infected seemed to round each corner you and Natasha turned. Twitching through the forests, stuck inside crumbled buildings, unable to do anything but wander and search for something to feast on.
There was the occasional peaceful day, where it would just be you, Natasha, and the overgrown Earth.
Tonight, there was only wind brushing through dry grass and the occasional crackle of burning wood.
And you.
Across from her, sitting on the opposite side of the fire. You’d taken your first watch yesterday, insisted on it, and it began to show in the way your blinks slowed. She didn’t protest, mostly because she wanted to see if you’d slack off.
These past few weeks, she'd kept her distance with a careful watch over you. Slowly, she was beginning to see why everyone spoke about you the way they did.
Like you were this higher being, something people looked up to.
Within these quiet forests, on trail dirt roads, among abandoned buildings surrounded by infected, you came alive.
Of course, you didn't slack off.
You were careful, calculated, and you seemed to know what to do in every situation. By the end of the first week, Natasha realized you were loud, but not in the way she'd originally thought.
You talked when it mattered least. When the road stretched long and empty, when the air felt too still. Stories that didn’t ask for anything in return. About your life, your last assignment, and details about the Fireflies.
Comments thrown into the space between you that Natasha never really answered.
She watched you observe the Earth, the way your footprints were silent in beds of grass, how you knew everything about the terrains you passed through. The way you never hesitated to aid Natasha’s side.
And slowly, somewhere between Idaho’s border and the stretch of nothing that followed, Natasha stopped questioning whether you were a liability.
-
“Three.” Your eyes are closed, brows slightly furrowed from concentration. Your ear is pressed against a wall, hand in the air as you count the amount of vocalization from the infected that surrounded this building.
“Three,” you say again, giving a final nod.
Natasha’s grip on her weapon tightens, shaking wisps of her bangs from her sight. You crouch, inching yourself closer to the ground, as if you were becoming one with the wooden panels.
You move silently through hallways, taking each opportunity to shield yourself with any other object you come into contact with. Clicks become louder the further you both venture, and you give Natasha a signal.
She nods, scanning her surroundings for a brief second before she lunges. Her arm wraps around a clicker's chest, stabbing her shiv through the side of its neck. You watch her lower it to the ground, what was once a moving, tweaking creature, lay stagnant. She then wiped the blood from the metal against the cloth wraps of her arm.
You suppress a comment of awe, giving her only a nod and a directional signal to continue forward. The floor groans under your weight, and you freeze. The click comes again, closer now, and you can tell it’s intrigued.
You manage another silent kill, stabbing your knife into the side of its fungus-clustered throat.
You signal ‘one’ to Natasha with your index finger, but when you arrive at the destination where you’d first heard the final clicker’s echolocation, there’s nothing there. Carefully, you unhook your flashlight from your belt, checking your surroundings with the beam of light.
A sharp inhale cuts through the quiet, but it’s not yours. Natasha’s head snaps up as the third clicker emerges from the doorway to your left. Closer than it should’ve been based on your calculations, faster than anticipated.
Its hands are grasping, jaw splitting open with a wet, choking sound as it lunges for Natasha. Her hand balls into a fist, gripping her shiv with built-up anticipation, but Natasha stumbles back, boot catching against uneven flooring. A raspy cry leaves her mouth in a sharp burst as she hits the wall, and the clicker follows instantly.
Her shiv is knocked out of her grasp due to the force, and her arm braces against its chest, straining to keep it back as it thrashes against her, shrieking, jerking violently, hungry.
A gunshot rings out loudly through the building.
Before Natasha can process what’s just happened, the clicker falls to the ground with a loud thud. The barrel of your revolver leaves a faint line of smoke, your hand clutching it tightly, arm straightened with experience.
“Are you okay?”
Natasha’s chest heaves with adrenaline, and it takes her a moment to gather her thoughts. Her hands rest on her thighs, bent over as she tries to catch her breath.
Your touch is on her a moment later, holding her shoulders and examining her body for any bites. “Did it get you? Natasha?”
Natasha shakes your touch off her like you possessed the infection itself.
“What the hell did you do that for?”
You're surprised, taking a step back. “What do you mean? It-”
“I know what it was doing,” Natasha spits. “Now everyone within a mile radius knows exactly where we are.”
She wasn’t wrong. The outside of the city you were trying to get through was crawling with FEDRA soldiers. The easiest way in and out was through abandoned buildings, houses, hotels, anything that wasn’t protected by soldiers, loaded with weapons.
Any infected that came your way inside could be killed stealthily, a shiv or knife to any major blood flow would do.
“I wasn’t about to stand and watch you get killed!”
Natasha looks bewildered, like it was your first day on Earth, your first time dealing with a situation like this.
“Sometimes that’s what has to happen.”
You stare at her. “You don’t mean that.”
“I do.”
“No, you don’t.”
Natasha looks you sternly in the eye, her tone laced with venom. “Our orders were stealth. No noise, no attention.”
You grab her arm when she tries to walk away, your jaw tight.
“If soldiers come, then we'll deal with it. Don’t think for a second I’d let you get bit by one of those.”
“That’s not how this works,” Natasha says, not missing a single beat.
“It is when it comes to you.”
The words slip out before you can stop them, and you nearly catch yourself after trying to think of a response to justify it. But it’s already said, and the look of surprise on Natasha’s face is unreadable.
“What the hell is that supposed to mean?” Natasha snaps, frowning. A deep twist of regret churns through your stomach, and you stumble.
“I just mean I-”
Your face burns, but you can’t finish your words.
Natasha’s gaze drops briefly to your hand on her arm, then back to your face. She doesn’t do anything to move out of your hold.
“And then what? We get shot on sight, or arrested and tortured-”
“Then we deal with it,” you repeat.
You don’t back down. Your grip on her arm tightens, and there’s an honesty that shines within your eyes. She can tell you mean it. Every word. Especially the part about not letting her die.
Silence fills the room, and your concentration falters when Natasha takes a step closer to you.
“You’re reckless,” Natasha says finally.
“And you’re alive.”
Natasha’s eyes scan your entire face, and they fall to your lips.
“I know what you’re doing, Natasha. You were waiting for me to mess up. Well, you got your moment. Now you’re angry because I might be right.”
She studies you, not missing a single detail. The scar she’d noticed before is healing. There’s dirt and sweat on your skin, and your hair clings to the edges of your jaw. You smell of the Earth, of the clothes you both’d been wearing for too long.
You’re close. Closer than you’ve ever been to her, and she doesn’t know how to feel.
She takes a small breath, looking back into your eyes, until she hears it. Them. Male voices, getting louder by the second. She can hear the heaviness of their boots and armor, shouting signals and warnings.
Her facial expression hardens, and she takes her arm out of your hold, this time gentler than the last.
“Move.”
-
The two of you are settled into the shell of what used to be a house, walls half-standing, roof barely holding. You’d raided it the best you could, as you did to all houses and buildings, taking pills or small tools. Anything that could fit easily in your backpacks.
The night air slips through cracks in the wood, carrying the distant echo of wind through broken streets. It was agony, how hot the days could be, the unbearable sun beating down on your skin, all for nightfall to have you wishing for daylight.
Natasha sits opposite you, closest to the nearest exit. Her back rests against the wall, her rifle laid neatly next to her, supplies tucked perfectly in her backpack after she’d finished counting her rations.
She watches as you clean your revolver, carefully, making sure not to miss a single spot. You’re quieter tonight, ever since the building with the clickers. You were able to get past the soldiers without trouble and hadn’t run into any more infected for the rest of the day.
But you’re different from before, from the girl in Jackson surrounded by crowds.
The woman who fired a gun without hesitation.
And Natasha found herself missing the familiarity of it more than she’d like to admit.
“You’re staring,” you murmur. “Like what you see?”
Natasha doesn’t look away, and you keep your eyes on your gun. “I’m thinking,” she says.
“Uh-oh,” you say, a small smile working its way to the edge of your lips, giving her a glance through your eyelashes. You reload your gun, setting it down after a satisfying click. “What’re you thinking about?”
“You.” Natasha shifts slightly against the wall, arms folding tightly across her chest.
“Should I be worried?”
“Probably.”
You exhale a quiet breath, turning your face away as you grin. “Tell me you did not just try to make a joke.”
Natasha presses her lips together, biting down a smile that begins to surface. Because God forbid she shows you something you knew was one of the most beautiful things you’d ever seen.
It’s small, the faintest curve at the corner of her mouth before she smooths it out like it never existed. Still, it was enough to make something warm settle low in your stomach, quiet and unexpected.
“Careful,” you say, softer now. “Keep doing that, and I might think you like me.”
Natasha smiles, for real this time. It’s bashful and bright, just like every other time you’d seen it. This time, it came from you.
It reminds you of a moment in Jackson, the night before this journey.
“Well. We wouldn’t want that,” she whispers.
The wind howls through broken glass and rotting wood, filling the shared space with freezing air once again.
“I wasn’t waiting for you to mess up,” Natasha says after a moment, timidly. Honest in a way that feels unfamiliar coming from her. Like you were getting a glimpse into this side of her that she obviously didn’t show most people.
Your brows lift slightly. “You weren’t?”
“Maybe at first. You’re just this-” Natasha’s face scrunches up, and she shakes her head, dismissing the thought completely. You don't pry. “You fired a gun in a FEDRA zone today.”
You shrug those words off instantly, as if you’re waiting for her to say something worse. Like that sentence didn’t mean anything to you. Natasha blinks, waiting for you to understand. For her words to sink in.
“That kind of thinking gets people killed.”
“I meant what I said earlier,” you tell her, voice low. “About not letting anything happen to you.”
Natasha lets your words settle before answering. “You put both of us in a more dangerous situation because of it. Directly disobeying orders.”
“I chose you,” you say instead. Natasha’s stare is so intense, you have to look away for a moment.
You realize how suggestive your words sound. Reluctantly, you add, “Same as I would anyone I’m partnered with.”
It doesn’t sound as convincing as you want it to.
“That’s the job,” Natasha says, not missing a single beat. She sounds as if she were programmed to say that, and you catch her off guard once again by laughing.
You shake your head, leaning back against the wall, arms resting over your knees. “No,” you say, eyes closing. “It’s really not.”
The rest of the night falls quiet, just like the day had been. You can see Natasha wanted to say more, her mouth opening with hesitation, but she doesn’t. Instead, she promptly decides to take first watch.
“Are you sure?”
Natasha nods, giving you a faint smile, but it doesn’t reach her eyes. You position your backpack on the ground, taking out your jacket for you to lay your head on. You know you’re tired; you have been since your last assignment, but sleep doesn’t come easily as it usually does.
The memory comes in pieces at first, as your mind drifts.
Music, low and uneven, something plucky and replayed too many times. The smell of cheap alcohol, of smoke, of people packed too close together in a space that felt safe enough. Bodies huddled in the warmth of the wooden barn doors, some dancing, some talking, everyone drinking.
Jackson. The night before you and Natasha left.
She hadn’t planned to stay long, she never did at these kinds of events. Crowds of happy people were too loud, and the townspeople were known for drinking too much on special occasions.
She’d much rather be curled up under covers with her nose in a good book, but for some reason, she’d let her friends talk her into socializing. Somehow, a bottle wound up wedged in her hands.
Light conversation was being held among them as they caught up on life, on their own kids. And for a few good moments, she forgot everything she hated about these events. About the world.
“You’re terrible at this,” Wanda says beside her, laughing.
Natasha arches a brow. “At what?”
“Relaxing.”
She huffs out something that almost resembles a laugh, shaking her head as she brings the bottle to her lips. “I’m doing just fine.”
Wanda rolls her eyes, but decides to ignore Natasha’s predictable behavior, droning on about something her two children said the other day. Natasha listens with careful intent, a light smile forming without realizing it. She lets her shoulders ease, taking more sips of her beer, hanging onto every word her friend says.
Across from the bar, you don’t catch a single word.
“-and then, they wouldn’t even let me in the building, when I literally have clearance,” the girl in front of you says, hands gesturing wildly, passionate about the subject at hand.
She’s pretty. You’d seen her around before your last assignment. You’d barely gotten to the gathering, and she’d let you know she was interested in you the minute her fingers wrapped around your arm, striking up a random conversation.
She’s leaning in just enough to make it obvious, and before, you’d been leaning in too.
But you stopped the second you heard Natasha laugh. No matter how hard you tried, your eyes kept flickering back to her. Quiet, serious, impossible Natasha Romanoff, smiling with her friends in a way you’d never seen before.
“…are you even listening?” The girl in front of you asks.
You blink, shaking your head slightly, giving her a small grin. “Yeah. I- sorry. Go on.”
The girl’s voice continues in the same light-hearted tone, the room still plays the same music, there’s loud talking, and sounds of dancing bounce off the walls in the small barn. There’s a room full of interesting people, but Natasha, in this moment, with the glow of string lights above her head and a faint blush over her face, you’d never seen anything like it.
The pretty girl in front of you laughs. It’s something sweet and inviting to your ears, and you should be paying attention, like you usually would.
But all you can focus on is her. Your gaze wanders back to Natasha, the brown beer bottle pressed against her mouth, eyes closing as she tilts her head back in more laughter.
And you watch.
-
The days blurred together in a way that only being on the road could provide. Two weeks had passed since the incident in the FEDRA zone.
Mornings greeted you both with frost or dust, depending on where you’d stopped, and nights always ended the same. A crackling fire, weapons within reach, one of you awake while the other tried to sleep.
The rhythm settled into each other’s bones before either of you acknowledged it. Pack supplies, walk on trails, scan every area, repeat. Kill whoever threatened the routine.
It was survival reduced to something mechanical. And yet, Natasha was beginning to find peace in it all.
-
The trail opens into a stretch of uneven land, tall grass brushing against your legs as you step through it. A comment is made, one of stopping, just for a little while, and you ignore the frustrated sigh you hear in response.
The wind moves softly through the field, bending the grass, sending a quiet hush over the Earth. You sink into the ground beneath you, the weeds swallowing your legs as your knees feel the cool mud below.
Natasha’s looking at you as you sit on a hill, hands feeling the long stems of grass that surround you. Your eyes close as you take in the sunlight. They open a moment later, and you find her watching.
Natasha stills, then looks away, just a second too late. She turns away from you, heat rising where it’s not welcome, desperately trying to make herself look like she’d been watching the horizon.
Anywhere else but you.
-
The body by Natasha’s side was one now accustomed, and she could picture what you were doing without having to look at you at all. Natasha learned the sound of you, the way you operated. The noise of your footsteps, the way your breathing evened out when you finally slept, the quiet hum you let past your lips as you admired the scenery around you.
She found herself listening for your voice to continue in the silence. You filled it when it felt too heavy, let it settle when it didn’t. You spoke to her like she was someone important to you, not minding when she shut down or refused to talk about her past.
It was like you didn’t even care what she thought of you.
Deep into Western Idaho, you moved through abandoned towns that still held remnants of what they used to be. Through abandoned quarantine zones, towns that didn’t get hit with the infection immediately.
Rusted swing sets creaking in empty parks, kitchens left half-set as if someone meant to return, photographs yellowed at the edges. Letters written to family members or significant others.
Natasha would pause, noticing you were not by her side anymore as you took in the sights. Your fingers would brush over something human, as if you could feel the emotions it withheld.
She could read every expression on your face.
There were close calls, like there always were. That was part of the job.
You encounter nearly every stage of infected, sometimes feeling like too many at a time. Some floors gave out without warning, and injuries followed. Patrol routes shifted and added extra time to the journey, along with unsuspected thugs who’d kill to have the information that you possessed.
You and Natasha fell into something throughout it all. Without needing to speak, you covered each other’s angles, watched each other’s blind spots, and took care of each other as if it had always been that way.
-
It came in a simpler form.
Through the eerily quiet forests or abandoned houses, Natasha would wake up and see her rations already laid out for her. Sometimes, even steaming, showing her that you’d warmed it up over the fire.
“Morning,” you smiled. “Did you sleep okay?”
Natasha would nod, reaching for her canteen of water, and stop. Forgetting that your jacket would be draped over her torso, every time.
It was heavier than hers. It smelled like smoke, worn fabric, and you. A faint lingering of soap that she could only catch sometimes. Natasha came to learn that it had four holes and three patches sewn into the sides.
She would shrug it off quietly and place it next to your backpack.
-
A narrow passage between collapsed concrete forced you closer than usual, shoulders brushing as you squeezed through. Natasha had stilled at the contact, instinctively pulling away, but there had been nowhere to go.
“Hope you’re not claustrophobic,” you joked, flashing her a smile.
Your arm slid along hers as you moved ahead, guiding her without thinking. Warm was the first thing to come to Natasha’s mind. The second your hand left her, she nearly reached for you again before catching herself.
-
Another day, another winding road. It was the same as always, but tonight, Natasha’s mind orbits back to you. It had been mid-afternoon, and you were crossing a shallow drop, the ground uneven and slick with gravel. Natasha had gone first, landing cleanly below, turning back just in time to see your footing shift.
“Shit,” you’d muttered under your breath. Your fingers wrapped around Natasha’s wrist, holding onto her as you eased your way down.
“Careful,” Natasha said, her arm tensing underneath your fingertips. Her other arm was ready to brace you if needed, her reaction immediate, watching you carefully place your boots into the ground.
“Thank you,” you said. You’d made it on the ground now, giving her a knowing smile.
Natasha was about to question your growing smirk, but she looked down at your arm, where her hand lay. It was wrapped around your bicep, tighter than your grip on her wrist.
“Oh, I- must’ve,” Natasha stumbles, moving a step backwards, taking her hand with her. Blonde hair whips over her face, covering half of her view of you. She can hear you laughing, shaking your head slightly.
“Come on, we’ve still got some daylight left.”
-
“Hold still,” you said.
The dim lighting of an abandoned school made it nearly impossible to see, and you’d grabbed your flashlight out of frustration, trying to angle it at Natasha’s forearm as best you could.
Your hand was steady as you’d torn the seal off an antiseptic wipe, now rubbing it straight over her wound. She hissed, hand covering her mouth, muffling any noises that threatened to surface.
“I know, I’m sorry,” you said gently, blowing cool air over the gash.
It happened more times than she’d like to admit. You’d spot a trickling wound, and there you were, crouching against her, cleaning it with expertise.
“You do this a lot?” Natasha asked once.
“Enough.”
She nods. You wrap her shin tightly, tucking the edges of the tattered cloth in itself, securing the new bandage.
“For everyone?”
You glanced up at her, something softer passing through your expression. Green eyes search yours, looking for truth, but they travel to your face. The scar on your lip had now healed completely. There was a slight amount of sun damage over the bridge of your nose, a little patch of dust over your eyebrow.
“No,” you said.
-
The fire had died out a while ago. All that remained were burning embers and small drifts of smoke that disappeared into thin air. Natasha had volunteered to take first watch, so you were curled in your shared sleeping bag. She didn’t have to look at you to know you weren’t asleep yet.
The chill of the forest crept through, blowing whatever smoke was left around in different directions, and making the hair on Natasha’s arm stand.
“You’ll freeze like that,” you say.
Natasha tears her eyes away from the sky.
“I’m fine.”
“Liar.”
You scoot yourself up, crossing the small space between you before she can protest. The sound of a zipper is heard, and Natasha feels you drape your jacket over her shoulders, your fingers brushing the back of her neck for a second.
“You don’t have to keep doing that,” she says quietly. Contrary to her words, she immediately puts her arms through the sleeves, hugging herself, feeling the warmth your jacket possessed.
Her chin rests lightly on her shoulder, and she can smell you all over again. Her eyes close for half a second longer than they should.
“I know,” you say. You’re tucked back into the communal sleeping bag, the palms of your hands resting on the back of your head, shifting your gaze back up to the sky. You catch a glimpse of Natasha, who’s doing the same.
There were no clouds, no smoke to prevent the view. Just black, empty, nothingness, showered with lights.
You follow her line of sight up to the night sky. “Do you know any of them?” you ask after a moment.
“Yes,” Natasha says.
“Yeah?”
She nods faintly, lifting a hand. Her arm moves slowly, like she’s not entirely sure why she’s doing this.
“That one,” she says, pointing. “See the three in a line?”
You squint up at the sky, shifting where you sit to get a better angle. You follow Natasha’s pointed finger, and you see them. Three bright stars, like they were stacked on top of each other.
“Orion’s belt. There are more stars in it, look upwards,” Natasha pauses, looking at your concentrated face in the dark. She sees the moment you realize, a small smile inching over her lips.
“Right above the belt,” you say, looking to Natasha for approval. “Two stars.”
She hums, turning her eyes back to the sky. Jackson's sky views were beautiful, thanks to its high altitude and minimal light pollution. But out here, there was not a trace of human life. She hadn’t seen so many stars like this in such a long time.
“Show me another one,” you say.
Natasha’s hand lowers slightly, but not all the way. It lingers in the air, like she’s deciding something.
“There’s another,” she says. You trail your eyes from her index finger, looking up to the sky again, but all you can depict is Orion’s belt, along with the two stars above it. You squint harder.
“Look,” she murmurs.
You tilt your head back, trying to circle the sky, but you can’t see what she wants. “That’s just… a lot of stars.”
“It isn’t,” she says. “You’re looking too far left.” Natasha sighs when she sees you tilt your head dramatically to the right. You keep your head in the same position until you hear the scrape of Natasha’s boots in the dirt beside you.
You attempt to sit up to give her space, but she shakes her head. She lies down directly next to you, the tops of your shoulders brushing as she tries to get comfortable. Natasha studies the sky for a moment, finding her place again.
Then her hand lifts.
“Not there,” she murmurs when you immediately point in the wrong direction.
You sigh. “They all look the same.”
“They don’t.”
“They do.”
Natasha laughs as your hand falls to your chest, giving up in defeat.
“You’re not even trying,” Natasha says, a slight rasp breaking her voice. You turn your head to her, seeing her smiling, her eyes wandering all over your face.
She blinks slowly, so close to you that you can hear the soft exhales of air from her nose. All you can see of her is illuminated by the full moon, bright against the paleness of her skin.
Her hair looks angelic, her green eyes darkening the longer she stares at you.
“I am,” you say. “You’re just bad at explaining.”
That earns you a look and an eyeroll. You turn your face away from Natasha, afraid of what she might think if you gave in to the thoughts running around your mind.
You look back helplessly to the sky until you feel your stomach drop. Her fingers close around your wrist.
“Here,” she says gently. She lifts your arm, guiding it upward, adjusting the angle with careful precision. Her touch is warm despite the cold; her hands are soft in a way that makes it hard to focus on anything else.
You can hear your heart in your ears, and you desperately try to see what she was pointing at.
“Follow my hand,” she murmurs. She traces your fingers along the three stars, Orion’s belt. “You see those stars?”
“Yeah,” you breathe.
“Good.” Her thumb shifts against your skin. “Now follow it down.”
She moves your arm again, slower. At first, it’s just another bunch of stars, with no distinct lines that you can see. Then, she stops. “Here,” she says.
It’s brighter than the rest. Impossible to miss once you actually see it, bigger than any of the stars you’d seen tonight.
“I see it,” you say excitedly. “That one’s different.”
“Sirius,” Natasha nods. “The brightest star in the sky,” she adds.
Your hand moves again, shifting slightly to the right, then back to Sirius, then down again. Two smaller stars directly next to it. She points your finger back to the brightest star, then further down. An entire array of more stars, all in a line, all belonging together.
“Canis Major,” Natasha says, her voice low, her breath warm against your ear. “It follows Orion,” she says, nodding back toward where she’d pointed before. “The hunter and his dog.”
You look at her. She’s still fixated on the sky, eyes moving back and forth, the light from the moon reflecting over her pupils.
“You know a lot about this,” you say.
Her grip on your wrist loosens, but doesn’t disappear completely. It lowers, slowly, into the space between you two. You feel like you can’t breathe, unable to do anything but watch her face, like it would cross a line if you dared to catch a glimpse at her fingers, sliding between yours.
Natasha takes a deep breath before answering. “My sister.”
The words sit between you, and you don’t speak right away. You offer a slight brush of your thumb over her hand. You knew Yelena. Worked with her even, long before meeting Natasha or anyone in Jackson, for that matter.
A fellow Firefly, always looking to do the right thing.
“She used to point them out,” Natasha adds after a moment, quieter. “Every time we were outside long enough.”
“Natasha, I’m so sorry…” You trail off, and she smiles, giving your hand a final squeeze before her touch leaves you. Her hand settles back against her own chest, fingers curling into the sleeve of your jacket.
“You should get some sleep,” she says.
There’s a pang of disappointment in your heart that you can’t ignore.
You shift into the comforts of your sleeping bag, nestling your chin into the fabric, eyes back on the bright sky from above. Natasha remains next to you, but she sits up so as not to drift off to sleep, creating a slight distance between the two of you.
You turn your head toward her. “Natasha?”
“Yeah?”
You hesitate, mouth opening slightly. Whatever you were about to say wouldn’t come out the way you planned. Her stare was intense, and half of you wished she would say something so you didn’t have to.
“Goodnight.”
“Goodnight,” she says softly.
-
Days later. North-Western Idaho.
“Oregon’s close,” you say, adjusting the strap of your backpack as you move along the trail.
You could tell from the lush, mountain terrain that was begging to overtake the trails of Idaho.
Natasha’s eyes study the tree line, then the road ahead.
“I know.”
A deep breath follows as you observe the new vibrant green, and you can smell it. It’s subtle at first, the way the wind carries something cooler with it, less dry than the wind back in Wyoming. There’s less dust in the ground you and Natasha follow, weeds and overgrown grass peaking through cracked mud.
“At least pretend like you’re excited, yeah?” You joke, giving Natasha a small nudge with your arm.
You continue, compasses pointed steadily, boots splashing through puddles. So far deep into Idaho’s border into Oregon, you almost don’t see the symbol. It’s not obvious, just a splatter of paint, beneath green overgrowth. Easy to miss if you didn’t know what to look out for.
Natasha notices you stop instantly, turning around.
“What is it?”
“Fireflies,” you say, quietly.
“They’re gone.”
“Most of them,” you correct.
She doesn’t question when you step off the trail, almost like she was expecting it. That doesn’t deter the twinge of annoyance that builds in her chest.
“Let’s not stay long,” she says, following you almost instantly. Her footprints align with yours, marking the Earth as the two of you walk.
The building is barely standing.
An old ranger station, maybe, what was left of them. The roof sags in the middle, windows are shattered, and the door hangs open just enough to make it clear someone’s been through here recently. Lights flicker from within, sparks flying from a few loose wires.
“She’s seen better days,” you mutter, looking up at all the graffiti. Some of the groups’ logos, others of words of cruelty and vulgarity, covering the white painted fireflies.
Natasha moves ahead of you this time, weapon drawn as her footsteps slow, eyes scanning every inch of ground. The building smells like rotted wood and sewage, telling you it’d been the kind of place that had been reused too many times.
There’s movement before either of you speaks, a shift in the shadows, and both of your weapons are drawn as soon as the figure emerges into the light.
“Easy,” it says. “Didn’t think you’d bring company.”
Natasha instantly tightens the grip on her gun, arms locking into position. It’s a shorter woman, with long tattered hair, her arms covered in tattoos. A slick smile grows on her face at the sight of Natasha so tense, but she still puts her hands in the air.
“Carol,” you say, with a slight fondness. Your gun is stored on your belt holder, and you embrace the woman, your arms wrapping tightly around her back. Carol laughs, her hands finding their way to your hair, ruffling it slightly.
Natasha lowers her pistol at the sight, something unreadable passing over her face.
Her gaze flicks to you, then back to the woman, arms still around her back as you pull away, taking in the sight of her.
“Look at you,” Carol says. “Still alive.”
“I could say the same. Don’t tell me you’re alone out here?”
The woman grins.
You talk like time hasn’t passed, like the world didn’t end between then and now. From the last time you had seen this woman, Natasha can’t decipher when.
It’s not obvious, not at first, but it’s there in the way Carol stands too close, in the way you don’t step back, in the ease of your voice when you respond to her. Natasha finds a small corner of the floor to sit down on, looking at the two of you from below.
“Didn’t think I’d ever see you out here again,” Carol says, arms crossing loosely over her chest. “You always did have a habit of disappearing.”
You shrug slightly. “You knew my reasons. I think I made that very clear.”
Natasha runs her eyes over Carol’s arms, tattoos covering every square inch- words of rebellion, symbols she doesn’t know the meaning of. A trail of fireflies that disappear underneath the strap of her tank top.
“Yeah,” Carol sighs. “Guess so.”
Natasha’s jaw tightens, watching a look pass between you. She finds anything else to focus on, the grime of the tiled floors, the water leaking from the drywall ceiling.
Her interest only peaks when you begin asking for information. It was no surprise that Carol had no issue sparing details, going over trail routes, FEDRA plans, everything the last few Fireflies knew- something about a girl with an immunity.
You’d snorted. “Yeah, right.”
Natasha knows now that the detour wasn’t wasted, but her patience begins to run thin when the conversation doesn’t end there, because Carol doesn’t let it.
“Still patching people up?” she asks suddenly, her gaze dropping briefly to Natasha, looking at the tight cloth wrapped over her forearm.
You give her a questioning look.
Carol smirks, smacking your arm playfully. “Don’t play dumb. You stitched me up back near Telluride, remember?”
Natasha’s gaze moves to your hands without thinking, as she remembers. The dim lighting of an abandoned place, your skin against hers. The careful way your fingers worked, making sure your movements were limited so as not to hurt her as much.
The way her green eyes held yours.
“For everyone?” She’d asked.
“Yeah,” you say after a second, a small laugh leaving you. Your eyes flicker back to Natasha briefly, a shine of panic through them. “I remember.”
“You always were good with that kind of thing.” You watch as Carol lifts her tank-top, exposing the long scar across the side of her hip.
“Okay,” Natasha’s voice cuts through the tension, standing to her feet suddenly. “I think we have what we need,” she says.
She takes her place next to you, crossing her arms tightly over her chest. Carol’s eyes travel to her, then back to you, something amused settling in her expression.
“Alright, I see what this is.”
“Will that be all?” Natasha asks, her voice steady. She stares down the woman, anger bubbling within her as Carol smiles, her teeth on display.
“That depends,” she says lightly. “You in a hurry?”
“Yes,” Natasha says before you can answer. You open your mouth to protest, but Natasha looks at you, eyes piercing yours, a look of sternness passing through them. Natasha’s hand finds your arm, holding it firmly.
Carol lets out a chuckle, turning into something louder as her head tilts back. It raises panic in both you and Natasha, not having made a sound that loud since the safety of Jackson. A town surrounded by thick walls, patrolled and meant to keep infected away. Out here, there still could be anyone watching. Anything.
“You always pick the intense ones,” Carol says, gesturing at Natasha. “Good to see that hasn’t changed.”
“I uh- yeah. We should go. Sorry,” you say, giving Carol an apologetic smile.
Natasha’s fingers curl around your sleeve as she takes a step towards the exit, not even acknowledging the woman anymore. Her hold was firm enough that it almost feels like she’s pulling you away. Her eyes are on you, nodding at you as you look back at her.
“Thank you, Carol. Take care of yourself, yeah?”
She smiles, nodding in acknowledgement, giving you a two-fingered salute.
“You know I will.”
Natasha doesn’t let go of your arm, guiding you the whole way outside of the building. You turn your head slightly out of her sight, a small smile forming that you keep hidden.
The lush forest eventually swallows the building behind you, your steps in sync with each other, feeling like your skin underneath her hand was on fire.
“You’re going to rip my shirt,” you murmur, carefully watching her expression.
“Then keep up.”
Seconds later, Natasha’s hand slides down your sleeve, slowing near your wrist. Her fingers find their way in between yours, feeling the roughness and warmth of your palm, hesitant for a second before settling.
Your breath catches, but Natasha doesn’t look at you. Her eyes remain forward, jaw set, but her grip tightens just enough, like she’s checking you’re still here.
And when the path narrows, when your boots hit softer Earth, when there are branches you have to raise your arms over, she doesn’t let go.
You don’t say anything about it, too afraid she might stop if you do.
-
Two days later. Western Oregon. 5 days until the rendezvous for information.
The path slopes downward as the ground softens beneath your boots. Dirt turns to mud, darker, giving slightly with each step. The air shifts with it, cooler as it brushes against your skin. The only noises that can be heard are your steps and a loud rustling from the trees above you.
You slow down, your pace faltering just enough when you hear something else, head tilting slightly as you listen.
Natasha nearly runs into you, her hand comes up on instinct, catching your arm to steady herself before her eyes snap to your face, already searching for an answer.
“What is it?” she asks. Her hand moves to the gun secured in her belt holder.
It’s faint, but you can’t ignore it, the rushing sounds, nearly blanketed by the shaking of tree leaves.
“I think… there’s water.”
“Okay- well, we don’t know what’s around it,” she says. “Could be-”
She trails off, mouth hanging open as she watches you move.
“Hey!”
“Natasha,” you call over your shoulder, a grin working its way into your voice. “Sounds like a river.”
Natasha follows you, pulling the large map from her back pocket, her fingers travelling throughout the lines of Oregon. Stopping now would mean you’d have to take another shorter route tomorrow to ensure you’d meet the group you were supposed to at the correct time.
Before Natasha can protest, you interject.
“I’ve been here before. Camped out in these exact woods for days. Not a single group of infected or people for miles out here. Not until we hit the main roads tomorrow.”
Branches brush against your arms as you push through the clearing, boots slipping slightly on moss-covered rocks. The sound grows louder, clearer, until the trees finally part.
“But-”
“We’ll get up earlier tomorrow, yes,” you cut her off, knowing exactly what she’d say. You can see the gears working in her head, and Natasha purses her lips in frustration.
It’s wide, but nothing like a massive lake with a waterfall. A crystal clear river, stretching for a few miles East, water moving steadily over smooth rocks, catching the late afternoon light in a way that almost looks unreal after weeks of dust and decay.
Small beds of wildflowers coat the edges, swaying gently in the breeze, and you feel yourself let out a sigh of pure relief.
You’re shrugging your backpack off before Natasha can say another word, dropping it near the bank.
“No,” she says, sharply. “We don't know what could’ve changed since the last time you were here. Anything-”
“I know,” you say. “That’s why you’re taking first watch.”
Natasha’s eyebrows draw together, confused. You turn to her, already pulling your jacket off, your smile softer this time.
“We take turns.”
Her eyes move over the treeline, the opposite bank, the way the water curves out of sight. Calculating the potential risk, searching for the easiest way out of this clearing and into the comforting camouflage of the forest.
“Five minutes,” you say. “That’s all I’m asking.”
That earns you a look, but you’ve already made your decision before she can respond, pulling your shirt over your head and dropping it onto your bag.
Natasha looks away immediately.
Her gaze snaps to the trees, scanning every opening, every shift of shadow. The wind moves through the leaves in uneven patterns, the water babbles in the background, and white clouds travel in the sky.
She swallows tightly at the sound of your belt unbuckling, the soft drop of your pants onto the grass.
“Fine,” she says, knowing her permission didn’t mean anything. You were already in your garments, for crying out loud. “But if I say get out, you get out. No arguments.”
You nod immediately. “Yes, ma’am.”
There’s a soft sound of your boots being kicked off before the faint splash of water as you step in. “Cold,” you mumble, a sharp inhale following as the water climbs higher. “Jesus…”
Your hands slowly trail over the surface, allowing the water to glide through your fingers, smooth and uninterrupted. You can feel the slippery rocks beneath your feet, the growth of tall grass underneath layers of mud and sand.
Natasha’s grip tightens on her rifle, adjusting her stance slightly. Her attention moves across the treeline again, scanning every square inch of the clearing. She closes one eye, using her scope to thoroughly check every possible path.
Just like you’d said, there’s nothing, but she’s not easily convinced.
She starts her method over again, eyes returning to the same patch of trees.
Then, just for a second, her gaze slips.
To you. You’re knee-deep now, water pulling at you as you move further in, the current catching against your legs. Your hands drag through the surface, pushing water up over your arms, your shoulders.
Natasha looks away immediately, back to the trees, to the tall clusters of grass. She shifts her weight on her feet, steadying her breath.
But it happens again. Her eyes wander back, and she doesn’t pull away as easily as she did before.
The water runs over your skin, carrying dirt with it in thin streams, revealing what’s underneath in pieces. You gather the cold water with your hands, pressing it into your face, the beads running down your chest, your stomach, your hips… skin that Natasha had never seen.
Her eyes trail your body, slowing on old scars, faded and pale against your skin. There are newer ones too, still rough at the edges.
Muscle built from repetition, from survival, from years of doing this over and over again.
You continue to cup the fresh water, back over your face, then over your arms, your neck, scrubbing at your skin as you try to erase the physical evidence these few weeks have left on you. Your scars stay, as well as your bruises. The river doesn’t take those.
The colors beneath your skin stand out sharper in the shifting light, reminders of every moment Natasha had been close enough to witness an injury but never close enough to stop it.
You looked real.
Different again from the woman she knew back in Jackson. Not the version crowds talk about.
Looking at you now, your eyes closing slowly, the sunlight reflecting off the river, your skin exposed to the Earth, Natasha wondered how many people had ever seen you like this.
Natasha swallows, dragging her eyes back to the treeline harder this time, forcing herself to focus. Her eyes close for a moment, the image of you flashing in her mind immediately.
Focus.
She hears something- a sound, maybe the snapping of a branch, and her eyes fly open. Her grip tightens on her gun, eyes narrowing as she scans again, sharper now, overcorrecting.
But there’s nothing, just the familiar sounds of the wind traveling through the land.
Behind her, you move deeper without hesitation, water climbing until it catches at your waist, then your chest. You dip under for a moment before breaking the surface again with a quiet gasp.
Your hair sticks to your face. Droplets fall down your shoulders, your collarbone, disappearing into the current.
When you come back up, your hair clings to your face, water dripping down your chin. You laugh quietly to yourself, pushing strands back, blinking against the warmth of the sun.
Natasha hears it. The sound of it replays it in her mind, her stomach dropping in a way she doesn’t understand.
You were her partner. It was what you’d been this entire time. Orchestrated on a mission she’d barely planned, narrowed down to following orders and making sure you both didn’t die in the process.
That’s all it was supposed to be.
Nearly two months of this. The routine and survival, the loud and quiet moments, by each other’s side for all of it.
Her eyes return to you again before she can stop them. You’re smiling, repeatedly bringing water back over your face and hair, like you're mesmerized by the feeling it gives.
Something settles in her chest, quiet and heavy.
She watches you bring cups of water to your lips, drinking the cold liquid slowly. There’s a flush over your cheeks from the temperature of the water. There’s a jagged scar over your ribs, the stretch of your skin over your thighs and shoulders, where muscle has grown.
Your body was human. And in Natasha’s eyes, the most beautiful thing she had ever seen.
The realization sits there, sharp and still, refusing to be ignored any longer.
She wants you.
All of you. Every version of you that she’d ever seen.
Natasha exhales slowly, like forcing the thought out of her mind might make it less true, waiting for herself to regret the pure thought, but it doesn’t come.
Her grip shifts on her rifle, fingers tightening, and she brings her focus back to the trees, the sky, every possible route and exit out of this place, trying to make every thought in her head not about you.
“Alright,” Natasha says, her voice steadier than she expected. “Time’s up.”
There’s a quiet splash as you move back toward the bank, water slipping off your skin in thin streams. The sound of your steps becomes clearer through the shallows until you’re directly behind her.
She doesn’t turn this time. Not even when she wants to, when she hears the soft noises of fabric rustling, of your shirt against damp skin, the sounds of your pants being re-fastened.
“You’re good,” you say quietly behind her.
Natasha nods. You step past her a second later, close enough that she feels you, the lingering cold from the water, the faint brush of your arm near hers.
Your hand wraps around her rifle, smiling gently. For a moment, she doesn’t move, can’t breathe quite right with the sight of you before her.
“I’ve got this,” you say, reminding her that it’s her turn now.
The river keeps moving behind you, steady and unchanged, as if none of it mattered. As if Natasha could just erase everything she’d just seen, the lingering feeling deep within her.
She waits a second longer than necessary, then lets go.
-
The trail had been kind to you for once.
No infected, no groups of hunters or soldiers. No sudden detours through collapsed buildings or sprinting through forests with your lungs burning. A day where you and Natasha didn’t have to take the life of any living soul. Just miles of quiet Oregon wilderness and the steady rhythm of leather boots.
The bath in the river had left something behind that neither of you could quite name. For the first time in weeks, grime, sweat, the blood of your own, and others had been washed away. The scent of smoke clung to everything now instead of sweat and rot, and you felt lighter from it all.
Refreshed in the same way towns like Jackson once made you feel.
By sunset, the forest had turned golden.
Orange light spilled through the trees in fractured beams, catching against Natasha’s hair every time she moved. The temperature had cooled down with the dipping of the sun, but the sky contrasted that. Swirls of pink and purple bled into the sky, completely taking over the white clouds from earlier.
The fire crackled loudly between you, fed with thick branches that burned hot and bright against the air.
Dinner had been simple, something that quickly grew old on this trip. Beans heated over the fire, stale bread softened in a pan, the last of the dried fruit you'd been stashing since Idaho.
But it felt good. With your stomach full, your hair finally dry, and your skin cleaned from the river, everything in this moment was perfect. The warmth of the fire brushed the side of your face, eyes stuck on the array of colors above you.
By your side, Natasha felt the same. There was a peaceful look over her, one that she hadn’t had these past few weeks.
She wasn’t relaxed entirely. You could tell in the way her weapons were still laid neatly next to her, the way she’d held onto her spoon too tightly at dinner. The way her eyes drifted toward you before snapping back like she'd been caught doing something wrong.
She was always quiet like this, but more today than she usually was. Not cold like she had been in the beginning, but thoughtful. Glancing at her now, you could see she was still thinking deeply, a small wrinkle between her eyebrows.
The light of the fire danced across her face, softening the sharpness she carried so naturally. There was still dirt beneath her fingernails from collecting branches, and a faint cut near her jaw that had mostly healed over.
You wondered if she knew how beautiful she was. The pink sky that’d stolen your attention before was nothing compared to the sight of her in this exact moment.
“Why did you leave the Fireflies?” Natasha asks suddenly.
Your eyebrows raise slightly, caught off guard. You leaned back slightly against your pack, eyes drifting toward the fire, giving a small shrug.”
“I just knew,” you say after a moment. “When I couldn’t tell the difference between them and FEDRA anymore.”
The flames cracked, a loud pop echoing off the grass and trees that surrounded you. Natasha’s expression didn’t change immediately, but you saw it settle somewhere behind her eyes. Understanding, and she gives you a slow nod.
“When you realized that, how long did it take you to leave?” The rasp in her voice softens into something barely above a whisper.
“No time at all. I just…left.”
Silence stretched comfortably after that.
The sky darkened slowly overhead, streaks of pink disappearing behind distant mountains while the fire roared brighter in the growing dark. The moon began to appear overhead, a thin crescent surrounded by stars following her lead.
You spotted Sirius on your own.
Somewhere between dinner and now, Natasha had made her way over to you, sharing coordinates and your route for tomorrow, the tattered map shaking slightly in the wind. She folds it carefully once the conversation dies again, smoothing the paper with the palm of her hand before setting it aside near her backpack.
The space between your shoulders is small enough now that you can feel her warmth every time the wind changes direction, but neither of you moves to change it.
You don’t think she notices at first. Or maybe she does, and for once, she just doesn’t pull away.
You glance at her from the corner of your eye. “You’ve been thinking all day.”
Natasha’s fingers go still over the sleeve of her jacket.
“So have you.”
“Not this hard.”
The corners of her lips tug upwards in a lazy smile, shaking her head in amusement. Her eyes drift back toward the fire, watching the rising orange spikes, the faintest bit of blue burning at the bottom. “I’m not very good at this.”
“At what?”
Natasha exhales quietly through her nose, matching the rustle of wind through the fire. You can tell she’s nervous. Her hands are back to shifting over her clothes, leaving fabric lines on her jacket.
“Feeling things I can’t control.” There’s a small waver in her voice, a look that she gives you when her eyes find yours again. Half of her face is lit by the flames, the other darkened by the shadows of the night.
Your chest tightens slightly at the confession, heart moving quicker than it had been. It sounds so unlike her, even though it’s the most honest thing you’ve heard her say. The wind covers the trees again, stirring loose strands of blonde hair across her face.
Your hand lifts, fingers catching the strand gently before it can fall into her eyes. Your contact lingers, dragging her hair back behind her ear. Your hand lingers near her cheek for a moment before you begin pulling away, suddenly aware of yourself.
You realize just how close you are, how Natasha’s eyes have dropped to your mouth.
“You were right,” Natasha says quietly.
“About what?” You whisper back, frowning.
“Back there. With the gun.”
You nod in understanding, urging her to continue. There’s hesitation in her that you can see, but you want this. Her. You want it all, everything that has to do with her, every word she says, you feel yourself clinging to.
“It’s been a long time since…” She says, jaw tightening slightly. “Since I’ve been able to think like you.”
You stay silent, eyes never leaving her.
“Care about someone like this,” she admits softly.
For a second, all you can hear is the fire and your own heartbeat. The shaky shudder that passes through Natasha’s lips. Her fingers circle the ground in the space between each other’s legs. Like she’s thinking about reaching for you.
You stare at her, trying to process the look on her face. Natasha Romanoff, terrified in a way that had nothing to do with the state of the world. Nothing about the infected, soldiers, or dying.
“What changed?” you ask.
Natasha looks away first, like the answer physically hurts to hold onto.
When she looks at you again, her face is closer than you remember. Close enough to see the faint sun exposure over her skin that was hidden beneath the firelight. Close enough to feel the warmth of her breath when she exhales.
Her eyes drift to your mouth again.
Your free hand lifts slowly, carefully, resting against the side of her neck. Natasha goes still beneath your touch, her breath catching hard enough that you feel it against your skin.
“You can stop me,” you whisper, scanning her face for any sign of regret, any passing of guilt that could form.
But it never comes.
With a slight shake of her head, Natasha leans in, capturing your lips in a searing kiss. Her mouth is all over yours, her nose pressing into your face, savoring the taste of you like she’d been denying herself for far too long.
Your hands slide to her face, dragging her closer, like your proximity from before wasn’t enough. Her lips move smoothly against yours, parting slightly, opening her mouth against you. The sounds of your shared breath make you feel dizzy, and the smell of smoke and dirt fills your nose.
You can feel the heat radiating from her face, the brushing of her skin over yours that you can’t see. Natasha kisses you like she’s been holding herself back for weeks and no longer knows how to stop. Overwhelming your senses in the quietest way possible.
Your hands cup her face fully now, thumbs brushing over warm skin as you pull her impossibly closer. Natasha lets out a soft sound against your mouth at the contact, somewhere between a breath and a sigh, and it goes straight through you.
There’s crickets chirping around you, the rustling of branches, and somewhere deep in the forest is the river you were at hours ago, but you can’t hear any of it.
To you, there’s only her. The sounds of her breathing, the fast paced beating of your heart caused by her. The urgent need to be closer, the crossing of a line both of you had been waiting for.
Natasha’s other hand finds your waist carefully, almost hesitant at first, like she still can’t fully believe she’s allowed to touch you like this. But the second you lean further into her, kissing her deeper, that hesitation breaks apart completely.
She’s leaning into you more than before and you fall with her, head hitting the soft bed of grass beneath your back. Above you now, her hands hit the ground around your body, kissing you desperately.
You feel it everywhere.
The weeks of restraint, the touches between you that’d lingered. Catching her stolen glances, the sleepless nights beside each other. Everything you’d learned about each other since being on the road.
It all crashes together at once.
Your forehead bumps lightly against hers when you pull back for air, but Natasha follows immediately, unwilling to let the distance settle back between you. Her lips brush yours again, softer this time, memorizing the feeling.
Your eyes flutter open, and you stare at her.
The firelight flickers across her face, catching on parted lips swollen pink from kissing you, green eyes darkened beneath half-moon eyelids. There’s still disbelief there, buried underneath her need for closeness.
Your thumb drags along her jaw, and Natasha’s eyes close for half a second at the touch. You trace her lower lip, your calloused hand brushing against soft skin.
“I kept waiting,” she says. “For you to prove me right.”
You smile. “Did I?”
“No,” she murmurs, pausing a moment, choosing her next words. “I think you ruined me.”
The grin that spreads across your face makes something soften in Natasha’s eyes, copying your smile without realizing it. She shakes her head faintly, looking at you like she doesn’t know what to do with how badly she wants you.
She kisses you.
Her hand slides from your waist to the back of your neck, fingers threading into your hair as she falls closer to the ground, her chest against yours now.
Outside the firelight, the forest stays still, everything the same, just as you’d seen it at sunset.
You knew that wouldn’t be the case forever, even for tomorrow.
But right now, with Natasha’s hand tangled in your hair and her smile brushing against your lips, nothing else in the world felt close enough to matter.
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The Way She Stays
Summary: Everyone believes Y/N Barton the Director of Strategic Ops, has the perfect partner until the cracks in Jason Ore’s polished facade begin to show and the cost of loving him becomes impossible to ignore. When Natasha Romanoff notices what others miss, her quiet loyalty and dangerous honesty force Y/N to confront the difference between control and care, while Clint Barton watches, torn between protection and trust.
Triggers (seriously!) / Warnings: MDNI! Emotional abuse / emotional manipulation, Physical domestic violence (short but there), Gaslighting, Controlling relationship dynamics, Toxic relationship portrayal, Verbal aggression and intimidation, Jealousy and possessiveness, Slow burn, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Explicit sexual content / smut (Natasha & Y/N), MINORS DNI
Word Count: 16,060 (Long for a one-shot but it got away from me, sorry.)
The conference room was already too warm. Y/N Barton stood at the head of the long table, her jacket draped neatly over the back of her chair, sleeves rolled to her forearms. In the space between them, holographic schematics rotated lazily, casting a pale, shifting light on the faces of the assembled team. A quinjet's flight path glowed in ethereal blue, tracing the eastern coastline of Madripoor before branching into a web of contingencies she had personally redlined twice already.
"Extraction is at zero-four-thirty," she said. Her voice was steady, a carefully calibrated instrument of control. "Primary window is seven minutes. If we miss it, we abort. No heroics."
A few heads nodded in solemn agreement. Maria Hill watched from the corner, arms crossed over her chest, her expression unreadable. Nick Fury leaned back in his chair, a shadow behind his dark lenses, his presence a silent weight in the room.
Beside her, Jason shifted. "Seven minutes is conservative," he said, his tone smooth as he leaned forward, elbows resting on the polished surface of the table. "If the asset's delayed, we can stretch to ten without compromising-"
Y/N didn't look at him. "We're not stretching."
Jason offered the public smile, the one that charmed senators and secured funding. "With respect, Director, I ran simulations last night. The risk curve flattens after minute eight. We'd be leaving value on the table."
A flicker of irritation sparked low in her chest, hot and sharp. She turned to face him then, her expression a mask of calm. "You ran simulations using my parameters."
"And improved them," Jason replied, his voice light. "That's my job."
The room shifted. It was subtle, a change in the air pressure, a collective tightening of shoulders, but it was perceptible. This wasn't disagreement; it was a correction. A public one. And it wasn't his place.
Before Y/N could put him back in his place, another voice cut through the tension.
"No."
The word was quiet, but it landed with the force of a slammed door. Every eye in the room turned to Natasha Romanoff. She sat slightly back from the table, one boot hooked casually around the rung of her chair, her posture relaxed to the point of deception. Her arms were folded loosely, her fingers still. She hadn't raised her voice. She hadn't even leaned forward. She didn't need to.
Jason blinked, his practiced composure fracturing for a moment. "I… excuse me?"
Natasha tilted her head, her gaze unwavering and sharp. "Your model assumes the asset is mobile within ninety seconds of contact. Our intel doesn't support that."
Jason's mouth opened, but Y/N lifted a hand, not sharply, not angrily. Just enough. The gesture was a full stop. "We're not debating this," she stated, her voice leaving no room for argument. "The window stays at seven."
Jason’s jaw tightened for half a second before the mask slid back into place. "Of course. Just offering perspective."
Across the table, Fury’s mouth twitched, the closest he ever came to a smile. Hill made a silent note on her datapad. Natasha didn't look away from Jason until he leaned back in his chair, retreating by a single, telling inch. Only then did she glance at Y/N.
It wasn't a question. It was a check-in.
Y/N met her eyes and gave a small, almost imperceptible nod. A silent acknowledgment.
Natasha settled back again, satisfied, her piece played. The meeting moved on, the moment broken, the hierarchy re-established.
___
By the time the meeting adjourned, a dull ache had settled behind Y/N’s eyes. It wasn’t the planning that had worn her down, but the sheer effort of holding her ground without making it look like a battle. She gathered her laptop, her mind already reorganizing the rest of her night, compartmentalizing the work from the friction.
Jason fell into step beside her as they left the room, his presence a familiar weight she was suddenly tired of carrying. “You didn’t have to shut that down so hard,” he murmured, his voice pitched low enough to sound intimate rather than critical. “I was backing you up.”
She didn’t slow her pace. “You were contradicting me.”
“I was contributing,” he said, the smooth edge of his tone sharpening just enough to be heard. “There’s a difference.”
She stopped walking. The sudden stillness was its own statement. Jason took one more step before realizing she was no longer beside him. He turned, the practiced smile flickering when he saw her expression, calm, closed, and utterly unmoved. “We can talk about this later,” he said quickly, a note of placation in his voice. “Not here.”
Her jaw tightened. “There’s nothing to talk about.”
“Y/N…”
“Jason,” she interrupted, her voice as quiet and final as Natasha’s had been earlier. “You don’t override me in my own meetings.”
A beat of silence stretched between them, taut and uncomfortable. Then Jason sighed, rubbing a hand over his face as if she were the one being difficult, the one creating a problem out of nothing. “You’re reading too much into it. You’ve been stressed lately.”
There it was. Soft. Polite. Dismissive. The trifecta of condescension wrapped in the guise of concern.
Y/N exhaled slowly, choosing not to engage. There was no point. “I have work to finish.”
His smile returned instantly, the mask sliding back into place. “So do I. I’ll see you later.” He leaned in, pressing a quick kiss to her cheek. It was a public display of affection perfectly calibrated for anyone who might be watching, a performance of partnership. She didn’t pull away. She also didn’t lean in, her body a study in neutrality.
Jason walked off, already pulling out his phone, his attention already a million miles away. Y/N stood there for a moment longer than necessary, the air around her slowly clearing, before turning toward Strategic Operations. ___ The office lights dimmed automatically as the hour ticked past twenty-two hundred, bathing the room in a soft, focused glow. Y/N shrugged out of her jacket and hung it carefully over the back of her chair before sinking back into the desk. The city beyond the floor-to-ceiling glass walls glittered cold and distant, a living map of lights and motion that felt a world away from the warmth of the room she had just left. She replayed the meeting in her head despite herself. Jason hadn’t raised his voice. He hadn’t insulted her. He hadn’t done anything that would look wrong to anyone else. That was the problem. It was a masterclass in plausible deniability.
A soft knock sounded at her door. She didn’t look up from her screen. “Come in.”
The door opened and closed with a quiet click. Natasha stepped inside, moving with a silence that was both a skill and a statement. She didn’t speak right away. She never did when Y/N’s shoulders were this tight. Instead, she crossed the room and leaned back against the edge of the desk, close enough that Y/N could sense her presence without feeling crowded.
“That was your call,” Natasha said finally, her voice low and even. “You made the right one.”
Y/N’s fingers paused over the keyboard. “He wasn’t wrong about the data.”
“He was wrong about the room,” Natasha replied, her gaze unwavering.
Y/N glanced up, meeting her eyes. “You didn’t have to step in.”
A faint, almost imperceptible curve touched Natasha’s lips. “You didn’t ask me to stop.”
It wasn’t an accusation. It was an observation, and something in Y/N’s chest loosened just a fraction. “I had it handled,” she said, a little defensively.
“I know,” Natasha said, pushing off the desk. She moved closer, not invading space, just occupying it deliberately. “You also shouldn’t have to fight for authority you’ve already earned.”
Y/N leaned back in her chair, letting out a breath she hadn’t realized she was holding. “He didn’t mean it the way it sounded.”
Natasha hummed softly, a noncommittal sound. “Intent doesn’t erase impact.”
Y/N closed her eyes for a second. When she opened them, Natasha was still there. Steady. Unmoved. “You stayed late,” Y/N said, changing the subject.
“I wasn’t done,” Natasha replied. A pause. “Neither were you.”
They worked quietly after that, the silence comfortable and companionable. Natasha didn’t hover or take over. She waited when Y/N paused, adjusted a projection when Y/N asked. Every movement was deliberate, unhurried, as if she wasn’t trying to prove anything at all because there was nothing to prove.
At some point, Y/N checked her phone. The screen was dark. No messages.
Natasha noticed, of course she noticed. “You’re waiting,” she said. It wasn’t a question.
Y/N’s mouth twitched. “He said he’d stop by.”
Natasha didn’t comment on the unlikelihood of it. She simply reached for the coffee Y/N had abandoned an hour ago, took a sip, grimaced, and pushed the mug gently out of reach. “That’s cold,” she said. “I’ll get you a fresh one.”
“You don’t have to-”
“I want to.” She didn’t wait for permission. She rarely did, but she always waited for consent, a subtle distinction Y/N had come to appreciate.
Natasha returned a few minutes later, setting a new mug down exactly where Y/N’s hand would land when she reached for it. Their fingers brushed. Natasha didn’t pull away immediately. “Drink,” she said softly.
Y/N did. The warmth spread through her, a small anchor in the quiet vastness of the night.
Time passed. The city shifted outside the windows, constellations of light changing as traffic flowed and stalled. Jason didn’t show.
When Natasha finally checked the clock, she straightened. “You’re not going home.”
Y/N huffed a tired, humorless laugh. “Is that an order?”
Natasha’s gaze held hers. Calm. Certain. “It's a concern.”
Something about that, about the lack of pressure, the absence of expectation, made Y/N’s throat tighten. “I’ll finish this and head out,” she said, the promise feeling thin even to her own ears.
Natasha nodded once. “Then I’ll walk you.”
They left together, their footsteps echoing through the quiet, deserted corridors of the Helicarrier. At the elevator bank, Natasha stepped inside first, holding the door open with a hand.
“If he doesn’t come,” Natasha said gently, just as the doors began to slide shut, “that doesn’t mean you weren’t worth the wait.”
Y/N swallowed against the sudden knot in her throat. “He will.” ___ Jason arrived forty minutes later, all practiced charm and easy smiles. He moved through the lobby with a confidence that bordered on performance, his apology a smooth, well-rehearsed aria. Y/N listened, her expression unreadable, and offered a nod that was less forgiveness and more dismissal. She accepted his explanation, the words hanging in the air between them, unexamined. From her vantage point across the polished expanse of the lobby, Natasha watched them depart. Jason’s hand rested at the small of Y/N’s back, a gesture of ownership disguised as affection. Y/N’s posture was ramrod straight, her shoulders a fraction too tight. She was a soldier bracing for a blow she couldn’t yet see. Natasha’s face remained a mask of cool indifference, but the gears had already begun to turn.
It started with a single, almost imperceptible gesture. Y/N Barton, a woman who commanded rooms and navigated global crises with the ease of breathing, took a half-step back. It was a subtle recalibration, a nearly invisible flinch as Jason closed the distance. Her shoulders tensed, her chin lifted a fraction of a degree, a body bracing for an impact that never landed. To anyone else, it was nothing. To Natasha, it was a flashing red light in the dark. Pattern recognition was her native language, the foundation of her entire existence.
Jason’s smile never reached his eyes. It was a brilliant, carefully constructed facade, deployed with the precision of a well-placed explosive. His words flowed like honey, smooth and reassuring. He knew the exact moment to place a hand on Y/N’s back, the precise duration to make it look supportive rather than controlling. In public, he was the perfect partner, deferring to her just enough to earn approving nods from Hill and Fury, a masterclass in appearing to be the wind beneath her wings. But the performance was flawed. He always spoke after she did, his voice a subtle echo that would inevitably reframe her point, adding his own footnote to ensure the room didn’t forget his presence. He wasn’t a partner; he was a parasite, clinging to her light.
Natasha felt no surge of jealousy, no territorial instinct. What she felt was the cold, sharp click of recognition. The low, humming certainty that vibrated in her bones, the same feeling she got when a mission brief had a fatal flaw.
Y/N didn’t feel the shift in the atmosphere, but she felt the cracks in the foundation. She was a master of logistics, of seeing the systems at play. She noticed the mission windows that were suddenly too tight, the intelligence from Madripoor that contradicted itself with frustrating regularity. She saw the silent, weighted exchanges between Fury and Hill, the perpetual exhaustion that clung to Strategic Operations like a second skin. She noticed Jason most acutely in his absence. He’d promised to join her for a late-night briefing, only to text twenty minutes prior with a flimsy excuse about something coming up. He’d meant to call. He was so proud of her. He just didn’t want her to burn herself out.
You’re so intense when you get like this, he’d said once, his smile a disarming weapon.
She had filed it away, labeling it as normal, a necessary compromise in a life that was anything but. She was the one with the impossible schedule, the title that weighed a ton, the responsibility that never slept. Director of Strategic Operations at twenty-nine, a direct subordinate to Nick Fury himself. She was feared, respected, indispensable. Jason would remind her of that sometimes, never overtly, never cruelly. Just enough. Just enough to make her feel like he was the anchor holding her to the shore, when in reality, he was the current pulling her out to sea.
___ The rhythm of the next few weeks was forged in the fires of endless collaboration. Strategic Ops became a second home, a place where the boundaries between personal and professional dissolved into a haze of holographic displays and strategic overlays. They were locked in a cycle of joint briefings and cross-department planning, surviving on late nights, too much black coffee, and a deficit of sleep that felt less like exhaustion and more like a state of being.
Natasha was a constant, a presence that hovered at the periphery of Y/N’s consciousness. She was everywhere Y/N needed her to be without ever crossing the line into intrusion. There was a deliberate, practiced gentleness to her. She didn’t crowd; she waited. When Y/N paused mid-sentence, fingers hovering over the holo-display as she hunted for the right vector, Natasha didn't jump in. She watched, counted the seconds, and let Y/N find her footing again.
Jason, on the other hand, was immediate and demanding. He didn't wait. “That’s what I was about to say,” he’d cut in once, flashing that easy, practiced grin the moment Y/N finally finished her thought. “We should reroute through the southern corridor.” Y/N would blink, disoriented for a split second, then nod, already moving on before her brain could catch up.
Natasha saw the way Y/N’s jaw tightened in the silence that followed. It was a small detail, easy to miss, but Natasha caught it. The coffee was the first real tell. Y/N didn't remember mentioning her preferences, hadn't said a word about how she took it, black, one sugar, a splash of oat milk when she’d already had too much caffeine but Natasha brought it anyway. She set the mug down without comment, didn't wait for a thanks, and simply stepped back into the shadows of the room.
Jason brought coffee, too, sometimes, but it was always wrong. Too sweet, or with a bitterness that made Y/N’s teeth ache. He’d laugh it off, that easy, dismissive laugh. “You’re impossible to please,” he’d tease, leaning in to kiss her temple. Y/N would laugh with him, a sound that didn't quite reach her eyes, and drink it anyway, watching Natasha watch her from across the table. ___ “Director Barton.”
Y/N looked up from her laptop to find Natasha standing in the doorway of Strategic Ops. She was wearing her jacket slung over one shoulder, the fabric loose and casual, her expression neutral, unreadable.
“Yes?”
“You’re late to your own meeting.”
Y/N glanced at the clock and swore under her breath. “Damn it. Jason said he’d—”
Natasha didn’t comment. She simply stepped aside, a silent invitation to follow. “They’re waiting.”
The briefing room was already full when they arrived. Maria Hill gave Y/N a sharp look as she entered, but the look softened immediately into something familiar. It was a small comfort in the sea of tension that permeated the room.
Jason sat near the middle of the table, his chair angled slightly away from the head. It was a subtle, intentional detail, a way of positioning himself without being overt. He looked up when Y/N entered, smiling like he hadn't been checking his watch, like he hadn't been counting down the seconds.
“There she is,” he said lightly, his voice a practiced charm. “The woman of the hour.”
Y/N ignored the heat creeping up her neck and took her seat, pulling her tablet into position. The meeting progressed smoothly enough, a well-oiled machine of strategic planning. Jason contributed, his voice smooth and authoritative, and Natasha observed, her expression carefully blank.
Clint stood near the back of the room, arms crossed, watching everyone like a hawk. He wasn’t just present; he was evaluating, assessing the threat level of every move, every word.
It wasn’t until the end, when Fury asked for final thoughts, that Jason leaned back in his chair and said casually, “Of course, having the Director’s unique… access helps streamline decision-making.”
Y/N frowned, a knot tightening in her stomach. “My access?”
Jason shrugged, a flicker of arrogance in his eyes. “You know. Fury. Hill. Clint.” He smiled, like he’d just made a harmless joke, a casual observation about the way the world worked. “Not everyone gets that kind of family discount.”
The room went very still. The air seemed to thicken, heavy with unspoken implications. Y/N felt it like a physical thing, a sudden, sharp tightening in her chest, a sudden awareness of every eye turning toward her, dissecting her, judging her.
Natasha spoke up. “Careful,” she said quietly.
It wasn't directed at Y/N, but the words hung in the air, heavy and charged.
Jason turned toward her, surprised by the interruption. “I didn’t mean anything by it,” he said, his tone shifting to something more defensive, more earnest. “I was just making a joke.”
“I know,” Natasha replied. Her gaze flicked briefly to Y/N, a sharp, assessing look that seemed to measure the distance between them, before settling back on him. “That’s why you should be careful.”
Fury cleared his throat, the sound loud and final in the silence. “Meeting adjourned.”
People filed out quickly after that, murmuring low and uncomfortable, casting furtive glances at Y/N as they passed. Jason reached for Y/N’s arm as she stood, his touch light, almost tentative, but she stepped away without meaning to, a reflex born of years of self-preservation. His smile faltered for half a second, a crack in the armor, before he covered it with another laugh. ___ They didn't talk about it in the moment, the air in the briefing room too thin to sustain a conversation, but the silence hung between them like a physical weight. It wasn't until they were alone in the elevator, the doors sliding shut with a soft, pneumatic hiss that severed them from the rest of the world, that Jason finally broke it.
“You’re mad,” he said, stating it like a simple observation, a fact of the atmosphere rather than an accusation.
“You implied I got my position because of Clint,” Y/N replied evenly, her voice flat, betraying none of the turmoil she felt.
He laughed, a short, dismissive sound. “Come on. Everyone knows you earned it. It was a joke.”
“It wasn’t funny.”
He sighed, rubbing a hand over his temple as if the conversation were a migraine he could physically massage away. “You’re being sensitive.”
There it was again. That particular brand of softness. Polite, patient, and thoroughly dismissive. It was the tone used when someone was too emotional to understand the joke, too fragile to handle the truth.
“You can’t say things like that in front of Fury,” she said, her voice hardening.
“I can say whatever I want,” Jason replied, his irritation slipping through the veneer of charm. “I’ve got the credentials too.”
She looked at him then, really looked past the easy grin and the confident posture to the man underneath. “And I don’t?” she asked quietly, the question hanging in the confined space of the elevator car.
The elevator chimed, a jarring interruption. The doors slid open, revealing the sterile hallway of the upper floors.
Jason stepped out first, his stride long and purposeful, already turning down the corridor before she could answer. “You’re reading into it.”
She followed, silent, her shoulders tight against the fabric of her blazer, watching his retreating back with a gaze that felt dangerously close to scrutiny.
From the shadows of the corridor, Natasha watched them separate. Jason was striding ahead, confident and oblivious. Y/N trailed by a half-step, her body language defensive, her shoulders tight as if bracing for impact. Natasha stood rooted to the spot, filing the moment away, cataloging the distance between them, the tension in Y/N’s spine. It was a small crack, barely visible, but it was there. ___ Clint cornered Natasha later that night, back in the quiet, dimly lit common area where the hum of the ventilation system was the only other sound.
“I don’t like him,” he said without preamble, his arms crossed over his chest, his posture defensive.
Natasha arched an eyebrow, her expression unreadable. “You’ve mentioned.”
“He makes comments,” Clint continued, his voice low, rough with frustration. “Little ones. About her job. About me.”
Natasha leaned against the wall, mirroring his stance, arms crossed. “She defends him.”
“I know,” Clint said, his jaw clenching. “That’s what scares me.”
Natasha studied him for a long moment, her eyes searching his face for the lie she knew wasn't there. “She doesn’t need saving.”
Clint’s jaw tightened further. “That doesn’t mean she isn’t being hurt.”
Natasha didn’t disagree. She knew the language of emotional erosion better than anyone. The cracks didn't always scream for attention; sometimes they widened slowly, imperceptibly, until the structure underneath was compromised. ___ The atmosphere in their shared apartment grew brittle, thin enough to snap. Jason became colder in private, his patience evaporating under the weight of the long hours Y/N was keeping. The criticism grew sharper, more frequent. It was a slow erosion of the easy camaraderie they’d once shared.
“You’re always working,” he snapped one night when she canceled dinner, again, the accusation hanging heavy in the air. “Do you even want a life outside that office?”
“I don’t have a choice,” Y/N replied, her voice raw with exhaustion. She was tired of fighting, tired of explaining.
“You always have a choice,” he countered, his tone sharp, cutting. “You just don’t make me the choice.”
She swallowed the urge to argue, the words dying in her throat. It was a familiar dynamic, one that existed in a fractured reality. At work, Jason was flawless. He was supportive, the proud partner who stood beside her, basking in her successes. But at home, the affection became conditional, a reward for good behavior that was increasingly difficult to earn.
Natasha noticed the subtle shifts first. The way Y/N flinched when her phone buzzed in the middle of the night, as if the vibration were a physical blow. The way she checked her messages before responding to anyone else, a habit of constant vigilance. The way she started explaining her schedule, her reasoning, her justification before a question was even asked, as if she was already preemptively apologizing for her existence.
“You don’t have to justify your schedule to me,” Natasha said once, her voice gentle but firm, cutting through the fog.
Y/N blinked, startled. “I wasn’t-”
“I know,” Natasha replied, her gaze steady. “I’m just saying.”
Something else shifted in Y/N after that, though the change wasn't dramatic. It was a subtle realignment, a recalibration of her boundaries. The late nights continued, the relentless march of strategic planning, but Natasha was there to pick up the slack. She waited when Jason didn’t. She matched Y/N’s pace through the corridors of the complex, through the long conversations, through the comfortable silences. She never rushed her, never pushed, simply existing in the same space as a silent anchor.
One night, as they packed up after another endless session that had bled into the early morning, Y/N paused by the door, her hand lingering on the handle. She looked back at Natasha, her expression hesitant, vulnerable.
“Do you ever think,” she asked softly, her voice barely carrying over the hum of the equipment, “that people only see what they want to see?”
Natasha met her gaze, her expression unreadable but sincere. “All the time.”
Y/N nodded slowly, the tension in her shoulders releasing just a fraction. It was a small admission, but it felt like the answer to a question she hadn’t known how to ask. ___ The following week, Jason missed something fundamental, something that should have been a given. It was a date etched into the calendar that he brushed off with a distracted apology and a smile that didn't quite reach his eyes. Natasha didn't miss anything. She was there, silent and steady, bringing coffee when Y/N needed the caffeine hit, offering the kind of presence that required nothing in return.
Somewhere between the quiet and the waiting, the awareness took root. It wasn't a loud, explosive realization, nor was it a sudden, dramatic epiphany. It was something quieter, more insidious, settling deep in the marrow of her bones. It was undeniable. Natasha saw it before Y/N did, and once she saw it, she didn't look away.
By the time the Vienna briefing rolled around, Y/N was running on caffeine, precision, and muscle memory. The mission itself wasn't the problem; extraction from a hostile NGO front operating as an intelligence laundering hub was messy, but manageable. The real complication was visibility. There were too many eyes, too many egos, too many people who wanted credit without accountability. It was a perfect storm of political friction.
She stood at the head of the table again, hands braced lightly against the glass surface, holographic overlays cycling through contingencies with hypnotic smoothness. Her voice didn't waver as she laid out the parameters, tight windows, hard abort lines, layered redundancies designed to keep the team breathing.
Jason sat two seats down from her this time. Close enough to be involved, far enough to make a point. He watched her with that easy, confident smile, the one that usually signaled he was already winning the argument before it started.
“Operational authority remains centralized,” Y/N concluded, her voice firm. “Any deviation requires clearance through Strategic Ops. That’s non-negotiable.”
A murmur of assent rippled through the room, a collective breath of relief at the structure.
Jason leaned forward, resting his elbows on the table. “Just to clarify,” he said smoothly, his tone conversational, “field leads will still have discretion if circumstances change in real time, correct?”
Y/N met his gaze, her expression unreadable. “Within the parameters outlined.”
“Right,” he said, nodding as if satisfied. “I just don’t want us handcuffing the team with too much top-down oversight.”
There it was. Not a direct challenge, not outright defiance, but a suggestion wrapped in the language of partnership. It was a subtle shift in the room, a few people glancing at Jason, then back at Y/N, weighing the merit of his words against the safety of hers.
She kept her expression neutral, her fingers tightening slightly on the edge of the table. “Oversight keeps people alive.”
“Of course,” Jason replied, his smile widening just a fraction. “But flexibility wins wars.”
Natasha, seated along the wall with her chair tipped back on two legs, let it settle for exactly three seconds. She didn't look at Y/N, didn't look at Jason. She just watched the air between them, waiting.
Then she spoke. “Flexibility without accountability gets people killed.”
Her voice wasn't loud. It didn't need to be. It cut through the hum of the room like a knife.
Jason turned toward her, eyebrows lifting in feigned surprise. “I wasn’t aware you were part of Strategic Ops now.”
“I’m not,” Natasha said calmly. She leaned forward just enough to rest her forearms on her thighs, her posture open but challenging. “I’m part of the teams that clean up when strategy gets sloppy.”
The air went thin. Y/N felt her pulse spike, not with fear, but with a sudden, electric awareness. This was different. Natasha wasn't just backing her up; she was drawing a line in the sand, staking a claim.
Jason smiled, tight around the edges. “I think that’s a bit dramatic.”
Natasha’s gaze didn't waver. She held his eyes, unblinking. “I think you’re confusing confidence with competence.”
A few people in the room sucked in quiet breaths, the tension palpable.
Jason laughed once, sharp and short. “Excuse me?”
“You’re advocating for field autonomy without acknowledging the intel gaps,” Natasha continued, unruffled, her voice steady. “That’s not strategy. That’s ego.”
Y/N raised a hand, instinctively, to interject, to smooth things over. “Nat-”
But Natasha didn’t look at her. She was locked onto Jason, her focus absolute.
“And since we’re clarifying things,” Natasha added, her voice dropping an octave, “Director Barton’s framework already accounts for adaptive response. You’d know that if you’d read the full brief instead of skimming for talking points.”
The room fell into a heavy silence. Jason’s jaw tightened, the muscle ticking beneath his skin.
“That’s out of line,” he said, his voice dropping to a dangerous level.
“No,” Natasha said, her tone mild, almost conversational. “This is.”
She turned then, finally, to Y/N. Her expression was soft, almost apologetic, but her eyes were fierce.
“Your call is sound,” she said. “And if anyone has an issue with it, they can take it up with Fury.”
She leaned back in her chair again, the conversation over.
Y/N felt something electric hum through her chest, a rush of warmth that had nothing to do with the coffee she’d been drinking all morning. It wasn't triumph. It wasn't relief. It was validation. She cleared her throat, forcing her voice to remain steady.
“We’re proceeding as outlined.”
No one argued. The meeting ended ten minutes early.
___ Jason didn't speak to her as everyone filed out. He didn't reach out to touch her arm, didn't lean in for one of those familiar, intimate half-whispers, didn't offer that easy, practiced smile. He just waited. The corridor was empty at this late hour, the low hum of the overhead lights the only sound in the vast, sterile space. Jason stood a few feet away, shoulders squared, hands loose at his sides. He looked controlled, like a man who was holding himself together by a thread, but the thread wasn't snapping. It was coiled.
"What the hell was that?" he hissed, the words barely audible over the hum of the lights.
"You reframed my authority in front of a room full of agents," Y/N replied evenly, keeping her hands in her pockets.
He scoffed, a sharp, derisive sound. "I was trying to help."
"You were trying to control the narrative."
Jason’s eyes flashed, a dangerous glint in the dim light. "You let her disrespect me."
"She corrected you," Y/N said. "In front of everyone."
His tone carried a venom that was lower now, edged with something she only ever heard behind closed doors, in the quiet moments when the mask slipped. "You shouldn’t have put me in that position."
He took a step closer. Not abrupt. Deliberate. Calculated.
"You're overreacting," he said. "Natasha crossed a line."
"She corrected bad intel."
His voice dropped, rougher. "You're choosing her over me now?"
The words landed heavier than she expected, like a physical blow to her stomach. "I'm choosing the mission," she said.
Jason laughed, a humorless, bitter sound. "Funny. Because it feels like you're enjoying having a pit bull fight your battles."
Something cold settled in her stomach, cold and sharp. "She didn't fight my battle," Y/N said.
"She told the truth."
Jason stepped closer. Not touching. Looming just enough to remind her of the space he occupied, to make her feel small.
Jason smiled then, but it didn't reach his eyes. "You're enjoying this."
Y/N frowned. "Enjoying what?"
Another step closer. The distance between them shrank to something uncomfortable, a barrier she couldn't cross without brushing against him. "Makes you feel protected."
Her pulse ticked up, a frantic rhythm against her ribs. "I don't need protecting."
"I know," he said softly, the tone patronizing, like he was speaking to a child. "You hate when people think you do."
He stopped directly in front of her now. Too close. Not touching, but close enough that she had to tilt her head slightly to keep eye contact, a reflex to maintain distance. Close enough that the air felt different, thinner, harder to breathe.
"Don't do that again," he said. "Do what?" She asked calmly.
"Let her talk over me."
His voice dropped. "Let her disrespect me."
"She wasn't-"
Jason leaned in further, she could smell his expensive cologne, feel the heat radiating off him. It wasn't a kiss. Not intimacy. It was almost aggressive, a territorial display.
"You made me look small," he said quietly. "In front of people who already think I'm not important."
Her stomach dropped, a sickening lurch. His gaze hardened. "I believe you forget how lucky you are sometimes."
Lucky. The word tasted like ash in her mouth. Her hands curled into fists at her sides, nails biting into her palms.
"I earned my position," she said.
"At work," Jason replied smoothly, his voice dropping an octave, dripping with disdain. "Yes."
The word hung there, ugly and deliberate. He was blocking the corridor without touching her. Not technically trapping her, but the geometry of the space had shifted, and she was suddenly, acutely aware of how little space there was to move without brushing past him, of how trapped she felt.
"You don't need her," he continued. "You don't need anyone whispering in your ear, making you question things that work."
"What works?" she asked.
Us, he meant. She saw it now. The expectation. The ownership disguised as concern. The invisible leash.
The door behind them slid open. Soft. Unassuming. Natasha stepped into the corridor, carrying a datapad, her expression neutral, unreadable.
She took in the scene in less than a second. The distance between Jason and Y/N. The angle of Jason's body, aggressive and closed off. The way Y/N's shoulders were tight and squared, her body language braced for impact. Natasha didn't blink. She didn't react.
Jason stepped back immediately. The pressure vanished so fast it almost felt unreal, the air in the corridor suddenly breathable again.
"Everything okay?" Natasha asked.
Jason turned, his expression already rearranging, shifting into the mask of the professional. "Of course. Just a professional disagreement."
Natasha didn't look at him. She looked at Y/N, her gaze searching, assessing.
Y/N didn't speak. Didn't have to.
Natasha's voice was calm when she spoke, devoid of heat. "No one should be overstepping your command."
The words landed like a blade between ribs, sharp and precise.
Jason laughed once, sharp and short. "Excuse me?"
Natasha finally met his gaze. She stepped forward, not aggressively, not defensively. She met him on equal footing, her posture open.
"You don't get to stand over her and call it concern," Natasha said. "And you don't get to weaponize her position against her."
Jason's face flushed, a red tide rising up his neck. "This is none of your business."
"It is now," Natasha responded calmly, her voice unwavering.
Silence stretched between them, heavy and suffocating. Y/N realized something then, something that scared her more than Jason ever had. She wasn't defending him. She wasn't explaining. She wasn't smoothing things over. She just stood there. And Natasha stayed.
Jason stormed off, his footsteps echoing down the corridor, fading into the distance.
Natasha waited until the sound of his retreating footsteps was completely gone before turning back to Y/N. She didn't reach for her. Didn't crowd her. She just stood there, a silent sentinel.
"You okay?" she asked.
Y/N nodded automatically, a reflex. Then she paused, the movement slowing. She shook her head. "I don't know."
Natasha didn't offer platitudes. She just stayed.
"You don't have to decide anything right now," she said. "But you should know..."
She hesitated, just a fraction, her eyes searching Y/N's face. "That wasn't normal."
Y/N swallowed hard, the knot in her throat tightening. "He's under a lot of pressure."
"So are you."
Y/N laughed weakly, a hollow sound. "That's different."
Natasha studied her, her expression unreadable. "Why?"
Y/N didn't have an answer. The silence stretched, heavy and uncomfortable.
That night, Y/N lay awake replaying the meeting in her head. Jason’s tone. Natasha’s voice. The way the room had gone still, not because of conflict, but because of clarity. She realized, with a start, that Natasha hadn't raised her voice once. She hadn't apologized. She hadn't checked for approval. She hadn't tried to placate. She'd simply… corrected him. And no one had questioned it. ___ The next morning, Clint found her in the gym. She was working the heavy bag like it had personally offended her, precision strikes with no wasted movement, her breath measured even as sweat slicked her temples. He leaned against the wall, arms crossed, watching her for a while before speaking.
“You know,” he said mildly, “most people deal with relationship stress by stress-eating.”
She didn’t stop. She just kept driving her fists into the leather, the rhythm steady and punishing.
“Go away.”
“See, that right there?” He nodded toward the bag. “That’s how I know I should stay out of it.”
She finally paused, forehead resting briefly against the leather, her chest heaving. “You don’t get to comment.”
“I get to worry,” Clint said. Then, softer, “I just don’t get to interfere.”
She straightened, rolling her shoulders, the tension in her spine slowly uncoiling. “Good.”
He held up his hands in surrender. “I will. Just… be careful.”
She nodded, her throat tight, the words catching in her chest.
As Clint turned to leave, he added over his shoulder, “For the record? You’re terrifying when you stop trying to be nice. I’d hate to be on the wrong side of that.”
A corner of her mouth twitched despite herself, a ghost of a smile.
Natasha watched them through the glass, her expression unreadable. But her decision was already crystallizing. She wasn’t imagining it, she wasn’t overstepping. And she wasn’t wrong. Jason thought power was something you held over people. Natasha knew better. Power was knowing exactly when to step in, and when to take what someone else didn’t know how to keep.
The thing about reputations was that they didn’t need defending, they defended themselves. ___
Jason’s reputation was his greatest weapon, a carefully curated armor of charisma that he wore like a second skin. Y/N watched it happen in real time, the way people leaned toward him in conversation, how his smile softened tension before it could ever crystallize into conflict. He remembered names. He remembered birthdays. He made jokes that landed without ever punching down. He thanked people publicly and corrected them privately, if at all. He was careful. Precise.
Which meant that when Y/N began to feel like she was drowning, suffocating under the weight of her own performance, it was easy to believe the problem was her. That she was the leak in the system, the one person who couldn't quite hold it together.
It started small, insidious. A hand at her lower back that lingered just long enough to steer instead of reassure, a guiding hand that moved her when she was already moving. A glance when she spoke too long in meetings, subtle but pointed, like a reminder that she was taking up space that others might want. Comments framed as concern.
"You've been sharp lately."
"People are starting to notice."
"I just don't want anyone getting the wrong idea."
She adjusted. Of course she did. She always had. Y/N learned early how to calibrate herself to a room, how to project authority without arrogance, decisiveness without cruelty. As Director of Strategic Operations, that balance was survival. Too soft and people ignored you. Too hard and they resented you. Jason knew that. Which meant he knew exactly how to frame his criticism so it sounded like help.
"You don't have to prove anything," he told her one night as she worked through yet another contingency tree at their kitchen table. His voice was warm, casual, the kind of tone that invited relaxation rather than scrutiny. He leaned against the counter, beer in hand, watching her with something like fond amusement.
"I'm not," she said without looking up, her eyes glued to the holographic display.
He smiled. "You always say that."
Her jaw tightened, a muscle ticking beneath her skin. "Because it's true."
"Sure," Jason replied easily, his tone breezy. "I just worry you're pushing too hard. You've already got the job. You don't need to be... on all the time."
On all the time. The words hung in the air, heavy with implication.
She glanced up then, catching the faint edge beneath the words, the resentment that he hid so well. "Strategic Ops doesn't turn off."
"I know," he said quickly, his smile faltering for a split second before he recovered. "I just mean, sometimes it feels like you forget there's a world outside that office."
Something about the way he said it made her chest tighten, a sudden, sharp pressure behind her ribs. "And what," she asked, carefully, her voice measured, "would that world look like?"
Jason shrugged. "Normal. Dinner plans. Showing up to things without checking your phone every five minutes."
Her fingers stilled over the tablet, the holographic display flickering as she stopped typing. "You mean like the Vienna briefing?" she asked.
He hesitated. Just a fraction too long. A pause that felt like a lie.
"That was different."
"It was an international operation," Y/N said evenly, her voice losing its edge. "You wanted visibility. I needed focus."
"And you got both," he replied, his smile sharpening, the arrogance returning. "Thanks to Natasha."
There it was. Not an accusation. Not jealousy. Just enough emphasis to make her feel like she'd missed something important, like she was the only one who didn't understand the stakes.
"I didn't ask her to step in," Y/N said, her voice low.
"I know," Jason replied. "That's kind of the point."
She closed her tablet with more force than necessary, the plastic casing clicking against the table. "What are you saying?"
Jason held up his hands, a gesture of surrender that looked rehearsed. "I'm not saying anything. I just... people talk."
Her stomach dropped, a cold pit opening in her gut. "Who?"
"No one important," he said quickly, his eyes darting away. "It's just... optics matter. Especially for you."
For you. Not us.
Y/N leaned back in her chair, suddenly exhausted, the weight of the conversation pressing down on her shoulders. "Natasha is a colleague."
"Natasha is a wildcard," Jason corrected gently, his tone shifting to something more conspiratorial. "You know her reputation."
Y/N did. Natasha Romanoff was brilliant, lethal, loyal to those she chose. Her history was a tangle of redacted files and whispered stories, a woman who had walked through fire and come out the other side. She was trusted with missions no one else could touch, the one person who could be counted on when everyone else had failed.
Jason's voice softened further, the concern turning into something that felt like a warning. "I just don't want you getting caught in the fallout if she decides to... complicate things, or change sides... again."
Y/N studied his face. Open. Concerned. Perfect.
"You're worried about me," she said slowly, the words heavy in her mouth.
"Of course I am," Jason replied, stepping closer. He brushed a kiss against her temple, a gesture of intimacy that felt performative, a way of sealing a deal. "That's my job."
She let herself lean into it, closing her eyes for a moment, the warmth of his breath against her skin. Because it was easier than asking why his concern felt so much like a warning. ___ At work, Natasha noticed the shift before Y/N did. She always did. It was in the way Y/N began arriving earlier and staying later, not out of urgency or ambition, but out of avoidance. She was retreating into the fortress of Strategic Ops, building walls that weren't necessary, trying to make herself scarce. It was in the way Y/N paused before speaking in meetings, as if running her words through an internal filter that hadn't been there before, testing them for bite, for sharpness, for anything that might provoke a reaction.
She stopped correcting people. Not because she didn't see the mistakes, but because she’d started picking her battles, conserving her energy for the things that actually mattered. Jason filled the silence. He stepped into the gaps with practiced ease, a man who knew the architecture of power better than he knew his own name. He reframed Y/N’s directives as collaborative suggestions, positioning himself as the intermediary when there hadn't been a need for one, smoothing over the rough edges of her authority until it was unrecognizable. He praised her decisions while subtly distancing himself from their consequences, acting as the buffer between her genius and the fallout of reality.
“She prefers a conservative approach,” he’d say with a fond, almost patronizing smile, the kind of smile that said he was indulging a child. “Keeps us all alive.”
It sounded supportive. It felt diminishing. Natasha watched Y/N accept it, and that was the part that bothered her most. She was letting him rewrite the narrative without a fight.
In one briefing, Fury questioned a delayed deployment, nothing sharp, just a raised eyebrow and a simple, “Walk me through your thinking.” Y/N opened her mouth to respond, to explain the calculus, the risk assessment, the hard choices. Jason beat her to it.
“She didn’t want to risk civilian exposure,” he said smoothly, his voice dripping with feigned concern. “Which I understand, even if I might’ve pushed harder.”
Y/N froze. She was a woman of action, a woman who made decisions and stood by them, but for a split second, she looked like a child caught in a lie. She recovered quickly, she always did, masking the flicker with a nod, but Natasha saw the way Y/N’s fingers tightened against the table edge, white-knuckled and desperate. She nodded instead of correcting him, swallowing her own voice.
Natasha said nothing. Not yet. She watched the dynamic play out, the way Jason was slowly eroding her confidence, bit by bit.
Afterward, Clint found her leaning against the corridor wall, arms crossed, her gaze distant, fixed on nothing but the hum of the lights. “You’re going to burn a hole through the building if you keep glaring like that,” he muttered.
Natasha didn’t look at him. “He’s isolating her.”
Clint exhaled slowly, a long, ragged sound. “I know.”
“You’re not stopping him.”
“I can’t,” Clint replied, his voice quiet. “She hasn’t asked.”
Natasha turned then, her eyes sharp, cutting through the dim light. “You think she will?”
Clint didn’t answer. That was answer enough. ___ Y/N didn’t tell Clint about the argument. Or the next one. Or the one after that. They followed a pattern, quiet at first, then sharper, always ending with Jason pulling back just enough to make her doubt herself, to make her wonder if she was the one who was broken.
“You’re twisting my words.”
“You’re imagining intent where there isn’t any.”
“You know how this sounds, right?”
Each time, Y/N found herself explaining. Clarifying. Apologizing for reactions she couldn’t quite justify, for emotions she couldn’t control. She stopped mentioning Natasha unless necessary. Stopped staying late when Jason said he’d be waiting. Stopped correcting him in public altogether.
Natasha noticed.
“You don’t have to do that,” she said one night as they walked through the compound parking structure, footsteps echoing between concrete pillars, the air cool and stale.
“Do what?” Y/N asked.
“Make yourself smaller,” Natasha replied.
Y/N let out a tired, humorless laugh. “I’m not.”
Natasha didn’t argue. She rarely did. But she adjusted her pace, slowed just enough that Y/N didn’t have to rush. Matched her stride instead of leading. It was a subtle shift in the geometry of their walk, a silent concession to the weight on Y/N’s shoulders. Jason didn’t match. He set the pace and expected her to keep up, regardless of the cost. ___ The fundraiser was Fury’s idea. Good optics. Donors. Diplomats. A reminder that the Avengers were still symbols, not just weapons. Jason thrived. He wore a tailored suit that fit like armor, his charm polished to a blinding sheen. His hand was warm and steady at Y/N’s back as he guided her through conversations she’d rather avoid, steering her through the social minefield with practiced ease.
He introduced her as Director Barton, brilliant and tireless, the backbone of Strategic Operations. People smiled. Complimented. Praised. Y/N smiled back, her expression a mask of gratitude, her eyes scanning the room for an exit.
From across the room, Natasha watched. She didn’t approach. Didn’t interrupt. She saw the way Jason angled Y/N slightly away from anyone who asked too many questions, how he answered for her when conversations veered toward strategy, how he laughed lightly when she tried to redirect.
“She’s always working,” he’d say fondly, his voice warm and intimate. “Even now.”
It sounded affectionate. It felt like a cage.
At one point, Y/N excused herself to the bar under the pretense of grabbing drinks. Jason let her go with a kiss, with a smile, with eyes that tracked her movement until she disappeared into the crowd, a possessive gaze that made her skin crawl.
Natasha met her there.
“You look like you’re about to bolt,” Natasha said quietly.
Y/N accepted the glass Natasha slid toward her without comment, the ice clinking against the crystal.
“Is it that obvious?”
“To me,” Natasha replied.
Y/N took a sip. “He’s just… very good at this.”
“Yes,” Natasha agreed, her voice devoid of judgment. “He is.”
They stood in silence for a moment, the noise of the room swelling around them, a cacophony of laughter and clinking glasses. “You know,” Y/N said finally, her voice barely audible over the din. “Everyone loves him.”
Natasha’s gaze didn’t waver. “Everyone loves the version he shows them.”
Y/N’s grip tightened on the glass, her knuckles turning white. “That’s not fair.”
“Is it inaccurate?” Natasha asked gently.
Y/N didn’t answer.
Jason appeared moments later, his arm sliding around Y/N’s waist, his touch possessive and warm. “There you are,” he said warmly, his eyes never leaving her face. “I was starting to think you’d abandoned me.”
She stiffened just slightly, a reflex she couldn't quite suppress. Natasha clocked it.
“Director Barton was just catching her breath,” Natasha said evenly, her tone polite but firm. “These things can be… a lot.”
Jason smiled at her, a tight, practiced expression. “She handles pressure better than anyone.”
Y/N forced a smile and Natasha stepped back. Because this wasn’t her move to make. Not yet.
The control tightened after that. Jason began framing his expectations as sacrifices. “I stayed late for you.” “I turned down that assignment because I knew you’d worry.” “I don’t say anything when people assume things, I protect you.”
Protect. The word sat heavy in Y/N’s chest, a leaden weight that made it hard to breathe. She found herself editing conversations before they happened, preemptively smoothing edges so Jason wouldn’t bristle. She stopped venting. Stopped sharing doubts.
Natasha noticed when Y/N started checking her phone before responding to questions, the habit of waiting for permission to speak.
“You don’t owe me or anyone an explanation,” Natasha said quietly one night as they wrapped up a briefing, the holographic displays fading into darkness.
Y/N blinked, startled. “I wasn’t-”
“I know,” Natasha replied, her gaze softening. “I’m just saying.”
The silence that followed was thick with things unsaid, a heavy, suffocating blanket that Clint watched with a helpless kind of fury. He saw the way Y/N’s laughter dulled, the way she scanned rooms instinctively before speaking, the way Jason’s presence filled space even when he wasn’t talking, a physical weight that seemed to push everyone else away.
He said nothing. Because Y/N hadn’t asked, and because Natasha was already standing closer than he ever could. ___ The night Jason accused her of being “too close” to Natasha, it was almost casual. They were brushing their teeth, the mirror fogged with steam, the air in the small bathroom heavy with unspoken things.
“People notice things,” Jason said, mouth full of toothpaste, his voice muffled.
Y/N froze, the toothbrush hovering halfway to her mouth.
“What things?”
“You and her,” he replied, shrugging as if it were no big deal. “Late nights. Private conversations.”
“We work together,” Y/N said, her voice tight.
“So do I,” Jason replied, spitting into the sink and wiping his mouth with a towel. “But I don’t hover.”
She turned to face him, wiping the foam from her lips. “Is this about jealousy?”
Jason laughed, a short, dismissive sound. “No. It’s about professionalism.”
Her chest tightened, a sharp, physical reaction to the dismissal. “You don’t trust me.”
“I trust you,” he said quickly, his eyes flickering with something like genuine panic. “I just don’t trust her.”
The words echoed in the small space, sharp and final. That night, Y/N lay awake long after Jason fell asleep, staring at the ceiling, the hum of the ventilation the only sound. She thought about Natasha’s steady presence, the way she had walked into that corridor and stood her ground. She thought about Clint’s quiet concern. The way she’d started holding her breath without even realizing it, waiting for the other shoe to drop. For the first time, she wondered, what if this wasn’t normal? What if she was just imagining things?
At the compound, Natasha Romanoff stood alone on the balcony, staring out at the sprawling city lights below, her jaw set. She didn’t want to interfere. She didn’t want to push. But watching Y/N disappear piece by piece, becoming smaller and smaller in the mirror, felt like complicity. Jason thought he was perfect. Everyone else thought so too. Natasha knew better, and she was running out of patience. ___ The crisis hit at 02:17. It wasn’t the kind that made headlines. No explosions. No alarms blaring through the compound. Just a red notification blinking to life on Y/N’s tablet as she sat alone in Strategic Ops, shoes kicked off beneath her desk, jacket draped over the back of her chair.
Vienna had gone sideways. Not catastrophic, yet, but one of the extraction teams had lost comms for ninety seconds longer than projected, and ninety seconds was an eternity when the margin for error was already razor-thin.
Y/N was on her feet instantly. She snapped orders into the comm channel, fingers flying over the console as she rerouted satellite bandwidth and pulled up contingency feeds. Her mind narrowed, sharpened, this was the part of the job she trusted herself in completely. This was where she never hesitated. This was the only time she felt truly alive.
“Ops, this is Director Barton,” she said calmly, her voice cutting through the static. “Switch to secondary relay. Vienna Team Three, report status.”
Static crackled. Then, “Copy, Director. We’re pinned but mobile. No casualties.”
Y/N exhaled slowly, tension easing just a fraction. “Hold position. Don’t push. We’re adjusting extraction.”
She pivoted toward the main display, already recalculating windows. Jason was supposed to be here. He’d said he’d come by after his briefing, said he wanted to be present, wanted to support her during the Vienna operation because he knew how much scrutiny it was under. She didn't think about that now. She didn't have time. She was too busy keeping the world from falling apart.
“Natasha Romanoff,” she said into the open channel. “Status.”
“South bay, cleared.”
Natasha replied immediately. “Where do you need me?”
No delay. No clarification needed. Y/N gave coordinates and parameters, voice steady even as the pressure mounted, the numbers flashing red on the screens around her. Natasha acknowledged and moved, efficient, precise, exactly as she always was, a ghost in the machine, a force of nature that simply was.
The operation stabilized over the next forty minutes. Not cleanly. Not easily. But no one died. By the time Y/N leaned back against her desk, adrenaline bleeding off in slow waves, her hands were shaking, the tremors a physical reminder of the toll.
She checked her phone then. No messages. She stared at the screen longer than she meant to, the silence of the empty room pressing in on her.
At 03:11, the door to Strategic Ops opened. Y/N looked up automatically, relief spiking before she could stop herself, a reflex of hope she couldn't quite suppress.
It wasn’t Jason.
Natasha stepped inside, hair still damp from rain or sweat, jacket half-zipped, eyes already scanning Y/N’s posture, her face, looking for the cracks.
“You good?” Natasha asked.
Y/N swallowed, the knot in her throat tight. “Extraction’s secure.”
“I know,” Natasha replied, her voice low and steady. “I meant you.”
Y/N hesitated, the words caught in her throat. Then nodded. “I’m fine.”
Natasha studied her for a long moment, her gaze searching, looking for the lie she knew was there. She didn’t call her out. She didn’t push. She crossed the room instead and leaned back against the desk, close enough to be grounding without crowding, a silent anchor in the chaos.
“You ran it clean,” Natasha said. “Vienna could’ve been ugly.”
Y/N let out a tired breath, the sound of a woman finally letting herself exhale. “It almost was.”
“But it wasn’t,” Natasha replied, her voice gentle but firm. “Because you planned for that.”
The words landed gently, but they landed, a truth she hadn't allowed herself to feel. Y/N closed her eyes for a moment, the weight of the room lifting just a fraction.
Jason still hadn’t shown. ___ The chime of the incoming text was a sliver of light in the oppressive dark of 03:38. It illuminated Y/N’s face, stark and pale, as she read the message once.
Sorry, got pulled into something last-minute. You okay? We’ll talk tomorrow.
She read it again. The words didn’t change, but their weight seemed to double, pressing down on her chest. A third time, as if repetition might unlock some hidden meaning, some reassurance that wasn’t there. Her thumb hovered over the glowing keyboard, typing and deleting a response that felt hollow before it was even sent. It didn’t matter what she said. The finality of that thought settled in her bones. With a soft click, she set the phone face down, extinguishing the last bit of light in the room and surrendering to the heavy quiet.
Across the desk, Natasha watched the entire performance without a word. She didn’t offer any comments or ask who it was. Instead, she unfolded herself from her chair with a fluid grace that seemed out of place in the stillness of the room. The soft tread of her boots was the only sound as she moved toward the small kitchenette. When she returned, it was with the crisp crinkle of a plastic bottle. She pressed the cold water into Y/N’s unresisting hand.
“Drink,” she said, her voice a low murmur that was both command and comfort.
Y/N obeyed, the cool liquid a welcome shock against her dry throat. The silence that followed was not empty or awkward; it was a dense, protective blanket, woven from shared understanding and unspoken history.
“I didn’t think it would hit like this,” Y/N confessed, the words barely disturbing the air.
Natasha leaned a hip against the edge of the desk, her posture deceptively casual. “What?”
“The waiting.” Y/N’s gaze was fixed on the bottle in her hands, tracing the condensation with a fingertip. “I keep telling myself it’s part of the job. That things come up. That I shouldn’t expect…” Her jaw tightened, cutting off the word before it could fully form. “Anything.”
Natasha didn’t rush to fill the pause. She let the silence stretch, giving Y/N the space to voice the ache that had clearly been festering.
“You don’t ask for much,” Natasha said, her tone even, certain.
A weak, humorless laugh escaped Y/N’s lips. “That’s not true.”
“It is,” Natasha countered, her voice leaving no room for argument. “You just don’t see it.”
Y/N finally looked up, meeting Natasha’s gaze. Her friend’s expression was carefully composed, a mask of professional calm, but beneath it, something had shifted. A resolve had hardened in her eyes, a sharpness that was both reassuring and slightly dangerous.
“You stayed,” Y/N whispered, the realization landing with the force of a revelation.
Natasha gave a single, decisive nod. “I said I would.”
“You always do.”
“Yes,” Natasha agreed, her voice dropping to a near-inaudible promise. “I do.” ___ The anniversary came three days later, and Jason missed it. Y/N understood the nature of the oversight the moment she stood alone in their apartment, a phantom in the dress she’d bought weeks ago for a dinner that existed only in her mind. The reservation time bled into the past, each minute a small, sharp betrayal. At twenty past, she called his phone, only to be met with the cool, impersonal void of his voicemail. At thirty-five past, a text lit up her screen.
Running late. Don’t wait up. Rain check?
Rain check. The words were a key turning in a lock she hadn’t known was there, and the feeling that flooded her chest wasn’t anger, but something colder, something hollow. She stared at her reflection in the darkened window, at a woman who looked exactly as she always did: composed, capable, alone. She shed the dress without ceremony, a ritual devoid of passion. There were no tears, no shattered glass, only the quiet methodical act of returning to work.
Strategic Ops was a sanctuary of dimmed lights and hushed efficiency when she arrived. She let herself into her office, the door clicking shut behind her, and sank into her chair, her gaze lost in the sprawling galaxy of the city beyond the glass. She didn’t know how long she sat adrift in that quiet sea before the knock came, a soft, precise rap on the door.
“Come in,” she said, her voice on autopilot.
Natasha stepped inside, her presence an immediate anchor. Y/N didn’t ask how she knew to find her; she never did.
“You should be home,” Y/N said, the words sounding thin even to her own ears.
Natasha closed the door, sealing them in. “So should you.”
A brittle laugh escaped Y/N. “Guess we both missed the memo.”
Natasha crossed the room, stopping a careful few feet away, a space that was neither intrusive nor distant. “You don’t have to justify why you’re here,” she said, her voice level.
Y/N swallowed against the knot in her throat. “I didn’t want to be alone.” The admission felt like a fissure cracking open her carefully constructed facade.
Natasha didn’t flinch from the rawness of it. “Okay,” she said simply. She moved to the chair opposite Y/N’s desk and sat, her forearms resting loosely on her thighs, a portrait of unwavering calm. “I’m not going anywhere,” she added.
Something in Y/N’s chest, a dam she hadn’t known she was holding back, finally gave way. She pressed the heels of her palms to her eyes, regulating her breath with a precision born of long practice. “This isn’t fair,” she whispered. “To you.”
Natasha tilted her head, a gesture of quiet consideration. “I didn’t say it was.”
“You don’t owe me this,” Y/N pressed, the guilt a sour taste.
“I know,” Natasha replied, her gaze unwavering. “I’m choosing it.”
That word again. Choosing. Y/N looked at her then, truly looked, past the mask of the spy and the friend, to the woman underneath. She saw the calm certainty in her posture, the way she didn’t demand or expect, the way her presence felt like space to breathe, not a weight to bear. Jason made her feel like a problem to be managed. Natasha made her feel like a person who could simply exist.
They stayed like that for a long time, two figures in a silent room, sharing nothing but the air.
The final blow was struck not in the quiet of their home, but in the sterile light of a briefing room. It was a critical debrief Y/N had scheduled for weeks, with oversight and external observers watching their every move. It went live without Jason. He was late. Again. Y/N adjusted on the fly, her voice a steady current as she took questions and fielded concerns, holding the room with the same unshakeable competence that was her signature.
When Jason finally slipped in fifteen minutes late, rain-spattered and flashing an apologetic grin, the atmosphere in the room shifted palpably.
“Oh, good,” one of the observers muttered, a note of relief in his voice. “He’s here.”
Jason offered that easy, disarming smile. “Sorry, traffic.”
Y/N didn’t spare him a glance. She didn’t have the time.
When the meeting adjourned, Jason caught up to her in the hallway, his fingers closing around her elbow. “Hey,” he said, his voice soft, placating. “You could’ve texted.”
Her patience didn’t shatter. It snapped, cleanly and without warning. “I did,” she said, her voice devoid of inflection.
Jason blinked. “What?”
“Last night,” Y/N replied, still walking. “And the night before that. And Vienna.”
His smile finally faltered. “Y/N…”
“No,” she said, stopping and turning to face him. Her voice was as steady as her hands. “I don’t need excuses.”
His jaw tightened, a familiar prelude to a defense. “I had things going on.”
“So did I,” she replied, her gaze level.
He scoffed, a light, dismissive sound. “You’re making this a bigger deal than it is.”
And in that moment, something inside her went very still. It wasn’t a realization; it was a fact, settling into its final, undeniable shape. He would never be there. Not in the way she needed. And he would always, always, make that her fault.
Jason reached for her again, his expression shifting to one of placating command. “Let’s not do this here.”
“We’re not doing anything,” Y/N said. She took a deliberate step back, breaking the circuit between them.
From down the corridor, Natasha stood in the shadow of an alcove, watching. Not intervening. Just witnessing.
That was the moment Natasha decided. Not because Y/N was breaking, but because she was finally, clearly, seeing. ___ Natasha did not move with haste. She moved with intent, a quiet, steady recalibration. She made sure she was present, not as a shadow, but as a fixture. She waited outside debriefings, walked Y/N to her car, stayed when Jason didn’t. There was no campaign of disparagement, no pressure for a confession. She simply allowed the void of Jason’s absence to fill itself with the solid fact of her own presence.
One night, after a shift that had stretched into eternity, Y/N slumped into the chair beside Natasha in the empty briefing room, exhaustion carved into the very lines of her posture.
“I keep expecting him to show up,” she admitted, her voice thin. “And then he doesn’t. And I don’t know why that still surprises me.”
Natasha’s voice was a low hum in the quiet room. “Because you care.”
Y/N gave a slow, weary nod. “I think I always will. A little.”
“That’s allowed,” Natasha said.
Y/N turned to look at her. “And you?”
Natasha didn’t answer immediately. When she did, her voice was a steady, unwavering line. “I’m not waiting for him to be better.”
Y/N’s breath caught in her throat.
Natasha met her gaze, her own clear and direct. “I’m not asking you to choose me,” she continued. “I’m choosing you.”
The words settled between them, dangerous in their honesty, irrevocable in their finality. There were no promises, no pressure. Only truth. Y/N didn’t respond. She didn’t have to. For the first time in a long time, someone had said exactly what they meant and stayed. And Natasha Romanoff, having made her decision, did not intend to lose. Not this time.
The fight didn’t begin with a shout, but with a silence. Jason didn’t come home that night. Y/N didn’t text him. That was new. She sat alone at the kitchen table long after midnight, Strategic Ops files abandoned in favor of the steady, grounding weight of stillness. Her phone lay face up beside her, unlit, unmoving. For the first time, the quiet didn’t feel like waiting. It felt like space.
He arrived just after one. There was no apology, no disarming smile. The door shut harder than necessary, the sound echoing through the apartment like a full stop.
“You didn’t answer me,” he said.
Y/N looked up slowly. “You didn’t ask anything.”
Jason tossed his jacket onto the counter, his movements sharp, agitated. “I texted you.”
“You told me you’d be late,” she replied evenly. “Again.”
His jaw flexed. “That’s not the point.”
She stood, pushing her chair back with deliberate calm. “Then what is?”
Jason laughed once, a short, incredulous sound. “You’ve been different.”
Y/N folded her arms. “I’ve been paying attention.”
His eyes narrowed. “To her.”
There it was. The accusation, finally unmasked.
“This isn’t about Natasha,” Y/N said.
Jason took a step closer. “Everything is about her lately.”
She didn’t retreat. “That’s not true.”
“You’re lying,” he snapped. “To me. To yourself.”
The volume rose then, not quite a yell, but sharper, edged with frustration. “Lower your voice,” Y/N said.
Jason scoffed. “You don’t get to tell me what to do.”
The words hit harder than she expected. She felt something inside her settle, not fear, not anger, but a cold, hard finality.
“You don’t get to talk to me like that,” she said.
Jason’s laugh was hollow. “There it is. Director Barton.”
She flinched despite herself. He noticed, his mouth curving in a satisfied smirk. “You think you’re untouchable now.”
“I think you’re crossing a line,” she replied.
He stepped closer. Too close. “Funny,” he said quietly. “That’s exactly what people say about her.”
Y/N’s pulse ticked up. “Step back.”
Jason didn’t. “You like that she defends you,” he continued. “Makes you feel special. Chosen.”
“I didn’t ask her to-”
“Don’t lie to me!” His voice cracked, sharp and sudden. The sound ricocheted off the walls.
Y/N held her ground. “I’m not.”
Jason’s breathing was heavier now, his chest rising and falling. “You think you get to embarrass me. Undermine me. And I’m just supposed to, what? Take it?”
“I never embarrassed you,” Y/N said. “You did that yourself.”
The backhand came fast. Not a push, not a shove, but a full, brutal swing. The contact was sudden, his hand striking her cheek with enough force to snap her head to the side. She could feel the imprint of his ring, hot against her skin. The sound was loud; the silence that followed was deafening. Y/N staggered back a step, her hand flying to her face as her ears rang. Jason froze for half a second, his expression shifting not to remorse, but to calculation.
“I didn’t mean-” he started.
“Get away from me,” Y/N said. Her voice didn’t shake. That seemed to unnerve him more than anything. “I said get away from me,” she repeated.
Jason reached for her wrist. She twisted instinctively, but he was stronger, his grip tightening, fingers digging into her skin. “You’re not walking away from this,” he said. “Not after what you’ve done.”
She yanked back hard. “Let go.”
He didn’t. He shoved her, not across the room, but with enough force to send her stumbling into the counter. Her hip struck first, a sharp, bright flare of pain. Jason loomed over her, his breath hot, his eyes wild. “You don’t get to make me look small.”
Something inside her snapped clean in two. “You did that,” Y/N said, her voice ringing with a terrible clarity. “All by yourself.”
His hand came up again. This time, she was ready. She shoved him back with both palms, not elegant, not controlled, but pure, raw survival. He stumbled, surprised more than hurt. That was enough. She bolted.
Jason grabbed for her again, his fingers catching the fabric of her shirt, yanking her back just long enough for her to twist free and run for the door.
“Y/N!” he shouted. “Don’t you dare!”
The door slammed behind her. She didn’t wait for the elevator. She took the stairs two at a time, lungs burning, heart pounding a frantic rhythm that drowned out everything else. Her cheek throbbed. Her wrist ached. But what hurt the most was the clarity. ___ She didn’t remember making the call, only the sound of Natasha’s voice answering on the first ring, a lifeline thrown into the abyss.
“Hello?”
“I need you,” Y/N said. Three words. They were enough.
“I’m on my way,” Natasha replied, her voice a steady, unbreakable promise. “Stay where you are.”
The command anchored her. Y/N collapsed onto the concrete landing of the stairwell, the adrenaline finally bleeding out of her, leaving a tremor in its wake. She pressed her forehead to her knees, breathing through the sharp, blooming ache in her cheek. She felt stupid. She felt furious. And she felt free in a way that terrified her.
Footsteps echoed below moments later, fast and purposeful. Natasha appeared at the turn of the stairs, her eyes sweeping over Y/N in a single, devastating glance that took in everything. Y/N didn’t wonder how she’d known where to find her; she simply accepted it as fact. Natasha knelt in front of her, her hands hovering just short of contact, a question in the space between them.
“Can I touch you?”
Y/N nodded.
Natasha’s fingers were impossibly gentle as they made contact, one hand cupping the uninjured side of Y/N’s jaw, the other brushing back her hair to examine the skin already swelling and darkening. Natasha’s own jaw tightened, a subtle, dangerous shift.
“Did he do this?” she asked, her voice dangerously quiet.
“Yes.”
No excuses. No minimization. Just the truth.
Natasha exhaled slowly through her nose, a controlled release of a fury that must have been immense. “Okay.” She helped Y/N to her feet, one arm a steady, unyielding band around her waist, guiding her toward the exit.
“Where are we going?” Y/N asked, her voice thin and reedy.
“Somewhere safe,” Natasha replied.
They did not go back to the apartment. They did not go back to the Tower. They went to Natasha’s.
Natasha’s apartment was an exercise in control, every surface spare and clean, every object exactly where it was meant to be. Y/N sat on the edge of the leather couch while Natasha moved with practiced efficiency, returning with ice, a first-aid kit, and a glass of water. But beneath the calm precision was something coiled and violent, a predator banked and waiting.
“Sit still,” Natasha said, her tone softening as she pressed the ice pack to Y/N’s cheek with exquisite care.
Y/N hissed at the contact. “It’s not that bad.”
Natasha’s eyes flicked up to hers, silencing her. “Don’t.”
Y/N fell silent. They stayed like that for a long while, the shock giving way to a sharper, more insistent pain as the reality of the night settled in.
“I should have seen it,” Y/N whispered.
Natasha shook her head once, a firm, decisive motion. “No.”
“I’m not stupid,” Y/N said, a thread of anger weaving through her voice now. “I knew he was controlling. I knew he…”
“You knew what you could handle,” Natasha interrupted, her voice calm and absolute. “And you survived the rest.”
Y/N swallowed hard against the lump in her throat. “He said I made him feel small.”
Natasha’s mouth curved, not in humor, but in something colder and sharper. “Good.”
A broken laugh escaped Y/N, dissolving into hot, silent tears that tracked down her cheeks. Natasha didn’t rush her. She simply stayed, a solid, grounding presence in the storm. When Y/N finally looked up, her eyes red and fierce, Natasha was right there.
“I don’t think he loves me,” Y/N said, the words a fragile admission.
Natasha didn’t hesitate. “I know he doesn’t,” she said.
Y/N flinched. “You don’t know that.”
“I do,” Natasha replied quietly. “Because love doesn’t bruise. And it doesn’t trap.”
A heavy silence fell between them, thick with unspoken history. Natasha inhaled slowly, as if bracing herself.
“I’m going to say something,” she said. “You can tell me to stop.”
Y/N nodded.
“I don’t think he loves you the way you deserve,” Natasha said. “And I know I do.”
No flourish. No plea. Just a statement of fact, delivered with the quiet force of a conviction long held.
Y/N stared at her, breathless. “That’s dangerous,” she whispered.
“Yes,” Natasha agreed, her gaze unwavering. “For both of us.”
“You’re not trying to save me,” Y/N said, it wasn't a question.
“No,” Natasha replied. “I’m telling you the truth.”
Y/N’s chest felt impossibly tight. “I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.”
Natasha leaned back slightly, a deliberate gesture to give her space. “You don’t have to decide anything tonight.”
“But?” Y/N pressed.
“But you don’t go back,” Natasha said. The certainty in her voice was unyielding, a bedrock of fact.
As if on cue, Jason’s name lit up Y/N’s phone where it sat on the coffee table. It rang once. Then again. Natasha didn’t look at it. Y/N did, her body tensing with the familiar, instinctual pull to explain, to soften, to fix the unfixable.
Natasha saw it. She reached out, not to touch Y/N’s hand, but to rest her own beside it on the cushion, a silent offer of solidarity.
“You don’t owe him closure,” Natasha said softly. “You owe yourself safety.”
The phone went silent. Y/N reached out and turned it face down.
“I’m scared,” she admitted, the words barely a breath.
“I know,” Natasha replied. “I’m here.”
Y/N nodded, a shuddering breath escaping her. For the first time, she let herself believe it.
Outside, the city went on, unaware and indifferent. Inside, something irrevocable had broken. And something else, quiet, fierce, and real, had finally begun to build. ___ Y/N did not go back to the apartment. That decision settled into her bones sometime before dawn, when the city outside Natasha’s windows shifted from neon to gray and the quiet stopped feeling temporary. Her cheek still ached, a dull, honest echo of the night before. She welcomed the pain. Pain was a language that didn’t lie.
Natasha was already awake, seated at the kitchen counter, a mug of coffee untouched before her. Her posture was alert without being tense, a predator at rest. She looked up as Y/N entered the room, her gaze flicking automatically to the bruise marring her face.
“You slept,” Natasha said.
“Yes,” Y/N replied. “Deep.”
Natasha nodded once, a flicker of satisfaction in her eyes. “Good.”
There was no discussion of Jason. No rehearsal of what came next. That chapter had closed the moment Y/N had walked out and not looked back. She showered, dressed with deliberate care, the act not one of armor or defiance, but of ownership. When she emerged, Natasha handed her an ice pack and her coat.
“I’m walking you in,” Natasha said.
“I know.”
The compound hummed with its usual precision, the machinery of power grinding forward without pause. It felt surreal, how the world continued unchanged when hers had split cleanly down the middle. Y/N moved through it anyway. Agents greeted her with nods. Analysts requested clarification on deployment timelines. She answered calmly, efficiently, as if nothing had happened.
Clint found out before Y/N had even put her things down. He didn’t hear it gently. No careful phrasing, no soft lead-in. He saw it. He saw the mark when Y/N turned her head too quickly as the elevator opened and he stepped into the corridor, the light catching the faint bloom of color along her jaw. The space went very still.
“What,” Clint said quietly, “is that.”
Y/N froze.
Natasha didn’t. “Jason,” she said.
The word detonated.
Clint moved. Not toward Y/N, but past her, a body in motion toward a singular, violent purpose. “Is he here?” he bit out, already turning for the elevator.
Natasha was already there. She intercepted him mid-stride, her hand snapping out to catch his forearm, her grip iron-hard. “No.”
“Get out of my way,” Clint growled, his voice low and shaking as he tried to wrench free.
“Not like this,” Natasha said, her own voice a steel cable. “You go now, you lose everything.”
“I don’t care,” Clint snapped, his strength surging. “He put his hands on her.”
“I know,” Natasha said, unyielding against his struggles. “And if you walk out that door, you make it about you.”
That stopped him for half a heartbeat. Not enough. He tried again, his rage a barely contained inferno. “He’s dead.”
“And he’ll still own the narrative,” Natasha shot back. “And she’ll pay for it.”
Clint’s breath came fast, his chest heaving. “I won’t let him get away with it.”
Y/N stepped forward. “Clint.”
Her voice wasn’t loud. It cut through his fury anyway.
He turned, and really looked at her then. He saw the bruise, but he also saw the steadiness beneath it, the way she was standing upright instead of curled inward.
“Don’t,” she said.
Clint’s face twisted in anguish. “He hurt you.”
“Yes.”
“And you’re asking me to do nothing?”
“I’m asking you to let me do this,” Y/N said. She stepped closer, close enough to take his trembling hands, grounding him by force of familiarity. “If you go after him, he becomes the victim. He wants that.”
Clint swallowed hard, his knuckles white. “I can’t stand this,” he said hoarsely. “Standing here while-”
“I know,” Y/N said. “But I need you here. With me. Not in a cell. Not suspended. Not proving him right.”
Natasha loosened her grip but didn’t release him. “She’s right.”
Clint squeezed his eyes shut, his jaw clenched so tight it looked painful. For a moment, it seemed he might still bolt. Then, slowly, he exhaled. Once. Twice. His shoulders sagged a fraction.
“Okay,” he said, the word tasting like ash. “Okay.”
Y/N didn’t let go of his hands until the tremor eased, until he finally wrapped his arms around her, pulling her into a fierce, protective hug. That was the moment she understood something vital: If she didn’t end this herself, Jason would keep pulling other people into the blast radius.
Y/N walked calmly into Strategic Ops. Maria Hill spotted her immediately. One look at Y/N’s face and Hill’s professional composure hardened into something lethal.
“Do you need anything?” Hill asked quietly, her voice low enough to carry only between them.
Y/N shook her head. “I need a meeting.”
Hill didn’t ask why. “I’ll call Legal. HR. Security Oversight,” she continued, her mind already working, already building the framework. “You won’t be alone in this.”
Y/N exhaled slowly, the weight of the night lifting just enough to let her breathe. “Thank you.” ___ Jason arrived thinking he still had leverage. That was his second mistake. He came early, confidence wrapped in a thin shell of tension, a smile ready to deploy the moment he saw Y/N through the glass walls of Strategic Ops. For a flicker of a second, relief washed over his face, followed by confusion when she didn’t return the gesture.
They stood across from each other in the conference room, the transparent walls exposing them to the corridor, a silent warning of the stage they now occupied. Jason spoke first.
“Thank God,” he said, pitching his voice for an audience of one. “I’ve been trying to reach you.”
Y/N offered no answer.
“You vanished,” he said, irritation threading through his tone. “You don’t get to do that.”
“I do,” Y/N finally replied, her voice flat. “And I did.”
His jaw tightened. “You’re overreacting.”
“No,” Y/N said, her tone dangerously even. “I’m responding.”
Jason took a step closer, lowering his voice into a conspiratorial rasp. “You want to talk about last night? Fine. Things got heated. I lost my temper. It happens.”
“You hit me,” Y/N said.
The words landed like a controlled detonation. Jason froze. “You don’t say that,” he hissed. “You don’t get to-”
“You. Hit. Me.” Y/N continued, each word a deliberate, hammering blow. “And then you tried to stop me from leaving.”
Jason’s eyes darted to the glass walls, to the movement beyond them. Panic flared, quickly smothered by a fresh wave of anger. “You think this won’t ruin you?” he snapped. “You think people won’t ask questions?”
“They already are,” Y/N replied calmly.
The door opened behind them. Maria Hill entered, followed by two people Jason recognized immediately: Legal Oversight and Internal Affairs. Jason’s confidence fractured.
“This is ridiculous,” he scoffed, forcing a brittle laugh. “You’re staging an ambush now?”
Hill didn’t sit. “This is an investigation.”
Jason’s gaze snapped to Y/N, betrayal warring with fury in his eyes. “You did this.”
Y/N met his stare without flinching. “You did.”
What followed was procedural and devastating. Statements. Documentation. Security footage from the stairwell. Text records. Medical verification. Natasha’s testimony. Clint’s corroboration of prior behavior patterns. Jason tried denial. Then minimization. Then anger. It didn’t matter. The room was an indifferent machine, and it didn’t care how loud he got.
Hill folded her arms. “Jason Ore, effective immediately, your employment with this organization is terminated.”
The words rang in the sterile air. Jason stared at her, his face slack with disbelief. “You can’t-”
“You violated conduct policy,” Hill continued, her voice cutting through his. “You assaulted a colleague. You abused your position. Security will escort you out.”
Jason looked around the room, desperate now. “This is because of her,” he snarled, pointing a trembling finger at Natasha, visible through the glass. “She turned you against me.”
Hill’s expression went glacial. “You did that yourself.”
Security stepped forward. Jason’s voice rose, cracking with a final, desperate plea. “You’re destroying me!”
Y/N spoke for the last time. “If you were a better man,” she said quietly, “this wouldn’t have happened.”
Jason was escorted out in full view of the corridor. People watched. No one intervened. His badge was confiscated. His access cut. His authority, gone. There was no reassignment, no soft landing. There was no coming back.
Natasha was waiting outside Strategic Ops. Not hovering. Not guarding. Just there.
Y/N stopped in front of her. “It’s over.”
Natasha searched her face, checking for doubt, for grief, for regret. Finding none, she nodded. “Good.”
Jason’s firing rippled outward. Quietly. Efficiently. Meetings canceled. His name scrubbed from projects. His influence evaporated. No one defended him. Y/N didn’t track it. She didn’t need to. She reclaimed herself instead.
Natasha stayed, not hovering, not claiming. Just present.
“I don’t feel broken,” Y/N said one evening.
Natasha watched her closely. “Good.”
“I feel awake.”
Natasha stepped closer. “That can be dangerous.”
Y/N smiled faintly. “So are you.”
The air between them shifted. Natasha lifted a hand, stopping just short of Y/N’s face. “You’re in control,” she said. “Always.”
Y/N closed the distance herself. “I’m choosing this,” she whispered.
Natasha’s hand cupped her jaw, gentle, reverent. “So am I.” ___ Nine months changed the shape of things. Not loudly. Not all at once. It changed them the way water changes stone: by persistence, by pressure, by never quite letting go.
Natasha woke first. She always did.
The room was dark but not empty, citylight filtering in through the sheer curtains, painting soft lines across the bed. The air was warm, heavy with summer and sleep and the quiet intimacy of a place that had learned two bodies well. Y/N was curled into her without thinking about it. That was the change. An arm slung across Natasha’s waist, hand resting open against her stomach like it belonged there. A knee hooked over Natasha’s thigh, anchoring her in place. Y/N’s face was pressed into the hollow beneath her shoulder, breath slow and even, lips parted slightly as she slept. No armor.
Natasha stayed still, careful not to wake her. She let herself feel it, the weight, the heat, the trust implicit in being held like this. In being needed not as a shield, not as a blade, but as something solid and wanted. Three months ago, Y/N hadn’t slept like this. Three months ago, she’d lain rigid on her side, polite even in rest, leaving space where fear still lived. She’d woken at the smallest sound, flinched at sudden movement, apologized for taking up room. Now she sprawled. Now she breathed. Now she dreamed with her whole body.
Natasha brushed her thumb, barely there, along the inside of Y/N’s wrist, over the steady pulse she’d memorized in moments far less calm than this.
Y/N shifted, her nose nudging into Natasha’s skin, her fingers tightening reflexively at her waist. “Don’t go,” Y/N murmured, her voice rough with sleep.
Natasha smiled to herself in the darkness. “I’m not,” she said quietly. “I have other plans.” Natasha’s voice was a low, dangerous purr against Y/N’s hair. “Plans that involve you staying right where you are.”
The smile in Natasha’s voice was a promise of things to come. She shifted slowly, a deliberate, unhurried movement that was all muscle and grace, turning in Y/N’s loose embrace until they were face to face. The citylight was a soft gray wash, illuminating the curve of Y/N’s cheek, the fullness of her lips parted in sleep. The sheets were a tangled mess around their ankles, a testament to the night before, leaving them skin to skin in the warm air.
Natasha leaned in, her own lips ghosting over Y/N’s, a breath of a kiss. A soft sigh escaping Y/N as her eyes fluttered open, hazy with sleep and trust. “Natasha,” she breathed, the name a welcome home.
“I’m right here,” Natasha murmured, her voice a low rumble that vibrated through Y/N’s chest. Her hand, which had been resting on Y/N’s hip, slid up the smooth plane of her side, tracing the curve of her ribs before moving higher to cup the weight of her breast. Her touch was a question, a gentle exploration that asked for nothing but offered everything. Y/N arched into it, a silent, eager yes.
Natasha’s thumb brushed against the already pebbled nipple, and Y/N’s breath hitched. “I told you I had plans,” Natasha whispered, her lips finding the sensitive spot just below Y/N’s ear. She nipped gently, then soothed the small sting with her tongue. “But I need you awake, lyubimaya”
Y/N’s hands came up to tangle in Natasha’s hair, holding her close. “I am” she gasped as Natasha’s mouth traveled down her neck, leaving a trail of fire. Natasha took her time, mapping Y/N’s body with her hands and mouth. She was a conductor, and Y/N was her instrument, and she was playing a masterpiece of slow, deliberate pleasure.
Her mouth closed over Y/N’s breast, her tongue swirling around the nipple before she sucked, gently at first, then with more pressure. Y/N cried out, her back arching off the bed, pressing herself deeper into Natasha’s mouth. Natasha’s other hand slid down Y/N’s stomach, her fingers reaching the apex of her thighs, a silent, teasing promise.
“Tell me what you want,” Natasha commanded, her voice soft but firm. It wasn’t an order; it was an invitation.
“You,” Y/N moaned. “Everything. Please, Nat.”
Natasha smiled against her skin. “My pleasure” She shifted, moving down the bed until she was settled between Y/N’s thighs, pushing them gently open. Y/N was already wet, glistening in the dim light, and the sight made Natasha’s own breath catch. She lowered her head, her breath warm against Y/N’s core.
“Look at me,” Natasha said, her eyes locking with Y/N’s as she leaned in and took the first, slow lick. Y/N cried out, her back arching off the bed. Natasha’s tongue was skilled and knowing, finding every sensitive spot with an artist’s precision. She licked and sucked, her movements measured and controlled, building the pleasure layer by exquisite layer. One hand came up to rest on Y/N’s lower stomach, holding her down, grounding her as the pleasure began to crest.
“Natasha, I… I can’t…” Y/N panted, her hands fisting in the sheets.
“Yes, you can,” Natasha murmured, her voice a dark promise. “Let go for me. I’ve got you.” She increased the pressure, her tongue circling Y/N’s clit with relentless, perfect rhythm. She slid one finger inside, then another, curling them just so to find that hidden bundle of nerves.
The combination was devastating. Y/N shattered, a cry tearing from her throat as her orgasm crashed over her, waves of pleasure so intense. Natasha didn’t stop, drawing it out, milking every last drop of sensation until Y/N was a trembling, boneless mess beneath her.
Natasha kissed her way back up Y/N’s body, her lips gentle against her sweat slicked skin. She settled beside her, pulling her into her arms as Y/N’s breathing slowly returned to normal.
“You’re incredible,” Y/N whispered, her voice hoarse.
Natasha just hummed, a low, satisfied sound. “We’re not done yet.” She captured Y/N’s lips in a deep, possessive kiss, letting her taste herself on Natasha’s tongue. Her hand drifted down Y/N’s body again, her fingers finding her still-sensitive clit. Y/N jolted, oversensitive, but the touch was gentle, a slow, circular motion that quickly reignited the embers of her desire.
This time, Natasha’s pace was different. Faster, more demanding. She kissed Y/N with a fierce hunger, her fingers working her clit with expert precision. Y/N met her passion for passion, her hands roaming over Natasha’s body, pulling her closer, needing more.
“Again,” Natasha growled against her lips. “Give me another one.”
Y/N was lost in a haze of sensation, the world narrowing to the point where Natasha’s fingers touched her, the pressure building again, higher and higher than before. Natasha’s other hand slid down to join the first, two fingers sliding easily into Y/N’s wet heat, pumping in and out in a steady, driving rhythm that pushed her closer and closer to the edge.
“Come for me,” Natasha demanded, her voice a raw, primal command that sent Y/N flying over the edge. Her second orgasm was even more intense than the first, a blinding, all-consuming wave of pleasure that left her gasping and sobbing Natasha’s name.
Natasha held her through it, her movements slowing, gentling, until Y/N was limp, her body humming with a deep, satisfied languor. She pressed soft kisses to Y/N’s forehead, her eyelids, her nose.
Y/N blinked her eyes open, a slow, sated smile spreading across her face. “Wow,” she breathed.
Natasha smiled back, her expression soft, her eyes filled with a love so deep it took Y/N’s breath away. She brushed a stray strand of hair from Y/N’s face, her touch infinitely tender.
“Marry me,” Natasha said. It wasn’t a question. It was a statement of fact, a vow spoken in the quiet aftermath, as natural and undeniable as the love that filled the room. “We’re doing this. You and me. Forever.”
Tears welled in Y/N’s eyes, but they were tears of pure, unadulterated joy. She didn’t need to think about it, didn’t need to hesitate. The answer had been written on her soul for months.
“Yes,” she whispered, pulling Natasha down for a kiss that sealed their promise.









