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Artist & Actor chapter 4 pt 2: More Than You Know

A/N hiiiiiiiiii, sooo guess who’s back for 2019 with all the Fionn you can handle ??? its meee. Im so so sorry for being gone for so long, but works been crazy and I needed a new laptop annnd… maaaybe some personal things were taking up so time ;). But to all my loyal followers for staying, I thank you from the bottom of my heart, and to the crazy amount of new followers ive gotten over my little hiatus (at least it was shorter than One Directions) thank you thank you thank you, and welcome to the crazy world that is me. Anyway, I promised yall angsty smut and here is it!!! I will be updating my masterlist soon and getting it fixed I my home page, But here it is.

The sun was so bright, why was it always so freaking bright in the mornings, and why couldn’t the curtains just ever keep it fully away. You hesitantly opened your eyes, immediately squinting from the rough night’s sleep you got, you couldn’t sleep well after the dream, not with all those thoughts swimming around in your head. After laying there for a good five minutes, finally grabbing your phone and seeing a message from Fionn.

-Breakfast? How about at 10 at a new place La Madeleine?-

-Sure, I’ll see you there.-

You had to bite down a smile, feeling instantly awake just from the mere thought of getting to be with Fionn, but then it happens, you get that feeling in your gut as a blush covers your cheeks, images from your dream flashing before your eyes. There was no way you could hang out with Fionn, not with it just being the two of you, it was going to be weird and you were going to act awkward.

You hear three knocks at your door, immediately jumping up as soon as you hear Harry “Oohh Y/N, it’s time to wake up” he said in a sing song voice, yelling from the other side of the door. You quickly opened the door, looking a bit disheveled after being pulled from your thoughts so quickly. “Harry, it’s eight AM, why are you yelling?” After getting a good look at him, you could see that he had been on one of his runs, face covered in sweat, his beanie on his head and his Donut hoodie adorning him. “Because it’s morning Love, it’s the best part of the day, the beginning”.

You let him into your room, looking at him as he did that side smirk of his, you knowing he had something he wanted to say. “What Harry, what is it?” You asked, a tad bit of annoyance lacing your voice as you shoot your eyes over to him, arms crossed and head slightly tilted. “Oh nothing, just wondering if I’m getting those godchildren now”. You looked at him puzzled, eyebrows furrowing and face slightly pinching up, you step towards him, one eyebrow raising in question “um, what?” Harry’s fully laughing by now as he places his hand on your shoulder, giving it a squeeze. Your face just becomes more confused as you begin to shake your head at him, lips parted a bit. “Y/N, look you don’t have to hide things from me, I came to your room last night to return this”. He held up a key to your room, dangling it in front of your face, you angrily snatching it from his hand, feeling as if you were being taunted by a small child, although this wasn’t a small child at all. This was a 6’0 muscular 22 year old man. “I heard you last night love, you and Fionn I mean. You sounded quite preoccupied, so I decided to come back this morning. But hey I guess it was pretty good from how you sounded”.

Your face instantly fell as you wrapped your arms around yourself tighter, going to sit on the bed because of the lump in your throat and the sickness building in your stomach as it tightens. You drop your face in your hands, running them over your head and leaving them wrapped around the back of your neck you take your lips into your mouth. “Wasn’t preoccupied H” you mumble out, Harry not being able to make out what you said as he comes and sits next to you, placing his hand comfortingly on your back and soothingly rubbing it “What’s wrong Y/N, what are you talking about?” You could hear the worry in his voice, you looked at him and could see how concerned his green eyes looked as they stared at you. “It was a dream.... I had a dream about him Harry, a stupid sexual dream and now… now the whole freaking cast probably knows about it including Fionn and -” Harry could see that you were freaking out, shushing you as he placed his hands on the sides of your face making you look at him, your face full of panic and worry; fear. “It’s okay, it’s okay pet, no one heard anything, no one but me and I barely heard, stuck my little nosey ear to your door to see if you were awake before knocking, had to listen real close”. Harry pulled your head up, holding your face in his large, warm, and strangely soft hands, probably from those rose sugar scrubs he’s always on about. “There’s no need to fear anything Y/N, I promise you that”. Looking deep into your best friends captivatingly green eyes took away all your doubt, all your fear, you had to be okay when it was Harry telling you it would be. “Besides, Fionn didn’t sleep here last night, stayed the night with his agent cause they were out so late, He told me last night, I just figured that he had decided to come back without telling me, found his way into your bed” Harry comfortingly says as he brushes your hair from your face, cracking that sideways smirk that he has letting you know there was something going on in your cheeky friends head “What’s that look for?” you ask confused, brows knitting as you look up at him “Oh nothing, just the fact that Fionn called me last night and asked me to keep an eye on you, said he knew you were probably going to go drinking with the guys, didn’t want anything happening to you”. You couldn’t help the huge smile that found its way to your lips, biting it down as a warm feeling takes you over. He was worried about you, really genuinely worried about you, having Harry check up on you. “He… he was worried about me?” you ask, voiced laced with astonishment as you stand up, slowly pacing your room with the dumbest grin on your face. “Sure was pet”. Is all Harry lets out, a grin on his lips matching yours. “Okay, okay, I’ve got to get ready, I’m supposed to be meeting him for breakfast” you say frantically as you start pacing your room, opening up the wardrobe and flipping through everything you own in there. “That’s my girl-” Harry says as he stands up, smiling before moving you out of his way, and grabbing out your sequin black and white hoodie tossing it onto your bed “Wear that one darling” he says with another smile, before grabbing your face and placing a chaste kiss to your forehead.

//

After doing your hair and makeup to perfection, well to where it looked perfectly unperfect, that messy ponytail so it didn’t look like you were trying too hard but you still looked charming as ever, and a makeup look that wasn’t too too detailed, you hopped into your uber and found your way to this new café Fionn had messaged you about. Walking past all the tables filled with strange faces, you clutch your purse a little harder, taking in a deep breath, your eyes searching for him, and finally they land on the most angelic, porcelain face you’ve ever seen, Fionn’s. You smile to yourself as you walk over, seeing him reading a newspaper and sipping on some coffee, glasses perched on the bridge of his nose and his hair a bit of a mess, but he still looked perfect to you.

“Hey” you say a little too enthusiastically as you smile down at him.

Fionn looks up at you with big eyes, choking a little on his coffee as he brushes the invisible crumbs from himself, standing up and immediately giving you a hug.

“Hey darling” Fionn says into your hair, almost contently, whimsically as his hand runs up and down your back.

You can’t help the smile on your face as you breathe him in deeply, memorizing the smell and this moment, just being in his arms for a minute and feeling like you were his and he yours.

Fionn hesitantly let go of you, holding you, arm’s length away as he smiles at you before pulling your seat out for you and having set himself after you and handing you a menu.

Y’all were sat outside, a beautiful garden area surrounding you, filled with alluring plants, but not nearly as alluring and captivating and the gorgeous boy sitting in front of you. You caught yourself staring, having to pull your eyes from him quickly before he noticed, little did you know he already did, and that’s why he had the little smirk on his face and he wasn’t looking at you, he didn’t want you to be embarrassed, like he knew you would be.

“So how was your night?” Fionn finally quipped out after you gave the waitress an order for a cold brew and chocolate raspberry croissant. You bite your lip for a second, remembering he had asked Harry to please keep an eye on you, the thought warming your heart and making you feel good and happy.

“It was good… Went out with the guys, had a few drinks, didn’t even get tipsy though” you say playfully smiling at him, your feet restless under the table as they rub back and forth over each other.

“That’s my good little responsible drinker… my good girl” He smiled at you, winking. His words made a shiver run down you, and it made butterflies in your stomach, it was the thought, you being his girl, his girl and no one else’s. You knew, this is the moment you knew that you were stupid, so so incredibly stupid for telling him you just wanted to be friends for now. It was all coming rushing back to you now, that first moment you saw him and he was the most beautiful boy you’d ever seen, there was something angelic about him, and still is. And then that night, the other night when you missed that date that you so very idiotically took, that was the moment you knew you loved him, sitting there in that freezing water in his arms In your own little world. That was it, you loved him, you loved Fionn Whitehead more than you’d ever loved anyone, it was him, it was always him and it always would be.

“Fionn, I-” Your phone started ringing at that very moment, at that exact moment, that moment you were going to tell him that you loved him, that you were in love with him and didn’t want to go without him anymore.

Those hazel eyes looked up at you through those glasses and you instantly forgot everything you were going to say, just sitting there listening to your phone ringing.

“I-I’m sorry I’ll just go take this real quick and I’ll be right back, promise” you say looking as deeply into his eyes as you can, him nodding as he takes another sip of his drink.

“Just be safe Y/N” you hear as you make your way up, standing up and answering your phone as you turn around to give him a thankful smile.

Stepping away to the quietest part of the restaurant to answer your phone, it was Blaze, you let out a sigh as you roll your eyes.

“Heeeey Y/N, I know I haven’t been in touch recently, but I was wondering if you wanted to make plans for that date again sometime soon”

Blaze was on the other end of the line sounding all too confident in himself, but why shouldn’t he, you did like him, and you’d already agreed to a date once with him.

“Look, Blaze, I’m really really sorry, I’d love too I really would… but, its just-” you found your words cut off with his, and what came out of his mouth you weren’t expecting in the least.

“I know Y/N, I know…. I’ve always known, you and him would come in that café every morning, the way you looked at each other but neither of you ever asking the other out, so, I thought I would, I thought I’d ask the pretty girl out that came into the café I work in every morning and maybe, just maybe the boy that she really liked would ask her himself… thought it may make him jealous enough to get the courage” he chuckled a little at the last part, trailing off quietly.

“So…. So you did all this for some strange girl that you don’t even know, some girl that you just wanted to help out

“Well… may have hoped slightly that that pretty strange girl may have liked me just a bit in case the boy she liked never got the courage to tell her that he felt the same” he said shyly in a small voice.

“Look Y/N, the offer is still here if you need it, if you need to make him jealous or realize what he’s missing out on, just call me or shoot me a text, I’ll help you out, think of it as a favor from a friend”

You were speechless, you didn’t know what to say, but you felt happy from how sweet this whole thing was, and from knowing you weren’t breaking his heart by telling him that it was Fionn you wanted to be with. “Thank you so much, and I’ll definitely keep in mind that date, I really love you Blaze…… for this I mean”

Fionn’s POV

The food had come, and he was wondering where you were, you had been a while out on your phone. He knew it was silly for him to wonder whether or not you were safe, but he couldn’t help it, he did, he worried about you all of the time.

“I’ll just go check on her and let her know her food is here” he muttered to himself as he stood up, searching around the outside garden for you.

Finally spotting you in a little shaded corner, the cutest smile on you face, making a grin tug at the corner of his lips, he feels stuck, stuck just staring at you and he thinks he’ll just watch for a moment. But, that’s when it happened, he heard those words fall from your lips.

“Thank you so much, and I’lll definitely keep in mind that date, I really love you Blaze……”

He felt his heart in his throat, he was shaky and couldn’t get enough air in his lungs. Those words couldn’t be true, you never even went on a date with that guy, you…. You didn’t spend time with him like you did Fionn.

Fionn couldn’t stomach to stand there any longer and hear anymore of this, of what is happening, of what’s making his heart feel like it is breaking into a thousand little pieces. Turning quickly to get out of there you accidentally spot him, smiling as you say bye to Blaze.

Y/N’s POV

“Fionn, wait up” you call as you walk after him,

“Sorry that call took so long, I wasn’t expecting that…” you trail off as he turns around, face red matching his watery eyes as he sucks his cheeks in to keep from crying in front of you, clenching his jaw and avoiding your eyes.

“Sweetie….What’s wrong?” you ask with concern lacing your voice, fingers gently landing on his jaw to turn his face to yours “What’s wrong” you ask softly again, accenting the words so he knows you’re actually worried about him.

“Don’t call me that… you don’t get to call me that… sweetie” he said the word with venom dripping from his voice, through his clenched teeth. You hadn’t even realized that you had called him that, it just slipped.

“Isn’t he the only person you should be calling that since you love him so much?” you looked at Fionn completely astonished, mouth open slightly and eyes wide with furrowed brows, staring into those beautiful eyes again, except this time instead of happiness it was hurt filling them, and you never wanted to see them like that again because it put this pain in your heart, and actual pain that you could feel.

“Fionn..” you went to say softly, trying to keep your tears back as you go to wipe his. “I don’t want to hear it Y/N, its not like you’re mine anyways, don’t have a right do I? Besides, I brought you to breakfast to tell you I have a date tonight, thought you deserved to know”

And that was it, that’s when you felt the lump in your throat and it felt like your whole world had stopped, it couldn’t be true, you wouldn’t let it be. “You don’t mean that… you’re just saying that because of what you heard…. Fionn its not what it looked like!”

“She’s beautiful, way too good for me, and she likes me a lot. I would have never even tried to go after a girl like her, wouldn’t have seen a chance in a thousand years”.

That’s the moment you let the tears stream down your face, and you let out the smallest sob from your throat as you looked at him, you saw his face soften for a moment as he tilted his head and you pulled your hand from him.

“But you tried with me…. You went after me….” You said in a small broken voice as you stared at the boy that you loved, despite all of this you still loved him.

“No Y/N, I didn’t mea-“ he went to say as both of his hands grabbed your face. “Save it, I know exactly how you meant it” you say with a bit of anger, more tears falling now as you look at him, shaking your head.

“Have fun on your date” you say as you throw his hands off of you and walk away, getting another uber to take you back to the hotel where you can spend your day off crying alone in bed.

//

You couldn’t stop crying, no matter how hard you tried the tears just wouldn’t stop and you’d been laid in bed in an oversized hoodie and socks for two hours now. This was all your fault, your fault for telling him you wanted to wait, your fault for saying that to Blaze when you knew Fionn was around.

You got up, went a poured up a glass of wine and took a big sip.

“No, you know what this isn’t my fault, he was the one playing me, if I wasn’t good enough for him, if I wasn’t pretty enough or or….. my body wasn’t good enough” you felt you lip start to tremble as more and more tears streamed down your face.

“Fucking Prick” you shouted as you slammed your glass down, the same time you heard a knock at your door, without even thinking you picked your glass back up taking another gulp of the dry tasting alcohol as you angrily opened your door to see a pouty Harry standing there.

“S’not nice to call me that pet, was just coming to invite you out with me for the day, thought I’d do some shopping, maybe grab lunch”

Your face and shoulders instantly fell as you looked at your best friend, instantly throwing your arms around his neck in a huge hug as you breathed him in just like you had Fionn earlier, letting out little shaky sobs against him.

“Ay, ay, what’s wrong Y/N, what’s wrong, I’m here, I’ve got you, its okay shh” Harry rambled on as he held you tighter, patting the back of your head as his other hand soothingly rubbed up and down your back before pulling you back at arm’s length so he could exam your face, searching for anything to try to read you.

“He… he doesn’t want me Harry…. Never did” you cried out, sniffling and trying to wipe your face, avoiding Harry’s from the embarrassment you feel for crying like this in front of him about a boy.

You saw Harrys face go from concern to anger to sadness and hurt for you back to concern.

“Right, get in here and tell me all about it, I’m here, I’m gonna take care of you I promise” he stuttered out as he guided you into the room.

“Oh, there was this sitting outside of your door” he said as he bent down and picked up a box with your name written on it, along with a cup and a letter.

Your eyebrows knit as you looked down at the items in his hands, setting your glass down as you hesitantly take them from him, opening up the letter to read it.

I’m so sorry for what’s happened, it wasn’t like that I swear. You have a right to hate me I’ll take that, but Y/N… you mean far more to me than you know. I hope this didn’t ruin us.

Fionn xx.

You took in a deep breath as you shook your head, opening up the box to see what was in it, it was the croissant you had ordered earlier, along with a flower from the garden that the café was in.

You set the items down before finishing off your wine and sitting on the bed, Harry was reading the letter now, brows knit just like yours were before he came to sit next to you, placing his hands on your back.

“Now tell me darling, what happened?”

You held back the tears, you couldn’t cry anymore, you weren’t going too. Taking a deep breath you looked at Harry, his free hand pushing your hair behind your ear as he kissed your forehead.

“Its okay I’m here” you sighed as you relaxed into his touch, feeling good and secure in your best friends arms.

“We.. we were at breakfast, and I got a call from Blaze-“

Harrys face was fully focused, lips set in a pout almost and that crinkle between his brows that he gets as he nodded his head once to let you know he was really ,listening to what you had to say.

“He was calling to see if I still wanted that date, but turns out he was just trying to help me win over Fionn, he saw us together every day and thought that we were just too shy to ask each other out”

You rambled on, telling Harry the entire story all the way up to the part where you left the café. You could see the anger in Harry’s eyes as his nostrils flared and he took deep breaths, stood up and started pacing the room.

“Right, well you know what Pet, you are going out tonight”

“I am?” you question, voice a little pichier than normal.

“Yes, you are, you’re going to ring Blaze, and go out, we’re going to get you all done up, and Fionn’s gonna see what he’s missing” Harry says as he walks over to you, kneeling in front of you as both of his hands wipe all your tears away.

“I’m just gonna pop out for a second, I promise, and I’lll be right back. I want you to jump in the shower or whatever and start getting ready” he said as if he was telling instructions to a child.

“Don’t forget to ring Blaze”

He yelled as he left your room quicker than he arrived in it.

//

Fionn’s POV

Fionn took a huge gulp of his now 5th beer as he sat on the edge of his bed, everything hurting a little less now as his head was dizzy and he felt a bit tipsy

There was a knock at his door, he struggled to stand but once he did he was okay, making his way to his door and opening it to see Harry.

“ ‘Arry, hey mate, how are you?”

He said, letting the alcohol take over a bit as he smiled up to his friend who was at his door.

“Get in the room” Harry said as lightly pushed Fionn into the room, shutting the door behind them.

“Now, tell me, what is this that you have done to Y/N, huh? Did you think it would be fun to hurt her, did you think that you’d get some kind of an adrenaline rush from the whole bloody thing? Please Fionn, tell me, why’d you hurt her?”

Fionn’s face fell as he looked at Harry with glazed eyes, licking his lips as he turned and set his beer down, going to pick up his cigarettes and placing one between his lips as he nodded for Harry to follow him out to his balcony.

Lighting the thing of tobacco between his lips, he inhaled the smoke and held it in for a second before slowly letting it out.

“I heard her Harry, she loves him, she never loved me it was never me. I should have known when she said she just wanted to be friends-“

“Oh stop that, stop feeling sorry for yourself. She does love you, you idiot, she’s been in her room crying her eyes out for the past I don’t know how many hours because of you, because you said that she wasn’t good enough for you…”

“Harry, I didn’t-“

“No, you did it, and now it’s done. How dare you, why don’t you get the full story next time before making an ass of yourself and breaking some girl’s heart”

Fionn took another drag of his cigarette, rolling his eyes and not wanting to hear what Harry was telling him, in his head, you didn’t love him, it was the alcohol blocking his right judgement.

“Harry, mate, I never meant to break her heart”

Harry was walking away at this point, stopping in his tracks and swallowing down the anger as he turned his head slightly towards the boy behind him.

“Well you did, and you’re pissed so you better sober up before your date tonight”

And with that Harry was gone with a slam of the door, and Fionn felt worse than he did before, but he’d already made plans for this date and he couldn’t break them.

//

Harry had helped you put yourself together, picking out the most killer outfit and Blaze was more than happy to help you out. He was coming to pick you up at 8 and it was a quarter till, you were just now putting the finishing touches on your makeup and he texted you.

Hey, be there in 10, I know it’s a little early, but I guess I was just eager 😊

KK no problem, see you then, ill be ready. 😊

Minutes later there was a knock at your door, Harry, answered it for you since you were spraying your face in setting spray.

In walked a very handsome and smiling Blaze, you could smell him from where you were sitting, and he smelled nice, not as good as-

Oh stop it, stop thinking about him and just enjoy this night, you tell yourself as you cut your thoughts off.

“Hey Blaze” you say as you get up to hug him, kissing his cheek sweetly as you do before stepping back.

“Hello Y/N, you look as beautiful as ever”

You let a small blush cover your cheeks as you turned to look at Harry who was sat on you bed with and exasperated look on his face as he stared at Blaze.

“’So, word around town is that the kid who is filming the new movie will be at this popular club tonight, soooo, I thought that’s where we’d go, y’know, so he can get a good look at you, see what he’s missing” Blaze winked at you as he grabbed both of your hands in his, a devilish smirk on his face.

//

The club was loud, the bass off of the music pounding into your ears as Blaze lead you through the crowd, lots of eyes catching yours but not that captivating pair that you were searching for.

Blaze found a table for the both of you, pulling a chair out for you to sit in before going to sit in his own and ordering y’all two drinks.

“So, have you spotted him yet?” Blaze shouted across the table to you, arms crossed and elbows on the table as he leaned over.

“No, I think I’m going to run to the girls room real quick”

You said as you went to stand, still looking around for him, but feeling down that you’ve yet to spot that face and those eyes

“D-do you want me to walk you there, I wanna make sure you’re okay” He said as he stared into your eyes, already standing up and looking down at you.

Your eyes soften as you smile at him, placing your hand on his cheek as you looked up at him,

“No, I’ll be fine, I promise, but thank you so much. I’ll be right back”

You say just above a whisper before heading to the bathrooms

You’re walking past the bar as you hear a familiar voice say your name, turning around with a puzzled look on your face you see him, you finally spot him, the boy you’d been looking for all night, hidden away like the devil in the shadows.

“Looking cozy over there with BLAZE” he said his name with disdain, slurring the word nearly as it was obvious that he was tipsy. You looked at him with a raised eyebrow as you tilted your head, crossing your arms and cocking your hip to the side.

“Why does that matter to you if we are or not, you didn’t want me, eventually someone was gonna come along and want what you didn’t. Besides, I’m not good enough for you, remember?” you whispered the last part as you leaned in close to him, giving him a blank stare and turning around as if you were uninterested in him, heading to the bathrooms before you feel someone tug at your arm, turning you around.

“Y/N, i-I didn’t meant that… you know that right, I didn’t mean a word of that, it all came ou-“

“Save it Fionn, you already said it and… and you can’t take it back, cause it if wasn’t true it wouldn’t have came from your lips. Where’s your date anyway ?”

As soon as the words left your lips Fionn’s eyes started scanning the room, looking around for her, and suddenly you saw his features change to complete disgust and anger. Your eyes went to where his were looking and what you saw made your heart drop to your stomach, it was Blaze making out with some girl, some girl with a perfect body and the most beautiful hair, Fionn was right, she was perfect.

Before you knew it Fionn took one final sip of his drink, swallowing it all down and strutting towards the pair who his eyes hadn’t left. You went running after him, calling his name cause you knew this wouldn’t end well.

“Hey, you narcissistic prick!” you hear Fionn yell, getting the pair to pull apart as they look at him.

It all happened too fast, Fionn throwing a right hook to Blaze’s jaw and standing there yelling at him as you ran over, trying to pull Fionn from the poor boy and calm him down. His date was just giggling like an idiot, it was clear that she was far worse than Fionn, at least he could stand and talk and comprehend things, he wasn’t that bad actually, just… well you’d say relaxed but not at this moment.

“Fionn, Fionn stop it, stop!” you shouted as you tugged at him, pulling and pulling at the boy who was yelling obscenities at your date with his teeth clenched and jaw locked.

Finally the boy turned to look at you, eyes wild and face red, fist clenched and his breathing heavy as he calmed once he looked into your eyes.

“I’m sorry Blaze, I think I should get Fionn home for the night”.

Blaze nodded once at you as he was feeling his newly bruised jaw, moving it about to make it hurt less

“K Y/N, text me”

Suddenly you hear Fionn shouting in disbelief as you try to drag him out of the club,

“Are you serious Y/N, you’re sorry but he’s the asshole that was kissing another girl when he was out with you?” he asked in a quite loud tone of disgust before turning around and yelling at the pair one last time.

“You best not text her, you hear me?”

//

After finally getting Fionn into a cab and making it all the way back to the hotel, you help him to his room, slamming the door behind yourself as you both enter it.

“What the hell was that Fionn? Hmmm?”

You asked standing there, looking at him with disappointment with your arms crossed over your chest. The boy turned to look at you, looking a bit lost and confused as to why you were asking him that, he hadn’t done anything wrong in his eyes.

“What do you mean? I defended you In there, I’m always looking out for you always Y/N, you just refuse to see it”

You stand there, your face falling as your arms drop to your sides. He couldn’t possibly believe a single word that was leaving his mouth.

“Defending me? Fionn, you told me earlier today that you didn’t even want to be with me basically, just threw me away cause you found something better, prettier with this body that… god I could never have a body like that if I tried. Do you know how that makes me feel ?”

You stood there, staring into his still beautiful hazel eyes with your own, holding back tears once again as you shake your head.

“Guess not, and you were right, she’s far better than I ever could be, so congratulations”

You say sarcastically, tears falling now as you go to storm out of the room. You feel Fionn grab your arm and turn you around, pushing you against the wall, his hands on your waist and his face awfully close to yours. You could feel his breath hitting your lips, the warmth of dancing across your flesh as he nudged your nose with his own.

“Fionn..”

You said breathlessly, placing your hands on his chest and breathing heavily against his mouth, turning your face upwards trying to resist the urge to kiss his tempting lips.

His hand has now gently grabbed your jaw, tilting your head to the side as his lips ghost over your neck, up to your ear, pressing his body against yours more as he places one single wet, open mouthed kiss to your jaw, breathing against the wet skin after, causing you to swallow thickly as goosebumps adorn your skin.

“You’re better than her, far better….. you’re better than anyone” he pants out lowly, kissing slowly up your neck, licking over your sweet spot once causing you to let out the softest moan. Fionn quietly chuckled as he gently bit into the same spot, his hand falling to around your neck as his mouth worked it, tracing his lips up to your ear where he traces the shell of it with the tip of his tongue, leaving it wet and cold in his wake.

“Fionn?”

“Yes baby?” you felt a shiver run down your body from the word, the word that you so desperately wanted him to associate you with, the word that made you feel like you were his, the word that made you feel good, it felt right.

“As much as I’m loving this, please kiss me, need your lips, need them on mine” Fionn chuckled once more and he barely left nips down your neck

“I don’t know baby, I’m kinda enjoying myself down here” he said teasingly, the words muffled from your neck. You couldn’t take it anymore, you pulled him up by his jaw, smashing your lips to his in the hungriest of kisses, feeling his teeth against your own cause you were kissing him so deeply, sucking at his bottom lips before letting your tongue slide into his mouth, tasting as much of him as you could.

You felt him moan into your mouth, his hand sliding down to between your legs as he began to rub slow but firm circles to you through your nylons. He swallowed down your moans as your hips moved against his hand, yours quickly undoing his pants as you breathe against his mouth, your eyes flicking between his lips and his own eyes.

“need you, I’ve needed you so much, not just this i.. I.. Y/N stop”

You look up at him a bit shocked from his words, his hand still on you and his lips sweetly kissing yours.

“This, this is far more than sexual for me, I need you to know that, I want this I want you…. I want to share this with you. Y/N I’m actually sure I’m actually positive that I want this with you and no one else, but… but”

You hold his face with both hands looking deep into his alluring eyes.

“But what baby” you say the word back for the first time, bringing a smile onto his perfect lips as your thumb traces over them.

“I.. I may have never done this before, I don’t.. I mean, im-“

“You’re a virgin” you finally say for the poor boy who couldn’t get his words out. He shyly nods as he looks away from you, pulling his hand from you as he steps away.

“Yea, I’m sorry”

“Don’t you dare be sorry, cause I am too” you say pulling him back to you, pressing your lips back on his in a passionate kiss as you go back to undoing his pants, pulling them down his lank body, and tugging at his shirt as he raises his arms for you.

“Are you sure Y/N?”

He asks in concern, holding you close to him, resting his forehead on yours.

“I’ve never been more sure about anything in my entire life…. I love you Fionn, I love you so much, its always been you, its you and it always will be” you feel the tears start again, but this time they’re a different type of tears, these are a kind you’ve never felt before, but they were good.

You see tears brimming in the corners of those hazel eyes that you want to spend the rest of your life looking into before Fionn gently pulls your shirt from your body, kissing down your neck and tugging at your nylons.

“I love you too Y/N, so much, I’ve loved you since that first moment I saw you…. Since you no one else has been nearly as beautiful, I can’t go a moment without thinking of you”

You hold him close as you take in his words, stepping out of the nylons for him before pulling his face to yours, kissing him once again, your breathe mixing and his hands holding you like he’s scared to lose you.

“Go lay down for me baby, yea?”

You say to the boy, bringing another smile to his lips as he does as he was instructed to do, laying down on the bed and looking over at you, at his angel.

You make your way to him, straddling his lap and unhooking your bra, pulling It from your body and tossing it to a random part of the room as you bite your lip and look down at Fionn shyly.

“You my darling angel, are so fucking beautiful” he says in amazement as he sits up, gently grabbing one of your tits and feeling it, letting his lips trace over your nipple, his breath fanning it as he looks up at you through his long lashes. His mouth latches onto you, kissing and sucking gently as you moan and hold onto the back of his head, slowly grinding into him, holding him tighter and closer the more he works your body.

You can feel the wetness starting to pool between your legs, your hand slipping into his boxers to wrap around his length, slowly stroking over him, causing him to moan around you.

“Baby… g-god you feel good, your hand feels so good” he says as his head slowly falls back, and he starts to thrust up into your hand, your lips attaching themselves to his as you lick across his bottom lip.

You sit up, tugging his boxers down and tossing them aside with your bra before lining him up with you.

“I’ll go slow, I promise” you mumble against his lips, kissing him so delicately as if he is the most precious thing in this world and you don’t want to break him.

You slowly push him past your tightness, slowly taking him into you inch by inch, feeling ever vein of his brush past your walls.

Fionn’s praising you the whole time, telling you how good you’re doing, kissing your lips lovingly and down your neck, holding you close and making sure you’re okay.

“That’s it baby, you’re nearly there, you’re doing so good for me” he says as he kisses your collarbone, and then in that moment you’ve finally taken all of him, taking him balls deep inside of yourself as you stutter out a moan, wrapping your arms around his neck and holding him as close as possible, his arms around your lower back, hands rested on your ass as he holds you.

You’ve never felt more safe, you didn’t know before this moment that you could feel this safe and good, that something could feel so right as this.

“F-fionn, baby you feel soo good, so deep and big and just… perfect” you mutter out, the boy had been holding onto you tight for a while to try to keep himself from cumming before you even did anything, your tight, warm walls enough to push him over the edge.

“So do you, fuck I’m trying not to cum, need… need you to move baby, need you to move” he says with a strain in his voice.

“Its okay, its okay” you say grabbing his face and slowly bouncing along him, both of you letting out a long moan from the feeling, he felt so good stretching you and hitting deep into you, you didn’t know how long you could last, but this, this felt heavenly.

“You’re so tight, so unbelievably tight and warm, and god you’re wet, so so wet around me” you press your lips to his as you ride him, taking him deeper and deeper, feeling each bit of him and his veins brush past you with each move.

You break the kiss once you feel a wetness on Fionn’s face, his eyes were closed with his mouth open, tears falling down his angelic face as he thrusted slowly up into you, gripping onto your ass to try and hold on.

“Baby, wh-y are you crying?” you ask as you’re close, riding him harder, your walls stroking him perfectly as he starts to thrust a bit faster.

“You’re just so beautiful, feel so good and perfect. I love you Y/N, more than you know” he finally says, you rest your forehead on his, still trying to chase your climax and his.

“Its okay baby, I’m here, I’m always going to be here, you’ve got me. Let it all out for me, every bit” you stutter out as you feel your walls getting tighter and tighter around him, feeling yourself cum, legs shaking as you cry and whimper out his name, burying your face in the crook of his neck. You’re riding your orgasm through as you milk Fionn of his own, his sticky, warm cum painting your walls and filling you up as he holds you close, gripping onto you and moaning your name.

You both sit there for a moment, panting and coming down from it all, sweet touches and Fionn kisses down your back, telling you its okay, that you’re okay and you did so well for him before laying down with you on top of him.

You nuzzled yourself into him, relaxing into him as you felt the both of you leaking out of you and down his shaft, his hand playing with your hair and soothingly holding you as you fall asleep right in his arms, with him still inside of you.

“You’re perfect-“ you hear him whisper

“This is like my own little heaven, with my own little angel that I get to call mine” Fionn says quietly, as you doze off.