Fire Soul's Sound Blast

Hey this is Fire Soul also known as Inusoulsoniceter40 on Wattpad, @firedragoncosplay_den on Instagram, 9Kasai0Kaibun9 on AO3. If you want to see my fanfictions, fanart, and cosplay all in one place then here I am. Commissions are Open ⭐⭐⭐ Level 24

[firesoul909]

Hey everyone,

Sorry I haven't been posting often over the last few years but I had a lot of personal problems that happened, but I'm currently working on a business. If you are curious about it we are known as Nerdy Nebula(@thegalacticdorks on Instagram, @nerdy.nebula & @cosmic_caf on the clock app(tiktok)

[pinkcultgirl]

out of all my art, this is the piece i selfishly wish to become viral so as many people as possible can read my words.

[tortiefrancis]

[ ID: Digital, stylized art of a young girl holding the Palestine flag, frowning. Next to her, newspaper style text, which reads: Today is the only day you can choose to end your silence. Today should be when you throw away your neutrality.

The girl has light-medium tone skin and brown eyes, and wears a pink hijab, a tan shirt, a brown vest, matching brown shorts, pink leggings and brown boots. The flag looks painted. Behind the girl is a piece of cardboard and a pink collage with paper and flowers. Background behind it is white. /End ID ]

[headlinesdontsellpapes]

Thanks for the tag @thelastplantagenet 😊💚

1. Do this uquiz.

2. Do this picrew.

3. Tag people.

feel free to play if you’d like :)

@buncha-angry-kids-with-no-money @thatoneandlonelyemo2005 @with-the-words-all-wrong

[panfriedtoast-deactivated202502]

I WILL trust this witch and no she is not evil! Isn’t that right grandma knuckle bones?

@hestiuff @hedgeyt @jason-todd-bookseller @milkcioccolato @puppygirl-hornyposting @raccoongirlmusk @swagtigerdeer @shreeky @xenasaur

[panfriedtoast-deactivated202502]

@blairelythere @b00g1rl

[b00bnuuy]

im crying rn

i am a little meow meow. an innocent little baby. a girl who is deathly scared of being rude or mean to people i like.

i am NOT a bastard(bad) 😭😭😭

@transgirlskissing @sexboobomb @mechanoelle @butterfly-sapphire @nighttimenarcotics @nonamehorse @thevicioushotdog @madeoflyn0127 @vampiricgirlism @predatory-lesbiane @ceo-of-lesbians

[nighttimenarcotics]

Damn this sucks

@danixion @daydreampirate

[danixion]

? 🥺

@nikyutsu @shaveyoureyebrows @ribbed9 @recreationalpasta @flowergirlmiwa @not-fae-no-sir

[recreationalpasta-deactivated20]

Thank you!! This was so much fun :3

@justsomespiders @nebulaaaaaa @soggy-wet-catgirl

[vampiregirlestrogen]

yeah that's accurate i think :3c

@wetlittlemeowmeow @the-lumpfish-king @anarcho-neptunism

[paracausalgirlthing]

I've been assigned puppygirl

I guess it's not far from the truth though :3

@kiarathesnek @subbygothkittytransgf @remebee

[remebee]

@zoethiah @qiwhy @bigbreastedbabe @miketherobotlover

[zoethiahs-little-pillow-fort]

@empress-belosbeck @cassie-is-trans @sistercara @witchy-ophelia @alexamyah @faungirlbulge @tadbitsickchickwithadick

[nutmeg-puppygirl-deactivated202]

@igitt42 @eepybitchdisease @miqwertystudios @giraffedogcreature @lelianasconfession

[miqwertyy]

Not what I'd expect but pretty cool ig

@diagnosed-crazy @hoovii @ibiscrow @johnsotherbastard

[ibiscrow]

Ya know what, I’ll take it :)

@mismatchedsoxx @half-closed @lazyasriel @mintytea-exe + open tag if anyone is interested! <3

[lazyasriel]

Well they weren’t exactly wrong were they?

Fun fact: in my freshers week at uni the first thing MULTIPLE people said to me was “are you going to the LGBT meeting?”

@elias-the-corvid @sop-soap @initial-lime @laf-e-taffy @irisesdancinginthegarden @single-use-ship-of-theseus

[laf-e-taffy]

Thanks for the tag this was fun! Happy to announce I’d be someone’s favorite blorbo if I was a character lol

Tagging some friends who may wanna give this a try :]

@mel-loly @bluepallilworld @shinechermont @randompajamaalt @0rangejuice1234 @cupcake8me @star-gamerxox

[shinechermont]

Thanks Taffy!

I am still cackling about the quiz result lmaooo

@ari-cuno @sisi-sarsoura @bluepallilworld @thunfire0605 @dragon-tamer-1 @diofasolia give it a try!

[sisi-sarsoura]

Thanks AC!

DANG THIS WAS SO FUN, couldn't get everything for my sona in that picrew lol

@mxlindart @lailosh @ari-cuno @bluepallilworld @diofasolia @dragon-tamer-1 and everyone else! ♡

[lailosh]

Yeah... that checks out honestly lol XD

Thank you Sisi for tagging me! This was truly fun to do <3

@miraclecherryblossomsblog @firesoul909 @teiperono--arteru @venelona

[firesoul909]

Oh yeah, this definitely is me by a long shot. Any of my IRL friends would attest this.

@nerdgurlbenerdy

[firesoul909]

My commissions are open please do if interested

[firesoul909]

My commissions are open please do if interested

[cloudheaded]

ways to respond to being asked "are you a man or a woman?"

i sure hope not

who's to say

that's between me and God

i'll tell you for $100

i don't think so, why?

probably, not sure though

[cloudheaded]

additions collected from the notes

not to my knowledge

sometimes

wouldn't you like to know weatherboy

[firesoul909]

Here's some to add...

Would you believe Chuck Noris with a beebee gun?

What's that?... oh yeah no have no clue what I am

Wanna flip me and find out?

[dragonhoardingwips-deactivated2]

I NEED YOUR HELP TO SPREAD THIS

This blog in the photo accompaninstuo91 does not have a proper blog. When you click on their blog, an image pops up asking you if you're 18 and if you say yes or no, it directs you to a virus/porn site that isnt on tumblr

The bots are evolving to actively redirect you/ give viruses to you

Please reblog this so you dont fall victim. Do not click follow or try to go onto their blog, instead the only way to report them is to click the little three dots and click report

@staff please stop shit like this

[wizzidoodles]

I’m gonna redo these with other people’s designs lol

Who’s ok with me drawing your Sun and Moon designs????

[chimkin-samich]

Counts us in if it's no probs!!

[firesoul909]

I'm game tho my designs are on twitter

[niyana-the-ambiguous-mobian]

My god, he's such a goober.

[firesoul909]

Sonic is such a mood in the last panel it's not even funny

[firesoul909]

Sometimes I wonder if I make a difference in this world. I'm not the coolest, not the smartest, not the most creative (especially recently), not the best at emotions or being socially acceptable. All I got goin for me is that I have a bit of a talent for just pretending everything will be alright but in reality my world is crumbling every second I act. If I'm being honest I don't expect much from this world because every time I was given kindness I later push them away like the fool I am.

I'm sorry that I'm just one mishap away from disappointment to everyone including myself. Ya think I haven't tried to feel like I'm not a worthless waste of space or worthy of actually being cared about. That I haven't tried to find someone who doesn't care about if I'm male, female or something in-between and doesn't think that because I'm not always happy with myself and trying to be happy for everyone else is fuckin exhaustin.

I'm just so tired of feelin like I'm not worth anything and not wanting to exist but honestly it's hard when everyday I'm reminded that no matter how much I love/ care for people I will always end up alone. I accept this notion and will move on but it does hurt more than anything in this world or the next. I am proclaiming that I HAVE given up on myself in the past and I'm just done trying to do things for others when they don't act like they care when I'm really struggling.

I'm just tired of everything yet have no will to dissappear by my own hand. I just want to feel safe, loved, and not seen as a second choice or a burden(despite people telling me that I am not tho not even wonder of I'm actually ok and not dust in the wind)

[firesoul909]

Another poem I wrote beware it is very sad.

If I'm not a problem by firesoul909

If I’m not a problem, then why am I treated as such? Why must my needs be overridden by others or I'm just pushed to the back burner? Am I not interesting enough? Have I offended the status quo to the point of me being erased and forgotten? I honestly just want to be myself but it's so hard to do when everyone expects you to be one way or the other. What if I just wish to be alive and not this ethereal being always being shoved into the shadows never to see the light of day again. I just want to be heard. I want to be loved. I want to be respected. I want to survive. I want… to be me. Is that so fucking hard to ask. My home is destroyed; it was never a stable place to begin with. As the years have passed I've noticed more and more corruption and sadness in myself and those in the same situation as me.

[firesoul909]

I am sharing this because it made me feel better when I wrote it in a bad place

Memories by firesoul909

I Remember a time where life consisted of sunshine & roses

But one day the sun burned hot and the rose withered away

The sun hid it's face in shame of destroying the roses. Clouds took control of the sky with the tears of the sun

Now life is nothing but a cloudy sky; drizzling without sign of stopping

[firesoul909]

Over the three years I was living away from most of my family during covid and everything I was living alone and my only escape was cosplaying and at the time the undertale community. It was there I found alot of friends, who unfortunately don't like me much now, but most of my days consisted of going to work, being treated horribly by customers (as one does in customer service) just to go home and still pay bills and not make enough to go out much even if I could. So when I was stuck in my head for a long period of time I looked back as the relationship I had before movin then tried again only for it to end the same was and once more only to push them away. I wrote my thoughts or little rhymes to try and lighten the load on my heavy heart but even now I just feel nothing at all.

Do I still hope the best for those people I loved? hell yeah even tho I wasn't the one to make them happy I still wish that for them. Do I want happiness for myself? Heh maybe but with all my bad luck in life it's truly hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know I'm good but am I enough is where I lack the confidence. The numbness I feel is a detachment from my own emotions and feeling to try to fit what everyone wants me to be aka masking but on a higher level. I'm trying to be better but the support system I had is crumbling and I was the catalyst to its faulty foundation.

I'm willing to share the pieces of writing I've done over the years if anyone is interested

[firesoul909]

Trigger warning ⚠️: depictions of mental health state, depression, inner child sadness

I've always been worried about one thing and that's how people who care about me think. Ever since I came out as nonbinary/genderfluid I've had issues with alot of people not respecting my identity or saying I'm just following what I've seen and that among all the other dark stuff I have dealt with in my past has made it hard to actually enjoy life and has made multiple people drift from me. For the record to those people who just happen to read this; I'm not blaming you nor will I say your names because that would make my soul hurt more that it already does. I've always thought that I was the problem and turns out I was right. Despite trying to be better I still repel people even those I care extremely about. I get that you are worried about me; I get that you want what's best; I get it. At one time my motto was "Failure isn't an option" (Apolo 13) and "Reach for endless possibilities" but now I truly don't want to continue trying and my possibilities are limited. Because I couldn't sleep last night I decided to draw how I was feeling. The only reason I am posting this is to show my art progression not to make anyone feel bad or worry for my life.

It's not easy to get out of dark places alone and those who really care about me drifting away or saying what they think I should do or how I should do this not that only makes me feel like this. I'm overstimulated, overwhelmed, overworked, overstretched, over life and just ultimately over it all. I want to be alone but not alone with the demons I've heard over and over again for years.

Thanks if ya made it this far and to those people,who know who you are, I'm sorry that I'm not the brightest star, the blackhole has been eating at me for a long time and I need help to shine like I used to. Again sorry for taking up too much of your time.

[typiing-deactivated20240430]

half of adulting is basically you trying not to cry

[frankensteins-revival]

The other half is crying

[improvidence318]

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“Do not become so immersed in your pain that you forget the people who care about you”

[firesoul909]

I know people will overlook me or just not care, but I have been having the absolute hardest time recently. Every time I try to go to bed my mind is flooded with sad/negative things that most of the time I know not to be true, but that's not all. Last couple of months I've been self discovering and view myself as a being that doesn't truly comforms to gender normatives. There's a lot of people, family or otherwise, that think I'm just goin through a phase or I'm acting "too 'this gender'" Well that's cuz every time I tried to be vulnerable in a sense it would backfire or I just feel more alone than I did. I just want to exist without the Christian believers dictating whats best for me but I am a poc and I know I'll be ignored and slain if I really say much. In conclusion I'm just tired. Tired of everything but not shattered to ☠️ I just want to be loved and accepted for who I choose to be. Now if you'll excuse me (not that anymore will actually look here) I'm gonna go cry