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3.3.20 dream
it was quite an adventure packed dream last night. i was dexter. and vince knows my identity. he used harrison my ‘son’ so he hid harrison in the hospital after harrison was attacked by my enemy. he was making signs to lure me into harrison’s room. and i feel for the trap. they tried to get me. but couldn’t and i saved harrison.
flash backs
today as i was standing in the exam room observing the retinal specialist do an intrabulbar block injection on a pt with PDR so that he can do a prp on her later; i though to myself what a long way i’ve come. i still remember the first day of 4th grade, when my dad dropped me off at school front entrance. he asked me if i wanted him to walk me to my homeroom. I wanted to show him that im a big girl now, and i dont need him to do that so i said it was alright. As he walked out the door i was really sad, and a tear escaped me. But in no time i forgot all about it b/c i was making new friends.
I thought about that today b/c in a few months, i will graduate and become a doctor. There are people out there their entrust their vision on me. I would be taking care of my parents visual health; i would be taking care of other ppl’s parents. How time flies, that it seems like not so long ago my dad was still taking me to school. and today im observing some lady getting shot in the eye with a laser. That in a few months i will be writing prescription for ppl’s glasses.
I proud of all that i’ve accomplished. im greatful to have my parents constant supports. Even to this day, whenever i go home for a break; they still give me monies. Its like they’re afraid i would be starving. i tell them every time, the loans got me covered. but parents will always be parents. annoying at times, but loving unconditionally.
stupid clown.
sitting here at starbucks, trying to get some work done. but i’ve been off tangents more than i should be. the weather’s amazing in AZ right now. fall and spring are the best season to be here.
nxt to the starbucks is a daycare center. I think it someone’s birthday today. the kids were signing a song. and it reminded me about grade school. occasionally when there’s a birthday in class, a few of my classmates have their mothers drop by cupcakes for the class. then get called to the front office to get the cupcakes. and the mentioning of their name on the intercom makes everyone jealous. we all want to be that one special kid that gets mentioned. its never me though. my parents are always at work, you know how it is. the first few years in america was pretty rough, we’re starting a while new life with barely nothing. so i understand that my parents were busy. i never told them these kind of things. but i was always envious of my classmates. anyways. its always a nice day when there’s free cupcakes in class.
i remember particularly in the 3rd grade, i have this one friend. he was black. and he was my close friend. we’re always together. (my mom would have a heart attack if she knew i was friends with a black person, yes she’s highly racist. lol) its around christmas time and our class was doing a secret santa. he really wanted to switch present with me (or was it white elephant, can’t remember) and i really want to trade with him also. but i know he’ll get the shorter end of the stick. i dont know what to give him. and i dont want to ask my parents for money for these trivial stuff. things that are not of importance, b/c i know the money my parents earn is more important stuff. like the rent and food. so i just told him we’ll see what’ll happen that day.
and luck has it, the day before the gift exchange, at the apartment complex that i stayed at, they were giving out presents to anyone under the age of 10 or something. i was excited. i wanted to get something good so i can trade with him. in the end i got this porcelain clown doll. that looks kind of like one of those from a scary movie. of course it would be my luck to get something like that. but anyways i wrapped it up and brought it to school the next day. i can see the excitement in this eyes, whatever it is he brought to class that day was with me in mind. he bought just for me so he can exchange it with me. i felt horrible. i didn’t want to let him down. i dont want him to get the stupid clown that i got. he was insistent. he wanted want i brought. we end up exchanging gifts to each other. i watched him as he opened it. his face filled with excitement and curiosity, and i was waiting, waiting for it to drop with disappointment. but it didn’t he pulled the stupid clown doll out and showed everyone what it was. he loved it. (the whole class was like wtf is that shit, not him though). i was surprised. i dont understand why he liked it so much. but i was happy. and i realized, it dosn’t matter what was in that box, he would have loved it anyways. its not important what it was, it was important because it came from me. (cheesy, i know. but true)
he gave me this board game. kind of like candy land, but winnie the pooh version. b/c he knew how much i love winnie the pooh. and i knew how lucky i was to call him a friend. i felt warm and fuzzy on the inside.
after we went to intermediate school (5th -6th grade) i lost touch with him b/c he went to a different school. i havent’ seen him since. and i dont remember his name. i just remember his goofy smile. perhaps one day, i could meet him again.
dreams
been getting a lot of nightmares lately. well twice in two consecutive weeks. which is weird. b/c i rarely get the, and this often. both times it had something to do with the people i know around me drowning to death.
1st: it was yen, she had a child out of wedlock and some people were after her kids or her. i’m not sure. we were in a house, i was there with her. after she had her kid, moments later she jumped off the balcony and landing face down in the pool that was on the first floor. i thought to myself there’s no way she’d live. but then i got a phone call from her. i thought must be the phone malfunctioning. and i don't want to talk to a dead person right now. so i didn’t pick it up. i went on with my day as if nothing happened. Then later jenny walked in and was in shocked that she saw yen’s body floating in the pool ans asked me what had happened. i told her yen jumped. but i didn’t call the cops or anything. jenny said she just did. and the whole crime unite showed up. they checked the calling records and saw that i was the last person yen called. they asked me what that was about since it was pretty close to time of death. i said i saw her jumped and that her phone must have malfunctioned. idk b/c i didn’t pick up. that puts me on the top of the suspect this. -end
2nd. this was yesterday. i dreamt that i went to lab. but my prof. didn’t show, and no one seemed to wonder why she was missing. we had another dr. to fill in and went on with our day. i just had a really bad feeling but i didn’t tell anyone. while we were in lab, we had the news on. breaking news, they could a woman that matches my prof. descriptions. she was murdered, her legs were tied and she was thrown under the bridge. they just recently found her body as it flat to sore. we were all in shock. and i felt so sick. then we continued on. like it was just anyone on the news. i was so mad at everyone. how could they just not care, how could they not be sad. so i came into someone’s office and released my frustration. i was yelling at that person, tears almost dripping down my face.that’s when i woke up. -oh and i saw the face of the person that was on the news. although it matches the description of my missing prof. it was the face of the old optometrist i used to work with. i hope she’s okay. me prof was okay, i saw her bright and early yesterday.
3rd. this was today. there wasn't much that i remembered. i just know i was in a really big house, and it was time for me to go to bed. i walked form room to room to find a place to sleep. but everyone that i decide to go in had a bad vibe to it. like it was hunted. and at one point i can see the ghosts possessing that room. they were all inhabitable... then i woke up, it was 6am. i had to go back to bed. sigh..
10pm
as time passes the people that comes and go in your life starts to frequent. and the ones that stick around are the ones that are valuable. but the last time i determined that someone has became a significant part of my life. i was wrong. sure there were time when we were once closed. but as time passes and as other chracterers appears in our lives. relationship changes. and at first i wasn’t okay with that. but i’m slowly learning to be okay with it. i’m slowly learning that its okay to lose people from your life.
after trying to make things work. after always being the person at the shorter end of the stick. i always felt friendship is not about who’s winning or who’s losing. but more so of who’s important enough for you to just put everything aside and just admit defeat b/c they are more important to you than being right all the time. i still believe that. but the question is who’s worth it.
a friend that’s been a part of my life since last year was put in the back burner. but this this school year we have gotten a lot closer. he’s like a bigger brother to me. sure he can be mean sometimes. but its easy with him. no drama. no petty arguments. the whole year, he’s been there every step of the way for whatever i need. when i’m stressed. when i need time just to be alone. when i don't understand something. when i’m conflicted about something. i can turn to him. no i’m not interested. not like that. but i just feel so lucky to constantly have so many kind and generous people in my life.
earlier, i dropped this hand held watch that has some kind of momentum value to me. and he picked it up. the battery fell off. we stood there for a couple of mins for him to piece it together. one of the minutes arm fell off. i would have just walked away. but he took his time. got on the ground to search for that hand. he doesn't even know how significant that watch meant to me. he just did it. b/c that’s the kind of person he is. genuine kindness is hard to come by. and it takes time to discover that about someone. today i saw it in him.
when you let your whole world revolve around one person. you’re really shutting the rest of the world out.
i’ve been a pretty shitty friend. to everyone. but i prioritized my life around one person. its a lot of work. everyone’s mad. that person doesn’t even know. but i can’t stop. at least not yet.
life lesson
when you’re avoiding someone, there are a million reasons why you’re busy. but when you make someone a priority, regardless of the millions things to do; there’s always time for them...
Great Quote love positive words
that last one
I love these, but the first one I find confusing. Heterosexuality is normal. Homosexuality is normal. Bisexuality is normal. All the sexualities are normal. Yes heterosexuality is more common, but it’s normal too right?
transportation
it seems like they’ve been friends since forever. longer than the both of them can remember exactly when. but they’ve always been together. going to school together having the same friends. two sides of the same coin almost.
but under the ruler of this princess, who is unreasonable and oppresses her people. many were in fear and rage, they want a fair ruler, they want a time when they can live in peace in their own home. but little did they know, little miss princess had a problem of her own also. but that’s another story.
one day the two friends, lets call them ray and joy, entered the palace b/c they were chosen to be the princesses new guards. they were introduced to this room, or in better terms this hallway with a multiple doors. these doors leads you to different rooms of the palace so that they would have easy access to the princess if needed. joy the more curious one would of course enter all the doors to explore the place. but there was this one door. it does’t exactly leads to any particular room, but at the same time it lead to all the rooms. all you have to do is go trough the door and think of a place you want to be, doesn’t even have to be a room in the place, and you’ll be there. it was a like an unexpected gift. she showed ray, and besides guarding the princess, they used this door to travel around and help those in needs. go on missions.
one day the kingdom was under attack the joy needs to be by the princess’s side. so she went to the princess and introduced herself. and next thing you know they were at a big pond. just running away from the intruders. there were these really large fish and so they decided to go fishing. but suddenly one of the fish jumped up and bite the princess!! what to do, first we need to identify the fish! to see if its poisonous or not. turns out it was a red oscar fish, harmless.
and i woke up.... the dream was more exciting when i was unconscious. and I'm pretty sure i remembered on 1/10th of what it is. but that’s that :D
Unbelievable Places That Look Like They’re From Another Planet
These look like they’re from video games or something
Absolutely incredible
…the last bit. Terribly important.
first break!!
finally finished the first quarter of optometry school. did i do so well? lets not talk about that. but next semester i will try even harder than now. there's only going to be an improvement. no excuses. can't believe everything was a success!! this three wks break will help me recharge and prepare for next quarter!
i've made some friends along the way. and i'm glad to have ppl in my life who knows what i'm going through. i'm just excited in general. i feel like i'm one step closer to where i'm suppose to be in the world.
i'll end it here world. until nxt time.
here i am
as i was sitting in the school cafeteria studying tonight. i've just realized that, just this past feb. i was in the same place for my interview. my nerves were flying everywhere. hoping, praying that i could go here. that i would do anything to secure my position here. i would give ANYTHING just to start school again. to put one step towards the profession i want. to be an optometrist. and here i am studying, pulling all nighters, presenting cases of ocular findings to my professors. what i'm trying to say is that everything is so surreal. i'm proud of myself for coming this far. i'm mostly proud of myself for not giving up on my dream. for not being discouraged when i did't get in the first time. i gave myself and my future one more try. and here i am .
i just felt so grateful to have my parents who supported me whole heartedly all the way. i told them i wanted to be an optometrist. they didn't even think twice about how i will once again start school for the nxt four year. totally still depending on them. they are proud of me. of what i've become. and what i've achieved. but non of this could happen without my parents. i'm not the best daughter, i don't express my love for them. and i'm constantly annoyed at them. regardless, they are still there for me. now and always. and for that i am so grateful. I am so blessed with such amazing and giving parents. because of them i am here.
and how can i forget about my friends who are there to encourage me on. to support me and push me. i am grateful for them. for the ones that never once doubted me, never once said that i can't. they can see my potential, believed in when when i was doubting myself. (either that, or they're just really good at pretending) of course they don't expresses it in the nicest ways. but i know, these friends of mine always want whats best for me. for that i am grateful. and here i am .
tomorrow or rather today is my white coat ceremony. sure i haven't achieved anything yet since i started optometry school. but to be here, to be where i am. that is my achievement for now. to finish my first year will be my next. my parents are here. to just watch me having the white coat placed on me. silly, but i'm so glad they can see it. b/c all i wanted was for them to be proud of me. and to prove to them that they've done a great job raising me is something that i am proud of. another one of my achievements.... four years from now. i hope can give myself the update i want.
work hard ngoc. b/c here you are.
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