Matt stayed at the table, listening quietly. He could hear the pain in Bruceâs voice, then the anger and the helplessness. No matter what good this group had done, it had caused Bruce more pain and suffering than any of them could understand. He could feel Bruceâs relief when he was told that the girl had no right to mess with his mind. Had no one told him that?
Matt couldnât understood the gamble that Bruce and Tony had to take to right their wrongs. He wasnât there. He couldnât know. He knew by the fact that the world wasnât being plagued by a robot menace that their gamble paid off, but heâd let Bruce get to that part in his own time.
Matt listened as Bruce discussed seeing the woman again, the woman that had hurt him. He knew how Bruce felt in that moment. He was against killing, but heâd had time where that line had grayed. Heâd had times where his anger overwhelmed him and heâd beat his opponents almost to death, either with his fists or his words, or both. He rubbed his eyes, remembering Mysterio and how heâd walked away from him. He hadnât killed him, but he had taken his life with his words.Â
âRomanoff,â Matt repeated, remembering the name. He nodded soundly, but said nothing else for the moment. It was Bruceâs turn to speak. He sighed again when Bruce talked about being used for his alter. That sounded like something SHIELD would do and do happily. It angered him enough that he felt his knuckles almost pop as he made a fist. He forced himself to open his hand and relax.
âWell, you are safe here, for now,â he assured him. âYou can stay as long as you feel comfortable. I know that we are close to the Avengers here, but this is New York. Itâs a good place to hide in a crowd.â He paused for a moment, thinking of the woman that hurt him. âWait. This womanâŠâ frowning, he stood up and grabbed a newspaper off of the table. It had been in the plastic and he hadnât realized it wasnât his until a couple of days later, so he hadnât bothered to correct it. He ran his fingers over the title to make sure it was the correct one.Â
âIâm sorry,â he told him. He felt terrible that he was the one to tell Bruce, but he needed to know. âIs this her?â he asked, turning the paper around for him to see.
Bruce listened to Matt as he finished plating their dinner. Heâd elected to make some pasta for them. It would have been better if heâd been able to make the noodles from scratch, but he wasnât sure Matt had the equipment so he purchased the noodles. The sauce he made himself. He compromised with the bread as well by buying the bread and making the garlic butter by hand.
Bruce put Mattâs plate down in front of where he was sitting along with his utensils before pulling the newspaper toward him. He was sure Matt read the headline, but Bruce saw the photograph of the Maximoff woman. When people talked about being angry they use the phrase âsaw redâ, Bruce always saw green when he was angry. Seeing the picture of that woman in the paper sent him far beyond anger or rage. Part of his wanted to scream and throw things, but this was Matt's place. Even tossing the paper on the floor was out of the question because Matt could trip on it. Finally, he grabbed the paper and began crumpling it into a ball before he tossed it in the garbage. "Yes, that's her. I'm sorry if you wanted to keep that," he said in a voice that was low and oddly calm though the underlying tension could easily be heard. As he spoke he placed his hands on the counter trying to maintain his calm. "I have to live with the nightmares that she gave me. I have to live with blood on my hands that she put there. I have to live with what she did to me." He took a deep breath and let it out. "She gets to join the team. She gets to be called a hero." He let out a hollow, bitter sound that might have been a laugh. "I guess monsters only get sympathy when they look like frail, young women."
He lifted his hands and covered his face as he tried to get control of all of his emotions. It took him a couple of moments of regulated breathing before he felt calm enough to lower his hands. "Thank you for not hiding that from me," he said. "Please eat. Your plate is directly in front of you. There's a fork to the left of the plate. Your left. The garlic bread is at the twelve o'clock position. Would you like something to drink?" He'd try to eat and probably manage some of it. Though his appetite hadn't been very good for the last while. "I was going to make myself some more tea."