Learning To Take Care Of Myself

My name is Lauren and this is my fitness blog.

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Progress entry #1 “Starting over”

August 18, 2018

Starting weight 8/18/18= 147 pounds

Short term goal= 140 pounds

Long term goal= 125 pounds

     So I decided to suck it up and “start over” even though I never stopped, what I mean by this is, starting over my mindset. I keep beating myself up because I lost 30 pounds in 2016 and gained back 13 in 2017 and then another 7 in 2018, so I’m pretending that it’s May 2016 again and that I’m beginning my weight loss journey. My personal trainer dumping me in April I think really effected me and put unnecessary pressure on me to not gain weight because I felt like I had to prove something and in the end I gained weight. I’m not going to beat myself up, shit happens, I’ve been dealing with a lot of stress in my career, saving money to move out etc. Those aren’t excuses and I’m not longer going to let my ever changing life be a set back for me so I need to form new habits. 

     I need to plan my days around the gym which means I need to start going very early in the morning. Since I plan to have a full time teaching job hopefully soon, most of those jobs start at 7:30 am or earlier, so I need to form a workout schedule as if I already have a full time job so that when I get one, it doesn’t become a set back for me. The same thing with stress. There was a time I used the gym as a tool to help my stress, but lately it’s become apart of my stress. I need new music to listen to, new workouts so I’m signing up for classes today even though I’m scared to talk to the people at the front desk. I want this, I want to feel good and look good. Wish me luck everyone.

[living-fitness]

[extramadness]

[alwaysbewoke]

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[fitlifestyle14]

I lost fat but I gained weight and my clothes have been tight.

So I wrote an extensive post just recently and safari decided to quit and erase it so now I’m mad. Long story short my trainer gave up on me back in April 2018 after 2 years of working with her. I lost 30 pounds and then gained back 10 last year and gained another 7 this year and I’m not happy. I go to the gym literally every single week, I haven’t missed one week since May 2016, and I’m eating really well. Maybe it’s my carb intake ? I eat a lot of fruit because it’s either fruit or a bag of chips. I don’t know I’m so lost and ready to give up honestly. I’m not only lost in my goals for my health and weight but also my career and the one thing I thought I could have control over after college was staying healthy and I failed at that too. I’m very down in the dumps at the moment, I’m trying not to be but I thought maybe getting back into posting on here would help, and I hope it does. Here’s my ugly numbers. Wish me luck. 8/18/18

I honestly wish I had friends who were into fitness or friends in general. Just someone who won’t give up on me :(, I just need to be pushed always I know I’m annoying and a hard ass, idk maybe I’m just meant to be fat. I’m 5′3 and I weigh 147, and according to my app I’m in the “overweight” area lol awesome. I hate everything. 

[elleroseblogs]

Sometimes self care is studying for that test. Sometimes it’s cleaning your room. Sometimes it’s having that conversation you’re afraid of having, confront that person you’re afraid to confront. Sometimes it’s not just wrapping yourself up in a blanket and relaxing. Sometimes instead, it’s taking action against the problem.

[mrsklemzak]

Unpopular opinion, but yeah.

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[living-fitness]

[hi-its-meg]

152 vs 142 It may not seem like a huge difference but honestly there’s a huge difference when it comes to my mental state. I’m not where I want to be yet but I’m so much closer and feel so much better about myself overall.

[purplebuddhaproject]

[ande-land]

I have been awake for 24+ hours at this point. I did a sunrise hike up King’s Peak today. 24 miles total and 4000ft elevation gain. We started at midnight and finished around 2:30pm. What a day!

[chrisdoeslife]

Holy shit!!

[fitlifestyle14]

And I struggle getting my 10,000 steps lmao. Kudos to you !

[my-name-is-fraeulein-bird]

Had a bagel with grilled zucchini and eggplant, fresh cut tomatoes, salad, hot sauce and  yoghurt sauce. I also had scrambled tofu “egg” and tomatoes. :)

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Progress Journal Entry #5

 September 5th, 2017

Starting weight 5/27/16= 160 pounds

Current weight 9/5/17= 138

New short term goal= 135 pounds 

(if possible because most of my weight gain was muscle since my measurements have remained the same)

Long term goal= 125 pounds

   I really suck at keeping up with this blog, but I don’t suck at keeping the weight I lost off of me. It’s been a year since I lost 30 pounds and I’ve only gained back 10 of those pounds, however my measurements have remained the same so I assume that I gained 10 pounds of muscle, to be fair, 5 pounds of muscle and 5 pounds of fat. I have now been in a relationship for almost a year and I feared gaining relationship weight, which I did but typically only 5 pounds. I’ve kept up with exercising 3-4 times a week which I’m extremely proud of myself for, especially on top of my new teaching job. I am now focusing more on my eating habits even more than normal, not so much restriction but trying out new recipes and etc to replace what I normally crave. My boyfriend eats  a lot of candy and junk and though it can be tempting, I’m proud of myself for not giving in and if I did I portioned it. Portion is key ! It’s always key. Anyway, I assume most of my weight gain has resulted in not being on my feet as much since I no longer work retail so I try to stand up as much as possible while working, my workout routine I’ve stuck to so I don’t have to worry about that, also I’m trying to limit my snacking on empty calories even if they’re “healthy” for you. This way I can get back to 125 pounds which I was 127 pounds in December 2016. 

     My trainer said to not focus too much on the scale number since my fat percentage is the exact same and hasn’t gone up. It could be a multitude of things, but I’m still going to continue trying new healthy recipes as it is important to constantly be changing up what you eat so you don’t get bored. Boredom causes you to get off track remember that ! So my new goals are 10,000 steps 5/7 days or at least 4/7, stand up for 4-7 hours a day and try not to sit down so much, and snack less on empty calories. I will post my measurements down here as they are the same as they were in December 2016

Chest Size= 34 inches

Waist Size= 29.5 inches

Hip size=34 inches

I will create goals for my size next month since I’m currently focusing on being on my feet more and my eating habits !