short little monster confused about men

name's emma (18) and i'm here to write down random rants is all

[fivefootteenbabe]

will the world ever understand girls like me who stay up half the night masturbating to deplorable fantasies?

[fivefootteenbabe]

one more thing about the type of guys i like haha which came as a surprise to some of my friends but i generally dig short guys bc i'm short as hell myself and there's just something satisfying about being able to look a boy kind of in the eye for once

not to mention the distance tall guys have to cover to reach my ass while standing up (and that can be unusually annoying for me bc i love it when i'm talking to a boy and we get close just for him to reach out and start kneading my ass like it's the last one he'll get to touch in his life)

i know it makes sense on some level but society's just a bitch about it sometimes

what's so wrong about wanting short or shorter guys just so they can play with my ass easier and make me want to get dicked down faster?

anyway i'm posting too much tonight ig it's getting out of hand

[fivefootteenbabe]

random thought: when boys ask me what my type is i really don't think they want to know the real answer

i bet they just want to hear athletic or a certain height (or size if you know what i mean) maybe culture?

the real answer's bound to scare them off i think because the real answer's kind of unsettling even to me

when i think about it ig my type's the kind of man that lets me sit on his face for the whole afternoon and licks my pussy until my soul's left my body

once he's almost literally dying for me to return the favor i suppose i'd tie him down and edge his big dick for a couple hours

really fry his mind with pleasure but never making him go all the way you know?

ultimately i'd just suck and suck

and suck and suck

i don't care how much or how often he'd cum

the more the better ig

he could scream his lungs ragged and keep the whole neighborhood awake or even get an aneurysm for all i care

i'd keep on sucking until i'm positive he's no more cum to give me

maybe i'd give him a breather then and take a nap or something but only until i wake up to mount him and tell him to fuck me to another half dozen orgasms or something

just a random thought really but i suppose that's my type as near as i can figure

thoughts?

[fivefootteenbabe]

this probably classifies as smut writing but i just can't get my dad's friend out of my mind rn and i'm dripping wet as is (it's outrageous honestly) i just keep picturing and secretly hoping he'll still be here when i go to sleep in an hour or so

idk i just imagine nodding off and waking up to feel his warm body pressing against mine you know?

hearing him whisper for me to be quiet if i want him to show me how much he wants me

feeling him get harder and harder against my plump ass and panting as i get soaking wet for him

just the idea that he might be there (only in my dreams probably) making me promise i won't tell my daddy that his best bud snuck into his little girl's room and put his big dick inside me

fuck imagine i'd just negotiate the whole thing and tell him i'll only promise if he promises to pump every last drop deep inside my young fertile body

you might have guessed i like writing these posts a little too much (with one hand btw haha) and it's hopelessly narcissistic perhaps but my mind just goes places and tonight it keeps revolving around this one guy and the fantasy he could sneak up on me tonight and slowly fuck me for the longest time in my little bed

sensing his ragged breath while he tries not to cum instantly inside my tight soft pussy

making him groan and struggle as i whimper and beg him to go as deep as he can and go at a steady pace

cumming as he stretches me and cumming even harder because he covers my mouth and muffles my shuddering moans

by the gods haha when did i start wanting this guy so much?

it's crazy

[fivefootteenbabe]

on another note i'll be having a sleepover this weekend which i'm hugely excited for (with a friend kind of friend who i've definitely made out with before) and the big plus is that it's highly likely her ex will be joining us

now i'm not saying my friend and i have had fun with him before and are practically dying for him to fill us both to overflow over and over right up until monday morning (fingers crossed again) but i'm not denying anything of the sort hasn't happened

truth be told he hasn't got a lot going for him and he's miles from relationship material (not that i'm looking for that atm but there's that) but i will say he's very impressive

impressive enough to make me forget about my troubles for a while and beyond beyond beyond impressive to make me forget my own name once he helps me take every inch and makes fun of my yelps and moans as i shake helplessly and well and he's just and fuck he's something else all right

i'll stop now

promise!

maybe i'll fantasize some more just on my own for now (maybe with my hand in my panties if i were wearing any)

[fivefootteenbabe]

apparently it's not as easy to get an older guy to fuck me in my room while my dad's home as i thought it'd be haha i laugh it off but i'm severely in need of good dick rn and i feel like the worst and most immature eighteen year-old out here rn not kidding

i teased this guy all night and quite pounced on him when i caught him in the kitchen but nope best i could do was make him hard and get him to whisper some filth in my ear about how i was being a very active girl for my age

why didn't he pick me up and carry me to my room to at least lick me and keep me quiet that way?

big sigh and chin up i guess!

better luck next time

[fivefootteenbabe]

just found out one of my dad's friends is coming over tonight and it's not that i've been pent up for the last day and half it's really that i like this guy too and i've wanted to do stuff with him since ages

so far i've had a couple near misses where i'd sit on his lap and he'd get rock hard or we'd flirt after a couple beers at a party you know but never something actually promising

and i know it's stupid and irresponsible but part of me just wants to shoot my shot tonight and see if i can't get him riled up enough to follow to my room and (at the very least) spit on my little pussy and eat it so much i pass out

see?

this is how badly i need it rn and how badly i want this guy haha maybe i'll find some excuse to touch him over the pants like this one right?

maybe i'll find some way to get him so turned on he won't give a fuck i'm his buddy's daughter and he'll give me a proper seeing to already (fingers crossed)

[fivefootteenbabe]

tfw i'm all desperate all horny all sweaty and all i want is for my friend to come over so i can throw him on my bed and sit on his face and tell him to forget about oxygen until he makes me cum three times in a row

right maybe i should make my afternoons more productive than just scrolling porn and ordering nerdy simps i used to go to school with to come over and lick me to exhaustion

yesterday didn't help either bc i had a big cuddly teddy bear daddy type with a big dick fuck me through the bed and make me scream into my pillows idk i'm always twice as horny the day after does that make sense?

i'm such a stupid mess and my decisions could use a boost but i'm also just a slave to my body sometimes you know

[fivefootteenbabe]

honestly i think the amount of times i've done things with older guys is higher than the times people warned me about older men and it's just unfair how older men get judged for being perverts while i'm a hugely perverted girl myself you know it just freaks me out how i can't have a guy twice my age hold my hand in the street while he's ten times better than boys i go to school with without half of society wanting to burn him at the stake

i have done things with tutors for example but also with the dads of my friends sometimes and especially friends of my dad but does that make me as much of a deviant?

i really don't think so and i fear it's an unsettling level of close-mindedness that people get up in my business for it once they find out and rate me as a kid who can't make decisions for herself and irresponsibly throws her body at men her dad's age

consider the choice i have between boys my age who are immature and quite honestly very dangerous when it comes to alcohol and substances not to mention ideas about sex and men who have built their own lives and carry themselves well financially and sexually

so i'm supposed to pick stupid boys who just want to do mma and make money through crypto or streaming and have zero experience with healthy relationships and sex while i would much rather ride guys who got their act together ages ago got an education and have progressed through a promising career and chase both professional and personal ambitions

not to mention the sex right?

boys my age generally suck at it and toss me aside once they're done while older guys can literally fuck me silly and hit those deep spots until i'm shaking and still find time to hold me after and spend time together

i don't know but why should i feel guilty for lusting after older guys when boys my age are clearly definitely absolutely undoubtedly the lesser choice?

[fivefootteenbabe]

i don't get why it's not normal to lust after much older guys like today for example i was walking down the street with a friend and i was telling her how this older guy we saw working on his yard totally turned me on and all i could think about was him eating me out and filling me up but she seemed so disgusted by it and couldn't imagine why i could even be interested in men his age

i felt really embarrassed and wished i hadn't said anything at all but is it really so bad of me to want guys like that?

they're just masculine and hot and while i get that it's potentially frowned upon i should at least be allowed to fantasize right?

it's not like i took him home and let him push my face into the pillows so he could smash in and out of my pussy over and over again and make me cum my little heart out already (i wish) so i don't get why people get so upset even about the idea but i guess that's just my fault then and all i can do is complain about it online