I'VE BEEN A FOREST FIRE.

ind. sel. priv. aubrey little. 　/ 　 by ro.

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I’VE  BEEN  A  FOREST  FIRE .       /         the  adventure  zone  :  amnesty’s  aubrey  little ,  as  penned  by  ro.  established  march  ‘18 ,  rebooted  jan  ‘19.  formerly  flamebrights.

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soft reboot happening

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ooc.    so !!   i haven’t been here !!   it’s tough to get muse when there’s only new taz episodes every month or two, tbh.   i think most of y’all followed me over to my new accounts but in case anyone didn’t :   i’ve got a time traveling lesbian @ @timeseen  &  a k.ate bishop @ @hwkess !!

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ooc.   hey y’all !   just wanted to say that i’m turning off anon on this acc.   asking questions is always valid,   but it makes me anxious to not know who is questioning my portrayal of aubrey  &  if it’s the same person every time.   i’ve had experiences before where people who disliked me sought out my new blogs and targeted me,   and while i’m obvs not saying that’s happening here,   it does make me anxious and a bit paranoid.   if you have genuine questions,   you’re always free to ask those off - anon !   but frankly,   especially since i hardly write here anymore anyways,   getting a ton of anon questions that   (  to me,   and this may just be my anxiety talking  )   feel somewhat accusatory is unnerving at best.   thanks for understanding !!

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Isn't aubrey puerto rican? Why is your faceclaim not a puerto rican actress?

is that canon?    this isn’t me being a smartass or anything,  i just don’t remember trav mentioning that in the podcast??

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—   grimrecper‌ !

           He’s not sure how to break it to the human that nothing about his afterlife is warm or fuzzy.   At best there is something about the cold darkness that comforts the reaper more than any place teeming with life.   But to say it feels RIGHT would be a flat out lie.   

    ‘   I’m not   —   sure that advil would work on me,  Aubrey.   No bodily functions to circulate medicine.  ‘   there’s a pause as he rubs a hand against his chin thoughtfully.  ‘  Technically … I suppose I shouldn’t be able to get headaches,  either.   ‘   But that’s not interesting to him anymore;  bright eyes are focused on the girl with a curious tilt.   ‘   You’re human,   aren’t you?   Maybe I’m just,   too old.  I always thought humans hated strange things.  Unless they were outcast and counted as part of the strangers.  ‘

‘   huh ,   yeah ,   that tracks ,   i guess.  ‘          it does mean she’s out of headache solutions ,   but maybe she’ll think of something later.          ‘  yep ,   i’m deffo human.   but like ,   i dunno ,   maybe i just read too many vampire books and stuff as a kid ,   but i always hoped there was something more out there than normal boring human stuff ,   y’know ?   so when there was ,   i was like ,   fuck yeah.   most humans ,   uh ,   probably wouldn’t be as eager to be here ,   i guess.  ‘          she snaps her fingers a couple times ,   quick bouts of flame spouting and being extinguished just as fast.        ‘  and y’know ,   with the magic and all ,   i probably fit in better here than anywhere else     –––     even if i’m not ,   like ,   bigfoot or mothman or any of that !  ‘

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—  anabioun‌ !

for the most part, every forest felt largely the same. from state to state, and even from nation to nation, a forest was just a forest — sometimes, the species of trees and plants different here or there, but by now, the being scarcely paid enough attention to notice that. as long as there was water, edible plant life, and an abandoned building or empty cave where he could make a temporary home, he didn’t care much about the particulars of any given place. 

this forest, however, felt somehow unique. if he had tried to put into words what was different about this place, he wouldn’t have been able to put his finger on anything specific, but minute details sprung out as odd everywhere he looked. 

unnerved by the sensations this place produced, he had intended to pass through without stopping, but fate, evidently, was not on his side tonight. by the time he registered the sound of footsteps crunching on the leaves, he only just had time to crouch down and scramble into the brush to avoid the sweep of the individual’s flashlight. it was tempting to just remain silent and pray that this woman would assume she’d merely seen an animal of some sort, but that was too much of a risk to bank on. better to speak to her and convince her to leave. “ —i don’t know anything about any gate. do you make a habit of interrogating travellers in the woods at night? ”

hmm.   she’s not entirely ruling out the bom - bom theory yet ,   but it’s seeming less likely.   maybe.   they don’t usually talk ,   is the thing ,   and she’s not sure they’d lie about knowing the gate if they did.   the abominations are usually more chaotically cocky than whatever this guy is.   probably just a person ,   huh ?   that seems to be the most likely theory.   (  a person hiding in a bush ,   but a person ,   nonetheless.  ) 

you can’t blame her for being curious ,   though ,   so where someone else may have apologized and walked away ,   she stands ,   one hand on her hip ,   the other still brandishing a small flame.             ‘  only travelers who’re hiding in bushes !   it’s a bit of a hobby.  ‘           she cocks her head ,   trying to angle her line of sight to peer through the leaves and see who she’s talking to     –––     but it’s a lost cause ,   and all she sees is the vague shape of a person.            ‘  so ,   to continue the interrogation     –––     or ,   friendly smalltalk ,   as i prefer to call it     –––     a couple questions.   are you sure you don’t know about the gate ?   and also ,   are you okay ?   people don’t usually hide out in the middle of the woods at night ,   y’know.   not that i’m judging ,   you do you ,   but     –––     d’you need help ?  ‘

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me :   making a powerpoint abt cryptids for my writing class aubrey muse :   did someone say ...... my bff mothman

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ooc.   anyways i wanted to answer that ask before i leave but i gtg to work now,  and after work i’m going out w my gf,  so i’ll catch y’all on the flip side !!

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just wondering, why did you decide to make aubrey a lesbian instead of bisexual like the is in canon?

hey there !! when i first made aubrey, i believe it was before travis had said that, and frankly, i’ve kept to my original portrayal of her as a lesbian bc it feels right to me. i’m not gonna say aubrey’s canonically a lesbian, this is obvs just my portrayal, but i 1000% cannot see my version of aubrey little being attracted to dudes. 

also, i think it’s important to keep in mind that travis mce.lroy is a cishet man, and should frankly probably be held to higher standards  —  as a cishet man who is playing a wlw character on a very popular podcast  —  than a 20 year old lesbian running a rp blog for fun. i don’t agree with everything travis has done with aubrey’s character, and given that he’s playing her through his own lens as a cishet man, i think wlw have a right to disagree with things he does and portray characters the way we see them.

( frankly, trav kinda plays every character as a self insert, and aubrey is no exception. of course, i have no issue with people who portray her exactly as travis does  —  but on the flip side, i do try to make her her own fleshed out character rather than her just being half - travis. this goes beyond her sexuality, ofc, but definitely includes it. in general, i think cishet men are pretty bad at seeing any way a woman could not be attracted to men, and i do think travis’ portrayal of aubrey as bi stems from that. i think as writers of aubrey, we’ve got two options : either flesh out her attraction to any gender & elaborate on the attributes travis has given her, or see where things don’t quite fit in travis’ portrayal and choose to change those things. both are valid, but i’ve chosen the latter. )

i’ve put a lot of thought and love into how i play aubrey, and portraying her as a lesbian is important to me. i hope all of this makes sense! have a lovely day!

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   yeet  @  @anabioun

believe it or not ,   searching for monsters in the woods alone isn’t aubrey’s ideal friday night.   the full moon is nearly upon them     –––     and aubrey has never been a fan of the dark ,   so she is half  -  grateful for the moonlight ,   but significantly less thankful for what it represents :   that an abomination has certainly passed through the gate by now ,   &  she and the rest of the pine guard haven’t found a single clue yet !   hence ,   splitting up to search.   hence ,   her plans to lay in bed   &   drink hot cocoa   &   watch the dumbest christmas movie she can find on netflix ,   cancelled.   (  but hey ,   hunting bom - boms is her duty as a member of the pine guard     –––     she isn’t complaining !  )  

flame bounces from fingertip to fingertip ,   more nervous habit than light source ,   as she makes her way down the path.   (  duck would kill her if he knew she had any fire ,   even one as small as this ,   lit in the forest ,   but the fire is barely even a conscious effort at this point.  )   she’s just beginning to contemplate turning back ,   checking in with the rest of the guard to see if they’d found anything     –––     and then she spots  something.   a shape behind the trees.   the bom - bom ?   maybe.   is it just a random teenager who’s wandered into the woods to smoke weed ?   who knows !   she sure doesn’t !

no sudden movements ,   she thinks to herself ,   and then immediately makes a sudden movement ,   stepping forward towards the    (  person ?   creature ?   abomination ?  ) .             ‘  hello ?     ‘         flame grows in her palm ,   a makeshift flashlight     –––     the moonlight’s great and all ,   but for all of aubrey’s talents ,   she can’t yet see in the dark.              ‘  are you ,   uh ,   a person ?   or did ya come through the gate ?   you know which one.   or maybe you don’t !  ‘            shut up ,   aubrey ,   she thinks to herself ,   and pays attention to her thoughts ,   this time.

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ooc.   new psd !!   dabs

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— useknives‌ !

                     “I    am    not    as    FINE    as    I    seem.”            Which,    truly    IS    saying    something,    as    she    already    SEEMS    like    a    fucking     WRECK.             “…Pardon.”

           @flamebrights     pressed the  ❤.

‘   uh ,   are you alright ?   ‘     technically ,   she’d just ANSWERED that question ,   but aubrey’s got about average observational skills and that’s more than enough to detect this particular lie.          ‘   need any HELP ?   ‘

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— theystories‌ !

@flamebrights   /   holiday  shenanigans  !!

            ‘    i was thinking ‘bout getting the ol’ place jollied up for the holidays  !  nothin’ too over the top , just lil’ things to add some — festive PAZAZZ , y’know  ?  like … . a santa hat for the stuffed chupacabra , ‘nd maybe a santa costume for kirby to match the krampus-look billie’s got going . what do you say  , wanna lend a helpin’ hand  ?  ‘

‘   nedwin chicane ,   ‘     and she KNOWS that’s not his name ,   but she has her faux - serious voice on ,   the one she only uses in the direst of circumstances.   for example :   now.   this is the most important question she’s ever been asked in her whole life.      ‘   you know i’d never pass up a chance to hang up some fairy lights.   that’s gonna be part of this ,   right ?   it’s GOTTA be.   best part of the holidays is all the lights !  ‘

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ooc.   btw i’m gonna be redoing my icons soon when i have time     –––     deffo taking that anon from the other day about my psd washing naomi out into account ,   i just haven’t been able to fix it yet.   i’ll probably be able to solve that tomorrow !!

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DAUGHTER’S  ❝ IF YOU LEAVE + EPS ❞  SENTENCE STARTERS

WINTER

“please take me back to when i was yours.”

“i needed - i needed you.”

“now we are strangers.”

“we’re too similars.”

SMOTHER

“i want him but we’re not right.”

“i should go now, quietly.”

“what a mess i leave.”

“i’m sorry if i smothered you.”

YOUTH

“we are the wild youth.”

“you broke my chest.”

“most of us are bitter over someone.”

“i’m forever missing him.”

STILL

“we’re still sleeping like we’re lovers.”

“leaves nowhere to go.”

LIFEFORMS

“they can kill without warning.”

“you always find another place to go.”

“you can try to forget but i won’t let you.”

TOMORROW

“we’ll be nothing but dust.”

“don’t bring tomorrow.”

“i already know i’ll lose you.”

HUMAN

“i’ve tried to escape.”

“despite everything i’m still human.”

“i think i’m dying here.”

TOUCH

“give me touch, because i’ve been missing it.”

“just so i can feel something.”

“just take me back into your house.”

AMSTERDAM

“i’ll escape with him.”

“i’ll go home.”

“i’ve been thinking that i should see someone.”

“i used to dream of adventure.”

“is this called living?”

SHALLOWS

“if you leave when i go, find me.”

“will you run away?”

HOME

“i was drunk again.”

“you’re not a friend - you’re nothing.”

“i think i should be a little more confident.”

“keep the nightmares out.”

“i can’t live without you.”

“take me home.”

MEDICINE

“you’ve got a second chance - you could go home.”

“you could still be what you want to.”

“you’ve got a warm heart.”

LOVE

“i know you regret it.”

“i still wonder why.”

“i can’t erase it from my mind.”

“did she give you what you’d hoped for?”

LANDFILL

“don’t think about the consequences.”

“don’t you dare look back.”

“i want you so much.”

“i hate you.”

“thought you said you didn’t feel pain.”

THE WOODS

“we are what we are.”

“i look out for you.”

CANDLES

“i’ll do whatever you say.”

“we learn from the ones we hate the most.”

“i’ll never be your lover.”

RUN

“i don’t know where he’s going.”

“we’ve got nothing to say.”

“i think we should run.”

“we’ll just keep each other as safe as we can.”

“i don’t want to be alone when i’m in this state.”

SMOKE

“i’m losing my friend.”

“it’s a terrible night.”

“then i’m alone again.”

“we’re dying.”

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    STARTER CALL          /            @mightynope​ !

A LAUGH ,   a breath of relief escapes her as the fight ends     –––     a battle well - won ,   she thinks ,   and she didn’t even catch too many things aflame !   neither did her partner in battle     –––     she turns to the man ,   now ,   an ENIGMA who had appeared in the nick of time.   certainly a welcome surprise.   she’s ,   uh ,   not sure she would’ve won if not for the mysterious stranger     –––     and he’s also got FIRE ,   which is a plus !   aubrey loves meeting others with fire magic  ;  it’s all too rare of an occurrence.           ‘  holy shit ,   that was INCREDIBLE !   you were so cool     –––     or ,   maybe cool isn’t the right word ,   since ,   y’know ,   fire.   ANYWAYS.   i’m aubrey ,   and i’d shake your hand ,   but ,   well     –––   ‘       she holds up a hand ,   shows that hers are still smoking  ;   a downside of genasi magic ,   it takes a moment to cool off ,   and her body glows with unspent flame.